saturday

I watched the documentary Grizzly Man ( Grizzly Man - Wikipedia)  a couple of days ago. It has been around a few years I guess.
The Grizzly Man, Timothy Treadwell , was quite the character and likeable to me!
 Part of me wondered if maybe he was suicidal. Another part of me thinks he was just naive and in denial.
 Who knows?
It's worth watching!

My adult children will be here tomorrow for a late lunch/early dinner. I also invited my dad but he is going to my sisters.
On the menu is ham, butter beans, cucumber salad, deviled eggs, corn bread, and pumpkin pie.
I almost always look forward to having the kids here.......and it's fun for me to prepare special meals.

My daughter-in-law passed away one year ago yesterday.
My son is doing well.
He began dating again a few weeks ago. It's nothing serious......... just getting his toes wet. He also starts a different job this coming week.................so a couple of new and hopefully (knock on wood) happier chapters for him........

thursday

 Reminds me of how it feels squeezing into a pair of jeans that are too tight!           She was a sweetie!

i love cows. they know how to chill!

wed

We got a couple inches of snow last night.
It was so pretty outside this morning with the snow covering
the trees, bushes,and lawns.
My mom used to call me on mornings like this to tell me to be careful on my drive to work. I miss her calls.

I sent texts to my adult children this morning and asked them to be careful on their drive to work.

I went to my gynecologist office Monday.
Prior to Monday I had  seen the same doctor  since my 20's.
 He retired.
 It's been 4 years since my last appointment . Shameful I know, but I've been busy taking care of boyfriend and too afraid to go, thinking they'd tell me I have cancer. I've been fearful of routine screenings ever since boyfriends lung cancer diagnosis..........finally the fear of not having my routine screening was greater than my fear of bad news. So I made an appointment.
I really liked this woman. She's an advanced practice nurse, not a doctor.
She seemed to understand my concerns, and anxieties.......I didn't feel judged. Because of my fear/anxiety she called me right away with my  results.
They were normal.
 It was a huge weight off of my shoulders!
 I should have gone sooner!

friday

Daughter moved into her apartment today. I helped her. When I first got there she gave me a little tour of the place. Her childhood bear lay on the not yet made bed. Made me smile to see him.

It was fun hanging out with daughter. 

This is the little table from the garbage. It doesn't look too bad. I should have sanded it before I painted it!

I made corn beef and cabbage for supper. It's a favorite of boyfriend.

Boyfriend and Woody in bed last night. I think it's cute.

THURSDAY

He always seems so content and comfortable while he sleeps.
I almost always disturb him while he sleeps by kissing him.
I can't resist.


So daughter moved in with her big brother after his wife died.........and now she is ready, and he is ready for her to move on..............so she will move into her first, all by herself apartment Friday.
She is very excited!
I'm excited for her.
The other day I found a cute little table in the garbage. It's real wood. I thought it would look nice just inside her front door, to hold her keys maybe. All it needed was to be cleaned, painted, and new hardware on the drawer.  It will look good!
I also painted the frame of a mirror I had in the basement. She has a red sofa. I painted the mirror frame gold thinking it will look good with the red sofa.

I worry a little bit about her living alone.
I don't like the thought of her coming home and having to walk in the parking lot at night, or up three flights of outdoor stairs to her apartment.
I'm a nut I guess. I worry too much no matter how hard I try not to.
I just want her safe. :o)

monday

There was a little book on the shelf in the beach house at the beach we just visited.
It was titled "Walks on the Beach" by Sandra Gingras. A relaxing easy read all about walks on the beach!
Here is one of my favorite entries from that book!

Me and My Bathing Suit

it's just me and my bathing suit. i'm carrying nothing on my walk. i go off on my own and leave my family and friends behind. how often can we, as women, truly leave it all behind?
when i see women walking alone on the beach, i think, "good for you-you got away!" away is such an important place to be-even if only for a short while.

Here is a painting of the beach house we stayed. It hangs above the mantel in the beach house. I think it's pretty.

130 days no smoking.

sunday

friday

wed

tuesday

we are back.

while our vacation had some wonderful moments,

mostly i feel like i need another vacation.