thursday

So I'm sticking with my commitment to walk daily. Most days I have an argument in my head with myself about whether or not to walk. So far I win.  :O)

Middle son's 26th birthday is in a few days.
I'm having him over tomorrow for dinner.
I'm making a veggie salad, ordering pizza, and
making him a carrot cake!
As always I look forward to having him, his brother and sister here at the same time.

tuesday

Work was crazy busy. I felt a little overwhelmed, and to boot, when another nurse called me to come help her with her patient who was probably dying, I had an anxiety attack while with her in her patients room.  For a minute I thought I was going to die.........

When I pulled in my driveway tonight after work my sister was turning around in the cul-de-sac up the street from my house. I sat in the car with her for a few minutes and chit chatted............. until we came in the house and talked some more. It was nice to have her stop by.......unexpected and nice........

I'm just so relieved to be away from that place (work).......and that I have the next 3 days off.



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sunday

Kitty woke me up a couple of hours ago. He wanted food and to be let outside. I wasn't able to go back to sleep after I fed and let him outside, though I tried. So I watched the weather report for today, read some blogs, and paid bills.
We're supposed to get some pretty bad weather later today. I'm looking forward to it. In the mean time I'm going to go to the grocery store, and wash the inside of my car.

? Susan Boyle - Daydream Believer (I Dreamed a Dream) 2009 - YouTube

monday

So I went to the bank, the cemetery, and then to the gas station for gas and a Icee. The guy working the register told me he liked my purse. lol. I've never had a guy comment on my purses before. Sweet.....

One of the nurses I work with is crazy in love with a guy she's been dating for a couple of weeks. I love hearing about new love. So a few of us were talking to her about it........and about our idea's of love. The girl newly in love said she wants a breakfast sandwich type love. We asked her to explain and she referred to the egg sandwich I bring to work. One day she asked me how I have time on work mornings to cook. I told her my boyfriend makes breakfast for me. So yea....that's what she wants.......a guy who will take time to do little things for her......like make a egg sandwich........breakfast sandwich type love.....lol........cute.

friday

Son called and invited me to walk with him yesterday. He walks each day after he gets off work. So I walked with him yesterday at the community center, down by the lake. It was a pretty day. We got to see deer and chipmunks, and the time flew by.

When I left the community center I stopped by to see dad.
We looked through some old pictures I've never seen before from his childhood.......and he told me stories about his family I'd never heard before. It was nice.

The pot of chili I made with veggies from my garden turned out delicious.
I'm going to pack some for my lunch at work today.

thursday

I like when I wake in the morning, everyone in the house but me is still sleeping, and the world is still quiet. It's one of my favorite times of the day.

So when I arrived home last night after working a 12 hour shift I went straight to the treadmill and did a 20 minute mile at a 50% incline. It doesn't sound like much, and I could have done more. I think the biggest problem I have is that I get bored. Finding the right music to listen to while I walk will help. So I'm on a search for some music.

I picked a bunch of spicy chili peppers, bell peppers, and tomatoes from my garden. I'm going to make a pot of chili for dinner. It will be delicious!

I woke up this morning at 4:30. We-Ping was knocking at the kitchen door to get inside. I thought she was upstairs with sis when I went to bed. Felt a little guilty she'd been left out all night even though she probably had a blast.
HAPPY 8th BIRTHDAY We-Ping! I promise to get your nails trimmed soon! I love you my soft furry friend.

tuesday

I've had 3 dreams about mom since she died.
In the second to last dream I got to hug her tight as she hugged me back and tell her again how much I love and miss her.
She reassured me that everything and everyone would be OK.........................and in the first dream she just smiled at me, when I'd look at her she'd be smiling at me and she had this look that she had a new understanding and wisdom
about everything..................................and even though I woke from all 3 dreams crying, I felt like I had visited with my mom, and had been comforted by her.

I took daughter today to get a new student ID. Daughter, a friend of hers, and I did a little shopping. Middle sons birthday is coming up. I bought him some luggage, because it's what he wants. After shopping I took the girls out to lunch. I had garlic shrimp stacked on tomatoes, cucumbers, and guacamole. The girls had chicken. It was pretty good!


I walk on the treadmill but not everyday. A couple of other blogs that I read have inspired me to walk everyday. There's really no reason not too. My goal is to walk daily for a year. After I accomplish that goal I'll set a new one.

monday

I woke at 3:30 this morning full of anxiety& unable to
go back to sleep.
I worry about my job, my
health, my dad,my relationship with boyfriend,
and the IRS.
  I try to turn the worry off but can't. I know it's useless to try
to sleep.....so  here I sit.......deep breathing, trying to relax.....trying to let it go....

I look forward to an up coming trip  to Tenn. with my best work friend.
Looking forward to seeing the mountains, hiking, fishing, and relaxing.....

Nothing much
happened today.
I pulled weeds, went to the grocery, and the cemetery.
I made tacos for dinner.
Son came over this evening and had dinner
with us. Daughter went out with friends.
Oldest son

I went to mom and dads house today to see dad. Daughter and one of her girlfriends went with me. Dad was in the family room hanging blinds. As soon as we got there he went into his stand up comedy routine.......one joke after another. Some of them cracked me up! He's silly.
We didn't stay very long though cause dad and my oldest son were headed out to my sisters house to do some target shooting.
I took the girls out for pizza, then browsed the craft store to checkout the prices on canvas........the girls took a nap when we got home...............I chatted on the phone with my sister.......mostly we talked about mom..................we miss her.............
I took tomorrow off without pay.

tuesday

Daughter and I had a little picnic dinner on the deck today.

She picked the menu. I cooked.
It's always nice spending time with her. She's usually talkative.
Today not so much.
We both stayed up late last night. I think she was tired.

Son stopped over on his way home from work. I sent some
some fried chicken home with him.

Boyfriend is still in Colorado. He went home for a funeral and while there
his brother was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. He's terminal.
Boyfriend is spending time with him and with the rest of his family.

Daughter had her physical the other day.
She told the doctor her dad canceled her insurance
so she'd rather he not do any blood work. The doctor said to her
"you get one free visit."  Daughter was like"huh?" The doctor said it was a free visit, and to go ahead and get the labs that they'd be included in the free visit.......so she had the check up, tetanus shot,a TB test, blood work and urinalysis......FREE. I was expecting to pay around 200-225 bucks for the appointment not counting lab work.. Needless to say I was thrilled, and grateful. It was very nice of them to not charge her. I have never heard of such a thing.

My old director of nursing stopped by my house the other day. I haven't seen or talked to her in
maybe 6 years. She was a good D.O.N. I think......a little short tempered, but still good at the job........it was fun talking to/catching up with her. :O)

wed

I'm off work the next 3 days.
They changed my assignment at work.
I've been working the new one for about2 weeks.
The staff is lazy and not very approachable.
The unit is hot and muggy. Supplies aren't stocked, and meds
aren't ordered in a timely manner.........and the computer that
I use doesn't work very well.
I don't need this crap anymore.

I'm going along with daughter to the doctor today.
She needs to have a physical for school. She'll start clinicals this year. She called her dad to ask if he had a copy of her health insurance card. He told her he took her off the policy.
I think he paid 16 bucks a month for her to be on his policy. Yet he canceled it. I can't believe he would do that.........
I'm so pissed. Mostly I feel badly for daughter.......I guess I could go on and on
about him...and I want to......and I've thought about calling him
to tell him exactly how I feel...............I want to so badly.................but it would change nothing, would fix nothing................I hate him right now.