Wednesday

 I went dumpster diving today and got a few treasures including  Christmas and Halloween decorations, a cute little aquarium and hamster cage. I also got colored markers, a large plant, and some candles.  It was fun.

I also did a little shopping today. I bought a cute pair of boots, long pants, and a couple of shirts.

I start jury duty Monday.......not looking forward to it.

Saturday

 Tomorrow will be one year since boyfriend passed away.

I think about and talk to him everyday.

I miss him and think how much I would love to hug, kiss, and smell him

again.

My adult children are coming over for a late lunch today. 

 I'm making green chili and chicken tacos. 

I'll burn a candle tomorrow in honor of boyfriend, plant more tulips, and maybe go to his favorite machine at the casino and play a few bucks.

Daughter is coming to town today and will spend the night tonight and tomorrow night.

I went camping with my sister a year younger this past Wed.

The area was isolated. Sister brought a handgun and a machete. lol She also brought a life size skeleton that was wearing a wig and a necklace. It's name is Gypsy. She's a trip man. I love it!

We decided to pack it all up around 7PM. Sister saw some man in the woods and decided we should leave. We went to my house and built a fire in the backyard and she had a few beers. We talked , laughed a lot, and then crashed at my house. It was fun to hang out with her.

Saturday

 It's 430 AM and I'm up for the day. I went to bed around 11 PM. Slept well. Woke up hungry. I'm having cantaloupe for breakfast. It's so sweet and delicious.

I've been busy around the house organizing closets and cabinets. I've also been cleaning the base boards, kitchen cabinets, stove and refrigerator. I cleaned all the windows a couple of weeks ago. I almost have it all in shape for the fall and winter.

When boyfriend passed away I planted 50 tulip bulbs as my way of honoring him in a small way. It felt good to do something for him. The tulips bloomed in the spring and were so beautiful. I bought 60 more bulbs the other day and will add those to his tulip garden.

I partially trimmed a tree out front last evening.

I don't know what kind of tree it is. I hate it though. I trimmed all of it but one side that I can't reach. Now it looks terrible. I need to get to Lowes today to buy some of those extended reach clippers. I think that's a thing! I swear if it wasn't so late in the season I'd cut the damn thing down. But it hides my air conditioner and it's too late to plant anything else, as far as I know.

Going car shopping today with daughter.

Sunday

 I went back on the Prozac because I started with some anxiety attacks and constant worrying. I don't want to be on it but maybe I should be anyway. I don't know.

I had friends over Saturday for dinner . We had a really nice time. I'm grateful for the friendships.

Friday

My "good" computer is down and out again.
This other piece of crap computer takes the joy out of
any online activity.

I talked to boyfriends brother yesterday.
It was a nice talk but I cried because my heart ached.
I really am moving on and things do get easier..........but then there are moments........

The kitties are fine.
I love them fur babies of mine. :O)

I got up early and started some house work and laundry.
Day before yesterday I cleaned my windows.
After I'm finished with housework I'm going to mow the lawn then get in my pool.

The first two weeks after boyfriend died, a song, the same song played over and over again in my head. The song wasn't significant to the two of us and yet there it was...............I always felt like it was boyfriends way of comforting me ..................................is it possible or just wishful thinking?