monday

 If men disappeared from the planet for a year what would you do?

1. go to all the national parks by myself, and camp at them.

2. take a walk every night and early every morning

3. leave my home windows open

4. walk through parking lots without my car key held between my fingers to be used as a weapon

5. hike trails by myself

6. sleep in a hammock in my backyard.

7. sleep on the beach at night.

8. stop telling my daughter to be aware of her surroundings and for her to call me when she gets home at night so that i know she made it home safely.

9. do more star gazing

Wednesday

 I'm not very good at posting enough/more often.

I'm sorry for it. 

Yesterday I mailed a bunch of gifts to my family in Colorado. I can't believe how expensive it is and I sure do hope I had it all packaged so that nothing breaks.

I also finished 99% of my Christmas shopping. I plan on wrapping it all today. I also have to go to a nurses meeting this evening. It's silly to have a meeting during this pandemic. 

Woody is in the loft sleeping and Mr Bojangles is next to me in bed. He's bathing.

We got a nice dusting of snow early this morning and now it's raining.

I had a bacon sandwich for breakfast and I bought a pre packaged Mediterranean salad for supper.

My younger sister, also a nurse, and her husband both have Covid. My friend Erin has Covid. All of them are doing ok for the most part.

Staff and patients at my work will be getting the vaccine very soon.

I'm a little worried about taking it. 

They can preach how safe it is all they want but in my mind they're a bunch of greedy bastards whose main concern is making money........even at the expense of a persons safety and well being.

That's all.

Have a nice week.

Sunday

 It's been a really nice calm and lazy Sunday.

I got up early and folded two loads of laundry, and threw a load in the wash. Then I filled the crockpot with all the ingredients for home made bean soup with ham, made myself breakfast and took it to bed where I watched a couple episodes from two of my favorite you tubers, Joe Robinet and Rusty West. I drifted off to sleep until 12:30. After my nap I showered, made by bed, dressed and went to the car wash where I vacuumed and washed my car.

Now I'm back home. The soup has the house smelling delightful.

I just put some corn bread in the oven. I added honey to it that was given to me by middle sons friend who lives in Arizona. He raises bees,  rattle snakes,  and tortoises.

The honey is delicious. I used some of it to make sweet honey butter for Thanksgiving Day to have with dinner rolls. 

Mr. Bojangles is in my bed bathing and Woody is on the side porch keeping an eye on the neighborhood.

I HAD MY SISTERS OVER ON THE 3RD.

We exchanged xmas gifts.

It was a good time. I'm grateful for the 4 of them. 

One of my sisters bought me a furry, soft, cozy blanket. I love it. So do the kitties!

I put some Christmas lights up outside and hung wreaths in most of the windows. I ended up putting up two trees this year. One I got for 7 bucks at the end of last season. It's silver. I've always had a green tree, and I still do but I also put up the silver one. All the ornaments on it are from the dumpster. It's so beautiful. It looks like a shimmering, shiny piece of art. lol A picture probably won't do it justice but let me go get one.........

Have a nice Sunday. :O)

Monday

 Cleaned out my refrigerator last night, and I put up the xmas tree. My living room is still a mess though with other decorations and empty boxes. I got up early today and went shopping with my sister so I haven't cleaned the mess or finished decorating.

When I got home from shopping I paid my December bills and balanced my checkbook. I talked on the phone with daughter and had a brief conversation with son. I need to make a few lists tonight so that I can get all the stuff running through my mind of all the stuff that needs to be done  down on paper. I feel less overwhelmed when I make my lists. :O)~

I think my family has decided not to have our large family gathering for Christmas. Some of the time we end up with over 30 people at dads home. It just isn't safe. 

Wednesday

 Covid testing is now being done on employees twice weekly at my work. It's spreading across the US like wild fire and yet I still see people including our president not wearing masks in public. 

I busied myself cleaning the house today.

 I baked a couple of pies as I cleaned.......................................................and I think I'll do some food prep tonight so that cooking Thanksgiving dinner tomorrow will be a breeze!  It will just be me and my 3 adult children here tomorrow for dinner. It should be low key as long as no one brings up politics. :O)~

I missed boyfriend today. Really I miss him everyday. He used to like the way my hand fit into the palm of his hand. It makes me smile to think about it.

thursday

 We had a mandatory nurses meeting yesterday evening.

I was very surprised they'd have a gathering of all those people in the middle of this pandemic. 

Today I'm meeting a couple of my sisters to do some shopping. Oldest sister is sick and needs help with hers. So that's what I'm doing today.

There was no jury duty again for this week and now with new restrictions due to Corona I'm not sure what will happen as far as jury duty is concerned.

I'm looking forward to getting back to full time work after the holidays, kind of. :O)

Kitties are fine.

Mr. Bojangles is in bed with me as I type this entry, and Woody is in the other bedroom in bed.

My 3 adult children are all doing well and will be here for Thanksgiving dinner. I think dad is going to my older sisters this year. The health department recommends having Thanksgiving dinner outside this year. I suppose that's what we will do. It should be interesting. 

 I went over to work this morning for my weekly Covid test. 

I had to beg for one when I was sick. Now it seems I'm being tested all the time!

After testing I went shopping and out to lunch with my sister. It was a good time.

I made a garden salad and some tuna salad for dinner....

Nights are long some of the time. I went to the library today and bought some audio books. Everything for sale was a dime.. I thought maybe I could listen to the books at night.  I even thought about sitting out in the car tonight since it's raining. I could listen to the rain while I listen to a book. I just don't know...

I've been taking vitamin d3 maybe since Feb.

It's what was causing my joint pain. So I quit taking it. My joints felt better in just a couple of days. Who knew?

saturday

 I love how when I return home and as I come through the door I hear my cat Woodys bell on his collar jingle as he runs to the door to meet me. It's a nice moment that makes me smile. :O)

I got an oil change yesterday.

It was 95 bucks. I remember paying 19.99 for an oil change. I also needed new windshield wipers. The oil change place wanted 40 dollars for new ones. I went to Walmart and got them for 6 dollars instead...

Boyfriends former eye doctor is a regular on NCIS. I always liked his messy hair.

I think I'll cut the grass one last time this season today. And then I need to go to the grocery. 

I've been thinking about buying a bike........I used to love to bike ride.

I bought my Thanksgiving turkey yesterday.

It was 68 cents a pound.......good buy!

thursday

 I feel stressed.

I think I will feel better when this election is over.

I don't usually wish time away but I am anxious for the new year.

SAturday

 I didn't have to report this week to jury duty. I guess there's nothing scheduled. The judge did say 4 or 5 trials are scheduled for the end of the year. So we'll see how it goes.

I got my flu and pneumonia vaccines this week and I went in to work for Covid-19 testing. They test us weekly now........

I voted early mostly because I was worried about the lines being around the block on election day. I'm happy to have it done!

Happy Halloween.

I have Skittles and Airheads to pass out to the little trick or treaters! Looking forward to seeing all of their cute little faces. :O) Daughter is coming to spend the night. We're going to have pizza and watch a Halloween comedy.

I planted 65 more bulbs yesterday. Half are Daffodils and the other half are Tulips. My sister gave them to me because she decided she didn't want to deal with them. I was happy to take them!

Friday

 I had my first jury duty event Wed.

Attorneys from both sides questioned us.

I was eliminated pretty quickly because I knew the guy being prosecuted.  :O)~

Went to younger sisters house this past Wednesday ..........all of my sisters and my dad had been invited for dinner. It was a really nice time. I'm grateful for my sisters.

I voted yesterday.

I pray that Orange man doesn't get re-elected.

Went out to dinner this evening with oldest son.

It was nice to chit chat with and argue politics with him.

I had a routine doctor appointment yesterday. I told her my joints have been hurting since having Covid and the joints in my fingers are red and swollen. I also talked to her about the residual cough since Covid. She said many of her patients still have coughs 6 months after having Covid.......

SHe ordered an inhaler for the cough and also ordered blood work to find out whats going on with my joints!

I'm thinking about going back to work this Jan or Feb.

I can't just not work for the rest of my life. Well I guess I could but I'd eventually end up living under a bridge and that's no good.

After dinner with son I came home and cleaned for several hours. I turned the music on and cleaned. It feels good to be able, for the most part to be able to listen to music again.       The house looks good. I mowed the lawn yesterday so the weekend is mine to do as I please!

Saturday

 Mostly I worked in the yard today.

I planted the 60-65 tulip bulbs, pulled weeds (hopefully for the last time till next year), and laid mulch. The side garden looks nice.

 Next summer I plan lots of things for the backyard including some concrete work, and the front yard which will include taking down a tree and planting lots of plants.  I'm looking forward to it.

Thursday

 It's raining here, and it's chilly.

I didn't get out of bed today until noonish or 1 . I showered and dressed after i got up then went to the pharmacy to pick up a medication and to the grocery to get some sushi for lunch. I wish I had gotten 2 rolls. It was so good.

Even though it's raining Woody wanted outside. He let me know by meowing with the daintiest, sweetest, cutest little meow I've ever heard. 

Mr. Bojangles does not like the rain. He keeps going between his feed bowl then to rub against my ankles.

My 4 sisters and I watched the VP debate together while in a group chat with each other. 4 of us celebrated when the fly landed on Pences head. It was amazing! 

Steve Martin posted a picture of his self in his Halloween costume today. All it was was a little fly on the top of his head. It's hysterical! I love him!

Saturday

 Since my diagnosis back in April of Covid 19 I still have soreness in my eye muscles some of the time but not everyday................................and the skin in my nose and on my feet hurt. The other problem I'm still having is some of the time in the mornings I feel like I can't clear my airway. I haven't told my doctor any of this because I kept thinking eventually it will go away. Problem though is that it hasn't. It's embarrassing.

I put flea collars on both of the kitties today.

Mr. Bojangles is pissed and presently pouting. Woody is fine.

Have you ever tried pickled ginger in your garden salad. It's so good.

I miss having a companion. 

Friday

 It's another beautiful Fall day here.

I love it.

Yesterday I emptied my pool, cleaned it, and positioned it for the winter. I also trimmed

the tree in the front yard that had I had butchered a couple of weeks ago. It looks much better!

There's an estate sale up the street. I'd like to go but I don't wanna go alone. I have a text out to my sister. Hopefully she will go with me.

I bought a couple mini pumpkins to put in the yard. Trying to decide if I want to decorate them first.

Wednesday

 I went dumpster diving today and got a few treasures including  Christmas and Halloween decorations, a cute little aquarium and hamster cage. I also got colored markers, a large plant, and some candles.  It was fun.

I also did a little shopping today. I bought a cute pair of boots, long pants, and a couple of shirts.

I start jury duty Monday.......not looking forward to it.

Saturday

 Tomorrow will be one year since boyfriend passed away.

I think about and talk to him everyday.

I miss him and think how much I would love to hug, kiss, and smell him

again.

My adult children are coming over for a late lunch today. 

 I'm making green chili and chicken tacos. 

I'll burn a candle tomorrow in honor of boyfriend, plant more tulips, and maybe go to his favorite machine at the casino and play a few bucks.

Daughter is coming to town today and will spend the night tonight and tomorrow night.

I went camping with my sister a year younger this past Wed.

The area was isolated. Sister brought a handgun and a machete. lol She also brought a life size skeleton that was wearing a wig and a necklace. It's name is Gypsy. She's a trip man. I love it!

We decided to pack it all up around 7PM. Sister saw some man in the woods and decided we should leave. We went to my house and built a fire in the backyard and she had a few beers. We talked , laughed a lot, and then crashed at my house. It was fun to hang out with her.

Saturday

 It's 430 AM and I'm up for the day. I went to bed around 11 PM. Slept well. Woke up hungry. I'm having cantaloupe for breakfast. It's so sweet and delicious.

I've been busy around the house organizing closets and cabinets. I've also been cleaning the base boards, kitchen cabinets, stove and refrigerator. I cleaned all the windows a couple of weeks ago. I almost have it all in shape for the fall and winter.

When boyfriend passed away I planted 50 tulip bulbs as my way of honoring him in a small way. It felt good to do something for him. The tulips bloomed in the spring and were so beautiful. I bought 60 more bulbs the other day and will add those to his tulip garden.

I partially trimmed a tree out front last evening.

I don't know what kind of tree it is. I hate it though. I trimmed all of it but one side that I can't reach. Now it looks terrible. I need to get to Lowes today to buy some of those extended reach clippers. I think that's a thing! I swear if it wasn't so late in the season I'd cut the damn thing down. But it hides my air conditioner and it's too late to plant anything else, as far as I know.

Going car shopping today with daughter.

Sunday

 I went back on the Prozac because I started with some anxiety attacks and constant worrying. I don't want to be on it but maybe I should be anyway. I don't know.

I had friends over Saturday for dinner . We had a really nice time. I'm grateful for the friendships.

Friday

My "good" computer is down and out again.
This other piece of crap computer takes the joy out of
any online activity.

I talked to boyfriends brother yesterday.
It was a nice talk but I cried because my heart ached.
I really am moving on and things do get easier..........but then there are moments........

The kitties are fine.
I love them fur babies of mine. :O)

I got up early and started some house work and laundry.
Day before yesterday I cleaned my windows.
After I'm finished with housework I'm going to mow the lawn then get in my pool.

The first two weeks after boyfriend died, a song, the same song played over and over again in my head. The song wasn't significant to the two of us and yet there it was...............I always felt like it was boyfriends way of comforting me ..................................is it possible or just wishful thinking?

sunday

My friends Kelly and Erin came over last night for dinner.
I made a crock pot of bean soup and some corn bread. I also made cherry pie
because it's Kellys' birthday and cherry pie is her favorite.

The plan was to watch a movie but we ended up sitting outside and chit chatting.
It was a good time.
I'm thankful for their friendship!

Mr. Bojangles and Woody are doing fine.

Boyfriend hasn't come to me in a dream. At first I  was angry, and then hurt.
 But deep down I know he would come to me if he could.
So if he doesn't come it's ok.

I started my Christmas shopping yesterday.
I saw a few things that I thought would make nice stocking stuffers so I went a head and bought them.

sunday

So next month will be one year since boyfriend died.
If he doesn't come to me in a dream where we can talk
before that one year then I worry it will never happen.
I heard him call my name on the morning I closed on the old house....................and the morning I brought his ashes home I saw a chalk black van with our code word painted on the side and back....................................I wanted so badly to talk to him again......and I always thought I would in a dream.........I love him but....I'm so mad at him for not coming to me in a dream.

I was irritated the other day by a young woman who lives in the neighborhood..............I had never seen her before though........she was out walking her dog...........I was out doing yard work and the kitties were following me from spot to spot......................................................So she stops to talk to me and as she talked she repeatedly made negative remarks about cats.............I mean my cats were 4 feet away looking at her and her dog..............................she knew they were my cats because she asked me their ages....................................................................it's okay to not like cats................but don't come to the sidewalk in front of my house, in front of my cats and make disparaging remarks about them to me.
 Usually I would have just smiled and been polite and pretended she wasn't being rude...... But I wasn't having it that day.......
So me being the non quick thinker that I am says to her "yes my kitties have quite the following on Instagram. I think they're up to 156000 followers. (they have 6)
I could see by the look on her face that I got under her skin.  And you know what?
I was glad.

Daughter is out of town but will be home today and we're going to celebrate her birthday.
She didn't want a group thing..........so it will be me and her going out to dinner..........I bought her a water pix because it's what she wanted..................and I got her a cute Bamboo plant..........................................I'm going to bake her a lemon flavored cake and her brothers are going to stop over later on to say hey and to have cake.....
Daughter is spending the night so I'm sure we will stay up late talking and laughing. :O)

I worked yesterday.
The day was uneventful for the most part.

Thursday

I hung out with my sister today...........went to lunch and did a little shopping.........................yesterday I went to my dads house and did some routine cleaning and also cleaned some windows and drapes. We will finish the windows next week.

I saw a poster hanging today at one of the shopping centers. It was a missing dog poster. The dog pic was that of a German Shepard. I don't know why I felt compelled to call but I did, and so I did. I guess I just felt sad for the people who lost their dog. So I called them to let them know there are people keeping an eye out for him.....................the woman was nice and seemed to understand why I called.
 I was hoping she would tell me that their dog was back home. Unfortunately that's not the case. Bummer!

I do a 12 hour shift Saturday. Daughter is coming over Sunday and we are going to spend the day together and celebrate her birthday..................................so tomorrow I'll probably spend the day cleaning the house and mowing the lawn.
Daughters birthday is today.
About a minute after she was born she put her whole fist in her mouth...............and it was at that moment that I knew she would be an amazing daughter and person. lol     And she is amazing..............and I love her so much. :O)

Friday

Today I made it my goal to learn how to load and use the damn weed eater.
I watched a you tube video. Actually loading turned out to be quite easy. I don't know why I
fretted so much about it!
Now actually using the weed eater took a little more effort but nothing I couldn't handle....................and so I spent about 6 hours in the yard today working. It looks good. There's still some issues with a couple of down spouts that I need to correct.......but even those are better than they were yesterday!
I also emptied and cleaned the pool.
It's the first time I've had to do it since I set it up a couple of months or longer ago.

I just had a great salad and a hamburger for supper.
I had Greek olives and feta cheese in the garden salad. It was excellent.

My sister got me a light up rubber duck and frog for my pool. They're so cute. I put them in there today. :O)

I have a runny nose. Hopefully it's just allergies.

The kitties are good.
Mr. Bojangles is on the floor next to my bed. Woody is in the kitchen.

When my friend Kelly was here the other day for dinner she brought up my old baseball glove and how it was the biggest glove she'd ever seen. lol Cracked me up!
  I hadn't thought about that glove forever.
It was a birthday gift from my parents. I got it in the 6th grade. I remember telling my mom to get the biggest glove she could find.
I thought the large glove would help me to better field/catch/stop the balls.    And it did! It was amazing!  It was the best baseball glove ever. And each time I had a broken arm the glove size made it easier for me to catch the ball, throw it in the air while I shook the glove off and then finished the play. My nick name was "The One Armed Bandit." lol
I loved that glove.

thursday

After I finally got out of bed today  I cleaned up the house then showered.
I paid some bills, filled out a jury duty summons, then went to the mail box to mail everything.

Since stopping the Prozac I'm starting to remember my dreams from when I'm sleeping. I haven't been able to for quite some time.
I'm hopeful that if boyfriend comes to me in a dream I will remember it.

I had a moment today when I was so filled with gratitude. I took the moment to say thank you to the universe for family, friends, pets, and my home. I know it sounds corny.
 It's true though......

I went to the grocery store at like 9:30 PM tonight.
I just wanted to be out.
I bought some chlorine tablets for my pool, 2 dark chocolate caramels with sea salt on them, sunflower seeds and I think that's it.

Wednesday

I hung out with my sister a year younger today.
It's my mom's birthday so we went to the cemetery and I placed some flowers there...............actually I put a small bunch of cattails there.......because I like them and my sister said mom would get a kick out of them. :o)

wE ALSO  went out for lunch..................a pizza place..................it was only OK................but the company was great.
I took younger sis to a couple of my favorite dumpsters. The treasure found was a artificial plant for a fish tank. I'm happy with the find........have been planning on buying a Popeye goldfish. The plant will be perfect for the container I already have for my future fish.

I was baptized today.
I'm not particularly religious.
I remember my mom teaching me to pray and I remember
her taking me to Sunday school.
Mom didn't believe in God. So it's quite the contradiction that she taught me
to pray,and took me to Sunday school. She didn't go with me.......just dropped us off................and I would say that maybe she just wanted a break from 5 children but why then would she teach me to pray.
I'm glad she did though. Prayer is a good thing.
I do believe in God.
I dislike organized religion.
I believe in life after death.
I just want to get to heaven with boyfriend after I die, if there is a heaven.

It was a good day.

Monday

We moved into our new home a year ago today.
Boyfriend had been in the hospital for at least 4 weeks and then in a rehab facility for a couple of weeks. During that time I bought the new home and moved us in as he got better and stronger.
He loved the new house so much.
We had separate bedrooms so that all of his medical equipment would fit in his bedroom. Both of our headboards were against the same wall just different room. We could talk through the wall and I had Walkie Talkies set up just to make it more fun.
 Some of the time  I still tell him goodnight through the Walkie Talkie.
That first night here though I spent the night in his room. We shared his extra long twin bed! We stayed up late into the night talking. It was a wonderful night.
 The next day he asked if we could do it again........and so we did.
It's a good memory. It's a wonderful memory. :O)


I got up before sunrise and showered.
I fed and loved on the kitties, dressed,then went to Wendy's for a breakfast sandwich and a Dr. Pepper.
I sat in the car in front of the house with Woody and ate my breakfast.
After breakfast I pulled weeds and transplanted one of the plants. I also dug up two dead plants and threw them away. I tried to keep them going but the universe had other plans.

My microwave died.
I didn't realize how much I depended on it until it
stopped working. It's the kind that's above the stove, screwed into the wall
I guess.
I guess I'll figure out how to remove it and put in a new one. I'm not in any hurry though.

I think son comes home today from Arizona.
His cat misses him. He keeps climbing the curtain on my kitchen door. I guess he's trying to get out.He only does it during the night.

I had my friends Kelly and Erin over Saturday for dinner.
I served potato soup and corn bread. I also made a garden salad.
We had a great time.
Friends are the best,yes?

Friday

I stopped taking my Prozac yesterday.

I haven't been able to sleep and I suspect it's

the Prozac. I also know it causes a little restless leg about half hour after taking it.

But my biggest concern is forgetfulness and loss of words.

It has me freaked out.

I haven't talked to my doctor yet.

I will talk to her

after I give this a try. Especially if it doesn't help.

On the good side my Cologuard and Mammogram both came back negative.

I'm babysitting my middle sons cat while he's visiting friends in Arizona.

Usually his cat warms right up to me but this time not so much.

He hisses at me and my 2 cats, and growls.

It hasn't been 24 hours yet since he arrived here so maybe he will warm up to us.

I went dumpster diving yesterday with my sister.

We found about 50 boxes of Christmas cards. They're pretty. It was a good score.

I also got about 8 tubes of lipstick still with the safety seal intact and a few bottles of nail polish.

Monday

The police knocked on my door last 11 PM.

They had reports of someone screaming and "is everything ok there?"

Everything was fine. They asked if I had heard anything. I hadn't but told them I'd keep my eyes and ears open.

The rest of the night was quiet and uneventful.

My toilet was clogged this morning, all morning. It would not flush no matter how I plunged it.

I remembered reading somewhere to put like an ounce of dish soap

in a clogged toilet. So that's what I did with Palmolive dish detergent.

I let it sit for about a minute, then plunged and boom! It flushed! Yay!

Sunday

I had sons, daughter and grandpa over yesterday to celebrate middle sons' birthday.

We had a late lunch/early supper of spaghetti and meatballs, garlic bread and salad.

I also made a devils food cake with white icing. It all turned out pretty good.

My toilet was leaking into the basement.

Son fixed it while he was here. He cursed like a sailor while he worked. My dad was

laughing.   :O)~

Everyone was out of here by 6 PM yesterday. After they left I cleaned the mess, scrubbed the bathroom, and cleaned the kitchen and bathroom floors.

Today I have a turkey breast in the roaster.

They had them for 99 cents a pound a Kroger. Meat is very expensive anymore so whenever I find a deal

on meat, and if I like the meat I buy it.

I plan on making some Kentucky Hot Browns with some of the turkey. If you've never had them you should give them a try. They are so delicious.

.It's poplar around here during Kentucky Derby time.

                                              PS

I asked Suri to repeat after me because I wanted to hear him say Peter Peter pumpkin eater. I don't know why, I just did. So Suri's response in his Irish accent was something like I'm an intelligent assistant, not a Parrot with beautiful plumage.

I said fuck you Suri, you're fired. He said "that's not nice."lol

friday

It rained all day and evening yesterday.

It was the perfect day to clean my garage.

I organized all the stuff best as I could and swept.

It looks so much better and it makes me feel so much better.....less stressed.

After cleaning the garage I went swimming. It felt so good being in the pool

during the summer rain fall.   

he looks sad to me. i hope he's not sad.

from the dunpster

the cabinet turned out ok. really it needed another coat of paint but it didn't get one!

i like it and now i have a lot more storage in my bedroom!

tuesday

It's hot, humid, and sunny here. Feels good.
I've been outback working on the cabinet I got
out of the dumpster.
I wanted to sand it but couldn't figure out how to load the sander. Then I felt like a failure,
and then I was angry that Mickey was dead...........so I had a pitty party until..... I told myself to quit feeling sorry for myself and to take the sand paper and sand the fucking cabinet by hand.
 So that's what I did. When I was finished I cleaned the whole cabinet with spic and span. I cleaned up my mess and then began applying primer. But I also had to peel old shelf liner off of all the shelves.
I primed the whole thing and in a few minutes I will paint it.

Son is on his way over.
I had a pipe leak in the basement last evening.
I think it's the bath tub.
So i'll deal with that and then paint!

sunday

I worked yesterday.
They had one N95 mask and two surgical masks
waiting for me.
They also had me scheduled to work two units again.
It's too much man.
I haven't had a significant raise since the economy bust back in 2008.
I mean come on, they don't pay me enough to put up with bull like doing
2 peoples job.
I'm not doing it again.

Daughter is coming over today. She's planning on spending the night.
The only real plan we have is to go swimming. And I bought stuff to make us some seafood boil.
My house is already clean and I mowed the lawn the day before I worked so I'm all set to just
have a good relaxing time with daughter.

friday

I'm scheduled for a 12 hour shift tomorrow.
I just called HR and   asked for them to be sure to leave me an N95 face mask and a surgical mask.
Last month I had to search for one.
I'm not working without masks, and that's what I told HR in my message. So we will see.

wednesday

It's pouring rain here.
I sat on the porch this morning
and had coffee.
I'm not really a coffee drinker except for once in a great while.
It went well with the rain and the quiet morning.

I don't have plans for the day and when it's raining I don't
feel as guilty if I don't do much.
I bought a book yesterday.
For whatever reason I haven't been able to read
a book for quite some time. I can't concentrate or follow the story.
I've tried many and just haven't been able to do it.
I love to read and it really bothers me not being able to do it.
I thought I'd give it another try.
I bought a thriller by James Patterson.
We'll see!

Tuesday

I worked my butt off today in the yard. It's so hot and humid here!
As usual I got into the pool after the yard work and just cooled off and relaxed. Afterwards I went into the house and ended up falling asleep.
 Mr. Bojangles laid across my legs and Woody snuggled up to my neck.
It was a deep, peaceful sleep. The kitties slept well too.

Saturday

The time just flies by. Where does it go?

My new computer is dead.
I tried to sign on the other morning and it's just dead.
Less than 6 months old. Sucks.

My next to oldest computer was ruined when I closed it on the cord.The screen is totally jacked up.
The lid to this computer is hanging by wires and the space bar doesn't always work plus it's slower than molasses!

I'm hopeful Lenovo will repair my new broken computer!

I slipped getting out of bed the other day. On my way to the floor I slammed my chin and chest on my bedside table leaving a huge purple bruise on my chin and chest. It looks like I've been boxing. My chest doesn't hurt but my chin has a lump that's very sore!

I got a nice cabinet out of the dumpster behind the school.
If it doesn't rain I think I'll sand and paint it today.
It will be great in my bedroom.

Kitties had their flea treatment.
I used a more natural treatment this time.
It smell like cinnamon and pine.
The kitties liked it better than what I usually use.
Hopefully is does its job!

Monday

I went camping Saturday with my friend Kelly and her wife Erin. My daughter came along to fish but was going to go home rather than spend the night.
Unfortunately none of us thought to check the weather report. Around 9 PM the skies went dark, it began raining with lightening and powerful winds that pulled our tents up. We ended up "singing in the rain" and laughing our asses off. It was a blast!

We ended up going home and met up the next day at my house for lunch and to play Cards Against Humanity. It was a great time.

Today I went to daughters apartment while she was at work. I bought a beautiful bouquet of flowers and a card and put them on her dining table.
I also cleaned her apartment and finished up laundry that she had started at some point.
She has been depressed I think. Her work is very stressful right now and the racial divide in our country really makes her heart hurt.
She'll be ok. I just wanted to do something nice for her.
You know?
Because I love her. 

Saturday

He was on the siding outside my house.
I like his colors.


I'm going camping today with my friend Kelly and her wife.
I'm looking forward to it.
I am a little worried that maybe I'll want to come home once it gets dark.
Before I knew I was going to go camping I watched you tube videos
 about families murdered while on camping trips. I wish I hadn't watched it!
I have 2 hand guns of boyfriends but they scare me. So I won't be bringing them. I was thinking I could bring some mace and a knife.
I'm just not sure.

I filed my taxes yesterday.
The tax people are too expensive so
I decided to do them myself. I did talk to a tax person first
for a little help. I think I did everything right. It feels good to have it done. Next year I'm going to file early.

Orange man infuriates me. I just have to say it. The media also pisses me off. Politicians and media =liars.
They all make me sick.

Friday

I bought the kitties new blankets from the dollar store. Woody loves his.............

Mr Bojangles has allergies. That's why his eye looks funny. My poor baby!

There's a grade school down the street. Their dumpster is full of desks and chairs. The chairs are adorable. The desks are solid wood and very old. Probably 50 years old.

I took one. I don't have a plan for it yet but I will have one soon.

Tuesday

Do you ever want to tell the computer female voice at the self checkout at the grocery to shut up?

Some of the time she drives me nuts.

After my cat Woody wakes from a nap he comes to me to be held.

It reminds me of when my kids were toddlers and would wake and want me to hold them. lol It makes me smile and makes my heart happy.

Last evening we had a heavy rain with frequent thunder.

It was wonderful.

It's relaxing and comforting to me.

I've been on the lookout to buy a new kitchen table for about a year.

I can't find what I want.................not that I know what I want.......but I do know what I don't want and that's all the stuff I've seen.

I was wondering if I'd be able to make a kitchen table myself.

Sunday

Happy 4th of July.

My new neighborhood 

rocked this 4th.

So many neighbors

were setting off fireworks.

It was pretty cool to say the least.

Boyfriend would have loved it.

Friday

I went to summer camp when I was 8 or 9 years old.
My 7/8 year old sister went with me and we stayed in the same bunk cabin with about 6 other girls and one counselor.
I remember my first day there I went to the nurses office and told her I had a stomach ache. Really I was just home sick but didn't know how to say it. The nurse gave me a "mild laxative for constipation" (LOL) and I remember her calling my mom to fill her in.........
Eventually I settled in and had a fun time.

Wednesday

I bought some pretty cool fireworks for the 4th.
Boyfriend used to spend a fortune on them.  I bought them to honor him in a small way.

My Covid-19 antibodies test came back positive.
I'm hoping to donate blood that can hopefully help others.


I have so much to do as far as yard work goes.................I feel a little overwhelmed........when I feel that way the best thing to do is to just get started. So that's what I'll do.

Sunday

I went camping Thursday.
I chose the campsite that boyfriend and I usually used. To us it was the best site.
I fished while there......even caught a fish and a few crawl dads.
I magnet fished for awhile. All I caught was a bunch of nails, some hooks, and a few bottle caps. But still it was fun.
I didn't buy any wood because usually I've been lucky enough to find plenty of wood in the park
that other campers have left behind or from fallen trees.
So I went on a search for wood and found plenty.
I started a campfire early evening. I was proud to get it going.
I did all the things I wanted to do on my camp out with the exception of staying the night.
At 10 PM I felt very tired, and all I wanted was to be at home in my bed.
So I packed up and went home and hoped my adult children wouldn't think I was a loser for not sticking it out. I thought about lying to them but remembered daughter tracks my phone (with my permission) 
Over all the day was a success.

Friday morning I cut the grass and planted more grass seed.................as soon as I finished it began raining.
It rained most of the day.
I wanted to be in the rain.
I wonder if anyone else ever feels that way.
So I  got in my pool and sat in the water and the rain all at once.
It felt amazingly relaxing.

Saturday I worked a 12 hour shift.
We were down a nurse so they had me do two units.
At first I felt overwhelmed. But I soon got my groove on and it went pretty good.
I was lucky to have resident assistants that I knew from the old days and who do good work. It makes my job so much easier.
Plus they allowed me to talk about boyfriend. They didn't know he had passed away. I shared with them a couple good memories of him, and I shared with them what a good, selfless, and generous person he was................they listened and shared in the conversation. It made me feel good.

I got up early this morning and did a load of laundry, cleaned any dirty dishes, then left to do some dumpster diving.
I got 3 little stands that must have been used for displays of something or another. They will be perfect for holding pictures.
I'll get a picture of them on here soon.
I got home from dumpster diving and it was raining again.
I decided to get my pillows and blankets from the bed and made a bed on the couch to sit with the kitties and watch movies.
I ended up watching two of them.
I enjoyed both comedies.......................one of them had Diane Keaton in it. She's one of my favorite actresses.......

Middle son stopped over yesterday while I was at work and he edged my lawn. It looks so much better. I'm so grateful he did it! ( i didn't ask him to do it. he just did it.)

Wednesday

I went to the horse track and casino yesterday with my dad (to the track) and my sister (to the track and then the casino.)
I went with 40 bucks and came home with 183 bucks. It was fun. It was a beautiful day to go to the horse races.

The National Guard is coming to my work this week to test all employees for Covid-19 except for those  who have had Covid are exempt from being tested.
They're a little late to be coming and testing employees by at least a month.

I bought the kitties flea collars.
Woody let me put one on him. Mr. Bojangles fought and won! The fight isn't over yet though! :O)~

I went to Walmart today and spent 80 of the $183 from yesterday.
It was fun.
I bought stuff like cat food, sunscreen, flea collars, Chlorine tablets for the pool, shampoo, conditioner, mouth wash, cough drops, line for the weed eater, and a few other things.......

I'm thinking about going camping tomorrow for the night.
I'm wondering if it's something I could do alone, or will I be too afraid once it gets dark?
If I go I guess I'll find out.

Sunday, Fathers Day

My mammogram came back negative. Yay! A good result is always a relief.

My Cologuard test didn't survive the transport to the lab. (a wreck?)
That's what I was told and so they will be sending me a new kit "free of charge". OK.  :o)~

I'm headed to my dads' house today for Fathers Day.
My older sister and I are going to clean his house and we're going to make him moms' spaghetti and meatball recipe for lunch. (my older sisters idea) I wanted to make baby back ribs, corn on the cob and baked potato. Oh well. She's my elder, lol. So she had the final say.

I cut the grass yesterday and trimmed a large bush. It was in the high eighties  and very humid. So after the yard work I went straight into the pool.......shorts and all.
It felt so good, so refreshing and I just relaxed for a bit enjoying the sun and the quiet. It was nice!

Saturday

Daughter stopped over on her way home from work yesterday.
I made supper for us, and for desert we had watermelon.
Daughter was quiet.
She's upset by all that is going on in the world right now.
Even when they are adults you wish you could make things all better for them.

Mr. Bojangles and Woody both slept from 10 PM to 4:30 AM. It felt the way way it felt when your baby first sleeps through the night. It was wonderful. :O)

I didn't trim the hedges in my yard like I had planned.
Depending on the weather I might do it today. However I might try some magnet fishing again. I'm just not sure.

I often pray to boyfriend to come to me in my dreams. My mom did a couple of times after she died. I wish boyfriend would.

Thursday

Mr. Bojangles woke me at 4:30 this morning.
He wanted to be petted.
He curled up next to me in bed and when I'd stop petting him, usually because I'd fall asleep, he'd wake me by putting his paw on my face. This went on for an hour. Finally I gave up on sleep got out of bed and threw in a load of laundry, sanitized my phone and lap top, and did a couple dishes.

Mr. Bojangles. He's getting a few grey hairs......and some sleep! :O)

Later today I have plans to shop with my sister for Father's Day.

Earlier today I have plans to trim the bushes in the front and back yard.

Wednesday

I did my Cologuard (tests for pre cancerous or cancerous cells in the intestine) specimen thingy yesterday and took it straight to UPS to be delivered.
The kit has been sitting in my bedroom for about 7 months. Feels good to finally have it done and hopefully it will come back negative.

Did a little dumpster diving yesterday.
I got four bags of yellow onions, a really nice toilet brush holder from TJ Max and a very pretty mirror from TJ Max. Also got a car jack. I had oldest son look at it. He says it works just fine. Middle son needs one so he's going to come get it. I'm keeping some of the onions and giving the rest to my sister and her husband.

I might be repeating myself but when we were grade school age and we'd go to a friends house we'd yell at their front door "oh susie!!!!" or "oh johnny!!!" rather than knocking. All the neighborhood kids did it that way. lol

Monday

I went dumpster diving today(wanted to check my brother-in-laws dumpster while he is out of town) and got 2 large bags of nectarines and 2 large bags of plums.
I brought them home, cleaned them, and packaged them to give to my sister and her husband.

This morning I had a Mammogram.
I couldn't believe it's been six years. I thought I was only 3 years behind. :O)~
It hurts.
Breasts aren't meant to be smashed to pancake shape. WTF!

Work scheduled me for the 2 days I requested.
SO there's that..........

Sunday

I got up early yesterday (maybe not that early because middle son had already played 18 holes of golf) and went to middle sons new place. He's been there for two weeks and I hadn't seen the inside yet.
I almost always enjoy time with him because he's smart and funny.
I love his place. Its in the historic district and it's a shot gun house which I have always loved.........its on a cool little street though very narrow and not much parking available. The house has been done really well....................his cat Tye seems to be settled in. I had a nice time :O)

After I left middle sons house I went to oldest sons house. He had a huge load of gravel delivered for his driveway. I was going to offer a helping hand.
Lucky for me I guess he already had the gravel where it needed to be!
I visited with him and his girlfriend and my grand dog for a bit then took off to do some magnet fishing.
While on my way to the lake oldest son called to see if him and his girlfriend could join me....................so they fished for fish while I fished for treasures.
I didn't catch a thing! But it was a nice time so I still went away a winner!

I came home from fishing and cooked myself a hamburger patty, corn on the cob, and made a salad.
I was starving and supper was delicious. And then I finished my day by pulling weeds and transplanting a few things that aren't doing well. Out door work is relaxing to me..............and a lot of it is immediate results and satisfaction.

It was a good day for me.
I'm thankful for it.

Saturday

I had a fun day yesterday.
I went with my sister to a beach on the little Miami River. And even though it was in a city owned park it felt like it was off the beaten path. The skies were blue, it was sunny and warm, and you could hear the birds talking. It was a perfect day.
We even saw an eagle. It was pretty cool.
We inner tubed and some of the time just sat in the more shallow water while enjoying the sun and nature around us.
I brought home some pretty cool rocks to put in the little swale I have in my side yard garden.

This is my sisters dog and my little buddy, Bryce. He can swim like no other dog I've ever seen swimming. lol

Bryce.

This guy cracks me up. I wish I could sleep the way he does!

Thursday

It was a busy day today.
I cleaned and then I cleaned the house some more and did laundry. And then I went swimming in my little pool out back.
It felt great.
While I was cleaning I had baby back ribs in the oven and corn on the cob cooking.
Dinner was delicious.

I just signed up for a couple days of work. Hopefully they will be approved.

Woody in the cat condo that I got out of the dumpster. He sleeps in it everyday. lol and he likes to keep an eye on the backyard from the top of his condo. 

I love this little guy. The other day I got out boyfriends shave cream so that I could smell it since it smells like boyfriend. I put some in my hands and washed them in it.  A little while later Mr. Bojangles was on boyfriends desk howling. I think he must have smelled the after shave and thought boyfriend was home. Or maybe the smell made him miss boyfriend. I don't know. It was kind of sad.

Little Woody playing in the grocery bag.

enjoying the pool!

enjoying the warm day!

monday

The weekend was nice.

I had lunch with friends at their home. We grilled and enjoyed the sunny day and conversation.

I finally filled my little pool.

I love it and soak in it each afternoon and evening.

It's very relaxing.

I had an anxiety attack this morning.

I was just in bed watching TikTok videos

when it hit...................................................it didn't last long.................when it happens 

I usually focus on counting by multiples.

All is well now though.

I'm looking forward to this day.

I think I'll clean the car.

Wednesday

I did a little dumpster diving yesterday.
I scored a new garden hose that I will give to middle son because he needs one. I also got a nice, strong, round fan. I will use it in my garage. And I got a bag of kitty litter and a brand new kitty condo that was still in the box. I put it together and have it in a bedroom by the window. Woody slept in it for several hours yesterday. :O)

After dumpster diving my older sister and I went to Jimmy Johns for lunch.
I love their tuna and their pickles.
It was nice hanging out with her for a bit.

This morning I mowed and edged the lawn, clean out my little pool and presently filling it. It's mid 80's here and very humid. So I can't wait to use it!

I haven't filed my taxes yet. I have everything together and will take it to H&R Block later today or early tomorrow. And I also need to get a few things from the grocery today. So after I type this I will shower and dress then get the heck out of Dodge and get my stuff taken care of!

sunday

Today was even more beautiful outside than yesterday.
I spent most of my time outside to enjoy it.

Dad called me first thing this morning. There was a baby deer in his yard. I mean a little tiny baby. I went to his house to see it. Oh my goodness it was so adorable!

The rest of the day I worked in my yard a little here and there and rested in between................and I did a little bit of organizing in my garage... with the doors open.

I ate supper on my back patio with Woody. It was  nice. Mr. Bojangles was invited but he wanted to stay inside. :O)

saturday

Yesterday was a great day mostly because it was so beautiful outside minus the 2 rain showers.
I've been working in the yard laying more grass seed, mowing, and trimming.  I've also  added extensions to my downspouts to route the water farther away from the foundation. I don't understand why the spouts were set up to dump the water right against the house.
The physical activity and the sun are good for my soul. :O)

My dad stopped over to pick up some supper I made for him. Pinto beans and ham, cucumber salad, and corn bread. It was good to chat with him for a minute.

My sister stopped over. We sat on the porch and chit chatted for awhile.

Oldest son stopped by and we hung out for a couple of hours.

My friend Kelly called and invited me over for a lunch grill out for next Saturday if the weather holds up.................................so I'm looking forward to hanging out with her for a bit.

Kitties are doing well. Woody had a fever for a couple of days and was a little lethargic but is fine now.................I swear I think he had Covid-19. :O)~

Thursday

I picked groceries up at the Kroger parking lot this morning allowing them to do my shopping.
Shopping the other day was exhausting so I decided to do it this way. It was much better this way.
My D.O.N. text me this morning asking if I could work this Saturday.
I told her I'm still wheezing and coughing and would not be able to wear a N95 mask for 12 hours, and that I'm still having fatigue that I would not be able to work this Saturday. She hasn't responded so maybe I'm in trouble. I just don't know.

Let me just complain about one thing and then I will shut up.............................all of the hand sanitizer at my work was marked as having expired in 2017. When I noticed all the bottles in the building I could find as being expired I text my DON at home that day and notified her. She didn't respond. I did tell my staff and instructed them to wash with soap and water.
When I first became infected and the urgent care sent me away I called work and asked if they would test me. I was informed that they weren't testing staff.
I called a testing center and they said there was a 2 week waiting list.
I went to a Christ Hosp. urgent care and they treated me with kindness and respect. They checked my vitals, listened to my lungs, checked my O2 saturation and other things. And unlike St.Elizabeth South urgent care who didn't bother to assess my lungs at my 2nd visit, whose thermometer wasn't working properly, who treated me like a bother for being there, and who attacked me verbally for wanting to be tested even though I had had a negative test a week prior......the doctor at Christ understood why I thought I should be re-tested.......and she agreed.........................................so when I went back to St. E for a follow up chest xray (my xray at Christ did show I had pneumonia)( St E is my health care provider so I had to go back to them for the follow up) they talked for 45 minutes amongst themselves about retesting me for Covid to make sure I was no longer infected before allowing me in their facility to get my xray. Now when I came to them with fever, cough, GI upset, abnormal o2 sats, painful eye muscles, and as a nurse exposed to the virus by patients they refused to test me, or assess my condition in any way..........................some ...............................but when it came to protecting their-selves they pushed for me to be tested.........................................................thank gosh for Christ hosp urgent care.

Wednesday

I did a little shopping yesterday.
I did wear my mask and I had my hand sanitizer.
I ended up at a few different stores.
I bought a couple t-shirt dresses, a lamp, 6 pillow cases, and a framed picture of a steer
that I absolutely love.
 I hung it in the living room.
I need to get a table for the new lamp.
I've been looking for the right table since I moved here but haven't been able to find one that I like. I will eventually I suppose!

The Suri voice on my phone I had set as an Australian.
I swear he comes across as a judgmental prick. :O)
 I fired him and now I have the Irish guy. I like the Irish guy. lol

I'm so tired of Cops murdering citizens and of them not being held accountable. It's sickening.

Memorial Day

It was a fun weekend.
I had family over (4 people) for a grill out Sunday.
Everyone was in a good mood and happy I
think to be around other people.

Today oldest son and I went fishing.
Our plan was to do some magnet fishing but we never got around to it.
We did fish.  I only caught one. Son got 10. lol
It was a super nice, relaxing day.

Thursday

I didn't sleep well last night so unfortunately I slept most of this morning and early afternoon!
Hopefully I will be able to sleep tonight...

I called off for work for this Sunday.
I'm too afraid to go back until I feel 100% better.
At this point I don't know if I can get reinfected, and neither does the CDC.
So if I can get it again I want to be totally healthy when I get it so that I stand a fighting chance against it.
 It was seriously no joke.
We have 25 cases at my work right now that we know of........not counting employees.     

I caught Woody attempting to urinate in the bathroom sink. I sternly told him no............he jumped off the sink and went to a pair of my shoes and tried to urinate in one of them. He missed the shoe and went on the floor. WTF!

He wanted to take a drive with me. So I invited him. He enjoyed it.  :O)

Monday

My Woody enjoying the outside.

My grand-dog, Manny. He's my oldest sons pup. I love him. He's a very sweet, spoiled, and smart  dog.

My grand-cat , Tye. He's middle sons cat. He can jump higher than any other cat that I've seen jump. He opens cabinets, and doors. I've never seen any aggression from him. I love him. He's sweet.

Mr. Bojangles looking like a seal! lol

The bottom picture is a birthday card from my son from last month. I thought it was a cute little piece of art. :O)

I'm feeling better but the fatigue and poor appetite lingers. Still though I feel lucky.

sunday

I went dumpster diving Saturday morning.
It started out slow. I got 8 jars of green olives. I'm afraid to eat food from the dumpsters but my sister and her husband aren't. I gave them the olives.
My big find though was from Home Depot...........

look at all of these plants! 

I spent the rest of my day

planting them in my yard and in planters.

 There's nothing wrong with them! What a waste to throw them away! To boot, I dropped a few off to my sister and told her how there was many more in the dumpster but I couldn't reach them. So her husband went and filled the back of his truck bed with plants. WooHoo!! It's fun when you score at dumpster diving!

A project I will work on on Sunday is my little vacation spot in my own back yard.

This is my little pool! lol

Tomorrow I need to trim back the plant you see in the back ground, power wash the concrete slab, hang some lights, add plants and Tiki torches.  :O)  It's going to be cute!

friday

I finally had to go get him, carry him home. He's not feeling well. I think it's a reaction to the flea medicine. If he doesn't improve today I will call the Vet.

In pictures it doesn't look like much but it felt like a whole lot when I was planting all of it! As it grows it will fill in..........

thursday

I felt a little like a failure today.
I was on my way to buy flowers when I realized I haven't had
an oil change on boyfriends car since he died.....................and then I realized I missed kitties flea treatment this month, maybe even last month. I couldn't remember.
Boyfriend was so good at not missing routine car maintenance and at making sure I always had flea medicine here to treat the kitties. He was always so good at that stuff.
I right away stopped at the place he always went for routine maintenance and had them do an oil change, and on the way home I stopped and got flea medicine and a a new brush for the cats.
I will try my best not to miss these things as I know they are important.  :O)~

I did stop and get more flowers for the yard.
I wanted to get more mulch but the price was too high. I'll look around and get it later.
I planted some flowers in a bare ugly spot in the front yard. I have more to plant in the side yard but got tired and came in for a nap.

I gave both the kitties a flea treatment and I brushed Mr. Bojangles. He likes it.

I added a flower box to my garage window. I like it!

I potted some flowers. They're much prettier in real life I think!

Kitties enjoying the back porch.

Woody

sunday

It was a nice Mother's Day.
All my adult children visited. We kept our 6 feet distance but still it was nice to
spend time with them. I'm very lucky. :O)
I did not get to the cemetery to place flowers for my mom but plan on
doing it tomorrow.
I managed to wipe all the surfaces  inside my house with Lysol, change the beds, vacuum, scrub the bathroom and kitchen and do a couple loads of laundry.
It needed it bad...........feels much better in here now.......
I need not sleep one minute last night. I couldn't. I cleaned instead.
I'm hoping that I will sleep well tonight.

saturday

I don't know what's wrong with me.
My house needs to be cleaned and I have loads of laundry to do. What I don't have is the energy to do it all, or to even start any of it.
I don't know if it's physical or emotional my inability to be productive.
I just know that since my Covid 19 and pneumonia I feel so fatigued.
I have moments when I feel pretty good but then exhaustion sets in ...............

friday

I sat on the back porch yesterday and soaked up some sun.
I think it did me some good.
I've had trouble sleeping lately.
I forced myself to shut everything down last night at midnight. At some point I drifted off to sleep.
I woke this morning feeling rested.
I need to clean and sanitize my house and I have loads of laundry to do.
I might tackle some of it today or I might not. It just depends how I feel once I get going.

tuesday

My doctor ordered medicine for  thrush today and a follow up chest xray for next week.
I will be happy when my mouth heals!
I napped for several hours today.
I want to just feel normal again. Hopefully I will soon!

I talked on the phone to my doctor today.
There's confusion on whether or not I should still be in quarantine.
What my doctor says is different from what the health department instructed me to do.
I wonder if any of them really know what it is we should be doing.

monday

It was beautiful outside today.
I was allowed to leave my home.
It's been weeks.
I went to the store for some popsicles and fruit.
I wore my mask and I carry my antibacterial hand sanitizer.
I was nervous about being around other people........our new normal?
My lips I noticed were cracked at the sides yesterday.
I thought it was from being dehydrated.
This afternoon I noticed the inside of my mouth and throat are super sore.
I'm sure it's thrush.....
It was too late to call my doctor today so will tomorrow.
I do wish I could bottle the color of my lips right now...........they're a really pretty cherry red. lol

The fatigue I feel is severe. Some of the time I wonder if I'll ever feel normal again.

monday

I'm feeling better and I'm so grateful that I am.
I took my last antibiotic today, and I haven't used the cough medicine for 2 days.
I slept all day today but yesterday I didn't nap at all.

I'm looking forward to a sunny day. Hopefully that will be tomorrow.

Mostly I sleep.
The fatigue I feel is overwhelming.
My family takes turns calling and checking on me then reports back
to the others.
If I need something they leave it for me on the porch.
everything tastes like a mouthful of salt except for my popsicles and oranges.
My temp fluctuates between 99.9 and 103.4.
The cough is painful.