wed.

I didn't like our facility psychiatrist at first. I can't really explain why. Maybe I didn't like him for replacing the psychiatrist that I had worked with forever, and who I really liked. Who knows..........I've worked with the new guy for awhile now....... I like him. He kinda looks like a throw back from the 60's. He cusses. I've always liked doctors that cuss. He's not vulgar or anything. He just cusses now and then. I think his cursing puts me at ease.
I was answering his questions the other day about his patients.
He asked how Mr. B was doing, and what I thought about him. I told the doctor I though Mr. B was a prick. A big prick.  I asked him if his anti psychotic drugs would help Mr.B's prickism. He said probably not.
 I asked if maybe Mr. B should be seen by a urologist for his prick disorder rather than a psychiatrist.
He laughed ......and meant it......
Now I like him even more.

I went shopping with daughter and her cell phone the other night. She can't put it away.........I hate it.

monday

Daughter is at school. Boyfriend is at a doctors appointment and then has to have routine car maintenance done. So lucky me has the house to myself for a few hours.
I just watched the latest episode of Dexter. Dexter's sister  went on a tirade full of cursing. I loved it.

Dexter is a good name for a cat, Billy. Especially if it's  named after Dexter the serial killer. I was thinking about naming my next cat Audrey Hepburn. I guess I have to meet it first and see if the name fits.

So while I enjoy the show Dexter, I love the show Nurse Jackie. She's the ER nurse in charge, married and with two children............ having an affair with the hospital pharmacist........and she's a drug addict. She frequently uses her name badge to cut pills and then snort them.
In one scene there's a man in her ER, his ear had been ripped off by the woman he raped, beat, and tortured. So the rapist who was in the ER to have his ear sewed on was going on and on to Nurse Jackie about how he was just doing to the woman he hurt what that woman wanted him to do...etc...he was a mother fucker with this sick sense of entitlement..&;....he was a diplomat with immunity from prosecution. Next scene is Jackie in a bath room stall holding this guys ear.......she holds the ear near her mouth and yells "fuck you!" into the ear........then....drops it in the toilet and flushes.
While I was on my sick leave from work I found this show.....................I watched it over and over............ I loved watching her yell"fuck you" into the severed ear.

wed.

Boyfriend took me out to dinner today. It was nice.
We also went shopping.
I bought a couple shirts, jeans, and a few under clothes.

 I found a new head board for my bed. I didn't think I wanted one because it's just something else that takes up space and that will need to be dusted.......but my pillows keep falling over and off the head of the bed.

Mr. Bojangles hasn't come home yet tonight. I'm a little worried. When he goes out at night he usually comes back to the porch by 9:30, 10 P at the latest.

work went better today. I'm working on uncluster fucking the new unit........and on getting a routine going...............i guess i just want it to be easy...........it's not going to be..............so i'll deal..........i can't quit........not for 9 more years..................and i'm too tired to change jobs........................

daughter's doing okay in school but her professors are asking if she's been tested for add/learning disabilities.......................they encourage her to be tested again........................anyway......if everything goes as planned, she should complete school Jan. 2014............................she's thrilled and looking forward to getting her Savannah cat from me to her for a graduation gift. I want one too.

She's taking shack up's car to school tomorrow .her car is due for an oil change and it needs new head lights.....................shack up was cleaning the head light covers and found that her head lights are out...........she's been using her brights........ho hum..........

boyfriends brother donated his body to science.............in this case they will keep his body for 6 to 8 weeks then return it for cremation.
i'd hate the thought of one of my family members donating their body. it just grosses me out.
boyfriend is going to be cremated. he tells me to flush his ashes........pisses me off when he says to flush him...............

you're missing out on dexter, billy. i thought it was going to suck this season..........turns out that it's good............. 

PS........i sound judgmental when i talk about the Pipe guy..........truth be told i respect him for always trying to do better..(though i think he should give his self a freaking break once in awhile).....and not giving up.............

good night, billy..........

monday

my new unit at work is overwhelming.
i don't know what to do about it.
i can't go on a 12 hour adrenalin rush dayafter day.
it's not normal. it's not healthy. i resent the powers that be......

we-ping met me at my car when i got home from work.
she makes me smile.
when i got in the house, i pet mr. bojangles.
he hissed. i hissed back at him. he cracks me up.

I think it would be fun to work at a full service gas station........remember those?
I think it would be fun to clean wind shields, check oil levels and pump gas for a few hours a day a couple days a week.
i might do it when i retire.......if i canfind one that still does those things.......

sunday

scrubbed the kitchen and bathroom floors. washed the TV screens and mirrors.cleaned the counter tops, dusted and vacuumed......and did 3 loads of laundry.......................then i spent 4 hours in the backyard cleaning up garden rocks an old neighbor had delivered to his back yard. he had them delivered to a hill in his backyard against a chain link fence that separated our yards....... the weight of the rocks deformed my fence and some of the rock ended up in my yard.....i had the chain link fenced removed a year ago..........was tired of looking at the rocks flowing down the hill into my yard.......and was tired of looking at the half buried blue tarp that the rock had poured on when they were delivered...................................so i pulled all the little fucking rocks down the hill (probably 5 wheel barrels full)and into my yard.........cleaned the weeds in my neighbors yard that had grown over the rocks.....and.......threw the fucking blue tarp away............
the dumb ass who had the rocks delivered lost the house to foreclosure.............the new owner rents the place out...........neither the  owner or the renter seemed to be bothered by the mess .............fuck them both.
I'll use the rocks somewhere in my yard.................................................................  i cut down fucking honeykissmyass suckle trees......and then showered just in case i was dealing with any poison ivy...............so i got lots done today...................feels good............
I'm sitting in my new bed with fresh, smell good sheets, with Mr. Bojangles and boyfriend.
boyfriends brother passed away today.
boyfriends brother made the decision to
go with hospice. he didn't want to continue to live paralyzed and unable to eat.......the outcome of a stroke.........
boyfriend spent a couple weeks a couple weeks ago in Colorado with his brother. they talked about a million things, spent everyday together............. and when it was time for boyfriend to come home him and his brother said their finale good-byes. sad........sad that you love people and eventually have to go, or let them go...........
Mr. Bojangles is behind my computer screen.  his tail is wrapped around the computer and on the screen. i keep touching his tail tip. it's cute. he's cute.

thursday

They changed our assignments at work.
My new unit is much busier than the one I was moved off of.
Partly because it's a big cluster fuck. My plan is to uncluster fuck it.........make it easier for
everyone.

It's been so pretty outside ..........sunny, crisp and cool. The tree in my front yard looks beautiful with the colorful leaves. I love fall. Mr. Bojangles and We-Ping seem to enjoy it too.

Boyfriend went to the mall today.
I don't like the mall and didn't want to go. I wanted to stay home in my big, new,comfy bed watching Halloween movies. So that's what I did................and every so often I'd sit on the porch and enjoy all the pretty fall colors, and the warm sun.

 I'm still not sure if I'm going to buy a new home and sell this one. I definitely don't want to buy a condo.
I'm leaning towards staying here.........

We-Ping and Mr. Bojangles

Our neighbors finally took care of the mess in their front yard. We-Ping and Mr. Bojangles enjoyed  rolling in the dirt.

Mr. Bojangles

I

bought a new bed.Mr. Bojangles is loving it!