Saturday, October 30, 2010
beautiful roses
Came home from work this evening and was surprised when I saw 2 dozen roses in a beautiful vase on my dresser........a gift from boyfriend..........and a very sweet card...........just because. :O)
Thursday, October 28, 2010
finished......finally!
I also managed to mop all my floors, clean all the mirrors, scour the sinks, dust the furniture and vacuum. I'm taking tomorrow morning and afternoon off. :O)
thursday
I just cleaned up the kitchen and put a pot roast with onions, green peppers, and red potatoes in the crock pot. It will make the house smell so good.
Yesterday I left the house around 9 a.m. to run to the bank, and to buy some stamps. I met boyfriend at the high school and we went to the WalMart and then to the mall. Daughter asked for some Ed Hardy perfume for Christmas and a Ed Hardy back pack style purse. I searched online for the back pack but couldn't fine one anywhere. So I went ahead and bought the perfume set and with my purchase I got a free gift. Guess what it was? That's right. I got the backpack purse free. Yay!
I also bought most of what I wanted to get for sons for Christmas. So I put a good dent in my Christmas shopping.
I think son closes on his condo tomorrow. I'm not for sure cause neither is he. But yesterday I bought for each of their bathrooms all the personal hygiene products they'll need for a month. And I also got for them all the house cleaning products they'll need for awhile. So that's what I'll give them for a house warming gift along with the Halloween/Scary basket that I won from the work raffle.
Oldest son lived on his own for a couple of years before moving back home for a minute. So they have all the furniture, and appliances etc. that they need.
I still haven't finished the Senior Night collage. I'll get that done today.
I've been missing my mom a lot lately. Flashes of myself as a little girl kept coming to me. Me standing in the kitchen, the counter top at about eye level....I was all snotty and congested..feeling sick......I woke mom....she took me by the hand in her bedroom and walked me to the kitchen ...my mom was in the medicine cabinet in the kitchen getting out the Vick's Vapor rub then rubbed it on my chest, and spoke soothing words to me....................and I was thinking about her tucking me in, again for the night on the living room couch, making me feel cared for and loved.. It is a very vivid memory, and it made me miss her.............so boyfriend and I went to mom and dads house last evening. We just chit chatted awhile. But it was nice.......and I got to hug my mom and tell her I love her......and 1 more thing. I just remembered. Me and 2 of my sisters, because we were younger than our 2 older sisters.....so it was kind of like 2 different sets of children.................but I remember us 3 pretending to be asleep in the living room some of the time around bedtime so that dad would carry us up the stairs to our bedroom............he'd go along with our game and say to mom "well mom, I guess the girls are sleeping and I'll have to carry them upstairs." He'd pick up each of us. Two of us over one shoulder, one over the other, and up the stairs we'd go.......giggling. He'd act shocked that we were really awake, and like he'd been tricked...............made us giggle even more. Thanks mom and dad. :O)
Yesterday I left the house around 9 a.m. to run to the bank, and to buy some stamps. I met boyfriend at the high school and we went to the WalMart and then to the mall. Daughter asked for some Ed Hardy perfume for Christmas and a Ed Hardy back pack style purse. I searched online for the back pack but couldn't fine one anywhere. So I went ahead and bought the perfume set and with my purchase I got a free gift. Guess what it was? That's right. I got the backpack purse free. Yay!
I also bought most of what I wanted to get for sons for Christmas. So I put a good dent in my Christmas shopping.
I think son closes on his condo tomorrow. I'm not for sure cause neither is he. But yesterday I bought for each of their bathrooms all the personal hygiene products they'll need for a month. And I also got for them all the house cleaning products they'll need for awhile. So that's what I'll give them for a house warming gift along with the Halloween/Scary basket that I won from the work raffle.
Oldest son lived on his own for a couple of years before moving back home for a minute. So they have all the furniture, and appliances etc. that they need.
I still haven't finished the Senior Night collage. I'll get that done today.
I've been missing my mom a lot lately. Flashes of myself as a little girl kept coming to me. Me standing in the kitchen, the counter top at about eye level....I was all snotty and congested..feeling sick......I woke mom....she took me by the hand in her bedroom and walked me to the kitchen ...my mom was in the medicine cabinet in the kitchen getting out the Vick's Vapor rub then rubbed it on my chest, and spoke soothing words to me....................and I was thinking about her tucking me in, again for the night on the living room couch, making me feel cared for and loved.. It is a very vivid memory, and it made me miss her.............so boyfriend and I went to mom and dads house last evening. We just chit chatted awhile. But it was nice.......and I got to hug my mom and tell her I love her......and 1 more thing. I just remembered. Me and 2 of my sisters, because we were younger than our 2 older sisters.....so it was kind of like 2 different sets of children.................but I remember us 3 pretending to be asleep in the living room some of the time around bedtime so that dad would carry us up the stairs to our bedroom............he'd go along with our game and say to mom "well mom, I guess the girls are sleeping and I'll have to carry them upstairs." He'd pick up each of us. Two of us over one shoulder, one over the other, and up the stairs we'd go.......giggling. He'd act shocked that we were really awake, and like he'd been tricked...............made us giggle even more. Thanks mom and dad. :O)
Monday, October 25, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
sunday
We're going to rake leaves today.
I think they look pretty on the ground while they're still colorful, but boyfriend thinks they need to be cleaned up.
It's beautiful outside so it should feel great being out there..............I had 2 very large trees removed last year, and right now I'm glad............usually this time of year my deck would literally be buried. Not so this year.
I started Christmas shopping last night online.......I like looking at everything before I buy......so I really didn't shop....I just looked at lots of stuff, and compared prices. It will make shopping easier.
I need to do a little cleaning, today but more important I need to work on daughters Senior Night collage. Senior night is this Friday. It's a very important night for daughter. (By the way, go to you tube and see the video "Boys of Fall" It will make you cry. It did me anyway.) I want the collage to be really special. I was thinking of incorporating the words from Carole Kings "Child of Mine" into the collage. Not sure. I already have the display board painted a metallic silver. It looks pretty good. All that's left to do is to sift through about a million pictures and choose the ones I'll use. It's times like this that I wish I was more organized.
I think they look pretty on the ground while they're still colorful, but boyfriend thinks they need to be cleaned up.
It's beautiful outside so it should feel great being out there..............I had 2 very large trees removed last year, and right now I'm glad............usually this time of year my deck would literally be buried. Not so this year.
I started Christmas shopping last night online.......I like looking at everything before I buy......so I really didn't shop....I just looked at lots of stuff, and compared prices. It will make shopping easier.
I need to do a little cleaning, today but more important I need to work on daughters Senior Night collage. Senior night is this Friday. It's a very important night for daughter. (By the way, go to you tube and see the video "Boys of Fall" It will make you cry. It did me anyway.) I want the collage to be really special. I was thinking of incorporating the words from Carole Kings "Child of Mine" into the collage. Not sure. I already have the display board painted a metallic silver. It looks pretty good. All that's left to do is to sift through about a million pictures and choose the ones I'll use. It's times like this that I wish I was more organized.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
slacker
I'm not leaving the couch today.
I have cramps.
Daughter went to the store for me for Tylenol.
She brought me back some munchies.
So I have munchies, Tylenol, the t.v, my computer, and a book.
It's going to be a good day on the couch doing much of nothing.
One of my sisters called me. She filled me in on the drama that's happening
as a result of 2 of my other sisters using drugs. I listened and then told her I don't want to be involved in even hearing about any of it. My daughter and boyfriend know what's going on and they also know that if either of drug using sisters call me, I'm " in the shower."
I can't be and don't want to be a part of their life as long as they are using. So that's that.
I have cramps.
Daughter went to the store for me for Tylenol.
She brought me back some munchies.
So I have munchies, Tylenol, the t.v, my computer, and a book.
It's going to be a good day on the couch doing much of nothing.
One of my sisters called me. She filled me in on the drama that's happening
as a result of 2 of my other sisters using drugs. I listened and then told her I don't want to be involved in even hearing about any of it. My daughter and boyfriend know what's going on and they also know that if either of drug using sisters call me, I'm " in the shower."
I can't be and don't want to be a part of their life as long as they are using. So that's that.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Friday
Todays work day felt like a week instead of a day.
But my work friend, Chas and I managed to squeeze in lots of laughs.
One of the other nurses who is usually a little withdrawn came out of her shell and laughed along with us. It was fun to see her that way.
Daughters at a football game and then going to the movies........so boyfriend and I went out for a late supper.........it was a nice time.............................I'm wiped out though, so I'm going to the couch to read or watch t.v.
But my work friend, Chas and I managed to squeeze in lots of laughs.
One of the other nurses who is usually a little withdrawn came out of her shell and laughed along with us. It was fun to see her that way.
Daughters at a football game and then going to the movies........so boyfriend and I went out for a late supper.........it was a nice time.............................I'm wiped out though, so I'm going to the couch to read or watch t.v.
Thursday, October 21, 2010
thursday
Our census at work is down......so today our hours were cut. We'll lose 4 hours a pay period. The alternative was to let a nurse or two go/lay them off. When the census goes back up so will our hours of work.
I'm not thrilled about it. I'll live with it though and just tighten the purse strings.
It was one of those days at work where all I wanted to do was go home to kiss Mr. Bojangles, and listen to my daughter talk about her day as I watch her facial expressions and body language. She makes me smile.
So when I finally got home that's exactly what I did.
Daughter sat on my dresser and talked about one of her friendships, her math teacher, her school credits and grades. She moved her lower legs back and forth, and ran her fingers through her hair as she talked. Every once in awhile she'd crack a knuckle.
Mr. Bojangles rolled on his back in the driveway waiting for me to pet him after I got out of the car when I arrived hoome from work.. My hands were full so I told him to follow me.......when we got in the door I dropped my stuff on the table, then picked him up and kissed him. He purred.
I'm lucky &
I'm content.
I'm not thrilled about it. I'll live with it though and just tighten the purse strings.
It was one of those days at work where all I wanted to do was go home to kiss Mr. Bojangles, and listen to my daughter talk about her day as I watch her facial expressions and body language. She makes me smile.
So when I finally got home that's exactly what I did.
Daughter sat on my dresser and talked about one of her friendships, her math teacher, her school credits and grades. She moved her lower legs back and forth, and ran her fingers through her hair as she talked. Every once in awhile she'd crack a knuckle.
Mr. Bojangles rolled on his back in the driveway waiting for me to pet him after I got out of the car when I arrived hoome from work.. My hands were full so I told him to follow me.......when we got in the door I dropped my stuff on the table, then picked him up and kissed him. He purred.
I'm lucky &
I'm content.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
abusing drugs
so 2 of my sisters are using again.
they've had 18-24 years of clean living.
i noticed a couple years ago a slow spiral downward for one of them, and more recently a downward spiral for the other.
it's quite sad really.
i honestly believe they will die. drug addicts lie, cheat, steal, get better, or die.
when i was younger, still a teen and young woman.. much of my free time was spent with my oldest nephew. he was the love of my life. his parents were both active addicts, so i wanted to be there for him............i wanted to keep him safe. he spent nights with me some of the time while i still lived at my parents house. i took him swimming, to the movies.......anywhere and everywhere. i spent as much time with him as i could. i didn't want him around the lifestyle his parents were living. i wanted him to have someone he could count on.....
luckily his parents got the help they needed and for most of nephews life, they lived clean productive lives and provided a good home for him. a great home actually...
I feel sorrow. i feel sad for him. he's grown now so i dont feel like i have to protect him. i just wish it could be different for him.
i also worry about my parents.
i'm sure they thought all those bad times were over with.............they could sleep without worrying about getting "that phone call."
i don't even know if they know what's going on..........though i'm sure they have their suspicions. all you have to do is look at either of my sisters and you can see the affects...........they both look like old women.......old, underweight, tired women. a year ago they were attractive, middle aged women. unbelievable.
i can't protect my parents or my nephew from our new reality.
i can't make it go away.
i love my sisters. they're good people with a serious problem.
i don't know if i believe in God.
i believe in praying though.
it's all i have. it's all i know to do.
they've had 18-24 years of clean living.
i noticed a couple years ago a slow spiral downward for one of them, and more recently a downward spiral for the other.
it's quite sad really.
i honestly believe they will die. drug addicts lie, cheat, steal, get better, or die.
when i was younger, still a teen and young woman.. much of my free time was spent with my oldest nephew. he was the love of my life. his parents were both active addicts, so i wanted to be there for him............i wanted to keep him safe. he spent nights with me some of the time while i still lived at my parents house. i took him swimming, to the movies.......anywhere and everywhere. i spent as much time with him as i could. i didn't want him around the lifestyle his parents were living. i wanted him to have someone he could count on.....
luckily his parents got the help they needed and for most of nephews life, they lived clean productive lives and provided a good home for him. a great home actually...
I feel sorrow. i feel sad for him. he's grown now so i dont feel like i have to protect him. i just wish it could be different for him.
i also worry about my parents.
i'm sure they thought all those bad times were over with.............they could sleep without worrying about getting "that phone call."
i don't even know if they know what's going on..........though i'm sure they have their suspicions. all you have to do is look at either of my sisters and you can see the affects...........they both look like old women.......old, underweight, tired women. a year ago they were attractive, middle aged women. unbelievable.
i can't protect my parents or my nephew from our new reality.
i can't make it go away.
i love my sisters. they're good people with a serious problem.
i don't know if i believe in God.
i believe in praying though.
it's all i have. it's all i know to do.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Monday, October 18, 2010
off day
things that irritate me....
grown women who call their dad "daddy".......i think it's weird.
when people call a sink, the "zinc." i don't understand it.
just saying....
today is my off day.
i napped.
it was great.
i also made garlic chicken and steamed vegetables for supper.
i didn't have lunch or breakfast.....so it was an early supper.
it was delicious.
boyfriend patched a crack in my kitchen ceiling. tomorrow we need to paint the ceiling.
it's looking more and more like my house isn't going to sell. if it doesn't sell, i'm gutting my kitchen......and either getting new carpeting, or restoring the beautiful woods floors under the carpeting.
daughter works at the pre-school in one of our schools grade schools. she gets school credit for it.
when she got to work today the pre school teachers had the door decorated in honor of her being voted Homecoming Queen. Sweet. :O)
grown women who call their dad "daddy".......i think it's weird.
when people call a sink, the "zinc." i don't understand it.
just saying....
today is my off day.
i napped.
it was great.
i also made garlic chicken and steamed vegetables for supper.
i didn't have lunch or breakfast.....so it was an early supper.
it was delicious.
boyfriend patched a crack in my kitchen ceiling. tomorrow we need to paint the ceiling.
it's looking more and more like my house isn't going to sell. if it doesn't sell, i'm gutting my kitchen......and either getting new carpeting, or restoring the beautiful woods floors under the carpeting.
daughter works at the pre-school in one of our schools grade schools. she gets school credit for it.
when she got to work today the pre school teachers had the door decorated in honor of her being voted Homecoming Queen. Sweet. :O)
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Homecoming Dance
So the kids, many of them came to our house for pre Homecoming picture taking. First picture is daughter and her date.
Daughter and her escort being introduced. When they were introduced the football team chanted "Water bug, Water bug, Water bug. Yeah!" (Water bug is her nickname) It was awesome. ( Parents of court members were invited to come at 10p.m. for the crowning. Of course I came.)
They announced 2nd runner up, representing band, .........then first runner up representing NAACP, Mariah (daughters very best friend)........"and your 2010 Homecoming Queen IS, representing The Cheerleading squad......(daughters name!)
Daughter being hugged. I was jumping up and down a little :O) and clapping......... daughter looked at me with tears in her eyes and mouthed the words "don't cry...I mouthed the word "okay".... I cried anyway.....then she did too.....:O)
P.S. The truck delivering the decorations and the crowns for the Homecoming hasn't shown up yet, and the DJ was late..............................but the school still managed to pull it off. When I came in at 10 p.m. the kids seemed to be having a blast!
Saturday, October 16, 2010
Homecoming Day Parade and football game.
Daughter and " other best friend." Daughters "other best friend" wasn't nominated for queen initially........but she ended up taking" Principals Choice" spot after it became available.
I just like this picture. Pulls at my heartstrings for whatever reason. #2 is daughters Homecoming date.
So last night was the Homecoming game. It was also where the parents walked the Homecoming Queen attendants out on the football field to be introduced. First we participated in The Homecoming Game Parade.
We took the roof and windows out of my oldest sons Jeep, decorated it with posters.......and a half dozen balloons. It looked pretty cool.
The Cheerleaders walked behind our vehicle because thats who daughter was nominated by, though she was also principals choice. She dislikes the principal so she went with the Cheerleaders nomination. :O)
The whole night was a total blast though I can't adequately express it on here.............I've never hugged so many kids, or have been told "I love you, Ms. G. by so many people in a day.
The girl who dresses as the Mascot.......and I'm not sure if she's learning disabled or neglected in some way.....or if anything.......but to me she's precious.......last week I told daughter to please tell "precious" that I think she's the ebst Mascot we've ever had...........so lastnight at the Homecoming game I was stalked by our Mascot. Mascot stood in my direct vision the whole game..........until....she undressed the last quarter and came to sit by me. She hugged me and told me she loved me.........and she meant it..........it was soooo sweet, and made her even more endearing to me...........................
So we won the game 45-0......or close to that.............AND THEN.......our squad was taped by The Ellen Degeneress Show doing "The Ellen Dance." Each of them holding a Ellen picture mask in front of their faces.......the girls had a blast.............the school will be notified by mail when it will air.......( I won't tell you how when some guy walked by me at the game who was wearing a dinosaur necklace about the size of a medium handbag filled with diamond like stones......and he was dressed "cool" for lack of a better word.....and I knew I liked his personality just by the way he looked and carried his self......so when he walked by me I said to him "I really like your necklace" and he said to me "thank you, and will you come join us after the game to do the Ellen dance........he even came to get me whe they were getting ready to start taping........so I went on the track with the squad, then felt silly and backed out. He pulled me back in.......so I snuck out again, successfully. lol. He was a nice guy. I just know these things)
The whole night was fun..................the school did a great job at preparing for the night.........exhubby was nice.......and when we are brought together by these types of events.....I'm almost always reminded that he's a good person despite his flaws..........(as we all have)............but he always seems a little sad too me.....unless I'm just projecting....I probably am.........he was gracious though.....and I'm greatful for that...... he brought our daughter a bouquet of flowers.......made her smile.She loves him, but she wanted my boyfriend to accompany me and her father in walking her across the field. He's been more a part of her life over the past 5 years. Boyfriend was in the stands cheering for her but thought it best for me and ex to walk with her.
It stung her feelings a bit........but she was fine.........
Anyway, at the risk of sound repetative........it was a wonderful night. Wouldn't have changed a thing!
Thursday, October 14, 2010
thankful thursday
today i'm thankful for my very clean, ready to show at a moments notice, house, full pantry, bills paid, and a little money put away.
i'm thankful that Mr. Bojangles lies next to me as i sit in my bed typing this post, and every once in awhile he'll rub his head against my arm.
i'm thankful for my kids.
and i'm thankful for this beautiful fall weather.
and last but not least I'm thankful for people like Odie who make me smile and make me want to be a better, kinder person.
i'm thankful that Mr. Bojangles lies next to me as i sit in my bed typing this post, and every once in awhile he'll rub his head against my arm.
i'm thankful for my kids.
and i'm thankful for this beautiful fall weather.
and last but not least I'm thankful for people like Odie who make me smile and make me want to be a better, kinder person.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Homecoming Candidate gift for daughter.
I bought this necklace for daughter. I had her name engraved on the front.........and( xox Mom) on the back. I placed it in the box below......and engraved on the lid of the box "Homecoming Court 2010"............daughter cried when she opened it. So then I cried too. :O) Can't help it...........
It really did turn out quite pretty.
I finished the posters that will hang on the car for the Homecoming Parade. They turned out pretty good.......and I called off the open house for Saturday.
Things have calmed down a little. So YAY!
my off day
I woke this morning to Mr. Bojangles and We-Ping fighting with each other. I'm glad I did though cause daughter was just walking out the front door for school. I still like giving her a kiss good-bye when I can. So I jumped up to tell her good-bye and to watch her to the car.
I was told yesterday I had to work Christmas, or find my own replacement.
So I found my replacement. I left the paper work for her (my replacement) at the nurses station. She'll sign off on it today................and I will work for her on New Years Eve. So Yay! I made a decision a long time ago after many years of working on Christmas that I wouldn't do it anymore. I want that day with my family....... hopefully replacement girl doesn't change her mind.
I buried a picture of Saint Christopher in my back yard.( you're really supposed to bury a statue but I didn't want to spend the money so I drew a picture of him.) I heard if I did that I'd sell my house. Then I read that it's supposed to be Saint Joseph that will help you sell your house. So I'll dig up Saint Christopher and bury Saint Joseph.It can't hurt.
But what i truly believe is that things happen for a reason. And those reasons may not be any of our business right now. If it's meant to be, it will be.
I"m sneaking a smoke now and then. Have been doing it for about 2 weeks. Daughter "caught" me. "you've got to be freakin kidding me!" was her response. Then she stormed off and I think I heard her cursing under her breath.
I felt ashamed and very sorry for having let her down........and pissed off at myself for allowing myself that first slip.
I was told yesterday I had to work Christmas, or find my own replacement.
So I found my replacement. I left the paper work for her (my replacement) at the nurses station. She'll sign off on it today................and I will work for her on New Years Eve. So Yay! I made a decision a long time ago after many years of working on Christmas that I wouldn't do it anymore. I want that day with my family....... hopefully replacement girl doesn't change her mind.
I buried a picture of Saint Christopher in my back yard.( you're really supposed to bury a statue but I didn't want to spend the money so I drew a picture of him.) I heard if I did that I'd sell my house. Then I read that it's supposed to be Saint Joseph that will help you sell your house. So I'll dig up Saint Christopher and bury Saint Joseph.It can't hurt.
But what i truly believe is that things happen for a reason. And those reasons may not be any of our business right now. If it's meant to be, it will be.
I"m sneaking a smoke now and then. Have been doing it for about 2 weeks. Daughter "caught" me. "you've got to be freakin kidding me!" was her response. Then she stormed off and I think I heard her cursing under her breath.
I felt ashamed and very sorry for having let her down........and pissed off at myself for allowing myself that first slip.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
tuesday
Nothing new I care to write about.
The next 3 days are my off days.
I'm going to work on the signs for the Homecoming parade, and clean the house.
I didnt say ok to an open house, but they showed up today and put a open house sign up......I think I told them yes, called them back and told them I had to rethink it..........I didn't call them back.......is that a yes?..........either way I guess I need to call them and tell them it just can't be done........I might have a half dozen girls here that day getting ready for the dance..............................
I'm tired......I'm going cacoon on the couch with Mr. Bojangles and watch The Big C and Weeds.
The next 3 days are my off days.
I'm going to work on the signs for the Homecoming parade, and clean the house.
I didnt say ok to an open house, but they showed up today and put a open house sign up......I think I told them yes, called them back and told them I had to rethink it..........I didn't call them back.......is that a yes?..........either way I guess I need to call them and tell them it just can't be done........I might have a half dozen girls here that day getting ready for the dance..............................
I'm tired......I'm going cacoon on the couch with Mr. Bojangles and watch The Big C and Weeds.
Monday, October 11, 2010
homecoming queen or drama queen
So the latest drama in daughters life is what dress to wear in the Homecoming parade to the football field where the attendants will be introduced. She has a perfectly new dress that i bought her to wear for her class pictures. "When I ptl it on and pull up the skirt of the dress I look like a tramp.....when I pull it down I look like a grandma!"
Between cheer leading practices, her job, school, my 12 hour shifts, house showings, nail appointments for the dance etc...there's no time for us to shop for a dress..........so after work tonight on my way home I stopped on a whim at a Fashion Bug that I drive right by on my ride home. I was hoping against hope that I'd find something she'd like...............not to mention it would have to fit just right and she wouldn't be there to try it on.......the store closed at 8........I entered at 8 minutes till........ran to the dresses......found 2 right away that I thought would be perfect......took them to the register......a cute young blond well dressed was working........I held both dresses up and said "Homecoming attendant.......which dress!?" She agreed with what was my first choice. I bought it......took it home.....told daughter to undress and put on your black heels then close your eyes.....Don't look at the dress or you will prejudge it." So she did as I said....I slipped the dress over her head........and it was perfect. Problem solved! I felt great.......daughter was relieved.
I'll make signs for the car this Wednesday........................and pick up a birthday present for her best friend for Friday morning. Two other stressers taken care off of her plate..........now maybe she'll relax and enjoy what should be a very exciting time.
Between cheer leading practices, her job, school, my 12 hour shifts, house showings, nail appointments for the dance etc...there's no time for us to shop for a dress..........so after work tonight on my way home I stopped on a whim at a Fashion Bug that I drive right by on my ride home. I was hoping against hope that I'd find something she'd like...............not to mention it would have to fit just right and she wouldn't be there to try it on.......the store closed at 8........I entered at 8 minutes till........ran to the dresses......found 2 right away that I thought would be perfect......took them to the register......a cute young blond well dressed was working........I held both dresses up and said "Homecoming attendant.......which dress!?" She agreed with what was my first choice. I bought it......took it home.....told daughter to undress and put on your black heels then close your eyes.....Don't look at the dress or you will prejudge it." So she did as I said....I slipped the dress over her head........and it was perfect. Problem solved! I felt great.......daughter was relieved.
I'll make signs for the car this Wednesday........................and pick up a birthday present for her best friend for Friday morning. Two other stressers taken care off of her plate..........now maybe she'll relax and enjoy what should be a very exciting time.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
living honest
Boyfriend, daughter, me and my parents went out for a late lunch/early supper.
It was a place on the river with an outside deck and ceiling fans...............we ate outside on the deck over looking the river........................and listened to some guy sing, play guitar, and the harmonica. I love the harmonica...........................he was good. Dad as usual had a list of jokes to tell. Boyfriend was cracking up laughing at dads jokes........so was I really......cause he is funny and some of the time I think he missed his calling as a stand up comedian. Mom laughs at him and rolls her eyes all at the same time...........mom looks beautiful and healthy. I hope she does okay for awhile...........................Dad doesn't like that daughter is going to the homecoming with an African American. The same guy she went with to the prom. I'm proud of daughter for having a mind of he r own and doing what SHE WANTS. You can't live your life trying to do the things that please everyone else. Well I guess you can.........but at some point you have to do those things that make you happy or you're just living a lie............who wants to live a great big old lie?
I don't want my children feeling like they have to live one.
It was a place on the river with an outside deck and ceiling fans...............we ate outside on the deck over looking the river........................and listened to some guy sing, play guitar, and the harmonica. I love the harmonica...........................he was good. Dad as usual had a list of jokes to tell. Boyfriend was cracking up laughing at dads jokes........so was I really......cause he is funny and some of the time I think he missed his calling as a stand up comedian. Mom laughs at him and rolls her eyes all at the same time...........mom looks beautiful and healthy. I hope she does okay for awhile...........................Dad doesn't like that daughter is going to the homecoming with an African American. The same guy she went with to the prom. I'm proud of daughter for having a mind of he r own and doing what SHE WANTS. You can't live your life trying to do the things that please everyone else. Well I guess you can.........but at some point you have to do those things that make you happy or you're just living a lie............who wants to live a great big old lie?
I don't want my children feeling like they have to live one.
my before i die list
I was watching this show on MTV about a group of young men who do the things on their "bucket" list. It's a fun show........they're creative in how they accomplish their dreams...... and lucky for them they have a television station paying their way to their dreams....................anyway, it got me to thinking.....what is it that I dream of doing..........life presents me with more time now that my children are raised, at least for the most part...........tomorrow isn't promised to us........I don't want to waste time................what do I want to do? The answer doesn't come easily............other people can spew a list with hardly any thought.........I wish I could too..............I know those dreams are in my head........I just haven't given them much thought........so it's what I'll start doing.......and when I think of something I want to do before I die (hopefully) I'll add it to an ongoing list.
Saturday, October 09, 2010
this n that again
I won a raffle at work yesterday.
It was a big to do to raise money for the activities department.
They raffled off a bunch of donated gift baskets.
I had my eye on "The Scary Basket"..........it was filled with half a dozen horror flicks,
theatre popcorn, and candy........and it's the one I won.
My work friend Chas won the Starbucks Coffee basket. It was his second choice.....he had his eye on the autographed picture of the Bengals coach..........but was happy with the Starbucks.
I'm going to give "The Scary" basket to my sons when they move into their new place. I think they'll like it.
It was a fun day at work yesterday. Chas and I were both slap happy silly........we goofed and laughed a lot.
He reminds me of my friend that passed away awhile back......... it makes my heart ache a little for my old friend......"oh stop it!" is what he would say.......
Random stuff:
I think children from kindergarten on should have their own alarm clock....and should use it......I don't remember ever having to wake my children for school.....they'd get up to their alarm.....never had to "push" them out of the bed in the morning. But I always gave them a morning hug/kiss, and breakfast.........but never any wars about getting out of bed.
I think that by the time a child is in the sixth grade he/she should be reading the newspaper daily.
Children need routine...&.....consistency............... meals at the table with mom and dad........hugs, patience.. play time outside.......parental involvement and love.............and a pet if possible................
My oldest son watched Pinocchio over and over again when he was a child.......he was facinated by that show.....daughter did the same with Jurrasic Park........I can't remember what show middle son watched over and over when he was a child if any.........but I remember when he was a little older he loved Slingblade.....every once in awhile, still, he'll playfully and in a funny muffled/accented like speech say something like "will you make me some biscuits and mustard?"
Once when the boys were in middle school I took daughter with me to the grocery. I left the boys at home. I forgot to tell them a roofer was stopping by to have a look at the roof. The boys were in their bedroom when they saw a man climb up a ladder past their second floor bedroom window. They called 911. The police held the guy in my yard until I got home to verify his story. Oops!
Another time I called 911 because while going down the basement steps I thought I saw the figure of a man in a dark corner in my basement. It was the Christmas tree with a baseball hat on the top of it.
When I first divorced and the kids would spend the night, or several nights at their dads house I was afraid some of the time to be here alone at night. So I had this reAlly big stuffed bear. I'd sit him in a kitchen chair at the kitchen table..throw a flannel shirt over his back...even put a baseball hat on the top of his head........and I had a little 4 inch t.v. that I'd sit on the table in front of the bear, turned on....and then I'd crack the kitchen curtain just enough so that if anyone looked in it would hopefully look like a really big guy was awake in the kitchen watching t.v. Silly I know but I slept a little easier............When we rented a place early on, a man came in our house, through a window as my husband and the 2 boys slept. I saw him looking in the window at me as I pretended to sleep on the couch. I'd jnust given middle son who was a newborn a bottle. After he looked in the window, while I lay frozen in fear and hadn't yet taken action, he went around to a back window and came in our home. I finally made the decision to fight, woke husband, loaded a gun that we had at the time, and called 911. When husband pointed the gun at the guy, guy ran and jumped head first out the kitchen window......so we had a good ending in that no one was physically hurt....... But I was a little paranoid when at first I was on my own................and that's all. I'll stop rambling now.....
It was a big to do to raise money for the activities department.
They raffled off a bunch of donated gift baskets.
I had my eye on "The Scary Basket"..........it was filled with half a dozen horror flicks,
theatre popcorn, and candy........and it's the one I won.
My work friend Chas won the Starbucks Coffee basket. It was his second choice.....he had his eye on the autographed picture of the Bengals coach..........but was happy with the Starbucks.
I'm going to give "The Scary" basket to my sons when they move into their new place. I think they'll like it.
It was a fun day at work yesterday. Chas and I were both slap happy silly........we goofed and laughed a lot.
He reminds me of my friend that passed away awhile back......... it makes my heart ache a little for my old friend......"oh stop it!" is what he would say.......
Random stuff:
I think children from kindergarten on should have their own alarm clock....and should use it......I don't remember ever having to wake my children for school.....they'd get up to their alarm.....never had to "push" them out of the bed in the morning. But I always gave them a morning hug/kiss, and breakfast.........but never any wars about getting out of bed.
I think that by the time a child is in the sixth grade he/she should be reading the newspaper daily.
Children need routine...&.....consistency............... meals at the table with mom and dad........hugs, patience.. play time outside.......parental involvement and love.............and a pet if possible................
My oldest son watched Pinocchio over and over again when he was a child.......he was facinated by that show.....daughter did the same with Jurrasic Park........I can't remember what show middle son watched over and over when he was a child if any.........but I remember when he was a little older he loved Slingblade.....every once in awhile, still, he'll playfully and in a funny muffled/accented like speech say something like "will you make me some biscuits and mustard?"
Once when the boys were in middle school I took daughter with me to the grocery. I left the boys at home. I forgot to tell them a roofer was stopping by to have a look at the roof. The boys were in their bedroom when they saw a man climb up a ladder past their second floor bedroom window. They called 911. The police held the guy in my yard until I got home to verify his story. Oops!
Another time I called 911 because while going down the basement steps I thought I saw the figure of a man in a dark corner in my basement. It was the Christmas tree with a baseball hat on the top of it.
When I first divorced and the kids would spend the night, or several nights at their dads house I was afraid some of the time to be here alone at night. So I had this reAlly big stuffed bear. I'd sit him in a kitchen chair at the kitchen table..throw a flannel shirt over his back...even put a baseball hat on the top of his head........and I had a little 4 inch t.v. that I'd sit on the table in front of the bear, turned on....and then I'd crack the kitchen curtain just enough so that if anyone looked in it would hopefully look like a really big guy was awake in the kitchen watching t.v. Silly I know but I slept a little easier............When we rented a place early on, a man came in our house, through a window as my husband and the 2 boys slept. I saw him looking in the window at me as I pretended to sleep on the couch. I'd jnust given middle son who was a newborn a bottle. After he looked in the window, while I lay frozen in fear and hadn't yet taken action, he went around to a back window and came in our home. I finally made the decision to fight, woke husband, loaded a gun that we had at the time, and called 911. When husband pointed the gun at the guy, guy ran and jumped head first out the kitchen window......so we had a good ending in that no one was physically hurt....... But I was a little paranoid when at first I was on my own................and that's all. I'll stop rambling now.....
Thursday, October 07, 2010
Thankful Thursday
I'm thankful daughter is happy.
I'm thankful for my work friend Peggy and her friendship.
I'm thankful to be employed and able to pay my bills.........especially while so many other families are struggling. I've been there.......it's tough to go through.
I'm thankful for my parents.
I'm thankful that We-Ping meets me at my car door when I get home from work.......and today she was OK with me petting her.
I'm thankful that even though I can be a bitch some of the time, and impatient (I'm working on it), brutally honest some of the time & opinionated, I'm still a caring person who just wants to be a good mom, friend, and spouse.
I'm thankful I'm not PMS'ing today.
And I'm thankful that Mr. Bojangles is sitting on the back of the couch next to me even though he's licking his butt.
I'm thankful for my work friend Peggy and her friendship.
I'm thankful to be employed and able to pay my bills.........especially while so many other families are struggling. I've been there.......it's tough to go through.
I'm thankful for my parents.
I'm thankful that We-Ping meets me at my car door when I get home from work.......and today she was OK with me petting her.
I'm thankful that even though I can be a bitch some of the time, and impatient (I'm working on it), brutally honest some of the time & opinionated, I'm still a caring person who just wants to be a good mom, friend, and spouse.
I'm thankful I'm not PMS'ing today.
And I'm thankful that Mr. Bojangles is sitting on the back of the couch next to me even though he's licking his butt.
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
Recording memories..........and house showing.
So you can do this with your blog............Blog2Print - Print Your Blog, Sell Your Blog Book! What I thought I'd do is a separate blog for my daughter, about my daughters senior year of high school....... then order it in print in hard copy form and give it to her as a gift.
I've started work on it, but will make some changes.......adding more detail.....and thoughts........it's a work in progress. I think she'll like it.
The people came to our house. I sat in my car at the fork in the road to get a peek cause I'm curious that way......... It was a younger couple in a white SUV. I guess I thought seeing them would tell me if they'd actually buy my house.........but all it really told me was it's a younger couple with a white car. :O)~
I haven't heard anything from my realtor.........he'll probably call later to give me some feedback.
We're scheduled for an open house October 16th.
I was reluctant because I work that day, am scheduled to leave early to help daughter get ready for the homecoming and to take pictures, etc.... etc..........so maybe I Shouldn't participate in national open house day...........matter a fact I just called the Realtors office and told them I need to think about it.....
It's a beautiful day here today. The leaves are changing colors, it's sunny, and the skies are blue..........I love this time of year. When we were children, my sisters and I would refer to a day like today as "One of those days"...........
I've started work on it, but will make some changes.......adding more detail.....and thoughts........it's a work in progress. I think she'll like it.
The people came to our house. I sat in my car at the fork in the road to get a peek cause I'm curious that way......... It was a younger couple in a white SUV. I guess I thought seeing them would tell me if they'd actually buy my house.........but all it really told me was it's a younger couple with a white car. :O)~
I haven't heard anything from my realtor.........he'll probably call later to give me some feedback.
We're scheduled for an open house October 16th.
I was reluctant because I work that day, am scheduled to leave early to help daughter get ready for the homecoming and to take pictures, etc.... etc..........so maybe I Shouldn't participate in national open house day...........matter a fact I just called the Realtors office and told them I need to think about it.....
It's a beautiful day here today. The leaves are changing colors, it's sunny, and the skies are blue..........I love this time of year. When we were children, my sisters and I would refer to a day like today as "One of those days"...........
Tuesday, October 05, 2010
cleaning and possible homecoming queen.
Someone scheduled an appointment for tomorrow morning to see my house. I've been cleaning all day.......and shopping for new bedroom curtains and sheets/comforter set........and I put a couple pumpkins with baby pumpkins in my yard. I still have an easy list of things to do in the morning before leaving my house.
I'm scared about selling my house. Change can be scary.........if guarantees came with change it might be a little easier for me. But there are none........we can only make decisions based on the information we have and on our good sensibilities. But still, a few guarantees would be nice.
Daughter made homecoming court. She'll be in a parade for our homecoming football game along with the other 6 girls on the court. One of those girls will be chosen as homecoming queen.
I'm happy for her. It's an exciting deal for her.......and the other girls too. :O)
PS.......I'm curious about who will be going through my house. I'm going to park at the fork in the road and get a peek at them......hopefully.
I'm scared about selling my house. Change can be scary.........if guarantees came with change it might be a little easier for me. But there are none........we can only make decisions based on the information we have and on our good sensibilities. But still, a few guarantees would be nice.
Daughter made homecoming court. She'll be in a parade for our homecoming football game along with the other 6 girls on the court. One of those girls will be chosen as homecoming queen.
I'm happy for her. It's an exciting deal for her.......and the other girls too. :O)
PS.......I'm curious about who will be going through my house. I'm going to park at the fork in the road and get a peek at them......hopefully.
Monday, October 04, 2010
monday
It was a busy day doing those things that make me feel anxious usually. they didn't today. so yay!
I met with the banker and did my loan applications.......and turned in all the papers they needed from me................so if my house sells in the next couple months.......then i'll sign off on the condo............i'm just trying not to get my hopes up.........it's unlikely the house will sell that quickly.............and if it doesn't..............well from there i'm not sure what i'll do.........depends on the rates, what it will cost to buy down the rate if they're higher than what i've locked in........if someone else buys the condo.........so many things to consider.........................i'll just have to wait and see how things go...............................my dad went today to have a look at the condo i have a contract on............he said he thinks it's beautiful, and much bigger than he thought it would be. my dad can be super critical. i was surprised by his comments......and pleased that he said positive things about the place.
when daughter came home from school, boyfriend and i took her and her friend to the mall to buy shoes and jewelry to wear with her homecoming dress. when we got to the mall we found a beautiful dress in a store front window. daughter tried it on and it looked great on her. i loved it, and it would have been my choice..it was more princess E than the one she already has........she decided to stay with the dress she bought a couple weeks back. it's also a pretty dress.
tomorrow is my off day...........i think i'll just hang out at home. senior night at the football game is right around the corner. i have to make a poster board featuring daughter for the big night. all the senior football players, cheerleaders, and band members will have a poster displayed at the football game.....and they will be introduced with their parents on the football field.......it will be the last football game they participate in as a student...........it's a big to do.....a going away salute of sorts...........i want to make her poster really special. so i might do some planning and work on her display tomorrow.
that's it. nothing terribly exciting. i like it this way. :O)
I met with the banker and did my loan applications.......and turned in all the papers they needed from me................so if my house sells in the next couple months.......then i'll sign off on the condo............i'm just trying not to get my hopes up.........it's unlikely the house will sell that quickly.............and if it doesn't..............well from there i'm not sure what i'll do.........depends on the rates, what it will cost to buy down the rate if they're higher than what i've locked in........if someone else buys the condo.........so many things to consider.........................i'll just have to wait and see how things go...............................my dad went today to have a look at the condo i have a contract on............he said he thinks it's beautiful, and much bigger than he thought it would be. my dad can be super critical. i was surprised by his comments......and pleased that he said positive things about the place.
when daughter came home from school, boyfriend and i took her and her friend to the mall to buy shoes and jewelry to wear with her homecoming dress. when we got to the mall we found a beautiful dress in a store front window. daughter tried it on and it looked great on her. i loved it, and it would have been my choice..it was more princess E than the one she already has........she decided to stay with the dress she bought a couple weeks back. it's also a pretty dress.
tomorrow is my off day...........i think i'll just hang out at home. senior night at the football game is right around the corner. i have to make a poster board featuring daughter for the big night. all the senior football players, cheerleaders, and band members will have a poster displayed at the football game.....and they will be introduced with their parents on the football field.......it will be the last football game they participate in as a student...........it's a big to do.....a going away salute of sorts...........i want to make her poster really special. so i might do some planning and work on her display tomorrow.
that's it. nothing terribly exciting. i like it this way. :O)
Sunday, October 03, 2010
you cracked me up
My co-workers were waiting for me when I arrived at work this morning. They wanted to tell me that my resident, the one I wrote about a few posts back had passed away during the night.
I really enjoyed and cared about this woman. She had a funny wit.....or was a funny wit. I looked forward each morning to seeing her.
I went to her room to pay my respects and was comforted by the fact that she looked peaceful, happy even. And I felt good that I had made a positive difference in her life.( At least I think I did. I know I did.)
...........many of the other staff felt the same way about her.......and so after we put her on the funeral home gourney, and had her ready to leave.......we all walked along side the gourney down the hallway, out the door, and to the waiting vehicle......not something we usually do........
In my head I told her good-bye and threw her a kiss...................................and that was that..........except for that I'll miss her...........I smile though when I think about her. She cracked me up.
I really enjoyed and cared about this woman. She had a funny wit.....or was a funny wit. I looked forward each morning to seeing her.
I went to her room to pay my respects and was comforted by the fact that she looked peaceful, happy even. And I felt good that I had made a positive difference in her life.( At least I think I did. I know I did.)
...........many of the other staff felt the same way about her.......and so after we put her on the funeral home gourney, and had her ready to leave.......we all walked along side the gourney down the hallway, out the door, and to the waiting vehicle......not something we usually do........
In my head I told her good-bye and threw her a kiss...................................and that was that..........except for that I'll miss her...........I smile though when I think about her. She cracked me up.
Saturday, October 02, 2010
yesterday
Boyfriend and I left the house early yesterday to go out for breakfast and to take a drive in the country. I was hoping to see some cool barns and get pictures of them but my camera battery died.......and we got lost. I did see a barn that had a huge yellow smiley face painted on the side of it.....
Before we left the house I took a picture of We-Ping and Mr. Bojangles having a quiet meal together. Mr. Bojangles usually tries to get his groove on with We-Ping...............surgical intervention is right around the corner!
I especially like the tiny car parked outside the tiny house.
I wonder if a little person lives there......
And I also like the cabin.
I wish I could have gone inside and had a look around..............and the same with the old barn. Something about barns that I just love. I wish I had the money to convert one into a home.
Friday, October 01, 2010
still winners
It is one of our biggest games of the season. It's the fight for the bell. The winner gets to ring the bell and display it in their school for a year. It's been at least a decade since our school has had the bell. We beat this team in a pre season scrimmage so we had high hopes. But we weren't able to repeat that win tonight! Big disappointment for the kids. Especially the seniors. They won't get another chance at the bell. Bummer!
On a high note.........the cheerleaders looked cute in their new uniforms!
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