tuesday

called the life squad yesterday for boyfriend who was short of breath, chilling, and weak. he was admitted to the hospital with a diagnosis of congestive heart failure and an infection...........waiting on cultures and other reports to determine where the infection is........................they assisted him with his breathing yesterday because he was working so hard to breathe they worried he would stop breathing........................i was so scared.
 he's doing better today though. they're moving him out of the icu tonight or tomorrow.............
we had just had a great day out with boyfriends sister and nephew...........................we'd gone to the opening day at the horse track, and out for lunch.........................it was fun.............was boyfriends first time out since december i think....................was a great day! it almost felt like normal was right around the corner........................................................i took his nephew and sister to the airport this evening.............boyfriend cried when they told him good-bye.......................................

Tuesday

The kidney doctor was in to see boyfriend yesterday at dialysis.
She has changed the dialysis from 3  times per week to 2 times per week. She said his labs are really good....................................................my hope is that soon he can stop dialysis all together.
He's doing better.  Yesterday he was up and down the basement steps twice, and he walked from the lobby to the elevator to the doctors office yesterday afternoon. The last couple of times there I had to take him in a wheelchair. So that's a big improvement!

I went to look at a house today. I was so hopeful that it would be the one. It wasn't..............................not even close!

Boyfriends sister and nephew are  coming for a visit this week.
I don't want to entertain.
 I don't want to prepare meals for visitors.
I just want our old life back!

sunday

It's 230 AM.
I can't sleep.
Boyfriend is up too.

Yesterday we celebrated oldest sons birthday.
I took him, his girlfriend, and his brother and sister
out for lunch. We went to a pizza place.
It was fun!

When I got home we had to run up to the ER
to have boyfriends IV replaced. His came out and we weren't
able to get a new one in. 4 more days and the IV can come out for good!

I'm not having the family over for Easter.
I'm tired and just want a quiet day at home.

Happy Easter.        :O)

thursday

Boyfriend was discharged from the hospital day before yesterday at 9 PM.
It was midnight before I had everything taken care of that needed to be taken care of........the next day started super early as I had to have him up, dressed, and to dialysis by 7, and I had an appointment with the cardiologist at 745.........I felt stressed, and overwhelmed but from there the day only got more hectic and stressful......................I had multiple doctors to schedule appointments with, the pharmacy sent someone elses medications to us, they didn't send an IV pole and then forgot to send it at the next delivery, and the wound vac didn't get delivered. The visiting nurse was here from 4 - 730...........at one point I almost asked her to just get out..........my head was pounding, and boyfriend was exhausted.....................we had dinner at 8 pm and then boyfriend crashed...............it was my birthday and it kind of sucked.
Today should be better. We have no appointments and no one is supposed to come to the house. We got up at 330......................................................I organized, again, all of the equipment, bandages, medications, and paper work.............folded a load of laundry and threw a load in the washer........and threw out a bunch of crap.....
boyfriend is napping.
I probably will in a little bit.

sunday

I didn't sleep last night. It just wouldn't come to me. Finally at 6 AM I crashed and slept until 10 AM. When I got up I went to the hospital to see boyfriend. I gave him a haircut, trimmed his eyebrows, bathed him, shaved him, and lotioned his skin.
He's doing better. I'm optimistic they will discharge him this week.
They've been doing dialysis.
I still think his kidneys will rebound. Two of the doctors have told him they won't but I think they are wrong, young, green, impatient........................
Watched the Masters Tournament today with boyfriend.
I was rooting for Tiger!

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17 months since I quit smoking. :O)
It feels so good.....so liberating!

It's 3 am.
I couldn't sleep so I got out of bed
and folded a load of laundry, vacuumed, cleaned the litter boxes, paid bills,
and organized my purse.

I wasn't able to get to my car to clean it until yesterday..........feels good to have a clean car. I also went to the city bldg and paid property taxes on my car, and renewed my plates....glad to have that out of the way!   And then yesterday we filled out the form for boyfriend  for an extension for his taxes........nice to have that little task off of our backs!

I've been listening to sounds of rain on You Tube for when I fall asleep at night...................it's soothing and relaxing.

monday

My younger (a year younger) sister came to town yesterday to take me out to lunch for my birthday which is in a little over a week. She took me to the hamburger stand that is pretty popular around here this time of year. They only have outside seating. So it's what we did......sat outside at one of the picnic tables.............is was a nice sunny day, a good day to be outside.
It was a good day.

saturday

daughter came home from the hospital with me last evening and we had supper together.........she also went to the store with me..............we had fun listening and singing to one of our favorite country girl bands from way back when..........we had ourselves cracking up laughing.......it was fun!

saturday

I got up this morning at 3am......couldn't sleep..............organized and cleaned up the medical equipment and papers on the buffet, dining room table, and dining room floor. It looks a lot more tidy......I also vacuumed, dusted the living room, changed the dining room table, table cloth, folded a load of laundry, and threw a new load in the washer. Oh, and I cleaned out the litter boxes and went through the mail................
I did get up early yesterday and did my taxes, finally. I probably screwed them up because I rushed through them.....but still I'm glad to have them filed on time.......
My goal today is to vacuum both cars and run them through the car wash before I head up to the hospital.
It's 5:15 am.
I'm going to take a little nap then get going again.

thursday

boyfriend's back in the hospital since tuesday.

he is in acute renal failure.

he has received dialysis twice since then.

they are hoping the kidneys will begin to work again......

he was very sick the first couple of days......had issues with his breathing, nausea and vomiting, and tonic clonic movements all over his body.

he was miserable.

he was certain he was dying.

i spent the night with him.

today he is doing much better i think though he is 

very emotional.

he had a niece visit from colorado today.

he was very happy to see her, and cried when it was time to tell

her good-bye.

i got home tonight after 10......had salad for dinner.......listened to phone messages............brought the box in off the porch that ups was supposed to pick up today but didn't and kissed the kitties.

my house needs to be cleaned.

i did clean the bathroom and kitchen this morning before going to the hospital, and i am caught up on laundry, but the rest of the house needs to be cleaned.................and i still have to file my taxes....i just can't seem to find the time or energy to file them.......