sunday

Boyfriend and I did a little Christmas shopping last night with oldest son and his girlfriend..........went out for pizza, and then to shoot some pool, listen to music, and have a few drinks.It was a fun night.
I got up early to pickup son and his girlfriend to take them back to the place we had drinks so son could get his jeep.

Ran to the bank today to deposit the bonus I received from work for the perfect survey. :O)..............................cleaned the house for Thanksgiving, and did laundry.

monday

They had a party for us at work today to celebrate our perfect state survey.
It's my off day. I didn't want to go to work on my off day, even if it was just to party.


Billy, the gun is gone.
Son can't find it........vaguely remembers selling it to a girl at work.
I apologize.
He offered it to me to give to you.
I didn't think for a second there was the possibility he didn't still have it.
If I did, I wouldn't have offered it to you.
Again, I'm sorry............and will find a way to make it up to you.

friday

it's time to  plan my thanksgiving meal.
i don't like the traditional meal. it's gross, except for the pumpkin pie and left over turkey
for turkey sandwiches.
everyone else in my family likes the regular stuff. so i guess i really don't
need to plan anything.
 bummer.

i wonder if it would be a disgusting waste of money if i took a year off of work.
i don't know what i'd do with my time off. i just think it would be so great for time, all
of that one years time, to be my own.
i'm not going to live long. not with my family history of stroking out.
at least if i die in the next 3 years i would have had 1 premature year of retirement.
so if i die early then it wouldn't be a waste of money...........on the slim chance that i live a long life, then maybe so..................................................but it still seems like it would be worth it.........a year to call my own.......while i'm still healthy.....................i dunno.

thursday

:O)
we had a perfect state survey.......that's all i have to say about it..........................................except that we are very happy because we work our asses off for months and months and months..................having a  perfect survey is extremely rare................we've done it twice in the past few years...........................................it feels great!

wed

I didn't get to vote.
State inspectors
showed up at work Monday for our yearly inspection.........the inspection usually lasts 4-5 days.
My plan was to vote Tuesday before work........and be a little late .........not an option
during an inspection. I was on my way to work Tuesday morning
before the polls here were open.........and I didn't leave
work yesterday until long after the polls were closed. So for the first time since I was 18, I didn't vote. I was a little bummed.
On the other hand, yesterday was daughters first opportunity to vote in a presidential election.......she said she felt  regret over her choice as soon as she left the city building.

PS

I bought a box of chocolate covered cherries. I'm having one now...............ex husband loves them.......I buy him a box every year for Christmas........I get a craving for them maybe once a year......today was that day.

thursday

It was a slow day.
I got up early and then went back to bed until noon.

Oldest son came over.
He wanted the coffee table that I didn't want anymore.
It's big, heavy, solid wood. Weighs a ton. It's pretty. But it was getting on my
nerves.
I told him to take it.
Now it sits in his and his brothers condo. They say it looks great!
I'm happy they're happy with it.

I made lasagna for supper, and set the table with candle light. Boyfriend and daughter joined me. The lasagna was pretty good. The home made bread was delicious.

Middle son stopped over later and had some of the lasagna. I tried to get him to take the leftovers home for him and brother, but he was on his way  to meet up with friends.
I put it in the freezer for another day.

If I  choose not to sell my house
the following must be done:
1. gut and re do my kitchen.
2. put in new bathroom doors.
C. get rid of the fuse box and put in breakers.
4.insulate
5.new dining room light fixture.
F.finish the semi-finished basement
7. new rail on the stairway that goes to the garage.
8. new railing on front porch
9. cosmetics in daughters bathroom
J.kill the freaking honeysuckles once and for all
11. lap pool and hot tub
12. front yard landscaping.

wed.

I didn't like our facility psychiatrist at first. I can't really explain why. Maybe I didn't like him for replacing the psychiatrist that I had worked with forever, and who I really liked. Who knows..........I've worked with the new guy for awhile now....... I like him. He kinda looks like a throw back from the 60's. He cusses. I've always liked doctors that cuss. He's not vulgar or anything. He just cusses now and then. I think his cursing puts me at ease.
I was answering his questions the other day about his patients.
He asked how Mr. B was doing, and what I thought about him. I told the doctor I though Mr. B was a prick. A big prick.  I asked him if his anti psychotic drugs would help Mr.B's prickism. He said probably not.
 I asked if maybe Mr. B should be seen by a urologist for his prick disorder rather than a psychiatrist.
He laughed ......and meant it......
Now I like him even more.

I went shopping with daughter and her cell phone the other night. She can't put it away.........I hate it.

monday

Daughter is at school. Boyfriend is at a doctors appointment and then has to have routine car maintenance done. So lucky me has the house to myself for a few hours.
I just watched the latest episode of Dexter. Dexter's sister  went on a tirade full of cursing. I loved it.

Dexter is a good name for a cat, Billy. Especially if it's  named after Dexter the serial killer. I was thinking about naming my next cat Audrey Hepburn. I guess I have to meet it first and see if the name fits.

So while I enjoy the show Dexter, I love the show Nurse Jackie. She's the ER nurse in charge, married and with two children............ having an affair with the hospital pharmacist........and she's a drug addict. She frequently uses her name badge to cut pills and then snort them.
In one scene there's a man in her ER, his ear had been ripped off by the woman he raped, beat, and tortured. So the rapist who was in the ER to have his ear sewed on was going on and on to Nurse Jackie about how he was just doing to the woman he hurt what that woman wanted him to do...etc...he was a mother fucker with this sick sense of entitlement..&;....he was a diplomat with immunity from prosecution. Next scene is Jackie in a bath room stall holding this guys ear.......she holds the ear near her mouth and yells "fuck you!" into the ear........then....drops it in the toilet and flushes.
While I was on my sick leave from work I found this show.....................I watched it over and over............ I loved watching her yell"fuck you" into the severed ear.

wed.

Boyfriend took me out to dinner today. It was nice.
We also went shopping.
I bought a couple shirts, jeans, and a few under clothes.

 I found a new head board for my bed. I didn't think I wanted one because it's just something else that takes up space and that will need to be dusted.......but my pillows keep falling over and off the head of the bed.

Mr. Bojangles hasn't come home yet tonight. I'm a little worried. When he goes out at night he usually comes back to the porch by 9:30, 10 P at the latest.

work went better today. I'm working on uncluster fucking the new unit........and on getting a routine going...............i guess i just want it to be easy...........it's not going to be..............so i'll deal..........i can't quit........not for 9 more years..................and i'm too tired to change jobs........................

daughter's doing okay in school but her professors are asking if she's been tested for add/learning disabilities.......................they encourage her to be tested again........................anyway......if everything goes as planned, she should complete school Jan. 2014............................she's thrilled and looking forward to getting her Savannah cat from me to her for a graduation gift. I want one too.

She's taking shack up's car to school tomorrow .her car is due for an oil change and it needs new head lights.....................shack up was cleaning the head light covers and found that her head lights are out...........she's been using her brights........ho hum..........

boyfriends brother donated his body to science.............in this case they will keep his body for 6 to 8 weeks then return it for cremation.
i'd hate the thought of one of my family members donating their body. it just grosses me out.
boyfriend is going to be cremated. he tells me to flush his ashes........pisses me off when he says to flush him...............

you're missing out on dexter, billy. i thought it was going to suck this season..........turns out that it's good............. 

PS........i sound judgmental when i talk about the Pipe guy..........truth be told i respect him for always trying to do better..(though i think he should give his self a freaking break once in awhile).....and not giving up.............

good night, billy..........

monday

my new unit at work is overwhelming.
i don't know what to do about it.
i can't go on a 12 hour adrenalin rush dayafter day.
it's not normal. it's not healthy. i resent the powers that be......

we-ping met me at my car when i got home from work.
she makes me smile.
when i got in the house, i pet mr. bojangles.
he hissed. i hissed back at him. he cracks me up.

I think it would be fun to work at a full service gas station........remember those?
I think it would be fun to clean wind shields, check oil levels and pump gas for a few hours a day a couple days a week.
i might do it when i retire.......if i canfind one that still does those things.......

sunday

scrubbed the kitchen and bathroom floors. washed the TV screens and mirrors.cleaned the counter tops, dusted and vacuumed......and did 3 loads of laundry.......................then i spent 4 hours in the backyard cleaning up garden rocks an old neighbor had delivered to his back yard. he had them delivered to a hill in his backyard against a chain link fence that separated our yards....... the weight of the rocks deformed my fence and some of the rock ended up in my yard.....i had the chain link fenced removed a year ago..........was tired of looking at the rocks flowing down the hill into my yard.......and was tired of looking at the half buried blue tarp that the rock had poured on when they were delivered...................................so i pulled all the little fucking rocks down the hill (probably 5 wheel barrels full)and into my yard.........cleaned the weeds in my neighbors yard that had grown over the rocks.....and.......threw the fucking blue tarp away............
the dumb ass who had the rocks delivered lost the house to foreclosure.............the new owner rents the place out...........neither the  owner or the renter seemed to be bothered by the mess .............fuck them both.
I'll use the rocks somewhere in my yard.................................................................  i cut down fucking honeykissmyass suckle trees......and then showered just in case i was dealing with any poison ivy...............so i got lots done today...................feels good............
I'm sitting in my new bed with fresh, smell good sheets, with Mr. Bojangles and boyfriend.
boyfriends brother passed away today.
boyfriends brother made the decision to
go with hospice. he didn't want to continue to live paralyzed and unable to eat.......the outcome of a stroke.........
boyfriend spent a couple weeks a couple weeks ago in Colorado with his brother. they talked about a million things, spent everyday together............. and when it was time for boyfriend to come home him and his brother said their finale good-byes. sad........sad that you love people and eventually have to go, or let them go...........
Mr. Bojangles is behind my computer screen.  his tail is wrapped around the computer and on the screen. i keep touching his tail tip. it's cute. he's cute.

thursday

They changed our assignments at work.
My new unit is much busier than the one I was moved off of.
Partly because it's a big cluster fuck. My plan is to uncluster fuck it.........make it easier for
everyone.

It's been so pretty outside ..........sunny, crisp and cool. The tree in my front yard looks beautiful with the colorful leaves. I love fall. Mr. Bojangles and We-Ping seem to enjoy it too.

Boyfriend went to the mall today.
I don't like the mall and didn't want to go. I wanted to stay home in my big, new,comfy bed watching Halloween movies. So that's what I did................and every so often I'd sit on the porch and enjoy all the pretty fall colors, and the warm sun.

 I'm still not sure if I'm going to buy a new home and sell this one. I definitely don't want to buy a condo.
I'm leaning towards staying here.........

We-Ping and Mr. Bojangles

Our neighbors finally took care of the mess in their front yard. We-Ping and Mr. Bojangles enjoyed  rolling in the dirt.