It was another crazy busy day at work today.Not enough staff, and too many patients to give care to.
I'm having muscle spasms in my right upper back.
I'm so glad to have the next three days off!
The Christmas decorations are still sitting on my dining room floor. The naked Christmas tree is still standing. I moved it from the living room to the hallway. They're getting a little closer to the basement!
The maid (me) hasn't cleaned my house in a couple of weeks. But I think I'll work on refinishing the dining room furniture tomorrow instead of cleaning......................unless mom needs me.
I made the rainbow Christmas ornament for my work friend. It sat on my dining room table for a couple of weeks. I was afraid she wouldn't like it so I put off giving it to her until today. When I gave it to her she cried.............and not because she was choking back laughter by the site of it. She loved it. :O)
The psychiatrist who yelled at me on the phone at work a couple of weeks ago was at my work today. When he looked at me I said "fuck you"to him in my head. lol. I'm sure he heard me!
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Monday, January 28, 2013
my best little buddy
I love Mr.Bojangles.
He has this uncanny ability to know just when I need a friend and there he is right beside me.
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Sunday
I went to mom and dads house yesterday with sister. I talked to mom a couple nights before going to her house and had a feeling she wasn't feeling well.
So we get to her house and she's in bed. She said she had been in the emergency room the night before because she was sick. They couldn't find anything wrong except that she was a little dehydrated. She said they tried pushing IV fluids in her too fast so she had to put a stop to the IV.........and doesn't understand why they can't read her records or listen to her when she tells them her body can't handle those fluids. She said they wanted to keep her overnight but she went home.
So I asked mom what was going on.........."I've been tired, and really cold. I don't know. I just don't feel well."
I went through her bag of medications asking her about each one .Found out she stopped taking her Thyroid medication 10 days ago. "I don't need that pill." She cracks me up. I told her "mom you're a very bad patient!" Seriously. She adjusts her Coreg, Lasix, Insulin, and who knows what without talking to her doctor. She did tell her doctor that she opens her Coreg capsule and takes some of the powder rather than the whole capsule. "Pat! Don't tell me that!" is part of what he said.
So sis and I educated mom about her Thyroid medication. She agreed that maybe she does need it and promised to take it everyday. I do think something else is going with her. I'm just not sure what it is........
She was supposed to start using oxygen at bedtime several weeks ago. It's still not there and she isn't very forth coming as to why. She makes it sound like her cardiologist's office dropped the ball. It's hard to tell with mom. So my plan is call her cardiologists office Monday. If mom doesn't want the oxygen that's fine. It's her body, her choice...............but if they dropped the ball, or things got mixed up then they need to fix it.
We hung out with mom for a few hours.......laughing, joking, making fun about her being a bad patient. :O)
Last year I took a picture of her squirrel that hangs out outside her bedroom window. I blew the picture up to an 8x10, and framed it. Yesterday she said " I really love my squirrel picture. I wish you'd take more so I'd have a group of them.
I got a couple more cute pictures of him...........and a few pictures of "her" birds.
Drug addict sister is out of the hospital and at the rehab. facility.
I need to clean this house.
I need to do laundry.
My car is filthy.
I need to pay bills.
I want to start working on my very old dining room set.
I want to go see mom.
I want to go to the park and see the walking trails
brother-in-law has put in in the woods at the park.
I'm not sure what I will do today.
So we get to her house and she's in bed. She said she had been in the emergency room the night before because she was sick. They couldn't find anything wrong except that she was a little dehydrated. She said they tried pushing IV fluids in her too fast so she had to put a stop to the IV.........and doesn't understand why they can't read her records or listen to her when she tells them her body can't handle those fluids. She said they wanted to keep her overnight but she went home.
So I asked mom what was going on.........."I've been tired, and really cold. I don't know. I just don't feel well."
I went through her bag of medications asking her about each one .Found out she stopped taking her Thyroid medication 10 days ago. "I don't need that pill." She cracks me up. I told her "mom you're a very bad patient!" Seriously. She adjusts her Coreg, Lasix, Insulin, and who knows what without talking to her doctor. She did tell her doctor that she opens her Coreg capsule and takes some of the powder rather than the whole capsule. "Pat! Don't tell me that!" is part of what he said.
So sis and I educated mom about her Thyroid medication. She agreed that maybe she does need it and promised to take it everyday. I do think something else is going with her. I'm just not sure what it is........
She was supposed to start using oxygen at bedtime several weeks ago. It's still not there and she isn't very forth coming as to why. She makes it sound like her cardiologist's office dropped the ball. It's hard to tell with mom. So my plan is call her cardiologists office Monday. If mom doesn't want the oxygen that's fine. It's her body, her choice...............but if they dropped the ball, or things got mixed up then they need to fix it.
We hung out with mom for a few hours.......laughing, joking, making fun about her being a bad patient. :O)
I got a couple more cute pictures of him...........and a few pictures of "her" birds.
Drug addict sister is out of the hospital and at the rehab. facility.
I need to clean this house.
I need to do laundry.
My car is filthy.
I need to pay bills.
I want to start working on my very old dining room set.
I want to go see mom.
I want to go to the park and see the walking trails
brother-in-law has put in in the woods at the park.
I'm not sure what I will do today.
Thursday, January 24, 2013
thursday
It was fun!
(Fuck you, Billy!) That's for after you make fun of my work. :O)
I'm listening to Alison Krauss.
She has a pretty singing voice.
I'm tired.
Good night.
Monday, January 21, 2013
monday
The contract with the realtor has expired.
I think I'll stay put for awhile.
Strictly from a financial stand point staying put is
the best choice for now....
The dining room table, chairs, and buffet from my childhood home & that I love are in
need of a major clean up, stripping, staining, and reupholstering.
I think I'll try to do it myself.
I think I'll stay put for awhile.
Strictly from a financial stand point staying put is
the best choice for now....
The dining room table, chairs, and buffet from my childhood home & that I love are in
need of a major clean up, stripping, staining, and reupholstering.
I think I'll try to do it myself.
monday
I'm watching the presidential inauguration........
The first lady and her daughters look pretty but I didn't like Mrs. O's fake eyelashes.
Bill Clinton looks healthy again...I love him.....
Biden I think is a good looking man.
President Obama looks like my high school boyfriend. HS boyfriend says he was Italian.........he didn't know his father...........looking back I think HS boyfriend was half black, half white.
I keep waiting for a terrorist/terrorists to start shooting into the crowd.
The president is being sworn in.......brings tears to my eyes, and makes me smile.
I don't like Boehner.......
Kelly Clarkson did a fantastic job!
I'm a big Beyonce fan........was disappointed in her performance.
The poet was depressing.
There's a guy in the crowd wearing an orange hat like the one my sons wear when they go hunting. Cracks me up...
I thought it was cool when the president turned to take one last look out over the national mall..... at the crowd......to take it all in....to appreciate the moment......to mentally record it all............
I think Biden and Boehner use a tanning bed......
Long story short........drug addicted sister asked for help..........she's in the hospital for 7-10 days to safely detox.........then goes to rehab for 2-3 months......................drug addicted nephew who lived with her left home 3 weeks prior to sister asking for help............................he too asked for help, left home to save his self.............has been going to meetings for 3 weeks and supposedly is drug free.......
The first lady and her daughters look pretty but I didn't like Mrs. O's fake eyelashes.
Bill Clinton looks healthy again...I love him.....
Biden I think is a good looking man.
President Obama looks like my high school boyfriend. HS boyfriend says he was Italian.........he didn't know his father...........looking back I think HS boyfriend was half black, half white.
I keep waiting for a terrorist/terrorists to start shooting into the crowd.
The president is being sworn in.......brings tears to my eyes, and makes me smile.
I don't like Boehner.......
Kelly Clarkson did a fantastic job!
I'm a big Beyonce fan........was disappointed in her performance.
The poet was depressing.
There's a guy in the crowd wearing an orange hat like the one my sons wear when they go hunting. Cracks me up...
I thought it was cool when the president turned to take one last look out over the national mall..... at the crowd......to take it all in....to appreciate the moment......to mentally record it all............
I think Biden and Boehner use a tanning bed......
Long story short........drug addicted sister asked for help..........she's in the hospital for 7-10 days to safely detox.........then goes to rehab for 2-3 months......................drug addicted nephew who lived with her left home 3 weeks prior to sister asking for help............................he too asked for help, left home to save his self.............has been going to meetings for 3 weeks and supposedly is drug free.......
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
everybody needs someone some of the time
The new unit at work sucks.
It's impossible to do all of the stuff
that has to be done in my shift.
Yesterday I kept thinking "these people are deluded"
if they think one person can manage this unit. Then I felt resentful and thought "just leave. don't put yourself through this again."
Another part of me was thinking I'd find a way to make it work.....to manage it all...........
I've been on the new unit for 3 days..............all three days I've left work without having all
of my work done..............and it's not crap I can complete the following day...........I let my relief nurse know what I didn't get to in hopes that she would complete those tasks...............but she won't because she's a lazy, sit on your phone for the first hour of her shift texting and face booking lazy bitch........she was complaining last night about how many showers her nurse assistant was scheduled to give last night..........yet her nurse assistant had been sitting at the nurses station, non stop since she arrived at work, for an hour and 15 minutes. So I said to her and her nurse assistant " well she's been sitting there doing nothing for the past hour and a half!" Must be nice to give yourself that luxury............even at the expense of your patients........................................................................I'll get it together someway......................................................I knew it wouldn't be easy...................jsut didn't think it would feel so impossible.........
I've been working on my 26 acts of kindness in honor of the Newtown shooting victims.................more about that later....
I texted my sister a year older last night.
I needed a friend to talk to.
I walked away from all of my friends, at intervals, after my divorce............and then met up with an old acquaintance from my first nursing job........became the best of friends........and he passed away................so while I have work friends, I really don't have close girlfriends anymore. I guess it's a personal choice, weird as it is..................and
I usually just handle things on my own..........just a very private person who finds it difficult to open up to other people......to put myself out there........I talk things through on here some of the time......because this isn't real life, right?............last night I wanted another human being to talk to.I wanted another persons perspective. I wanted to talk to someone I trusted to keep what I had to say confidential and who wouldn't judge me.....................................so I texted my sister a year older. She was in bed because normal people are in bed at that time on a work night.......but..........I was thinking last night was Friday since I am off work today. So it WAS my Friday. Totally forgot it wasn't her Friday.
I texted her, she called me, we talked............I felt better after getting stuff off my chest, and hearing another persons perspective........thank goodness for sisters...........and that's that....:O)
It's impossible to do all of the stuff
that has to be done in my shift.
Yesterday I kept thinking "these people are deluded"
if they think one person can manage this unit. Then I felt resentful and thought "just leave. don't put yourself through this again."
Another part of me was thinking I'd find a way to make it work.....to manage it all...........
I've been on the new unit for 3 days..............all three days I've left work without having all
of my work done..............and it's not crap I can complete the following day...........I let my relief nurse know what I didn't get to in hopes that she would complete those tasks...............but she won't because she's a lazy, sit on your phone for the first hour of her shift texting and face booking lazy bitch........she was complaining last night about how many showers her nurse assistant was scheduled to give last night..........yet her nurse assistant had been sitting at the nurses station, non stop since she arrived at work, for an hour and 15 minutes. So I said to her and her nurse assistant " well she's been sitting there doing nothing for the past hour and a half!" Must be nice to give yourself that luxury............even at the expense of your patients........................................................................I'll get it together someway......................................................I knew it wouldn't be easy...................jsut didn't think it would feel so impossible.........
I've been working on my 26 acts of kindness in honor of the Newtown shooting victims.................more about that later....
I texted my sister a year older last night.
I needed a friend to talk to.
I walked away from all of my friends, at intervals, after my divorce............and then met up with an old acquaintance from my first nursing job........became the best of friends........and he passed away................so while I have work friends, I really don't have close girlfriends anymore. I guess it's a personal choice, weird as it is..................and
I usually just handle things on my own..........just a very private person who finds it difficult to open up to other people......to put myself out there........I talk things through on here some of the time......because this isn't real life, right?............last night I wanted another human being to talk to.I wanted another persons perspective. I wanted to talk to someone I trusted to keep what I had to say confidential and who wouldn't judge me.....................................so I texted my sister a year older. She was in bed because normal people are in bed at that time on a work night.......but..........I was thinking last night was Friday since I am off work today. So it WAS my Friday. Totally forgot it wasn't her Friday.
I texted her, she called me, we talked............I felt better after getting stuff off my chest, and hearing another persons perspective........thank goodness for sisters...........and that's that....:O)
Thursday, January 10, 2013
thursday
Just another day in Ky.
Son stopped by this morning to return a drill he had borrowed.
Chit chatted with him for a bit.
I went to the grocery store.
Cleaned out my trunk........it had a bunch of work stuff in it.
I washed my sheets, blankets, and pillow cases and then made my bed.
I washed my scrubs and all my pajama's.
I baked a whole chicken........gave him a bath first........rubbed him down with olive oil then salt and peppered him........then baked him. He tasted good.
I moved all the Christmas decorations from the dining room table to the dining room floor. (They're getting a little closer to the basement.)
I bought daughter another Christmas ornament for her future Christmas tree, and I bought some tapered candles for the table for next Christmas at the grocery store It was 75% off the original price.
I went to my thrift store of a basement to see if I could find something to tinker with.......I found a puzzle that had yet to be opened. The puzzle box has a picture of Myanmar Burma. Wherever it is it's pretty. I worked on the puzzle for a couple of hours while I listened to music. It was relaxing.
All that's left to do is pack my lunch for work tomorrow.
It was a quiet day........just the way I like it.
I start a new assignment at work tomorrow................I'll be doing the same thing I do now, only on a different unit. I'll have an additional 10 or maybe 12 patients.
It will probably feel a bit overwhelming for a few days..........until I get a routine down, get to know the patients, and organize
everything...................organizing stuff is what I do well............and once I get going I enjoy it.
Son stopped by this morning to return a drill he had borrowed.
Chit chatted with him for a bit.
I went to the grocery store.
Cleaned out my trunk........it had a bunch of work stuff in it.
I washed my sheets, blankets, and pillow cases and then made my bed.
I washed my scrubs and all my pajama's.
I baked a whole chicken........gave him a bath first........rubbed him down with olive oil then salt and peppered him........then baked him. He tasted good.
I moved all the Christmas decorations from the dining room table to the dining room floor. (They're getting a little closer to the basement.)
I bought daughter another Christmas ornament for her future Christmas tree, and I bought some tapered candles for the table for next Christmas at the grocery store It was 75% off the original price.
I went to my thrift store of a basement to see if I could find something to tinker with.......I found a puzzle that had yet to be opened. The puzzle box has a picture of Myanmar Burma. Wherever it is it's pretty. I worked on the puzzle for a couple of hours while I listened to music. It was relaxing.
All that's left to do is pack my lunch for work tomorrow.
It was a quiet day........just the way I like it.
I start a new assignment at work tomorrow................I'll be doing the same thing I do now, only on a different unit. I'll have an additional 10 or maybe 12 patients.
It will probably feel a bit overwhelming for a few days..........until I get a routine down, get to know the patients, and organize
everything...................organizing stuff is what I do well............and once I get going I enjoy it.
Monday, January 07, 2013
monday
I got up early today to clean the kitchen and put away the Christmas decorations piled on my dining room table.
I ended up making a huge breakfast for boyfriend and daughter ...................and then I laid in bed watching TV until I drifted off to sleep and slept for 5 hours. ( I worked double shifts Saturday and Sunday) It felt good..
I probably won't sleep tonight. I plan on working on a painting. I have a bunch of canvas, and just bought lots of acrylic paints.........I'm anxious to do some painting.
Tomorrow I might go to Lowe's and check out their kitchen cabinets.......... flooring for the kitchen..........................................and appliances......................................................
My teeth hurt.
I have a bad habit of chewing ice.
The first thing I do every morning is take my Thyroid medicine and munch on a cup of ice. Then I shower and munch on another cup of ice..........and during my ride to work I munch on another cup of ice. I crave it.
My dentist isn't going to be very happy.
I ended up making a huge breakfast for boyfriend and daughter ...................and then I laid in bed watching TV until I drifted off to sleep and slept for 5 hours. ( I worked double shifts Saturday and Sunday) It felt good..
I probably won't sleep tonight. I plan on working on a painting. I have a bunch of canvas, and just bought lots of acrylic paints.........I'm anxious to do some painting.
Tomorrow I might go to Lowe's and check out their kitchen cabinets.......... flooring for the kitchen..........................................and appliances......................................................
My teeth hurt.
I have a bad habit of chewing ice.
The first thing I do every morning is take my Thyroid medicine and munch on a cup of ice. Then I shower and munch on another cup of ice..........and during my ride to work I munch on another cup of ice. I crave it.
My dentist isn't going to be very happy.
Friday, January 04, 2013
speaking of domestic violence
I was relaxed and lost in my thoughts while taking down Christmas decorations today........................then my sister called and asked if I'd do her a huge favor...........................she could not leave work, her son was having neck spasms and needed to be seen by the doctor........." will you take him?" Ho hum..................................I took him. Luckily, and unlike any doctor I've ever been to, nephew was seen right away. The whole trip took 20 minutes. He'll be okay in a day or two.......................................................He's my 14 year old nephew who owns his own lawn care and snow removal business. He has two employees........and was able to buy his first riding lawn mower last spring. :O) Business is good.
Our water has been turned off all day.
The Sanitation Dept.......or maybe it's the water department who has been working across the street since this morning..................I have a pile of scrubs on the floor in the hallway that need to be washed, and I need to shower if I'm going to work tomorrow............so hopefully I'll have water by 5 am .........
Speaking of domestic violence..............................................when I quit smoking I pretended cigarettes were an abusive spouse.........................even though they were harming me, I needed them.........they filled a void.......they were a habit, a hobby, an addiction...I loved them.....when I was stressed, sick, or bored they were there for me.....but I always paid a price............every time I gave in to them......I'd be physically harmed.............and to boot, I was supporting their crazy ass.....................................enough was enough..............i was sick and tired of being sick and tired..................so I walked out cold turkey! Our separation lasted two years. Then one night I allowed him to see me again.......just one quick talk..................before I knew it I was back in his grip, under his control.....................................................I hate that mother fucker.............I'm secretly planning another escape........
Our water has been turned off all day.
The Sanitation Dept.......or maybe it's the water department who has been working across the street since this morning..................I have a pile of scrubs on the floor in the hallway that need to be washed, and I need to shower if I'm going to work tomorrow............so hopefully I'll have water by 5 am .........
Speaking of domestic violence..............................................when I quit smoking I pretended cigarettes were an abusive spouse.........................even though they were harming me, I needed them.........they filled a void.......they were a habit, a hobby, an addiction...I loved them.....when I was stressed, sick, or bored they were there for me.....but I always paid a price............every time I gave in to them......I'd be physically harmed.............and to boot, I was supporting their crazy ass.....................................enough was enough..............i was sick and tired of being sick and tired..................so I walked out cold turkey! Our separation lasted two years. Then one night I allowed him to see me again.......just one quick talk..................before I knew it I was back in his grip, under his control.....................................................I hate that mother fucker.............I'm secretly planning another escape........
Thursday, January 03, 2013
errands and such
I ran a bunch of errands today, including grocery shopping, and running to the bank.
I also went to Hobby Lobby to buy some acrylic paints.
The last several years I've been buying ornaments for a Christmas tree that daughter will have when she has her own home someday. I bought a few of those today. I found some really cute AND some very pretty ones.One of them has a black cat on it that looks just like Mr. Bojangles.
A work friend wants a Christmas ornament that has a rainbow on it............she associates rainbows with her deceased parents...........for the past three years I've heard her mention this rainbow ornament..........and every year at Christmas time I try to find one for her..........I googled them............but didn't like what I found.....................tonight I'm going to try to make one for her.......................if it looks like poo, I'll go back to Google.
I also went to Hobby Lobby to buy some acrylic paints.
The last several years I've been buying ornaments for a Christmas tree that daughter will have when she has her own home someday. I bought a few of those today. I found some really cute AND some very pretty ones.One of them has a black cat on it that looks just like Mr. Bojangles.
A work friend wants a Christmas ornament that has a rainbow on it............she associates rainbows with her deceased parents...........for the past three years I've heard her mention this rainbow ornament..........and every year at Christmas time I try to find one for her..........I googled them............but didn't like what I found.....................tonight I'm going to try to make one for her.......................if it looks like poo, I'll go back to Google.
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