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Took daughters car in today to have new tires put on and for an alignment. Went to pick it up and they told me the front right ball joint, or ball joint arm is bent. So I left it to be fixed.........

I hung a painting today that I bought a week ago for the living room. It's little,  peaceful,and pretty.


Happy, playful, miniature clown
Why are you laughing with tears in your eyes?
Have you run out of causes to develope your strength?
You look like a puppy who just lost his bone.

Go walk in the grass, feel the dew on your feet,
Hold your head up high, let the rain fall on your face.
And then, go bake your dreams in the warm, soft sunlight
until they are well done.
-Mom-


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wed

I called off work today.
I hate to call off. I worry and fret about it.
But I did it anyway because my stomach is sick. I  probably could have muddled through an eight hour shift,but doing 12.5 hours would be miserable I think......and I don't wanna be....so  here I am taking a sick day and worrying. but it beats the alternative.

we took a ride out in the country yesterday.
it's relaxing and beautiful.
still wanna buy a piece of it........would be nice to leave land to my
children when i die.........and to have a weekend get a way.

our family memorial day picnic was nice. my sister hosted it. it was nice to not have to do all the work.....or any work for that matter.......just showed up and enjoyed!
dad looked good for the most part.

put some pretty daisies on moms grave yesterday. i think about her all the time.

friday

boyfriend and I went out to lunch yesterday.
it was beautiful weather so we ate outside.
4 guys were  at the table next to us. one of them
struck up a conversation.
i was attracted to him.......felt a very strong attraction that i haven't felt in
a long time......caught me off guard........felt uncomfortable since boyfriend
was with me...........even today i thought of
that man and the attraction i felt.........wondered why i was so attracted to him............

had a quiet day here. painted  a few clay pots. they turned out really pretty i think.......
will probablt put them on top my buffet....with my owls.
i hung some new curtains, and tried to clean off my dining room table..........didn't get the job done though.........and i washed my scrubs.

I
m looking forward to seeing my family sunday.

thursday

I was sound asleep  this morning when  boyfriend woke me by rubbing my foot and   telling me to get up. I didn't want to be awake yet. It's my day off. Mr. Bojangles wasn't even awake yet. I really wanted to sleep! Let sleeping people sleep darn it!
So I got up....and
We went to look at swimming pools.
I've been thinking about getting one for a couple of years........keep putting it off thinking I'm going to move. I'm not moving............least not today...............

I mowed the backyard this afternoon,  planted some flowers........mulched...........................and I planted tomatoes, chili peppers, and sweet peppers................and last summer mom bought me some wild flowers seeds.......didn't have the time last summer to plant them...........I did today............anxious to see them grow..........

monday

I thought about listening to music on my way home from work tonight........not something I've been able to do since mom passed away.....hurts too bad................tonight I wanted to though.........I figured I could handle some good old rock n roll, but only rock n roll...........I accidentally turned to a live broadcast from Carnegie Hall...................a Japanese woman who lives in London was playing the piano........I can usually only tolerate classical music in small doses.............but this was so stunningly beautiful...I mean it was one of the prettiest things I've ever heard........then......she came back for a encore.......that too was beautiful............

My sister is having a picnic/grill out this Sunday.I was scheduled for a 12 hour shift, and bummed that I wouldn't be able to go.......then today.........I found a replacement for my shift! Yay!

One more 12 hour shift and then I have 3 days off.  DOUBLE YAY!

friday

We had a pot luck at work today. It was part of our cancer awareness day......and part of our National Nursing Home week celebration.
I wore sky blue scrubs, the color for colon cancer and a navy blue ribbon  for prostate cancer. I attached the ribbon to my top with moms dragon fly pin. The pin has sky blue and dark blue stones in it. My elderly female patients loved it..........I liked wearing it........cause it was moms....and it's pretty.

On my way home from work I stopped at a TJ Max that just opened.
I bought a cheerful table cloth for my dining room table, and I bought 2 bars of soap. One is fresh sea salt the other is rose. They smell delicious! I can't wait to try them!

It's Friday and I have the weekend off!

tuesday

So I met the realtor today to put in a contract on a house........chickened out..........then called her to come to my house to do the contract and to list my house..........then called dad............because I wanted his opinion...........he gave me about 10 reasons why I should not buy the house...............and then I thought screw it.......I'm not buying or selling...................yet.

I worked in my back yard all morning. It looks good!

Me, daughter, and boyfriend grilled out and had supper outside. It was nice,and the burgers were great!

monday

Mother's Day was a nice day.........a bitter sweet day..........................met sisters and dad at the cemetery.............lots of flowers, and a little squirrel was placed on moms grave......and a love note from dad.............we sat and talked for a couple of hours.........dad brought each of us a gift...........framed pictures of mom on her and dads 50th year reunion, and a picture of mom sitting on the lot that they had their house built...........nice pictures, and thoughtful of dad to frame and make copies for us..............
Dad, my grown children, my boyfriend and I grilled steaks last night.........had a nice dinner at the dining room table...........dad had lots of new jokes..............good conversation.........relaxed and pleasant..........I love being withmyfamily...
Both my sons each made a list of 10 things they love about me. Some of what they wrote cracked me up , some of what they wrote pulled at my heart strings and brought tears to my eyes in a good way.............I have good kids........I'm very fortunate.

friday

So I found a pretty cool house .. It's considered rural so there won't be city tax to pay, and it feels rural.......it feels right..........and it's still close enough to the city so that I won't be spending all my time commuting to work.......................it could do for now.

Mr. Bojangles woke me at 4 this morning. His food bowl was empty. I told him he had to quit waking me or I was sending him to a foster home. He responded by rubbing my leg with the side of his face. He's so damn cute.

Hawaiian day is Wed. at work. Why Hawaiian day I haven't a clue. But we've been wearing the same colored ugly mandatory scrubs everyday for 5 years.  I'm looking forward to wearing something different even if it's a flowered Hawaiian shirt!

sunday

The Ky Derby was fun to watch. The horse I picked to win did not win...........but still it was fun!
After the derby  we grilled some burgers and chicken.......................................before the derby we looked at several properties...........................it was a nice day. I wore moms lipstick........it looked better on her...............and I wore her necklace, a gold pine cone on a chain........made me feel closer to her.
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I worked on my painting today. I just need to add a birds nest........probably do it tonight.........and then it will be finished!

thursday

I'm off work today but it's tucked between two 16 hour shifts. It's nice, but it's not enough time.

I have to clean a fan today. It has dust balls growing on it. Some of them blow off when I turn the fan on.........it's gross.........................and I have a pretty table in my garage that dad found in the garbage, cleaned up and gave to me. I want to put it out on the deck today. It's pretty I think........and it reminds me of mom............cause she rolled her eyes when I asked her if she saw the table dad got out of the garbage......lol..................I miss her.

I never did finish the painting I've been working on........so there's that to do.............and I bought a new book NYPD RED......James Patterson................looking forward to reading it. His last book I read was great put it pissed me off because he  didn't end it.........you had to decide for yourself how it all worked out................it was a cop out on his part I think.

Mr. Bojangles let me sleep in today. He's looking out the window. My curtains have cat fur on them. I guess I could clean them.