friday

i have cramps and i'm tired. :O)~
i'm always tired when i have cramps..... irritable too!
so while out with boyfriend for a while today i asked him to just take me home.
i wanted to take a nap.
so i did nap.....................................then grilled some chops and corn on the cob........
fuck me.
i hope tomorrow is better.

thursday

One of the part time nurses I work with told me she needed some extra hours of work. I offered her my Friday shift. She took it. So I have the next 4 days off. Yay!

Its been raining, thundering, and lightening here for 2 days.
I love it. It's relaxing.

I went to mom and dads after work last night.
I checked on moms medications, folded some laundry and did the dishes...........and then like most nights I sat next to her in bed and we chit chatted.

I'm going to do some painting today.
I want to paint a picture of my children standing side by side and holding hands while on Tiki Island looking out at the ocean. It's a clear snapshot in my mind from a life time ago................... it still makes me smile when I remember them standing there.

monday

There's not enough time in a day to do all the things I need and want to do. I feel overwhelmed some of the time!

friday

 

 

Went to look at some land yesterday. One place was 9 acres and the other was 20 acres. Neither is what I'm looking for.........................................I'll find the right place eventually!

 

The horse above was  standing behind the other horse. I got out of the car and called to him. He came right over to the fence to say hello. He doesn't look so sweet, but he is! He's adorable. I wanted to take him home with me.

wed

I went to the doctor this morning for a pretty routine appointment then went to mom and dads house.
The physical therapist was there (half an hour late) to work with mom.
I didn't like the tone of voice she used with mom or the content of what she said to mom. I set her straight.  I was calm and direct with her even though I wanted to scream.
After the therapist left I helped mom with a bath, and I shampooed her hair. I made sure to massage her scalp really good.......cause I knew she'd like it! While mom dressed I did a few chores  including a load of laundry. She finished dressing about the same time I completed my chores..... So we went out to lunch, and shopping. She hasn't been shopping in a little over 4 weeks. She loves to shop!
It was a great day. I enjoyed every minute of it.........I think mom did too.............I had her out for quite some time. She was exhausted by the end of the afternoon................................................ I was a little worried about her. I called her about an hour after I took her home. I wanted to make sure she was OK.  She was sitting in bed with my sister eating cheese crackers. :O)

My one tomato! I'm proud of that tomato!

I have 2 peppers growing!

My Sweet Basil, Parsley, Cilantro, Chives, and Oregano....

Some of my pretty flowers....:O)

saturday

I had words with drug addict sister.
I know she's sick. I feel compassion
for her.
I also feel resentment.
She's not a nice
person.
She's selfish. She's hateful. Her
words are weapons used to hurt others.
She's filled with self pity.
I love her..........and
I hate her.
Right now I don't care to ever
be a part of her life again.

wed.

I went to mom and dads house after work this evening.
Two of my sisters helped mom with her bath. She told me " it was a wonderful bath!"...............and that after the bath "your sisters buffed me with powder!." Cracked me up!


Mom hates taking pills. She gags on them.........always has......................when I'm there I help her throw away her Vitamin D. She doesn't want it but worries dad or sisters will get mad at her if she doesn't take it. I'm her partner in crime when it comes to the vitamin D. If she doesn't want the damn thing then its going in the toilet. I see the relief on her face when it's flushed.

I'm going to read a little then go to bed.

monday

I went to mom and dads house today.
I tucked mom in bed before I left and gave her a big hug and kiss
good night.
She hugged me tight and gave me a kiss.
It still feels good to be hugged and kissed by my mom.

Don't be jealous, Billy, but my tomato plant has its first tomato!
I just hope it isn't the one and only........I'll take a picture of it tomorrow!

I've been reading Under The Dome by Stephen King. It's good.

sunday

recent text messages received:

Daughter: Mr. Bojangles is acting out. I think he misses you!

Sister: Mom called the kidney doctor a lesbian.

Boyfriend: Little People.........Amy and Matt Roloff are splitting up.

Work friend: When did we get a 5th nurse?

Other sister: thank god!

Daughter: Mom, no. Lol and it's bitch don't kill my vibe.

saturday

While in the ER the day mom became ill and wrecked her car dad asked "why did they name it PMS?...................because Mad Cow Disease was already taken."
Cracked me up....and pissed me off. lol

Mr. Bojangles

Happy 3rd Birthday, little man!
I love you.

friday

I cleaned my house today.
It was long over due.
I also did all the laundry........there wasn't that much to do.
My house looks and smells good! Feels good to have it clean!

I made a crock pot full of cabbage, red potatoes, Italian sausage, onions, green peppers, and a little garlic for supper.
It was delicious.

Thursday

I renewed my drivers license today.
They didn't say anything about them being expired. Neither
did I.
I paid the 22 bucks to renew them and was on my way.......

I went to see mom today.
I love her.
She's a great mom......

I bought an I-Pod today.
Boyfriend is walking with me now...............he talks and complains.
I just want to walk and get lost in my own head.
I don't want to engage in conversation or listen to him complain.
I think the I-Pod will help.

monday

I forgot to re-new my drivers license.
It expired May 18. I can't believe I forgot.
I wonder if they give you any kind of grace period.

sunday

Mom came home from the hospital the day before yesterday.
She's weak.She's tired.
But she looked better yesterday
than she did the day before.


The past month has been exhausting................to say the least.......................  there IS a  lot more to say.............it's all kind of tied up in knot in my head and in my stomach...................................so I'll refrain from saying more for now.

I want to do something fun today even though my laundry is piled up and my house needs a good cleaning.
It's times like this that I wish I had a wife maid.