nothing much going on...

Juat completed my long stretch of 12 hour shifts. Now I'm off for 3 days. So it was worth it.
Work was crazy busy yesterday.
I hate when it's like that.....I go home worrying that maybe I forgot to do something. Then I try to just let it go and figure I'll deal with it when I get back to work.

Daughter and I have been spending lots of time together. It's been fun, and nice.
All of her best friends will be leaving town in a few months on scholarships. Her best friend is going to the University of Louisville, and her boyfriend will be going to Union College in Barberville Kentucky.
She can drive down to see them.......and they will be coming home for visits. Still she's already feeling emotional about them leaving. I think it's why she's been clinging a little to me.

She finally found the perfect prom dress. The shop she bought it in has a strict no return policy. So prom dress shopping is officially over.
It's a pretty princess like dress. Different then all the homecoming and prom dresses she's worn.........

I'm tired from the long shifts.
Today I'm going to finish the book I'm reading, go to the bank, and maybe go to the grocery.................nothing much more planned for the day.

tuesday

I had a wondeful evening and night Monday night.
Daughter and I hung out together on the deck. We talked about school after high school, drinking alcohol, love, prom, family, friends, boyfriends, after prom, pre prom........she's an open book with me. Some of the time I think" OMG I don't want to hear this"...........on the other hand I'm happy she feels like she can talk to me............and doesn't feel the need to keep her life a secret.
We sat together under the stars and had dinner..........we laughed, joked, and connected in a good way.
I feel lucky.

And then tonight me, boyfriend, and daughter went to daughters sports banquet.
My last sports banquet as a mom.
It was fun.
I almost always enjoy seeing daughters friends......and watching them be the crazy, wild, smart, funny, playful teenagers that they are...........
Daughter received a special award from the cheerleading squad.......she was chosen as "the best friend to have"............it was sweet.

I used to pray to God to let me live until my children were adults.
Now I want to amend that prayer.
I'd like more time please.

I paid bills today, and balanced my checkbook.
I ordered daughters yearbook.
Her cap and gown have already been ordered.

Boyfriend is out of pain.
He's checking out surgeons and hospitals.

Both sons called me while I was at the sports banquet.
I couldn't answer the phone but called them later.
Middle son wanted me to pick up a paper shredder for him if I was going to be at Walmart anytime soon........................oldest son just wanted to say hello.

did i jinx myself, asks the irish girl.....

so an hour before boyfriends doctor appointment, boyfriend asked me to take him to the emergency room. his pain had become unbearable.
when all was said and done, it boils down to having to have his gallbladder removed. we will call the surgeon tomorrow.
it's funny how just a couple of days ago i was secretly counting my blessings, and feeling thankful that i made it, even though it was with some difficulty, but still, i made it through last year. i was afraid that if i said it out loud i'd jinx myself.
maybe just thinking those things jinxed me.
I know it's not brain surgery. I know it's not heart surgery.
but i'm scared for boyfriend........

daughters pink eye medicine was eighty bucks. i asked if they sent it through to her insurance. of course they did. without the insurance it would have been one hundred and twenty bucks.
i asked them to call her doctor and get a more reasonable medicine ordered. something for around twenty dollars or less. i mean come on......it's pink eye. the pharmacist agreed. so i'm waiting to hear from them.....

daughter is napping. boyfriend is napping. we-ping, mr. bojangles, and i are on the deck.
i have the kitchen screen door propped open so the kitties can go in and out as they please. we-ping doesn't like to be away from her food bowl for too long.

and now i'm going to read some of that book i've been reading while on my lunch at work. it's good. i want to really get in to it though...........the way i can't while at work.

monday

I'm off work for the next three days. Yay!

Daughter has pink eye.
I'm hoping school doesn't send her home. She struggles to catch   up.
I've called her doctor and I'm hoping that since she was just seen last week he will call
in a prescription without having to see her again.

Daughter's report card from this past quarter was great. She brought up all her grades again.
One more time of the same thing and she'll be our newest little graduate.

Boyfriend is in misery. He's having severe abdominal pain and has been for 3 days.
I've tried talking him in to going to the hospital. He won't go, but he does have
a doctors appointment for today. We'll see.....

The doctor just called and is going to call in a prescription for daughter for her eyes. So Yay!

I have a few errands to run today, maybe go to the doctor with boyfriend, and then I'm going to finish reading my latest Koontz book.

spd

I took daughter to the doctor today.
She was a little embarrassed because she's still a patient at the pediatric group.
I need to have her file transferred to a doctor for adults. It's just not something i think of until she's sick.
Anyway, they checked her for the flu and for strep. Both tests were negative. So she just has a cold that will have to run its course.

Daughter and I shopped a little on-line for a dress for graduation. So far this is our favorite. I don't know if you can see it. It's cute, casual, and not expensive. We found some great looking shoes to go with it!

I've been car shopping for a couple of months.
The bottom line is that I hate spending money for a car.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------Happy Saint Patrick's Day
May your troubles be less

And your blessings be more

And nothing but happiness

Come through your door.

more of the same

Sister bear stayed home from school today.
She's down and out with a sore throat and cold.
She seldom misses. It causes her too much anxiety about catching up.
So I know she must feel pretty bad. Poor Boo!

Yesterday was my ex best friends birthdays. We grew up together, the three of us, and were friends until 7 or 8 years ago. So I thought about them yesterday, just as I do from time to time.
When I watch Teen Mom there's a boyfriend to one of the teen moms on the how. His name is Keefer. Every time I see him I know that if my ex friend Lisa is watching, she'd be cracking up. I almost picked up the phone the other day to call her just to see if she was watching him.
Friends are great. But having friends that really know you, and where you've come from because they've come from there with you, is like the greatest.
I don't miss them per se. I miss that kind of friendship though..........

Boyfriend is running errands. When he gets here he's going to help me clean. That's the big plan for today.......deep clean this house, and organize the spare bedroom.

saturday

Daughter wants to get a tattoo.
She's 18 so I can't stop her. I have been trying to talk her out of it.
They're so permanent. Although I hear you can have them removed with laser surgery, but still.
The belly button ring was one thing,,,,,,now a tattoo? Yuck.

Work is going well.
I still like my new assignment, and most of the new staff I work with.
It's a better fit.....all of it.

Daughter wants to take a senior class trip.
I was finally honest with her and told her it's not in the budget.
I wanted so badly to give it to her, but I can't. Too many other financial obligations with her continuing education.
I felt relieved to finally just tell her no.

I texted son the other night asking him if he wanted me to clean his condo the next day while he was at work. He texted back saying "that would be great!" So I texted him back  "psych!" He texted back "you suck. lol!"  lol. Cracked me up.

AI

so far my favorites are
Casey
Paul
Lauren

singing in the rain, kinda.

Not much going on today.
I just did last nights supper dishes.
Boyfriend is picking me up after his doctors appointment and we're going to stop over to see my mom and dad.
They've been out of town for a month, are home now, and I'm anxious to hear about their trip.
And then we're going to run a couple of errands together.

Daughter is losing her hair by the handfuls. She bought a crimper, has been using it at 500 degrees, and severely damaged her hair. It's literally falling out.
I smothered it in mayonnaise a few days ago hoping to salvage some of it, but the outcome looks grim.
The good news is it will grow back.
That's little consolation for a teen girl.

I read a book once where the mother and teen daughter were going through a trying time........at one point the mother took the daughter outside, during a down pour of rain. Mother had the daughter close her eyes, turn her head up to the sky, extend her arms and feel the rain. In the book it was a beautiful, spiritual moment.
So last night while daughter and I were on the couch bantering, playing, etc......I asked daughter to go outside with me to stand in the rain. She rejected my idea. I was laughing, she was laughing..........I told her playfully that if I died next week she would forever on any rainy day regret not having gone outside to play in the rain with me.
She was playfully pissed at me for forcing her outside, but she went. It was cold though so we took an afghan. We wrapped ourselves in the afghan, and huddled together for warmth...........and then stood there in the rain. There was no spiritual event. Just giggling, and joking.

Boyfriends here........gotta run. More later.

Daughter and I are in the habit of watching together a tv show called Teen Mom.
It follows teen girls through their pregnancy and then the first year after giving birth.
It shows the struggles they go through with their boyfriends, family, trying to juggle work, continuing education etc...it's an interesting show, though kind of depressing. Leaves me wishing I could  help those girls.

I hope Charlie Sheen gets help before he physically hurts someone, or kills himself.

blog people

While driving home from work last night I was lost in thought about some of the people who write some of the blogs that i read. Including........
Billy's. Billy is a mystery to me.
He objectifies women, except maybe for Helen, and he mocks people who believe in God. He's articulate, funny, highly intelligent, and movie star handsome. He's off the hook though...... And just when I think I can't stand his extreme beliefs, and maybe even him, he tells a heart warming story about the dog he loved and then lost, or he leaves a comment on another persons blog showing concern for that person.........and he takes care of Helen the way a son would his mother.....revealing a very caring person capable of more than just anger and hate...........though anger and hate probably aren't the correct words to describe him............................................................so I was lost in thought trying to figure him out. Wondering about all of his life....his past life......wanting to know where he's coming from....what makes him tick....
And then there's Odie.....exact opposite of Billy when it comes to his attitude towards women and religion.................respects women.......and others.........believes without question in God.............caring, sweet, positive, cute.......always there with a kind word.
 Some of the time, but not so much now as back when, I used to wonder whether or not he was really all that he presented........"Can a person really be that good" is what I thought. I'd conclude that he must be a pedophile or some sort of online predator. But I stuck around because I intuitively knew, even though I questioned it, that he was the real deal.....and maybe I'd learn something from him..........
And then there's the Professor.
He suffers all the time it seems.
I think he's grown comfortable being miserable and is not willing to move from his comfort zone......................or maybe, just maybe.....he creates all his pain and suffering because without that to talk about, he'd have nothing to say. He'd rather be a suffering soul than an ordinary man.
So yeah.......I was driving down the interstate last night thinking about the blog people, wishing I knew more about Billy, wishing I had Odie's faith, wishing the Professor would be happy already.....when the dark night in front of me lit up. Fireworks right there......beautiful purple, blue, silver lights shooting up to the sky.........it was so pretty, and unexpected....... I smiled and said "yay!"......and then further up the interstate the cops standing with  some guy and his truck. I'm thinking he's probably drunk, and setting off fireworks right there on 71.
Thanks drunk guy.
It was a nice show!

friday

It's raining and I like it.

I bought an electronic keyboard today. I've spent the later part of this afternoon playing music. I'm not much better at playing music than I am at painting a picture.......but I get joy from doing both.