new bling

Do you like my new ring?

happy birthday nephew!

I did a double shift yesterday and Saturday.
After a double shift I usually feel a little hung over/tired the next day.   It's how I fee lnow.
We had a pot luck at work yesterday.........and even though work
was full moon, off the hook crazy busy, I had a good time with my co-workers.
When I clocked out last night, I was very happy and looking forward to having
the next 7 days off work!
My house is clean and looks beautiful with the tree and decorations.
The presents are wrapped and under the tree.
I bought some great looking steaks and shrimp for dinner with sons, daughter, and boyfriend
this evening. After dinner we will open gifts and then play poker. I'm looking forward to it!

Al lI have left to do is bake a couple pumpkin pies, and make a pasta salad to take to moms house Christmas day.........and make a cheese cake for this evening.

Today is my oldest nephews birthday.
He was born when I was just a teenager................it was the first time I felt that
maternal love. I loved him so much........with all my heart and soul......... we spent
so much time together. We camped, went swimming, fished........
He loved going to Star Wars movies. We went so often that he'd finish the actors sentences annoying
the other movie goers. I thought it was cute, and funny.
Eventually I married and had children of my own.................and his parents cleaned up their lives and became good parents........................I stopped over his house last night. He lives a block away from me..........a cute little brick/with rock house that he bought 8 or 9 years ago..................he lives with his dog, Monty..................................so I stopped at his house to give him a birthday gift.................................it was a tee shirt with a picture of Yoda wearing a Santa hat........and the caption said "An Elf I am not." Reminded me of him......I figured he could sleep in it......................................so I stopped by his house hoping he'd be home/awake......he was........with a house full of company........:O)..................................nephew and I had a nice chat. I told him how he'd annoy the other movie goers..........he cracked up........................I love him ( I hugged him tight and told him I love him) and regret not maintaining a clsoe relationship with him.............

my friend

My best friend passed away in May of 2008.
Last night I dreamed about him.
In my dream I turned, because I felt compelled to, and I looked up and off in the distance.
I saw his face. He was smiling at me. A huge smile. I could feel the happiness that he was feeling. I smiled back at him.I was excited to see him,and happy that he was happy. He winked at me and then I winked at him.

So that was it.........that was my dream.
It felt good seeing him. I smile when I think about it.

F U

My works house psychiatrist yelled at me yesterday.
Fuck him......and his hippie hair cut.........

i think this is cute...

Difference Between Old Nurses and New Nurses - YouTube   


The experienced nurse in the video cracks me up when she stretches.........

We-Ping

My cat, We-Ping.

The vet says he's not fat. I think he looks like a big ham.

He has the softest fur I've ever felt on a cat........and the most beautiful bright blue eyes.....even though he's cross eyed. He likes to drink from the bathroom sink faucet, and sleep in the bathroom sink. He has a special fondness for my oldest son. We-Ping is not typically a physically affectionate cat, except with oldest son.

I love this lil guy.........

wed. i think

the last 9 days i've worked seven 14 hour shifts, spent 5 hours cleaning mom and dads family room,their downstairs bathroom, and i put up their christmas tree. i recruited 3 of my 4 sisters to meet me at mom and dads house a couple days after cleaning their family room to help me clean the rest of their house. i just couldn't do it all by myself. they  showed up (i was so happy)(mom and dad left to run errands and such while we cleaned) and we cleaned our butts off. but it was fun. my sister who is a year older than i am is a little ocd. so it took her forever to clean moms bathroom. and that's okay because i knew it would be the cleanest room in the house. my other sister, the one a year younger than me cleaned dads bathroom in under 10 minutes. i sent her back in to recheck her work. she was like "it's fine! it's clean! so when she went on a lunch run, me and my second oldest sister re cleaned dads bathroom. laughing the whole time, and trying to get it finished before other sister returned.  it took the 4 of us about 6 hours to clean the rest of the house and to put up the rest of the christmas decorations.
whne mom and dad came home, sisters and i went over the christmas dinner menu with mom. every year she insists on doing all the cooking. i usually stay behind after the christmas celebration and wash dishes. i told mom no dishes this year, and that she is not doing all the cooking..........we would all 25 of us eat on paper plates, drink from paper cups, and eat with plastic forks..........PERIOD!......................and i told sisters we'd each bring a dish and a desert  in a serving bowl or pan that we'd each take home that night to wash in our own homes. it took some convincing to get mom to agree, but with a recent episode of an acute congestive heart failure leaving her feeling very tired, and short of breath, she agreed to everything but said she was still going to bake a ham, a pork tenderloin, and make some roast beef with gravy.  I told her i'd wash 3 pans, 3 knives, and three serving spoons/forks............anything else was going in the garbage. she agreed......and laughed, cause she's relieved i think.........
while i was  cleaning the family room and bathroom mom's internal defibrillator alarmed...(it sounds like a police siren coming from her chest).......with her having just gone through an acute congestive heart failure, having the alarm go off freaked me out on the inside. mom panicked and her first instinct was to get up to run up the stairs to get her doctors phone number........and she was pale as can be. dad became very quiet, fear all over his face. made me feel sad for them......
i made mom sit, checked her pulse, reassured her she was okay......................i had no idea what was going on though, and i wasn't sure if she was okay or if the defibrillator was going to shock her or if she was going to pass out or owrse..........................................................when all was said and done, the defibrillator wire had cracked and needed to be replaced. mom decided against replacing it, until she changed her mind. so she had surgery yesterday morning, and came home this evening. she is doing great..............................
i didn't ask one of my sisters to help with the cleaning because she's not permitted at mom and dads unless she is working the 12 step program and clean of drugs.
i call her now and then to say hello, and let her know i love her. i don't ask questions. i just don't............people using drugs lie anyway........they live in a world of denial..............she called me the day after me and my other sisters cleaned moms house. she missed out on a really pretty cool day. (who knew spending the day with your sisters cleaning could be so much fun) it was a nice talk. it was truthful.
i had heard through the grapevine that she is going to meetings. i could tell from some of the things she said that she is clean..............and has been for a few weeks to a month or so.........in august i was certain she'd be dead within the year.................now i have guarded optimism she might  be okay.
so after cleaning moms i shopped until 2:30 am buying wrapping paper, and what food items i could buy for the christmas meal i cook for my children and boyfriend, and for the stuff i need for moms meal.........and the next day i put up my christmas tree. it's my prettiest tree yet!
i was off today. i did nothing except call mom to tell her i love her and i wouldn't call her the rest of the day so that she could rest undisturbed.......................................................................and then i watched the last 2 episodes of Dexter "fish FUCKING filet" is what his sister said today. she cracks me up!....................and i napped for several hours.
it's 8 pm. i'm hungry and going to getsomething to eat.......

friday

we had a nice thanksgiving..............and a pretty good thanksgiving dinner. enjoyed spending time with my grown children, boyfriend, and the kitties.

i'm tired though.........and kinda would like to skip the holidays this year. i'd rather be at the ocean enjoying the sun,water, peace, and quiet.

sunday

Boyfriend and I did a little Christmas shopping last night with oldest son and his girlfriend..........went out for pizza, and then to shoot some pool, listen to music, and have a few drinks.It was a fun night.
I got up early to pickup son and his girlfriend to take them back to the place we had drinks so son could get his jeep.

Ran to the bank today to deposit the bonus I received from work for the perfect survey. :O)..............................cleaned the house for Thanksgiving, and did laundry.

monday

They had a party for us at work today to celebrate our perfect state survey.
It's my off day. I didn't want to go to work on my off day, even if it was just to party.


Billy, the gun is gone.
Son can't find it........vaguely remembers selling it to a girl at work.
I apologize.
He offered it to me to give to you.
I didn't think for a second there was the possibility he didn't still have it.
If I did, I wouldn't have offered it to you.
Again, I'm sorry............and will find a way to make it up to you.

friday

it's time to  plan my thanksgiving meal.
i don't like the traditional meal. it's gross, except for the pumpkin pie and left over turkey
for turkey sandwiches.
everyone else in my family likes the regular stuff. so i guess i really don't
need to plan anything.
 bummer.

i wonder if it would be a disgusting waste of money if i took a year off of work.
i don't know what i'd do with my time off. i just think it would be so great for time, all
of that one years time, to be my own.
i'm not going to live long. not with my family history of stroking out.
at least if i die in the next 3 years i would have had 1 premature year of retirement.
so if i die early then it wouldn't be a waste of money...........on the slim chance that i live a long life, then maybe so..................................................but it still seems like it would be worth it.........a year to call my own.......while i'm still healthy.....................i dunno.

thursday

:O)
we had a perfect state survey.......that's all i have to say about it..........................................except that we are very happy because we work our asses off for months and months and months..................having a  perfect survey is extremely rare................we've done it twice in the past few years...........................................it feels great!

wed

I didn't get to vote.
State inspectors
showed up at work Monday for our yearly inspection.........the inspection usually lasts 4-5 days.
My plan was to vote Tuesday before work........and be a little late .........not an option
during an inspection. I was on my way to work Tuesday morning
before the polls here were open.........and I didn't leave
work yesterday until long after the polls were closed. So for the first time since I was 18, I didn't vote. I was a little bummed.
On the other hand, yesterday was daughters first opportunity to vote in a presidential election.......she said she felt  regret over her choice as soon as she left the city building.

PS

I bought a box of chocolate covered cherries. I'm having one now...............ex husband loves them.......I buy him a box every year for Christmas........I get a craving for them maybe once a year......today was that day.

thursday

It was a slow day.
I got up early and then went back to bed until noon.

Oldest son came over.
He wanted the coffee table that I didn't want anymore.
It's big, heavy, solid wood. Weighs a ton. It's pretty. But it was getting on my
nerves.
I told him to take it.
Now it sits in his and his brothers condo. They say it looks great!
I'm happy they're happy with it.

I made lasagna for supper, and set the table with candle light. Boyfriend and daughter joined me. The lasagna was pretty good. The home made bread was delicious.

Middle son stopped over later and had some of the lasagna. I tried to get him to take the leftovers home for him and brother, but he was on his way  to meet up with friends.
I put it in the freezer for another day.

If I  choose not to sell my house
the following must be done:
1. gut and re do my kitchen.
2. put in new bathroom doors.
C. get rid of the fuse box and put in breakers.
4.insulate
5.new dining room light fixture.
F.finish the semi-finished basement
7. new rail on the stairway that goes to the garage.
8. new railing on front porch
9. cosmetics in daughters bathroom
J.kill the freaking honeysuckles once and for all
11. lap pool and hot tub
12. front yard landscaping.