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This is the time of night when I think about my dad, and I wonder what he is doing. And then I debate in my head over calling him or not calling him.
I worry that i might wake him. I worry if he is lonely..........and I wish I could talk
to him with the ease that I could my mom.
 The love is the same. The relationship is different.

sunday

we got slammed again  with snow Saturday. it came while we slept and continued all day. we're buried. Luckily
I'm reading a pretty good book that
daughter brought  home to me from the library. it's called "wild." it's about a women who hikes 1100 miles of the pacific west trail alone. there's a movie based on the book. most of the reviews were bad. the book had good reviews. I'll read the book then see the movie when it's out on video.
  I'm jealous that i don't have the courage to hike an 1100 mile hike on my own. i think it would be awesome.
 heck, I'm afraid to walk to my works parking lot alone at night.

thursday

Went back to work yesterday after a long vacation.
It was a long 12 hour shift but the vacation did me good.
I felt rested. I didn't feel burned out.

Three weeks before my vacation
we admitted a terminal patient.
She was a  nurse.
I had a special fondness for her and her family. Maybe because she was closer to my age than most of my patients. Maybe because she too was a nurse. Or maybe because her children were close in age to my children. Or maybe because I'd just lost my mom,been through what they were going through..  Some of the time, for whatever reasons, it just happens. You get close to a patient.
I felt protective of her and her family........
When I would talk with her about her dying, the part that made her
saddest was the leaving her children. She said she would miss them.
Good family.......and they were grateful.........I considered skipping my vacation because it just felt wrong leaving her........like I needed to see things through............
She passed away though the night before my last day of work before my vacation.
Her children and family came in the next day. They hugged and thanked me.
I mention her because she was an important part of my life, even if it was for just a really short time.........just felt wrong to not mention her.......

I finished the puzzle. I love boats, and the water!

Dad dropped off some oranges, lol, and a couple of movies he thought I'd like. One is East of Eden, the other is Splendor in the Grass. He asked me to watch Splendor first........said it would make me cry.......and that it was one of moms favorites.

Dad's a James Dean fan.............him and mom have been to Deans Indiana childhood home.....and while in California, to the place where he wrecked his car.

 

Boyfriend has an appointment today, and daughter will be at work........I'll probably watch Splendor in the Grass while they are gone.

 

 

tuesday

daughter and I made homemade pizza's night before last. she pepperoni and cheese and i made green peppers, onions, mushrooms, anchovies, and bacon pizza. the crust didn't turn out so great, but we had fun making them!

I've been working on a puzzle. I'm not very good at it. i can get impatient. but some of the time i get lost in the task at hand and find it relaxing.

the beginning of a snow storm......we ended up getting 6 -10 inches. it's beautiful.

just after the snow started falling i took the pot roast i made for dad to his house. also took him a small loaf of bread and some heart shaped sugar cookies. i had a nice visit with him. he showed me his new collection of books he bought at the library. most of them he payed a quarter for. he left one for me on my front porch a couple of days ago. it's a nice little story about starting over, and the relationship between mothers and daughters. i'm enjoying it!

pretty flowers from boyfriend for valentines day. we had a nice, quiet, romantic dinner here.......i cooked him some of his favorites.  i have to say that the meal was delicious.

sunday

my new great nephew. he was born the day after Thanksgiving.

 Big Man playing with his Xmas present.

went to the grocery store today. we're expecting a big snow storm tomorrow, wanted to get a few things before it hits. picked up my favorites.

I've been on vacation for a couple of weeks........go back to work in 3 days.  the time off work has been nice.

boyfriend is from Colorado. he has lived in KY for 10 years.
we were out looking at property day before yesterday.
makes me laugh
when he still mixes up the
names of places such as.......................

we were in highland heights...........he was calling it highland ranch.....
while looking at a house in camp springs......he kept calling it silver springs.......
when we passed northern KY university he made a comment about them losing their first basketball game after having a 24-0 season last year. i told him he was talking about the university of Kentucky. "isn't this the university of KY?".................and he still calls Kroger, king supers.....:O)

sunday