Sunday

My mom says she's feeling better today.
She still feels weak and tired, but says she feels better.
She absolutly refuses to let me and my sisters cook the Christmas dinner. We tried with every ounce of our being to talk her in to it, but she refuses. Made me feel a little sad cause I know she's not really up to it. My oldest sister and her daughter-in-law are going to moms Tuesday. They think they're going to help mom clean house and wrap gifts. But all of that has been done. So mom says she will let them help her do peeling, cutting, mixing and such so that mom will only have to pop things in the oven on Christmas day. That made me feel better.

My dad called me tonight to ask me if I knew whether or not my sister was doing drugs again. She has roughly 24 years sobriety. But in recent weeks I've wondered the same thing as my dad. I've also thought that maybe something else might be going on with her. None of those things good.
I promised dad I'd talk to her..............and I will.

My middle son is officially a college junior. I'm proud of him for sticking with it.

My oldest son stopped by this evening after he and my middle son did their Christmas shopping. They spent the morning and early afternoon hunting and then went straight to the mall to shop.
I've had a difficult time adjusting to oldest son being out on his own. Or maybe it's just that I miss not seeing him everyday. I'm a dork I guess. But I do miss him some of the time. It always makes me happy to see him.

Sunday

I spent the late afternoon and the evening with my mom yesterday.
She has been sick for a week with some virus I guess.My two older sisters and my dad have been tending to her the past several days. They said she was fine, and I guess she is. But she looked a lot worse than I was expecting. When I got to her house I could hear her in her bed moaning.
Her temp. is up, her blood pressure is down, and she's a tiny bit confused, she's pale and she's weak...........walking from her bed to the bathroom made her pant for breath. I gave her something for her fever, and made her take her heart pill that she hadn't been taking.(she decides what she's going to take, and when. She can be a very stubborn patient.)
And I'm 100% sure she's dehydrated. So I made her eat some jello, and drink some water.
She was worried about her Christmas presents getting wrapped. So she sat in the living room with me while I wrapped her Christmas gifts...........actually I ran to the store and bought a bunch of great big gift bags. So everything has been bagged, and put under her tree. I hope I have the right gifts going to the right people.
The last hour that I was there mom was very talkative and up and about a little. She said she felt like she was over the "hump".........and she was looking a little better. SO I hope she truely is feeling better and on the upswing.
Today mom needs me to run a couple errands. So I'm going to pay my bills, run errands for mom, and then I plan on baking some Christmas treats with my daughter.

12-17-08

2 more days until my vacation!

Tuesday 12-16-08

Three more days to work and then I'm on vacation. Yay!

I'm just going to enjoy my family and the Christmas celebration while on my vacation. Anything else is up in the air.

I love this time of year, the Christmas and New Year holiday season. But during this time of year I worry, more than my usual worrying, about all the people I love being safe. I get scared and worry that someone will get hurt in an accident or die. I don't know why I worry, especially during the holiday season, but I do.

saturday

Yesterday was my off day.

I got up before the sun, went out to breakfast with boyfriend, and then went to the mall.

We shopped until my feet hurt so bad I had to take my shoes off to continue to walk.

I think boyfriend thought I was exaggerating the pain I felt in my feet until we got home and he could see the blood blisters on the back of my heels. I left the shoes in my car and threw them away this morning before leaving to go to work.

All I have left to buy for Christmas is a gift card, and a present for daughters cheerleading coach.........Yay!.............



Boyfriend just called. He's bringing over Chinese food for supper. We have the house to ourselves until 10pm. Wonder what we will do with all that time?



My nephews daughter was born last week. She was transferred to Childrens Hosp. ICU where she's been for the past week.......until today. She's at home. They thought she might have all kinds of fancy sounding diseases because she didn't want to eat, and she didn't have a bowel movement according to their timetable. My nephew was beside himself with fear and worry. He was very emotional......very tearful. I felt badly for him..........and finally, on day two, because I know what I know, I told nephew THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH YOUR LITTLE GIRL! TRUST ME! THERE'S NOTHING WRONG!" He calmed down, and it turns out I was right. Thank goodness. :O) So sweet Taylor is at home in her warm little bed.

wed

State inspectors are at my work.
It's stressful.
When I'm really stressed my jaw hurts.
My jaw is hurting. It hurts to eat, hurts to yawn.....hurts to open my mouth.

I just watched the news. They did a story about the news lady that was beaten to death in her home. Sad story.............&
Now I'm afraid. Son is at his dads house tonight............
I put a chair in front of the door that opens to the basement stairs. Not that it will keep anyone out, but atleast i'll hear them if they open the door.......I have a hammer under my bed...and I called boyfriend to come spend the night.

work

I snapped at the HR lady today at work.
She's vengeful. So i'm a little worried.
On the other hand though I think our new administrator
isn't especially fond of the HR lady.........but i'm pretty sure she likes me.
I hate this type of crap.

weekend

MY weekend in a nutshell.....
grocery shopping and banking
out to breakfast and Christmas shopping with daughter.......(i love spending time with her. she's growing up......part of me wishes they didn't have to grow up.)
Dinner out with my mom and sisters....(we do it once a year at Christmas time. It's one of my favorite nights of the year.)
Wrapped a million and 1 Christmas gifts...(YAY! I'm relieved it's finished....and I enjoyed doing it!)
Dusted and organized dining room ..
Cleaned out broom closet...
hung 3 pictures with help from boyfriend......
Hung outdoor Christmas lights with help from daughter...

Joplin

Tuesday

While driving to pick up my daughter from cheerleading practice tonight I saw a falling star. It was pretty to see.........and yes, I made a wish. :O)

I was thinking about calling in sick to work tomorrow. But I won't.

Boyfriend took me out to breakfast this morning, and then we did some Christmas shopping. It was fun.

monday

When I painted my living room last month, I also painted the hallway. It runs between my bedroom, bathroom and kitchen. After painting the hallway I bought a full length mirror with a thick black frame. It's pretty. I didn't want nail holes in my wall so I bought double sided velcro and hung the mirror with the velcro. ........................I was sitting in bed the other day munching on turkey, and watching tv. I kept hearing this strange popping noise. I thought it was electrical wires in my wall catching fire. I got up to investigate. While walking down the hallway the noise got louder. I put my ear to the wall and listened. And that's when the mirror fell from the wall and landed on my baby toe. The noise I was hearing was the velcro pulling away from the other velcro strip.

My baby toe is cut, swollen, and purple. :O(

Daughter called me right before I left work for the day. She wanted to know if I'd stop and buy her some foundation on my way home from work. So on my way home from work I stopped at Walgreens and got her some foundation (Loreal Mineral), some soft drinks, and some razors. I get home, unload the things I purchased and find that I also have a bag with 3 packs of Christmas lights. I didn't remember buying them so I checked my receipt. They weren't on the receipt. (woohoo! I got something for nothing!!) Daughter could read my thoughs I suppose because she says to me as a sort of warning "Karma mom!" And then I guess she saw the disappointment in my face so she says " Look, why don't you keep one box and return the other two." I cracked up laughing. (she cracks me up.)
So I have 3 boxes of Christmas lights sitting on my kitchen counter................and I keep thinking how pretty they'd be lighting up my front porch.........and that maybe I could use them and then return them after Christmas.

Friday

I had a turkey sandwich and pumpkin pie for breakfast. :O)


I had Thanksgiving dinner with my sons, daughter, and boyfriend.
We used our new dining room furniture, the furniture from my childhood.
The table looked pretty, and it brought back memories.
I love having all my kids together. It's difficult to do with everyones work and school schedules. But it's important to do, and we had a really nice time.

Both cats are sleeping off their turkey hangovers.

I'm off work today. I haven't decided yet if I'm going to stay in my pajamas, watch tv, and graze on leftovers all day or if I'm going to do some shopping.

Wed.

I've baked the pumpkin pies. They're wrapped in aluminun foil and in the refrigerator.
The veggies have been cleaned, cut, and arranged on the veggie tray....covered with aluminum foil and in the frig.
I've cleaned the turkey, seasoned it, rubbed it down with oil & have it in the cooking bag with onions and celery....... it's in the frig. waiting to be baked.

So while I'm at work tomorrow, boyfriend will put the turkey in the oven. :O)..................and daughter will dust the furniture and clean up the bathroom.
Everything's under control.............and i'm looking forward to a pleasant Thanksgiving with my family.

the weekend

I didn't do much this weekend. I ran all my errands Friday after work. So the whole weekend was mine to do with as I saw fit.
Boyfriend, daughter, and I did a little hiking in the woods today at a park that's close by. It was relaxing and enjoyable.

I dread going back to work tomorrow. I'd rather get a root canal.
I read up on nursing burn out yesterday.
I have almost all of the symptoms. It feels bad.
I need to get help, or change professions. (I'll probably say it a few more times before I actually do anything about it!)

When the new owners of my work took over, they decided each department would wear color coded scrubs. It distinguishes each department from the other making it easier for everyone else to know who is doing what job.............................It's a little depressing to put on the same outfit day after day. Especially when it's not even a pretty color. I hate it!

new lease on life

So I did the work sheet that the IRS sent to me. I sent them a check today for five hundred and eighty bucks.
That ought to put a dent in the federal deficit!

Today was my off day.
I scrubbed my kitchen and bathroom floors. They look pretty good.
I also unloaded a sofa and love seat from my mom and dads house.
They bought new stuff. The old stuff is in perfect condition.
I plan on finishing my family room while on my Christmas vacation so I kept the love seat.
One of my neighbors was in need of a sofa. Hers is beat up and she doesn't have the money to buy a new one. So I gave her the sofa. We're both happy with our new stuff. :O)

Boyfriend went to the doctor yesterday.
The doctor checked the area on boyfriends tongue, and he also found a growth on boyfriends larynx. The doctor believes that both areas are benign, opted to not do a biopsy, and will check them again in 6 weeks.
When boyfriend called to tell me the good news I cried. It was such a relief. Boyfriend feels like he has been given a new lease on life.
I feel very grateful.