monday

My mom passed away this morning.
She was at home in her bed............me,  my sisters, and our dad in bed or at her bedside with her.
All of us holding her hand.
I love her so much and miss her something terrible.....................still trying to wrap my head around it.

monday

I've been down and out with a resp. infection. Too tired to respond,or write, or anything.

monday

A horrible cramp in my foot woke me early this morning. I walked until it went away. There's always something it seems to interrupt my sleep. Fuck me.

I'm going to mom and dads house today to help mom with last minute Christmas preparations. There shouldn't be much left to do...........................................and I want to check on dad. He's down with bronchitis. Hopefully he's feeling better.

All the gifts are wrapped and under the tree........except for We-Ping and Mr Bojangles gifts. They're still in the trunk of the car.

I'll invite mom to come back to my house with me. I can do some of my baking while she's here and visit with her at the same time. I doubt that she'll come though............it's such a daunting task for her climbing the steps  to my house............depends are how she is feeling. Maybe I'll take my stuff to moms and do my baking there.............

Sons and daughter are coming over tomorrow night to have dinner with me and boyfriend. After dinner we will open gifts and then play some poker. I'm looking forward to having them all here. On Christmas day we will  meet at my mom and dads house as will my sisters and their families. I'm looking forward to seeing most of my family.

Did I mention i'm off work for the next 2 weeks? Yay!

friday

I had my routine physical today.
My blood pressure was perfect.
The doctor gave me a stronger anti inflammatory
for my back/shoulder and showed me some exercises to stretch the muscle.
I'm looking forward to not hurting.

I spent all dayw ith mom yesterday. I ran errands for her. She'd wait in the car while I ran into wherever she needed me to go...................she came in to some of the places with me...............you're right though, Billy.............................she's tired........................and I think she's tired of being short of breath and tired........
It's quite sad.....heart breaking really......

I'm just trying to make it through the weekend so I can start my vacation.
Mom told me yesterday she needs to see her mom.
So when I'm on vacation I'll take her to see her mom.........

sunday

Busy with work and helping to take care of  mom..................busy with holiday preparations..........................thinking about getting involved again with community theatre .....when I have the time.............if I haven't lost my nerve to do it......................................................................................
Boyfriend, We-Ping, and Mr. Bojangles are in bed watching TV.

I just got back from sisters house...............................took her the birthday present I got her.............chit chatted with her and one of my other sisters for awhile........it was fun.........cleaned moms house, did her laundry, and put up the rest of her Christmas decorations today.Daughter and one of her girlfriends helped me.

thursday

It's been crazy busy for several weeks. I crash hard at the end of the day.

My back gutter is leaking between the gutter and the house.
I called the company who put on my new roof, gutters, and down spouts. He's coming out again today. He said he came a couple days ago and couldn't find a problem....................so he called today and I explained to him there's mold on the outside brick, and the paint on the kitchen wall that's just behind the moldy brick, is bubbling................................luckily it's raining........................he will  see the water leaking behind the gutter..............................the gutter is not clogged.        I just want the problem fixed before more damage is done.

Mom isn't doing so well.
Me and 2 of my sisters took her to the doctor day before yesterday.........we had many questions........and a few suggestions...............................the visit went well in that our questions were answered and doctor agreed with our suggestions and had a couple of his own................so all of that has been set into action...........................if it turns out that none of this benefits moms well being then we have 1 more thing planned.............................and from there we continue to love her, spend as much time with her as possible, and help to keep her comfortable................................................2 of my sisters haven't been involved in helping to care for mom for whatever reason.............................................if they only knew what a wonderful experience it has been...........and how grateful I feel for all of this time with mom...............................and how much fun mom, me, dad and my two other sisters have had in spite of her illness....................................................they are missing out on a truly awesome opportunity.