friday

I got up early to watch the royal wedding.
It was pretty.
I think Kate's sister looked beautiful. Fergies daughters may have been "sticking it to them" for not inviting their mother. How else do you explain their choice in hats?
I loved the queens yellow coat and hat.
Kate and William looked genuinely happy. So congrats to them!

Boyfriend and I went shopping yesterday.
I bought a headband for daughter to wear to the prom.
It's very pretty. I also bought a few more things for her graduation party. (I can't wait!)

I was talking on the phone to my dad today.
He asked if sister is using drugs.
He already knows the answer.
I think he just keeps hoping for a different one.

I met oldest sons girlfriend for the first time this past Easter/and oldest sons birthday.
I liked her a lot.

same old

I slept most of the day. My head hurt and I didn't want to go to the store for Advil, so I tried to sleep the headache away.

My new dilemma at work is  I feel like everything I say will be taken out of context or misconstrued. I feel insecure, worried, and guarded while at work. It's miserable.

Tonight I paid bills, balanced my check book, organized daughters resumes, community work papers, and transcripts......and I cleaned out my purse.
Right now Clean House is on the TV. I can't believe the filth, and piles of crap/clutter that people will live in.............I feel sorry for the children that grow up in the messes they show on this show.

Boyfriend and I are have plans to leave early in the morning. I'm not sure where we're going or how we will spend our day. We just know we want to get out for awhile. I'm looking forward to morning.

Daughter and I hung out this evening.
Mr. Bojangles doesn't like her. He hisses at her. She hisses at him. It's funny.

spring day

When I got home from work last night boyfriend, sons, and daughter were here waiting to celebrate my birthday with me.
We had a nice but short sweet time together.
Daughter baked a birthday cake for me. So now I know she can make mashed potatoes, bake a turkey, and bake a cake. :O)
Sons and boyfriend bought me an Android. It's kind of cool. I haven't taken much time yet to really check it out!

This morning I went to the DMV to pay property tax on my car, and to re-new my car tags..........and then.....

I worked in the yard today. I did everything that I should have done last spring or summer but didn't do because I was in a funk like depression like type of place.
It feels good to not be in that "place" anymore for the most part....
It felt good to be productive. But now I'm filthy dirty and too tired to shower. :O)     It was beautiful outside in Ky. today. So it was great spending the day in the sun.

I took a couple pictures of We-Ping and Mr. Bojangles, of a dandelion (because when I was a child I'd pick them and blow the white fluffy stuff off of them.), and of some crates I'm going to use as tables on the deck. I'm not finished painting them.....almost though....Tiki Man has seen his last days I think!

friday

Boyfriend bought a new car yesterday.
It's pretty. The On Star is kind of cool.
He's happy with his purchase.
I'm happy for him.

My car is ticking. "tick, tick, tick, tick."
Son says i don't have the right size oil filter on it.
I hope it's really that simple.

I plan on spending most of today outside.
It's supposed to be beautiful weather.
I need to cut my grass and paint some crates son brought me from his work. I plan to use them on the deck as tables. We'll see how they work.

There's an under class man at daughters school whose mother died last year. The girl now lives with a family member who is blind.
This girl plays on the softball team.
No one from her family comes to watch her play.
So daughter does.........the girl scans the stands to check for Ms. Em.......and is thrilled when she sees her. Daughter cheers her on, and pats her on the back.......
I think it's sweet.....makes me proud.

thursday

My taxes are filed!      YAY!                          It's a huge weight off my shoulders.

So daughter was telling me how at the prom the last dance is for seniors only. The whole senior class wraps their arms around each other & have a last slow dance together. I got all teary eyed when she was telling me about the way they do the last dance......and then she started crying. lol......and then we laughed at each other for crying.

Middle son took daughter rock climbing while daughter was on spring break. Son said she kicked butt.....including his.
She's always been fearless when it comes to climbing.

 I'm planning a graduation party for daughter. I want it to be a huge celebration full of music, food, friends, family, and laughter. I love planning parties.

Boyfriend asked me not to stay up late last night because he wanted to leave early this morning to go car shopping. I stayed up late like I almost always do on my days off of work...............but I got up early so I'd be ready to go................he's still sleeping. :O)

Oldest son was over the other day to say hi. But he also wanted to tell me about the girl he's dating. He doesn't usually share his love life with me.....even though I ask...(can't help myself)......him and his brother are single young guys who enjoy their freedom...................now there's this girl.............I could tell the way he was talking that he's smitten with her.
It was sweet the way he went on about her pretty blue eyes.

wed.

I was a grouch when I got home from work last night.
Daughter was dozing on the couch. She had a few pair of shoes and a purse on the living room floor. She also had a plate and two cups on the coffee table and sunflower seed shells on the coffee table. Normally that wouldn't bother me, but like I said I was a grouch. I woke her and raised my voice about her mess. I even slammed shut a couple kitchen cabinets . But what I was really feeling was guilt that she had supper alone in front of the t.v. I didn't care about the mess. Messes can be cleaned. She got up and got in the shower. I apologized to her when she got out.......................we ended up hanging out together for a couple of hours. I had her cracking up laughing. It was good....

I need to file taxes today. As usual I've put it off until the last minute.

Daughter wants to move to her big brothers old bedroom, again. Last year we moved her and the next day she wanted to go back to her bedroom. So we moved her back.
Now she wants to do it again...........I guess we'll give it another try. It is a much bigger room.......she needs the space........she wants to paint it first........and so we will.

Work is going OK.
Yesterday one of the CNA'S was escorted out after being fired.
Even though she was one of the staff members that drove me crazy with
the drama she created, and I always crossed my fingers that she wouldn't be scheduled on my unit, it was upsetting to see her face after she'd been fired.....and to see her being escorted out of the building.
I felt sorry for her.

Friday

Opening day has come and gone.. I love the Cincinnati Reds even though I haven't watched any of the first three games. I love baseball!

Our work day didn't start off so good..& Two hours into our work day  we were irritable, a little agitated, and just feeling stressed.                            So..............................................................................................
We sang. I mean we grouped together and we SANG. I loved being told "you can really sing, girl!" I knew I was rocking it, lol.......we all felt better afterwards....

Pia was voted off American Idol. YAY!

I wish my sisters weren't addicted.
I hope they get well...

I woke up a couple of times last night and felt Mr. Bojangles next to me. I smiled and drifted back to sleep. I love him.

Mr. Bojangles

He's not happy about the neighbor cat taking a short cut through our backyard.

this n that

Daughter and I went to the Hobby Lobby yesterday to find a football shaped cake pan.
While there I found some decorations for her graduation party. Thinking about it (daughters graduation) let alone trying to talk about it to daughter makes me all weepy eyed. I wonder if it's normal to be so emotional about an event. I"m excited about it too....... But when she starts talking about it the both of us become emotional/ tearful. It's crazy!

We're going to Colorado soon.
I'll fly if I have to, but right now we're leaning towards taking Amtrak.

Daughters hair continued to fall out, and it was fuzzy from having been burnt.
She finally just had it all cut off.
I think it looks cute.

I dream of winning the lottery so that my time will be my own.
I don't want to wait until I'm old.

nothing much going on...

Juat completed my long stretch of 12 hour shifts. Now I'm off for 3 days. So it was worth it.
Work was crazy busy yesterday.
I hate when it's like that.....I go home worrying that maybe I forgot to do something. Then I try to just let it go and figure I'll deal with it when I get back to work.

Daughter and I have been spending lots of time together. It's been fun, and nice.
All of her best friends will be leaving town in a few months on scholarships. Her best friend is going to the University of Louisville, and her boyfriend will be going to Union College in Barberville Kentucky.
She can drive down to see them.......and they will be coming home for visits. Still she's already feeling emotional about them leaving. I think it's why she's been clinging a little to me.

She finally found the perfect prom dress. The shop she bought it in has a strict no return policy. So prom dress shopping is officially over.
It's a pretty princess like dress. Different then all the homecoming and prom dresses she's worn.........

I'm tired from the long shifts.
Today I'm going to finish the book I'm reading, go to the bank, and maybe go to the grocery.................nothing much more planned for the day.

tuesday

I had a wondeful evening and night Monday night.
Daughter and I hung out together on the deck. We talked about school after high school, drinking alcohol, love, prom, family, friends, boyfriends, after prom, pre prom........she's an open book with me. Some of the time I think" OMG I don't want to hear this"...........on the other hand I'm happy she feels like she can talk to me............and doesn't feel the need to keep her life a secret.
We sat together under the stars and had dinner..........we laughed, joked, and connected in a good way.
I feel lucky.

And then tonight me, boyfriend, and daughter went to daughters sports banquet.
My last sports banquet as a mom.
It was fun.
I almost always enjoy seeing daughters friends......and watching them be the crazy, wild, smart, funny, playful teenagers that they are...........
Daughter received a special award from the cheerleading squad.......she was chosen as "the best friend to have"............it was sweet.

I used to pray to God to let me live until my children were adults.
Now I want to amend that prayer.
I'd like more time please.

I paid bills today, and balanced my checkbook.
I ordered daughters yearbook.
Her cap and gown have already been ordered.

Boyfriend is out of pain.
He's checking out surgeons and hospitals.

Both sons called me while I was at the sports banquet.
I couldn't answer the phone but called them later.
Middle son wanted me to pick up a paper shredder for him if I was going to be at Walmart anytime soon........................oldest son just wanted to say hello.

did i jinx myself, asks the irish girl.....

so an hour before boyfriends doctor appointment, boyfriend asked me to take him to the emergency room. his pain had become unbearable.
when all was said and done, it boils down to having to have his gallbladder removed. we will call the surgeon tomorrow.
it's funny how just a couple of days ago i was secretly counting my blessings, and feeling thankful that i made it, even though it was with some difficulty, but still, i made it through last year. i was afraid that if i said it out loud i'd jinx myself.
maybe just thinking those things jinxed me.
I know it's not brain surgery. I know it's not heart surgery.
but i'm scared for boyfriend........

daughters pink eye medicine was eighty bucks. i asked if they sent it through to her insurance. of course they did. without the insurance it would have been one hundred and twenty bucks.
i asked them to call her doctor and get a more reasonable medicine ordered. something for around twenty dollars or less. i mean come on......it's pink eye. the pharmacist agreed. so i'm waiting to hear from them.....

daughter is napping. boyfriend is napping. we-ping, mr. bojangles, and i are on the deck.
i have the kitchen screen door propped open so the kitties can go in and out as they please. we-ping doesn't like to be away from her food bowl for too long.

and now i'm going to read some of that book i've been reading while on my lunch at work. it's good. i want to really get in to it though...........the way i can't while at work.

monday

I'm off work for the next three days. Yay!

Daughter has pink eye.
I'm hoping school doesn't send her home. She struggles to catch   up.
I've called her doctor and I'm hoping that since she was just seen last week he will call
in a prescription without having to see her again.

Daughter's report card from this past quarter was great. She brought up all her grades again.
One more time of the same thing and she'll be our newest little graduate.

Boyfriend is in misery. He's having severe abdominal pain and has been for 3 days.
I've tried talking him in to going to the hospital. He won't go, but he does have
a doctors appointment for today. We'll see.....

The doctor just called and is going to call in a prescription for daughter for her eyes. So Yay!

I have a few errands to run today, maybe go to the doctor with boyfriend, and then I'm going to finish reading my latest Koontz book.

spd

I took daughter to the doctor today.
She was a little embarrassed because she's still a patient at the pediatric group.
I need to have her file transferred to a doctor for adults. It's just not something i think of until she's sick.
Anyway, they checked her for the flu and for strep. Both tests were negative. So she just has a cold that will have to run its course.

Daughter and I shopped a little on-line for a dress for graduation. So far this is our favorite. I don't know if you can see it. It's cute, casual, and not expensive. We found some great looking shoes to go with it!

I've been car shopping for a couple of months.
The bottom line is that I hate spending money for a car.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------Happy Saint Patrick's Day
May your troubles be less

And your blessings be more

And nothing but happiness

Come through your door.

more of the same

Sister bear stayed home from school today.
She's down and out with a sore throat and cold.
She seldom misses. It causes her too much anxiety about catching up.
So I know she must feel pretty bad. Poor Boo!

Yesterday was my ex best friends birthdays. We grew up together, the three of us, and were friends until 7 or 8 years ago. So I thought about them yesterday, just as I do from time to time.
When I watch Teen Mom there's a boyfriend to one of the teen moms on the how. His name is Keefer. Every time I see him I know that if my ex friend Lisa is watching, she'd be cracking up. I almost picked up the phone the other day to call her just to see if she was watching him.
Friends are great. But having friends that really know you, and where you've come from because they've come from there with you, is like the greatest.
I don't miss them per se. I miss that kind of friendship though..........

Boyfriend is running errands. When he gets here he's going to help me clean. That's the big plan for today.......deep clean this house, and organize the spare bedroom.