wed

boyfriend had his 5th radiation treatment today.
i wait outside while he has his treatment.
i've had my life time fill of medical facilities.
i do go in with him though if we are getting a report of some sort, if it's a new doctor,
or if he is having a surgical procedure.
while he gets his treatment i walk laps in the parking lot.

we went to Lowe's after radiation.
i ordered a counter top for my kitchen and new appliances. i threw my dish washer away a couple years ago and didn't replace it, my refrigerator is way to big for my kitchen, and my stove has seen better days. i'm tired of looking at it!

i like your boat, billy and i hope you catch the bastard that robbed you!

wednesday

Daughter and I went out Sunday to a late breakfast , then did a little shopping.
Her birthday was the day before. She worked on her birthday then went out with friends. I didn't feel like planning and preparing a family gathering to celebrate, so the two of us hung out for awhile. It was fun. While driving we saw two horses on the side of the road getting ready to do the dirty, so I pulled over to watch. I was curious. Daughter was like "no mom! it's none of our business! Give them their privacy!" lol.

So I made the green chili a week or so ago. It turned out to be delicious. I froze half of it and will use it to make Mexican hamburgers.

Boyfriends had the CT scan needed to mark his torso so that they know where to adm. the radiation. He will go in one more time to have those markings rechecked before radiation treatments are started. Hopefully they will begin his treatments next week. It irritates me that they don't seem to feel the urgency we feel to get things going!

Boyfriend and I went out to dinner last night. He had ribs and I had prime rib. It was good!

We went to the attorneys office Monday and signed off on our wills. Feels good to have it taken care of......................the attorney was winking at me when boyfriend wasn't looking. He was an odd duck.

I headed outside to to remove the Rhubarb looking weed stuff growing up against my deck. They were gone! The guy who does the lawn must have removed them. Yay!

tuesday

Boyfriend was in bed talking on the phone last night. The bed faces the doorway and then the hallway....................I pretended the hallway was the balance beam like the one the gymnasts use in the Olympics. So I do a couple leg lifts and toe points then jump, stick a landing being sure to raise my arms above my head like the real gymnasts do after dismounting and then sticking their landing.
Boyfriend was watching me but didn't react so I repeated my routine. "What are you doing?" boyfriend asked. "My Olympic balance beam routine." To emphasize, I repeated my leap off the beam, stuck my landing, and took my bow. lol.........................I've never seen boyfriend laugh so hard .........and so loud, while he was on the phone no less.
 He cracked me up. :O) I cracked him up!

We have an appointment today with doctor radiologist, then to the pharmacy, the store and home. Whne we get home I want to cut down some rhubarb like weedy stuff growing next to the deck and cut up a huge tree branch that fell from a neighbors tree and into my backyard.

monday

I woke this morning to thunder and lightening storms. Love it!

Boyfriend  loves good Mexican food, especially green chili.
I've never made it before, never even heard of it until I met him. He eats it when he
visits Colorado.
Today I'm going to make some. Boyfriends sister-in-law sent him her recipe a few years ago. I'll use her recipe but will tweak it a little. We'll see how it turns out!

Last weekend I had a birthday dinner for middle son. After the dinner he sent me a text that read "Thanks for everything mom. You do a lot for people, things that not many people will ever see. Like the neighbor girl. That is amazing and you give her a chance by being a good influence like you were to us. You always made sure we had what we needed no matter how tough it was for you, and I love you for that...The definition of a good person is doing the right thing when no one is looking. You do that....love you."
His message made me teary eyed and it made me want to do more, to be a better person.......and just so grateful for my children.

We have an appointment with the radiologist Tuesday. Boyfriend will start radiation treatment soon after. He will get radiation tx every day for 30 days then will start Opdivo injections. There's a 20-30% chance of cure with the radiation..........Opdivo is supposed to stop the cancer from growing.  The doctor said boyfriends hope for 3 or 4 more years to live is not unreasonable.

Boyfriend and I went to an attorney last week to do our wills.
We should finish them this week or next.

friday

Boyfriend was sitting up on the side of the bed this 3:30 AM. He sometimes has trouble breathing at that time of the day.
 I sat next to him scratching his back and rubbing his head cause I knew it would help him to relax and because I like the way his shaved head feels.
 It didn't take long for him to feel better and to go back to bed.
I couldn't sleep so showered instead and then made some tea and sat out on the porch for awhile.

I've been watching the Olympics this past week.
I've especially enjoyed the swimming.

I went to the bank a couple of days ago to add beneficiaries to an account.
It's a simple task that should have taken 5 minutes.
The guy I was working with began with a very high pressure, aggressive push for me
to invest the way he thought I should. He was relentless.
I reminded him why I was there, 3 times but he ignored me and continued on with his pitch.
I was so angry when I left there. Still it's eating away at me. Asshole.

sunday

We had a wonderful night last night celebrating youngest sons birthday. We had good company, funny jokes, good conversation, and great food. It was fun! Company left at 11:30 P. After they left boyfriend and I sat on the porch until 1 AM chit chatting.

We slept well last night.
Didn't do much today. I took a long nap and will probably end up staying up late tonight.
Now I'm watching the Olympics. I love women's gymnastics.

saturday

We had the biopsy Tuesday.
It's cancer.
Chemo and surgery are not options.
We isolated, and cried for a couple of days. Now we're doing better.
They sent the specimen to check genetic markers so
they can decide on the best medicine for
this particular cancer.
We see the oncologist Tuesday.
For some reason boyfriend has decided
he'd be happy if the doctor tells him
he can help him to live 4 more years.
So until we talk to the doctor Tuesday we
are hoping for 4 more years.

I'm having a dinner tonight for middle son.
It's his birthday.
I'm making Lasagna, salad, garlic bread, and carrot cake.
I look forward to having both of my sons here at the
same time. Daughter is going to a concert so will not make it to the
dinner. My dad is coming, and boyfriend will be here. It's going to be hot but low humidity.
Hopefully we can have dinner outside.