monday

I took the day off work.
I  couldn't force myself to go.
Hopefully I won't
get fired.

sunday

Did the grocery shopping and went to the bank today. Alonzo (SP?) waited on me at the bank. He's the sweetest, friendliest teller. I like when hes' there. I wish I could fix him up with daughter. Daughter said "No.  I like Carlos."

I have chicken and dumplings cooking, and I'm watching a movie. I do a little cleaning during commercials. Not a lot of cleaning is going to get done! :O) Daughters best friend, Mariah, is eating supper with us. She's never had dumplings before. I told Mariah about Alonzo. Maybe they could hook up?

I think I'm PMS and that's why I've been overly sensitive. Who knows.....


Fleetwood Mac - Landslide - YouTube                love this song.

saturday

I'm in a hurry. This will be quick.
Work sucked yesterday.
Two nurses were fired, and four of them were written up...
I hate to see people get fired.

I just texted two of my sisters asking them to help me clean mom and dads house.
One responded and is going to meet me in half an hour to help clean.
Yay!

I have a cute video of Sister Bear (daughter) and Mr. Bojangles. I'll post if if I can figure out how to upload it.

monday

I worked the weekend. It was busy. Not crazy busy, but busy none the less. Now it's over and I'm off work for the next two days. So yay!
Today I'm going to finish the work on my old console stereo (fuck you, Billy.)...........and take the packed up Christmas decorations to the storage room in the basement.
Those are my big plans!

friday

Happy Valentines Day!
We went to our favorite steakhouse for Valentines.
Boyfriend had steak, mashed potatoes, and salad.
I had chicken topped with artichoke, mushrooms, and tomatoes.
It was delicious.
For dessert I had some chocolates boyfriend gave to me from a local candy store that makes all
it's French chocolates in the store. They're the best ever.

 I bought this at a yard sale a few years ago for five bucks. It's been sitting in my basement.

The radio on it works but not the turn table.

I have an empty corner in the living room. This would be a perfect fit. Maybe I can fix or

replace the turn table.

I've cleaned it and primed it and put a missing leg back on it. Now I'm painting it.

 I think it will turn out to be a cute piece of furniture.

 

dresses

I worked 32 hours the past two days.
My feet hurt.
Son gave me a foot massager/soaker for Christmas.
I haven't used it yet. I think I will today!

Boyfriend made pancakes for breakfast.
They were delicious.

I have a few projects to choose
from to do today..........or maybe not.
Maybe it will be a stay in bed watching movies and reading type of day.
Tomorrow I'd like to get to mom and dads house to do
some cleaning. I'll wait and see how I feel tomorrow before I commit
to it.

One of the shooting victims at Sandy Hook elementary was a little girl whose
grandmother said, in talking about the little girl, "she loved dresses. she loved
any and all dresses."
It got me to thinking about all the dresses
I bought for daughter for school formals.
I packed them away thinking that one day I will have grand children who would
love to play dress up in those dresses the way I used to in my grandmothers dresses.
I unpacked the dresses and decided, with daughters permission, to donate the dresses
in honor of that little six year old Sandy Hook girl.

Yesterday I gave the dresses away.
It's one of my 26 acts of kindness.
I felt a little sad giving them away. Maybe that sounds selfish, and maybe it is selfish but I felt like I was giving a part
of my daughter away.
On the other hand I knew some other
young girl who couldn't afford to buy a dress
for a school dance would have a pretty dress to wear and maybe feel like
a princess for a night.
Maybe the little girl who loved
dresses loved them because she felt pretty in them.........I don't know.
I wanted to honor her, even if it was in a small way.

sunday

I went to mom and dads house today.
When I was there a week or so ago I had taken some pictures of the squirrels and red birds in
their back yard. Mom asked me to. She wanted a grouping of pictures of them. I developed the pictures and had them framed yesterday. So I wanted to give them to her.
She liked them. She said she wants to hang them on her bedroom wall........ She asked me to try to get a picture of  "Junior" the chipmunk that lives in a tree trunk outside her bedroom window. :O

Mom still isn't feeling well.
She was recently treated for a urinary tract infection, and started treatment this past Friday, again for the same thing. Medications scare her. She doesn't like taking them. She didn't take her antibiotic today as ordered. I talked to her about it......educated her........she made the decision to take it even though she was certain it caused heart palpitations and nausea last time she took it.
I distracted her after she took the medication in hopes she wouldn't become anxious from thinking the pill was going to harm her. She did fine. I think she will continue to take the medication the way it was prescribed now that she knows it won't kill her. :O)
While I was talking to mom, dad was in his back yard removing a fucking honeysuckle stump.
Mom was talking about him.She said  he looks tired this last year. "He's a good guy. He's a sweet person. He comes in the bedroom every night to kiss me good night and to tell me he loves me."
They argue. I don't remember them arguing very often when I was a child. Now it seems like they argue a lot. Dad will say the grass is green, mom will argue it's blue. The next day dad will say the grass is blue and mom will argue it's green. Why they argue so much is beyond me. But what I do know is that they love, respect, and take care of each other. For that I am grateful.

I dread work tomorrow.
One of my supervisors has been hostile towards me.
I'm not sure if she's been treating others the same way.
I take it personal because I don't know any other way to take it. It fills me with dread and anxiety.
To make matters worse the new unit is impossible. So everyday I fail...........................and to make matters even worse I'm working with a guy who hates me from an incident 5, 6, or 7 years ago that I really don't remember. But he says I gave him the okay to go home sick and then reported the next day that he left without permission and he was suspended for 3 days. I'm certain that's not how things happened...........................but he's carrying around resentment and contempt for me and is going out of his way to make my life difficult. He told me so Friday.
I know you aren't supposed to cry at work.
I haven't cried since I quit smoking 2 or three years ago.
But Friday the scheduler/stock person stopped and asked how I was doing. I wish she hadn't. Because that's all it took for the  tears to start flowing.
She steered me to the medication room and queer as it sounds pulled me to her and held me while I cried. lol (even though it's not funny)......................
I worry about mom.
Things have kind of been going to hell with boyfriend.
Work has become impossible.
Life can really suck some of the time......................................but it will be okay......because things have a way of working out.......................and I have Mr. Bojangles!

saturday

There's a quiet little park in our city that's in our neighborhood. Most people in the city don't know it exists except for the people who grew up in or live in our neighborhood.
The pictures above show walking trails that my brother-in-law put in the park, on his own time just for the fun of it. So far there's two of them, probably a couple miles total.He isn't finished yet. The grill pictured above was also put there by my brother-in-law in memory of his father. He's a welder. I think he built the grill during his lunch hours at work.
The baseball field is where I spent most summers evenings when I was in 4th-7th grade. Most of the neighborhood children, boys and girls, would meet at the field to play baseball. We had talent. Raw,athletic, talent................it was fun and it's one of my favorite childhood memories.

The A-Frame house is the house I check out every now and then( for the past three years, atleast) to see if  it's for sale. I know it needs a face lift but still I love it.The whole back of the house hasa beautiful screened in porch, mature tree filled backyard that backs up to the park in the pictures above.
It's empty.The nephew finally placed his aunt in a nursing home.
He'll probably list the place soon. Not that I'd have to wait until then to make him an offer. Of course my sister bought the house next door to this place a couple years ago. So there's always that to consider.
Here I go again....maybe!

tuesday

I'm thinking my thyroid medicine dose needs to be adjusted.
I've been tired. I'm really tired and have been spending most of my free time in bed
doing much of nothing.
I feel embarrassed that I spend so much time in bed. I feel ashamed, and I feel like a loser. But none of those feelings motivate me to get out of bed.
This has been going on for the most part for weeks..................................................and then there's work..............getting through the work day is a nightmare for me. I don't want to talk to co-workers because I don't have the energy. I fake it around them best as I can................when daughter comes home from work, school, or time out with friends I pretend that I've been up and out of the house even............
I don't feel depressed in a sad kind of way..........just tired...........and overwhelmed.
There's so much to do, so little energy to get it done!

saturday

"Piece of Shit Car".................Funny song, Billy!