Daughter wants to get a tattoo.
She's 18 so I can't stop her. I have been trying to talk her out of it.
They're so permanent. Although I hear you can have them removed with laser surgery, but still.
The belly button ring was one thing,,,,,,now a tattoo? Yuck.
Work is going well.
I still like my new assignment, and most of the new staff I work with.
It's a better fit.....all of it.
Daughter wants to take a senior class trip.
I was finally honest with her and told her it's not in the budget.
I wanted so badly to give it to her, but I can't. Too many other financial obligations with her continuing education.
I felt relieved to finally just tell her no.
I texted son the other night asking him if he wanted me to clean his condo the next day while he was at work. He texted back saying "that would be great!" So I texted him back "psych!" He texted back "you suck. lol!" lol. Cracked me up.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Wednesday, March 09, 2011
singing in the rain, kinda.
Not much going on today.
I just did last nights supper dishes.
Boyfriend is picking me up after his doctors appointment and we're going to stop over to see my mom and dad.
They've been out of town for a month, are home now, and I'm anxious to hear about their trip.
And then we're going to run a couple of errands together.
Daughter is losing her hair by the handfuls. She bought a crimper, has been using it at 500 degrees, and severely damaged her hair. It's literally falling out.
I smothered it in mayonnaise a few days ago hoping to salvage some of it, but the outcome looks grim.
The good news is it will grow back.
That's little consolation for a teen girl.
I read a book once where the mother and teen daughter were going through a trying time........at one point the mother took the daughter outside, during a down pour of rain. Mother had the daughter close her eyes, turn her head up to the sky, extend her arms and feel the rain. In the book it was a beautiful, spiritual moment.
So last night while daughter and I were on the couch bantering, playing, etc......I asked daughter to go outside with me to stand in the rain. She rejected my idea. I was laughing, she was laughing..........I told her playfully that if I died next week she would forever on any rainy day regret not having gone outside to play in the rain with me.
She was playfully pissed at me for forcing her outside, but she went. It was cold though so we took an afghan. We wrapped ourselves in the afghan, and huddled together for warmth...........and then stood there in the rain. There was no spiritual event. Just giggling, and joking.
Boyfriends here........gotta run. More later.
Daughter and I are in the habit of watching together a tv show called Teen Mom.
It follows teen girls through their pregnancy and then the first year after giving birth.
It shows the struggles they go through with their boyfriends, family, trying to juggle work, continuing education etc...it's an interesting show, though kind of depressing. Leaves me wishing I could help those girls.
I hope Charlie Sheen gets help before he physically hurts someone, or kills himself.
I just did last nights supper dishes.
Boyfriend is picking me up after his doctors appointment and we're going to stop over to see my mom and dad.
They've been out of town for a month, are home now, and I'm anxious to hear about their trip.
And then we're going to run a couple of errands together.
Daughter is losing her hair by the handfuls. She bought a crimper, has been using it at 500 degrees, and severely damaged her hair. It's literally falling out.
I smothered it in mayonnaise a few days ago hoping to salvage some of it, but the outcome looks grim.
The good news is it will grow back.
That's little consolation for a teen girl.
I read a book once where the mother and teen daughter were going through a trying time........at one point the mother took the daughter outside, during a down pour of rain. Mother had the daughter close her eyes, turn her head up to the sky, extend her arms and feel the rain. In the book it was a beautiful, spiritual moment.
So last night while daughter and I were on the couch bantering, playing, etc......I asked daughter to go outside with me to stand in the rain. She rejected my idea. I was laughing, she was laughing..........I told her playfully that if I died next week she would forever on any rainy day regret not having gone outside to play in the rain with me.
She was playfully pissed at me for forcing her outside, but she went. It was cold though so we took an afghan. We wrapped ourselves in the afghan, and huddled together for warmth...........and then stood there in the rain. There was no spiritual event. Just giggling, and joking.
Boyfriends here........gotta run. More later.
Daughter and I are in the habit of watching together a tv show called Teen Mom.
It follows teen girls through their pregnancy and then the first year after giving birth.
It shows the struggles they go through with their boyfriends, family, trying to juggle work, continuing education etc...it's an interesting show, though kind of depressing. Leaves me wishing I could help those girls.
I hope Charlie Sheen gets help before he physically hurts someone, or kills himself.
Monday, March 07, 2011
blog people
While driving home from work last night I was lost in thought about some of the people who write some of the blogs that i read. Including........
Billy's. Billy is a mystery to me.
He objectifies women, except maybe for Helen, and he mocks people who believe in God. He's articulate, funny, highly intelligent, and movie star handsome. He's off the hook though...... And just when I think I can't stand his extreme beliefs, and maybe even him, he tells a heart warming story about the dog he loved and then lost, or he leaves a comment on another persons blog showing concern for that person.........and he takes care of Helen the way a son would his mother.....revealing a very caring person capable of more than just anger and hate...........though anger and hate probably aren't the correct words to describe him............................................................so I was lost in thought trying to figure him out. Wondering about all of his life....his past life......wanting to know where he's coming from....what makes him tick....
And then there's Odie.....exact opposite of Billy when it comes to his attitude towards women and religion.................respects women.......and others.........believes without question in God.............caring, sweet, positive, cute.......always there with a kind word.
Some of the time, but not so much now as back when, I used to wonder whether or not he was really all that he presented........"Can a person really be that good" is what I thought. I'd conclude that he must be a pedophile or some sort of online predator. But I stuck around because I intuitively knew, even though I questioned it, that he was the real deal.....and maybe I'd learn something from him..........
And then there's the Professor.
He suffers all the time it seems.
I think he's grown comfortable being miserable and is not willing to move from his comfort zone......................or maybe, just maybe.....he creates all his pain and suffering because without that to talk about, he'd have nothing to say. He'd rather be a suffering soul than an ordinary man.
So yeah.......I was driving down the interstate last night thinking about the blog people, wishing I knew more about Billy, wishing I had Odie's faith, wishing the Professor would be happy already.....when the dark night in front of me lit up. Fireworks right there......beautiful purple, blue, silver lights shooting up to the sky.........it was so pretty, and unexpected....... I smiled and said "yay!"......and then further up the interstate the cops standing with some guy and his truck. I'm thinking he's probably drunk, and setting off fireworks right there on 71.
Thanks drunk guy.
It was a nice show!
Billy's. Billy is a mystery to me.
He objectifies women, except maybe for Helen, and he mocks people who believe in God. He's articulate, funny, highly intelligent, and movie star handsome. He's off the hook though...... And just when I think I can't stand his extreme beliefs, and maybe even him, he tells a heart warming story about the dog he loved and then lost, or he leaves a comment on another persons blog showing concern for that person.........and he takes care of Helen the way a son would his mother.....revealing a very caring person capable of more than just anger and hate...........though anger and hate probably aren't the correct words to describe him............................................................so I was lost in thought trying to figure him out. Wondering about all of his life....his past life......wanting to know where he's coming from....what makes him tick....
And then there's Odie.....exact opposite of Billy when it comes to his attitude towards women and religion.................respects women.......and others.........believes without question in God.............caring, sweet, positive, cute.......always there with a kind word.
Some of the time, but not so much now as back when, I used to wonder whether or not he was really all that he presented........"Can a person really be that good" is what I thought. I'd conclude that he must be a pedophile or some sort of online predator. But I stuck around because I intuitively knew, even though I questioned it, that he was the real deal.....and maybe I'd learn something from him..........
And then there's the Professor.
He suffers all the time it seems.
I think he's grown comfortable being miserable and is not willing to move from his comfort zone......................or maybe, just maybe.....he creates all his pain and suffering because without that to talk about, he'd have nothing to say. He'd rather be a suffering soul than an ordinary man.
So yeah.......I was driving down the interstate last night thinking about the blog people, wishing I knew more about Billy, wishing I had Odie's faith, wishing the Professor would be happy already.....when the dark night in front of me lit up. Fireworks right there......beautiful purple, blue, silver lights shooting up to the sky.........it was so pretty, and unexpected....... I smiled and said "yay!"......and then further up the interstate the cops standing with some guy and his truck. I'm thinking he's probably drunk, and setting off fireworks right there on 71.
Thanks drunk guy.
It was a nice show!
Friday, March 04, 2011
friday
It's raining and I like it.
I bought an electronic keyboard today. I've spent the later part of this afternoon playing music. I'm not much better at playing music than I am at painting a picture.......but I get joy from doing both.
I bought an electronic keyboard today. I've spent the later part of this afternoon playing music. I'm not much better at playing music than I am at painting a picture.......but I get joy from doing both.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
toga?
I love this accidental picture I took of daughter. The one in the red dress.
She doesn't get why I love it.. So I showed it to boyfriend. He doesn't see it either.
Maybe cause I'm her mom, but I think it's a beautiful shot, the dress not so much.
The gold dress was pretty on the hanger. It looked like Christmas wrap, or a gold colored toga when it was on her. Her facial expression says it all.......... She couldn't take it off fast enough.
We didn't find THE dress.
We will eventually.
I bought an ice cream cake yesterday for boyfriend for his birthday. We're celebrating today. I hid the cake in my trunk thinking it was cold enough to keep there until today.
I had a pile of mess in my trunk this morning. :O)
She doesn't get why I love it.. So I showed it to boyfriend. He doesn't see it either.
Maybe cause I'm her mom, but I think it's a beautiful shot, the dress not so much.
The gold dress was pretty on the hanger. It looked like Christmas wrap, or a gold colored toga when it was on her. Her facial expression says it all.......... She couldn't take it off fast enough.
We didn't find THE dress.
We will eventually.
I bought an ice cream cake yesterday for boyfriend for his birthday. We're celebrating today. I hid the cake in my trunk thinking it was cold enough to keep there until today.
I had a pile of mess in my trunk this morning. :O)
Saturday, February 26, 2011
on prom dress shopping and patience
I'm going prom dress shopping with daughter.
We will visit every store, and try on every dress............because that's how she does it.
..................and then we will narrow it down to a couple shops, go back to those places and start the process over again. She'll pick the perfect dress. We'll buy it...............she'll try it on at home a few times, decide it's the wrong dress, and return it. She'll say forget it. I'm not going to the prom. Then we'll go shopping one more time.......and she'll probably choose the very first dress she tried on, on the very first day we went prom dress shopping.
Wish me luck!
Have a nice day. :O)
We will visit every store, and try on every dress............because that's how she does it.
..................and then we will narrow it down to a couple shops, go back to those places and start the process over again. She'll pick the perfect dress. We'll buy it...............she'll try it on at home a few times, decide it's the wrong dress, and return it. She'll say forget it. I'm not going to the prom. Then we'll go shopping one more time.......and she'll probably choose the very first dress she tried on, on the very first day we went prom dress shopping.
Wish me luck!
Have a nice day. :O)
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
daughter
I hugged her and tried to say all the right things.
My heart aches for her. But I know she'll be okay. Because even though it's hard for her to let go and move forward, it's what she does.
She's my little hero......I wish I could be more like her.
Have I told you lately how much I love my daughter?
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
nephew
Sister called me last night.
She said she wants to get divorced.
I think she just needed to blow off some steam...and someone to validate what she was feeling.
Her and her husband have a 13 year old son, 2 dogs, a cat, and a rabbit.
Their son's a smart kid........he owns his own lawn mower and snow blower............he's the
neighborhood kid who cuts grass and cleans snow from neighbors driveways and walk ways........................and then socks his money away. He used to have a camp in his backyard that was stocked like a little corner store.....shelves and all........the other children in the neighborhood came to his "store" if they needed some bubble gum, an eraser, water gun....or whatever. He saved money from his store to buy the lawnmower.......and then some of the money he made cutting grass was used to buy the snow blower.
When he was a little boy he was a little obsessed with the TV show COPS. It was typical to go to his house and see crime scene tape wrapped around his swing set or some other place in the yard.................and one time while at school one of his teachers instructed another student who was running up the hallway to "stop." When the kid didn't follow the teachers command, nephew chased the boy down and restrained him. (okay. so maybe he watched one too many episodes of cops!)
He used to be fascinated by the garbage man. Garbage man would wait for sister to bring nephew out so that nephew could help garbage man empty their garbage in to the truck. He's been for rides in firetrucks and police cruisers because he loves them......
He's smart, curious, ambitious, and polite........plus more.
I hope the conversation I shared with sister helped ............and I hope her and her husband hang in there.....
She said she wants to get divorced.
I think she just needed to blow off some steam...and someone to validate what she was feeling.
Her and her husband have a 13 year old son, 2 dogs, a cat, and a rabbit.
Their son's a smart kid........he owns his own lawn mower and snow blower............he's the
neighborhood kid who cuts grass and cleans snow from neighbors driveways and walk ways........................and then socks his money away. He used to have a camp in his backyard that was stocked like a little corner store.....shelves and all........the other children in the neighborhood came to his "store" if they needed some bubble gum, an eraser, water gun....or whatever. He saved money from his store to buy the lawnmower.......and then some of the money he made cutting grass was used to buy the snow blower.
When he was a little boy he was a little obsessed with the TV show COPS. It was typical to go to his house and see crime scene tape wrapped around his swing set or some other place in the yard.................and one time while at school one of his teachers instructed another student who was running up the hallway to "stop." When the kid didn't follow the teachers command, nephew chased the boy down and restrained him. (okay. so maybe he watched one too many episodes of cops!)
He used to be fascinated by the garbage man. Garbage man would wait for sister to bring nephew out so that nephew could help garbage man empty their garbage in to the truck. He's been for rides in firetrucks and police cruisers because he loves them......
He's smart, curious, ambitious, and polite........plus more.
I hope the conversation I shared with sister helped ............and I hope her and her husband hang in there.....
Sunday, February 20, 2011
daughter
When the game was over I waited outside the gym doors for her. Everyone filed out it seemed, except for daughter.
So I went in the gym and met up with her in the middle of the gym floor. She was lingering, probably saying a mental good-bye to an important part of her life, taking a mental picture so that she wouldn't forget. Like me, she has a difficult time some of the time letting go.
I wrapped my arms around her and held her tight.
It was a bittersweet night .................
Friday, February 18, 2011
friday
I just put my living room curtains in the washer.
They have cat hair on them. Looking at them like that for even
one more minute was more than I could stand. They looked gross.
Saw daughter off to school a few minutes ago.
Tonight is Senior night at the basketball game. The Senior cheerleaders and basketball players will be recognized for their participation. Sons are escorting her across the basketball court when she's introduced.
It will also be her last home game to cheer......ever. I feel a little sad about it.........same as when son played his last baseball game,,,,,
I'm hoping to get lots of pictures.
Work is going well, I suppose.
I like my new assignment better than my last one.......
Hopefully I wont burn out for awhile.
I still enjoy reading some of the blogs that I follow.
Especially when I know people are writing from the heart.
I dislike when people sell stuff on their blogs.
We're bombarded by people selling crap on tv and radio. Does it have to be that way with blogs?
I don't enjoy writing in my blog anymore.
I'm not sure why.
I've had a million realtors call and send mail asking to list my house.
I ignore their calls and throw away the mail.
I went sofa shopping the other day.
A salesman introduced his self. I told him I was going to buy a sofa, and would come get him when I found the sofa I wanted to buy. I asked to be left alone until I found the sofa I wanted.
He followed me throughout the store......stalked me really. Everywhere I went, there he was. I hated it. So I left.
I went shopping yesterday at another place for a sofa. I told the sales lady I wanted to buy a sofa and would call her if I found what I wanted. She gave me her card, and let me be. I didn't find what I wanted but plan on going back to have another look.
I need to file my taxes, plan something for boyfriends birthday, start planning daughters graduation party, put together a K-12 scrapbook for daughter for graduation, go prom dress shopping, and make a decision about a car for daughter. I also have to help daughter make a decision concerning higher education............and then figure out the money part of it all........we don't do student loans..( I don't want her starting out in debt).......she doesn't qualify for grants...........scholarships aren't part of the picture....................I'm pretty sure I've saved enough. The plan is for her to work 4 days a week, and go to school part time......at least initially.....................and then we'll take it from there.......
Today I need to do a few things around the house, run to the bank, and get flowers for daughter for this evening.
I went to have a cigarette while at work the other day.
A co-worker pointed out how I was sinning.
She frequently quotes the bible, and is quick to point out to others their sins.
My first instinct was to point out how she' s shacking up with some dude and has a few illegitimate children. (even though I think all children are legitimate)........I didn't though. What she said irritated me......as I'm sure was her intent.........................................................I let it go.......
She's misguided.
They have cat hair on them. Looking at them like that for even
one more minute was more than I could stand. They looked gross.
Saw daughter off to school a few minutes ago.
Tonight is Senior night at the basketball game. The Senior cheerleaders and basketball players will be recognized for their participation. Sons are escorting her across the basketball court when she's introduced.
It will also be her last home game to cheer......ever. I feel a little sad about it.........same as when son played his last baseball game,,,,,
I'm hoping to get lots of pictures.
Work is going well, I suppose.
I like my new assignment better than my last one.......
Hopefully I wont burn out for awhile.
I still enjoy reading some of the blogs that I follow.
Especially when I know people are writing from the heart.
I dislike when people sell stuff on their blogs.
We're bombarded by people selling crap on tv and radio. Does it have to be that way with blogs?
I don't enjoy writing in my blog anymore.
I'm not sure why.
I've had a million realtors call and send mail asking to list my house.
I ignore their calls and throw away the mail.
I went sofa shopping the other day.
A salesman introduced his self. I told him I was going to buy a sofa, and would come get him when I found the sofa I wanted to buy. I asked to be left alone until I found the sofa I wanted.
He followed me throughout the store......stalked me really. Everywhere I went, there he was. I hated it. So I left.
I went shopping yesterday at another place for a sofa. I told the sales lady I wanted to buy a sofa and would call her if I found what I wanted. She gave me her card, and let me be. I didn't find what I wanted but plan on going back to have another look.
I need to file my taxes, plan something for boyfriends birthday, start planning daughters graduation party, put together a K-12 scrapbook for daughter for graduation, go prom dress shopping, and make a decision about a car for daughter. I also have to help daughter make a decision concerning higher education............and then figure out the money part of it all........we don't do student loans..( I don't want her starting out in debt).......she doesn't qualify for grants...........scholarships aren't part of the picture....................I'm pretty sure I've saved enough. The plan is for her to work 4 days a week, and go to school part time......at least initially.....................and then we'll take it from there.......
Today I need to do a few things around the house, run to the bank, and get flowers for daughter for this evening.
I went to have a cigarette while at work the other day.
A co-worker pointed out how I was sinning.
She frequently quotes the bible, and is quick to point out to others their sins.
My first instinct was to point out how she' s shacking up with some dude and has a few illegitimate children. (even though I think all children are legitimate)........I didn't though. What she said irritated me......as I'm sure was her intent.........................................................I let it go.......
She's misguided.
Monday, February 07, 2011
monday
I had a doctors appointment this morning with my family doctor. Boyfriend went with me though he waited in the waiting room. I had planned on talking to my doctor about "stuff" but things got tangled up inside. So I didn't, except maybe to just touch the surface a bit.
My doctor's a good doctor though, and I think he knows me pretty well. He doesn't push.......just kinda opens the door for me and then takes my lead I suppose.
Things will be okay.
After the appointment we went out for a late breakfast and then I picked up Valentines for daughter to give to her students at the schools pre-school.
Nothing much going on.....Mr. Bojangles is next to me on the couch. His purring is soothing.
Thinking about going to watch daughter cheer tonight. Haven't made my mind up yet.
I keep thing today is Wednesday.
My doctor's a good doctor though, and I think he knows me pretty well. He doesn't push.......just kinda opens the door for me and then takes my lead I suppose.
Things will be okay.
After the appointment we went out for a late breakfast and then I picked up Valentines for daughter to give to her students at the schools pre-school.
Nothing much going on.....Mr. Bojangles is next to me on the couch. His purring is soothing.
Thinking about going to watch daughter cheer tonight. Haven't made my mind up yet.
I keep thing today is Wednesday.
Saturday, February 05, 2011
Friday, February 04, 2011
my kittys
It was sunny today, and a little bit warmer than it has been.....................WePing and Mr. Bojangles spent most of the day outside enjoying the weather.
Thursday, February 03, 2011
from last pm
Daughter had cheerleading this evening so boyfriend and I went to the grocery store and then took a ride. I took him to where the kids at my high school went, when I was in high school, to make out.We sat in the car drinking our hot chocolate, and watched the snow fall. It was nice.
Daughter was a little down today after school. Her boyfriend has been offered a "free ride" to his choice of 3 different universities. The closest one is two hours away.......
For a teenager, 2 hours away may as well be 15 hours.
So we talked a bit. I think our talk helped her to feel better.
Daughter took the ACT a second time. ( i hope I'm not repeating myself.) She raised her total score 2 or 3 points. I was pleased. She also took an entrance exam at a small school in Ohio and had a look around. Prior to her visit to the school she had her mind set that it was the place she wanted to attend. After her day there she had a change of mind.
She has choices. I'm happy she's exploring them.
Daughter was a little down today after school. Her boyfriend has been offered a "free ride" to his choice of 3 different universities. The closest one is two hours away.......
For a teenager, 2 hours away may as well be 15 hours.
So we talked a bit. I think our talk helped her to feel better.
Daughter took the ACT a second time. ( i hope I'm not repeating myself.) She raised her total score 2 or 3 points. I was pleased. She also took an entrance exam at a small school in Ohio and had a look around. Prior to her visit to the school she had her mind set that it was the place she wanted to attend. After her day there she had a change of mind.
She has choices. I'm happy she's exploring them.
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