tuesday

Daughter cooked us supper tonight.
She made Italian sausages and green peppers.
It was good................and then I had strawberries microwaved with marshmallows on them......
I shared them with Mr. Bojangles.

I'm off work for the next 3days.
I was thinking about doing fall cleaning. Who knows for sure though.....

After I get off of here I'm going to watch Weeds. It's a Showtime show about a woman who starts selling pot to support her family after the unexpected death of her husband.
I love it........her family is hysterical..................and I find myself getting hooked on "The Big C".........a woman is diagnosed with malignant melanoma.......has about 18 months to live.........the only one she can bring herself to tell about her cancer is her neighbors dog. It's a well written and funny show. If you watch it get a load of her brother. He cracks me up!

monday

Came home tonight from work to a new laptop computer. It was a surprise from boyfriend.
I like it. I like it a lot!

I'm getting up extra early to take boyfriend to the airport.
He's going home to visit the rest of his family.
He misses his adult sons and looks forward to spending time with them............as he should................I'll miss him.........but time away from each other is a good thing.

sunday

It was a pretty day in Kentucky.
I sat on the deck in the sun and worked on a painting, and also did some paintings on rocks.
It was fun and relaxing.

I have a load of laundry to do and then I'm going to bed.

saturday

went shopping and out to dinner with boyfriend. he had steak, I had salmon. it was so so................
 bought a pair of slacks and 2 new shirts. i probably have a few school functions coming up so i wanted to get a couple new fall outfits.
i also bought new pajamas, body wash, conditioner, bubble bath, and new lipstick. :O) i love to shop!

friday

Crazy last 2 hours of work........but now i'm off for 2 days so                           yay!                               Lots of "stuff" going on at work that I'm afraid to talk about on here...........intuition tells me there's more to come. It aint gonna be pretty...that much I CAN say!

I had a dream about an old lover this morning.
I don't really remember much about the dream other than it being about him...........me still feeling a little ache in my heart, and me laughing at something he'd written on an envelope.
I miss talking to him some of the time.
I wonder if he ever thinks of me.

lie

six months ago they called us, the nurses, into the office  to see if they could do anything to help reduce the stress that we feel while at work. One of the things we asked of them was to fix our filing cabinets. The fronts are broken off, the drawers are off track, and the handles are off most the drawers.

they agreed to do the necessary repairs.

we're still waiting. ( not really.)

                  boyfriend gave me a gift today from here.the vintage pearl circle of love bracelet .    he bought for me a necklace with each of the kids names, and a pearl. how sweet is that????

I asked him to get it for me for Christmas. He got it for me for now.  Sweet  :O)

WePing

I love this picture of We-Ping because you can see how blue her eyes are.........she's also cross eyed. The cross eyed Siamese back in the day was the most revered.

My Vet loves her. So does my family!

monday

My friend, Chas, leaves on his trip tomorrow.
We hugged good-bye today......and as he was leaving he tucked my written prayer in his wallet. When he
gets to Jerusalem  he'll put my prayer in a crack in the weeping wall. I don't know if I believe in God, but it gives me comfort knowing my prayer is headed to the wall.

I'm off work for the next 3 days. Yay!
I'm going to pick up my 2 new pair of glasses. Now I can be legal when I'm driving!
I also need to go to the bank and to get a few groceries.

I like to stock up on shampoo, conditioner, and razors.
They're disappearing, as are dinner plates and silverware. WTF!?
I'll figure it out eventually!

Dr. UK hugged me at work the other day.
I hadn't seen him since my leave of absence.
The hug he gave me made me feel good.
He's a good guy.

Happy 18th, Girly

Happy 18th birthday my little social butterfly!

She said that when she entered the school cafeteria this morning, the football team sang "Happy Birthday" to her.

She was tickled pink!

my saturday

Daughter missed her first day of school. She'd been up the night before barfing her guts out. I felt sorry for her.(Mr. BoJangles stuck to her like glue as he does with anyone who is sick or depressed.)
She had to get up though that morning because a handful of kids  showed up for the senior class breakfast. She didn't participate. She watched from a far fearing that if she could see anyone eating she'd get sick. When all the kids left the house, looking all snazzy in their new clothes, and excited about starting their senior year, daughter was feeling a little pessimistic. The new school year wasn't starting the way she had planned.

I reassured her it could only get better from here. (Please let it gt better!)


Daughter was feeling much better today and had her first day back to school. It seemed to go well.

I'm looking forward to it being over with for good.  Really I am! (remind me I said that come this May when I'm crying on Graduation Day.)

I don't know why my words are being highlighted in yellow.

sunday

Mom's home.
I haven't talked to her today because I'm afraid of
calling and waking her.
I'll call her tomorrow. Dad will let me know if they need  me.

Took daughter to get her hair styled today.
She got a long bob, back shorter than the front, and layered, wispy, ends.
It looks cute.

sat.

Mr. Bojangles's new resting/hiding place. He tickles me.

Going to the hospital this morning to see mom.

 Her nurse held her water pill and heart meds yesterday because moms blood pressure was "low." I spent at least an hour on the phone trying to get things straightened out. Her cardiologist does not want her heart meds held no matter what her blood pressure might be.............................and considering she's in heart failure, to hold her Lasix doesn't make sense.......................... unfortunately she went to a hosp. this second time where her cardiologist does not go......it's closer to the house and mom thought it would be easier for dad..............................................The nurse I spoke to was in a bad mood & unwilling to listen. I even think she wanted to fight. I wasn't willing to play her game. I'm tired.

 So I called my older, bitchier, more vocal sister. She too likes to fight. SO

She left work and went to the hospital to talk to moms nurse in person.

 Mom got her medicines.

Today I'm taking daughter school clothes shopping. Her best friend Mariah is going with us...................we'll stop to see mom first and then on our way to the mall we will go.

I'm looking forward to it!

(12 hour later)..............................We did go shopping. First we stopped off at the hospital to see mom. Dad was there too...........we only stayed a little over an hour. Mom was feeling well.......and she looked pretty good.........but she's starting to get a little irritable being stuck in the hospital. Hopefully she'll come home tomorrow.

Me ,daughter, and daughters best friend spent the rest of the day shopping.  She got some cool clothes and shoes......and a couple pieces of jewelry............I got a new pair of shoes and sore feet. I took us all out for dinner............and I realized........it's the last time I'll have to take a child of mine school clothes shopping.

I'll miss it. It was always something I enjoyed. :O) 

We've had 2 scrimmage football games and have won both. So we're off to a great start. The girls are waiting on their new cheer leading uniforms............for now they're wearing their favorite football players practice jersey.

The girl with my daughter in the picture on the right went to day care with my daughter.

They've been friends since they were 3 years old and have been cheering together since they were 5. I love her like a daughter. Time flies by!

My friend Chas is going to Jerusalem and will go to The West Wailing Wall while there.............My mother is an Atheist, my father was raised Catholic and holds on to angry feelings towards the Catholic church because of his upbringing for part of his childhood in a catholic orphanage........I'm not sure what he believes..........and my parents sent us to a Methodist Church as we were growing up................................................do I believe in God? I dunno. Sometime. Sometimes not........

I direct my prayers to a God. I hope there's a God.....................but anyway, my friend Chas is going to put my prayer in the wall for me.......................I asked him to put it in the part of the wall that only men are allowed. Life I think is easier for men. Maybe God will be more willing to hear my prayers if it's in the men only part of the wall. But I just realised that even though it's easier for men, at  least in my opinion, life is better for women. I'll tell him to put my prayer in the wall where women are allowed!

thursday

Mom's back in the hospital.
I left work about an hour early this evening so I could spend
a few hours with her. Today is her birthday so we all came bearing gifts and cake.
 She was showing signs of congestive heart failure that the hosp. nurses hadn't picked up on though I'm sure they would have eventually.
Her doctor was called and tx for her CHF was started..........

I think she had a happy birthday inspite of it all.................................. she was laughing with us, talkative, and smiling....................plus she said "I had a happy birthday." So there you have it!

I had a wonderful supper with middle son last evening celebrating his birthday.
He's a  comic.......cracks me up.....................................

wed. today is wednesday, right?

I have steaks marinating in the frig. for sons birthday supper for this evening...........and rather than make a homemade carrot cake(my sons favorite) boyfriend bought one. It saves me time and a little energy. For that I am grateful!

It's sunny today. I'm thinking about soaking up the rays while I read moms, Joyce Carol Oates book.
Her birthday is tomorrow.....my moms.
I have a 12 and 1/2 hour shift to work so I'll probably see her today.

She asked me to get her a duck for the Rubber Duck Regatta 2010. So I got her a duck.  Actually they give you a number.....so I got this to go with moms number. She can hold him (I sprinkled him with some Irish luck) while she watches the race.
I think she'll win. :O)

tuesday

Some of the time I wish I had an escape hatch that I could pull allowing me to slide out of my job, on my ass, beer in hand. But not until after I announce over the PA system just exactly how I feel!
I mean can you imagine?
It had to feel good for that flight attendant to do what he did.

tuesday

The house is quiet.
Emily and her best friend are upstairs still in bed.
Boyfriend is here and in bed.
Mr. Joplin is sitting by me.
 His eyes are closed but he's awake. I can tell by the tail action.

I have an eye appointment today.
Sears is having a sale on glasses. 2 pair for 99 bucks.
I wear them when I drive(it's a restriction on my license), to watch TV, or if I go to the movies.
My present pair is missing an arm and the other arm and frame are bent. I practically have to balance them on my face while driving. It's time for a new pair.

Moms counts are stable so she's back at home.
I'll stop in to see her today.

Middle sons birthday was the 6th.
He took off to Virginia Beach on a whim (i;m so glad he went. it had to be a blast.....especially since it wasn't something planned.....and having fun is what young guys in college should be doing when they have the opportunity.))so we haven't celebrated yet.........he's back now and we plan on having a dinner together
tomorrow evening.

I haven't had much time to check out Barber schools.
The closest one I can find is in Louisville. That's about an hour and a half from where
I live. There has to be one closer. Maybe today I'll call a couple local Barbers and see if they can give me some info.

it's time for me to go to bed

I'm thinking about tearing my kitchen down to the bones and then re-doing it by myself. Of course I'm also thinking about putting in a lap pool and that's very unlikely to happen..........

my sunday

Left the house this morning as the girls were leaving for cheerleaDING camp, and daughter leaving for physical therapy and then to join her friends at camp.
Boyfriend and I went out for breakfast and then to the hospital for a few hours. Mom was being transfused again............her scope postponed until tomorrow.
She seems to be in good spirit considering.............................dad and one of my older sistes were there too...........and I'm sure the other sisters of mine visited throughout the later day.

When I came home from the hosp. I felt exhausted. (I seem to use the word exhausted a lot )...........I took a long nap........slept like a baby.......cooked a light supper, did a load of laundry........and now I'm getting ready to go to bed for the night. Finishing up watching House Hunters. They're in the Florida Keys..............................I wish I could afford a vacation home..........I'd be happy in a 1 room hut in the Florida Keys. I love it there....................

her 18th year

It's been a crazy, long day. We got up early to go to daughters ortho. appointment. The doctor said she's to continue therapy  for another 4 weeks but can get back to doing what she can tolerate as far as cheerleading goes............................after her doctor appointment we went to see my mom................her counts went up after she was transfused but they are back down and she will require additional blood...........she'll be scoped tomorrow...........hopefully they'll find the source of the bleeding...........she's been in my thoughts all afternoon and evening.

Daughters birthday party turned out great. All the girls are still upstairs in her bedroom. They'll spend the night and then go together in the morning to cheerleading camp.
Daughters cake turned out ok. I put candy and a little bit of bling on it. It had another layer but that layer fell off in four pieces! I think it fell apart because of the above 100 degree temperatures!

Early on ...........coach spends time with the girls!They grilled.........played corn hole............we had a fire works show............................................very loud music and dancing...................................a bon fire......................and good clean fun!

Happy 18th, Sis. I love you!

wed

Mom's back in the hospital since Monday.
They were hoping to not have to transfuse her but her
counts dropped pretty low today.
She should just now be finishing her second unit of packed red blood cells.............
I spent the morning and several hours this afternoon with her.
My dad is there and my sisters all come and go between work, and family..............................................Mom's reading  Joyce Carol Oates book, "My Sister My Love"..........she's mom's favorite writer, I think...................Her favorite book is "The Bell Jar".................I read and hated it..................wanted so badly to love the book that my mom loved....................................................................I read a couple chapters though of this present book and I'm hooked. I can't wait to read the whole thing.....................

Mom's scared. That's what breaks my heart.

I want to wrap her up in my arms and make her feel unafraid. I promised her this time that she will be ok. Because I know that she will be.

I get some comfort in knowing that between me, my sisters, and my dad,
one of us is almost always at the hospital with her................

Work isn't going so well. I think my D.O.N. is planning on letting me go. Intuition.
I don't want to sound like it doesn't matter to me, it does. But I'm at a loss as to what I can do. So I just do my job and let the chips fall where they may.........

Worked 13 hours Monday and Tuesday......and then went to the hospital......and last night I had to do some last minute shopping at Kroger for daughters party for tomorrow. I still had to get her a birthday card...........she will be 18. While looking at cards I burst in to tears (here I go again)...........a combination of exhaustion, stress, and my "baby" being all grown up.............boyfriend pulled me in to his arms and there I  stood and sobbed.
I felt a lot better after my cry. I was spent though.
We went home and I went to bed.
I was good to go this morning................felt great.
Now I'm baking  cakes for daughters birthday party.
Crossing my fingers that the finished product looks pretty.