still saturday

I had a nice morning and afternoon with boyfriend.
We went shopping and out for lunch.
I'm lucky that boyfriend, like me, likes to shop. I like shopping even if I don't buy anything. It's fun to look....plan, dream. For me it is...........especially if I'm not rushed......and if the place I'm shopping isn't crowed or busy.
I bought "girl stuff" today. Such as new blush and mascara.......new blush brush.......moisturizer....etc........I start my new assignment at work Monday. New girl stuff I thought would help with the new attitude. :O)

I bought daughter 2 new shirts. They're Danskin workout shirts on sale for 2 bucks......plus they're cute!

Daughter and friend are at the mall looking at prom dresses. Boyfriend is napping. Mr. Bojangles and I are on the couch. WePing is on the living room window seal.
It's a quiet day.
I like it.

saturday

So some good came out of the meeting with my boss.
One of the people who complained is being moved to my unit to work. My work load is double hers.
I have 31 patients verses her 14.  All of those patients are  about the same level of care. My boss said other nurse has never really had to work( been stretched beyond imagination, buried, pulled in 900 different directions at once) and she wants her to "walk a day in your shoes." I have to take what she said at face value,  not question if that's the real reason I'm being pulled off my unit. I keep reminding myself that she complimented me over and over in our meeting about how "your work is flawless"........she promised I wasn't being punished. That it was the other nurse she had the problem with......
I'm just gonna have a little faith that she's being honest with me. Things have a way of working out for the best.
I'm relieved to be leaving my assignment.

My contract with the agency that has my house listed ends today.
We've had a handful of showings the past couple of weeks.
Nothing has come of it.
I love my home. It represents my hard work....and it's where I raised my kids.
Someday I'll let it go. Not today though.

Boyfriend just called. "Get up! Let's go!"
So I'm going to get up and go now.
Have a great day.

i'm at a loss

So I was called in to my bosses, bosses office today. She called me in her office to tell me I have a bad attitude........I think that's what she said.........something along that line.......she also said that for the past couple of months I've been withdrawn, stand offish and  I'm passive aggressive.(her observations and someone elses.) "But, your work is flawless.Seriously, it's very good. It's flawless."
She wasn't calling me in to discipline me. (that's what she said.) Being called in to the bosses office to be told your attitude sucks  sure feels like you're being disciplined.
Is she right about what she said?
I'm opinionated, assertive, passionate maybe.....not passive aggressive.
She didn't threaten me/my job in any way other than calling me in her office.............that in and of its self feels threatening....................................and I'm sure she wasn't calling me in for the fun of it...........................so I'm guessing she expects to see changes in my behavior.   Atleast she's giving me a chance....................unless her mind is made up and she's just going through the motions.............Here's the thing though.......I think she actually liked me more after our talk than she did before our talk........
I liked her more after the talk....(so that's a good thing.....right?)..........it was a productive meeting. I was able to get some work related stuff off my chest.
I just want to do my job.
All the other crap doesn't come easy for me.
I'm not good at game playing and politics.
 I can't not be the person that I am.
Someone enlighten me.
I need help.
I don't want to lose my job.

tuesday

While watching the state of the union tonight i noticed that several of the women in the audience were wearing lime green/green colored suits.............ugly.
On the other hand, amny of the men wore some really pretty ties.........including the purple tie Boehner was wearing.

we had two showings of my house today. one was a no show. we haven't had any feed back from the other one.
i signed off on the condo contract today. i sat on it for several days. but today when condo lady informed me that she went ahead and installed flooring, and not the flooring that i picked, i signed the papers that ended my obligation with her. i feel relieved.

my day in a nut shell

banking
canceled a showing of my house.
grocery shopping..
cleaned kitchen and bathroom.
baked a turkey (it's still in the oven.)
took some pictures of daughter.
read blogs.

snow day

01/19/11 (i think)

We're expecting six inches of snow early tomorrow. School has already been canceled.
 The thought of being snowed in is appealing to me.

I was off work today.
I worked on a couple of paintings for sons place.
They're looking pretty good, kind of...........sort of................................. I also painted a few rocks.
They turned out cute.

sunday

Son preparing lunch for us in HIS kitchen.

son lounging in HIS recliner at HIS place.

Mom checking sons refrigerator. It's clean and filled with beer!

Last but not least is a picture of We-Ping and Mr. Bojangles. I seldom get a picture of them together. They were having a stand off in the bathroom.
We had an OK time at sons place today. We had lunch together.
They seem happy. That's all that's important to me........
We got home at 4. I fell asleep when we got home and slept for 6 hours........woke up and called off for work tomorrow.


PS.....There's a visitor at my work who comes each evening to visit his wife. I always welcome him and ask him how he's doing. His reply every time I ask is "I'm happy." I like his response. It makes me smile.

i think it's nice..

YouTube - I Love You Joanna Wang

kiss me once.......well maybe twice.

The realtor called today. Someone is coming to look at the house tomorrow. I haven't canceled the contract yet on the condo.......just got the papers a couple days ago.......now I'm not sure what I'll do if we get an offer on the house. I thought this whole thing was settled........
I'm not cleaning my house for tomorrows viewing. I'm tired, have cramps and quite frankly I just don't care if I get an offer or not.
Sons were supposed to come over tomorrow for supper. Since strangers will be walking through my home I called sons and asked if we could bring pizza to their place and have supper together there instead...........so that's what's happening tomorrow.

I'm listening to my Jewel CD. The news is on. I'd rather hear music then hear about people killing people.

Lines from songs from this CD that I like:
1.He looked like a potato shoved in the jeans.
2. Everybody needs someone some time.
3. Sister Mary used to be a nun. She thought she'd retire and have her some fun.
4.I will let you undress me.... but I warn you I have thorns like any rose.
5.Feels like being under water now that I've let go, lost control.......
6. Kiss me once.....well, maybe twice....
7. Don't ever give away what you can't get back...
8.you thought i didn't notice the skin on your teeth had a tear....
9. women teach wise men to pout
10. love me, just leave me alone.
11. your mother was a wolf bite, you daddy was a cigarette
12. i hate you. i love you. leave, don't go away.
13.i do not understand why a woman cannot just love a man........
14. you've got moth holes in your pocket.....you've got moth holes in your soul....
15. sometimes it be that way...
16. sorry i was a point you were destined to miss.
17.love be still. love be sweet. don't you dare change a thing.....
18.

lazy day

I was lazy today.
Actually I slept most of the day away.........until daughter came home from school......and then I packed my lunch for work tomorrow..........................went through the mail.............deducted receipts from my check book..................made breakfast for supper.....................sat at the kitchen table with boyfriend and daughter and had supper.............................did dishes.......................laid out my work clothes for tomorrow..............and threw in a load of laundry..........oh, and I picked about 10 used fabric sheets up off the basement floor.

I'm going to figure out how to use the video on my camera so I can video WePing knocking on the kitchen door. I think it's hysterical that she knocks on the door when she wants to come back in the house.

Daughters report card came yesterday.
She brought all her grades up..............but she still isn't on easy sailing............I'll be relieved when she graduates.

fashion diva's........or not.

1-11-11

in my bed this morning.

This morning.

recovering from his illness......

this little guy lives in an aquarium at the Belterra. he'd come up to the glass whenever a person was near. he was cute and friendly.

They end up like this every year. Not sure who does it.......one of my nephews I'm sure..........

a night with my sisters

I had a great time this evening with my sisters. They all showed up in their pj's so that they'd be ready for bed when they got home later tonight. I thought it was funny.
After dinner we sat around my coffee table talking, and talking, and laughing, and then we laughed some more.
Dinner turned out delicious.
I baked Cornish hens....... made a spinach salad with red onions, mushrooms, and black olives...............and also made some boiled red potatoes. It really was tasty.
The table looked beautiful.......and it didn't go un noticed that it's the first time in many years that we were  gathered around the dining room table from our childhood. :O)

The night has left me feeling  happy.

My oldest sister is one of the funniest people I've ever known.........and she doesn't even try to be......my youngest sister has a sharp wit and is also funny..........my second oldest sister wears her heart on her sleeve.......and then my sister # 3 (the birthday girl) is probably the most grounded of us five......
I love them all......

saturday

It snowed here last night.
I love the snow.
It's beautiful...........especially when it's falling at night time.

It was a long day at work today.
That's all I have to say about that      stuff.

Monday I'm having family over for dinner for my sisters birthday.
I'm looking forward to it.

this n that

So yesterday boyfriend and I went to the Belterra Casino Resort and Spa in Indiana for the night.
I'm not a  gambler.
But boyfriend enjoys a good poker game now and then.......and I've heard him talk about "going to the hill" with his friends in Colorado to play the slots. I thought going to the Belterra might be something he'd enjoy. And he did.
It was a nice time. Just being alone for the night, getting away from home, even if we'd done nothing else, it was fun.
 We won a few bucks throughout the night.......but put it back in the slots...........After gambling we had dinner at the hotels Grand Buffet...... I'm not a big buffet person.....I don't think buffet food is usually very good..........theirs was worse than most........but we sat at a quiet table by a window that over looked the river..........and had a romantic, sweet, relaxing time together.
I wish we could have stayed another night.

Tomorrow I go back to work.
One of the nurses is on leave for at least several weeks more. They gave me all of her patients but didn't have the balls to tell me. One of the CN'S informed me what my new assignment would be. How's that for leadership? I've been killing myself trying to meet all the demands of my new assignment.
I'm resentful that the powers to be stuck their head in the sand rather then tell me about my new patient load..........and I'm resentful they think it's possible for 1 nurse to give care to 30 patients.
I'm afraid to say anything for fear they'll think I'm whining. On the other hand I don't want to stick my head in the sand like they did theirs.

happy new years!

Mr. Bojangles is doing well. He makes me happy.
I love him. And I think I make him happy too.

I have a lot of new projects in my mind for the New Year.
I swear I'm going to get the junk room cleaned out, painted, new flooring and trim put in......and make it a place for me to call my own.
Sound selfish?..................OK........ I'll share it with daughter and kitties.

And even if it kills me I'm going to organize all my important papers.
I bought a filing cabinet months ago.
It's still empty.

I called the condo realtor people and asked for my earnest money back. The contract has expired and I don't wish to renew or continue it.......I felt kind of bad. She was a really nice lady.........
The bank lady was kinda bitchy when I told her I did not want to pay to continue to lock in my interest rate.........she locked it in for free for 3 months. That was nice of her........... I thanked her, again.
She said she'd be sending me a refund for the appraisal/inspection money I gave to her...at least I think that's what it was for.... ..................so two checks coming back to me.....YAY!
I think the contract with the realtor listing our house ends some time this month. I'll be relieved when the sign is gone.
I'm looking forward to spending time on my deck this summer, and to planting flowers and vegetables in my yard.........and in planters on my deck.

I think I was ready to walk away from this house.............but I'm kind of glad I'm not gonna be......

I have a little trip( very little) with boyfriend coming up........it was my Christmas gift to him. I think it's going to be fun.......we're both looking forward to it. I'll tell you about it when it's over......

sick kitty

On New Years Eve boyfriend called me at work to tell me Mr. Bojangles was sick.
It was difficult assessing the situation while away from home. So I asked boyfriend to make kitty comfortable and let him rest.
When I got home from work Mr. Bojangles didn't greet me per his usual. He was under the coffee
table just as he had been when I left that morning for work.
I layed on the floor with my upper body under the coffee table. I wanted to have a look and see how he was doing. I spoke to him. His only response was twitching to the tip of his tail.
I pulled him out from under the table to have a closer look. As I pulled him he cried, meowed/screamed out in pain. 
I believed he was probably dying.
We wrapped him up, boyfriend and I, and took him to the animal hospital emergency room.
They examined every inch of his body looking for bite marks from another animal, or an injury of any kind.....................and they applied pressure to his bladder forcing urine out making sure he didn't have a blockage. Urine squirted out...........and no injury was to be found.
 They prescribed an antibiotic for a possible systemic infection, thinking that maybe he had been bitten by another animal, and gave instructions to return if his condition worsened.
Yesterday while at work, boyfriend called several times throughout the day and evening with updates on Mr. Bojangles condition. "He's still sleeping. He just lays there and sleeps."
After a tortuous day of working but thinking all the time about my kitty, and wanting just to be there for him......the work day and night was finally over.
Kitty was in my bed when I got home.
I laid my head next to his body and told him I loved him. I petted him. He looked me in the eye and I pleaded with him not to die.
Boyfriend and I discussed taking him back to the emergency room for i.v. hydration. He wasn't eating or drinking.
I brought to him an ice cube. He licked it and then made his way off the bed when he saw We-Ping walk past the bedroom door. He didn't chase after him like he usually would do....but still, he actually stood AND walked..... he went to the kitchen and lapped the water in his bowl for what seemed like forever.......and then he went under the buffet to sleep.
I laid on the couch to be close to him.  Soon there after he was standing on, and then laying on top of me. I petted him until we both drifted off to sleep.
When I woke this morning he was stretched out on his back against my body........and he was breathing. I tried to get off the couch without disturbing him........but I woke him instead. He lead the way up the hallway to the bathroom and for just a second  he did his little "I'm happy/life's good" dance that he does.
It gave me a lot of hope that he will be okay. Maybe he does have an infection and the antibiotic is doing it's job.
There's a ray of sun light shining through the dining room window on to the dining room floor. It's where he's resting right now.......

I've worked 40 hours the past three days.
So today I plan on sitting around doing much of nothing, and loving on kitty