Chat Room

So I've been going to the same chat room for 5 years. I started going there as a way to help me clear my head of thoughts that kept me up at night. I'd focus on what was being said in the room instead of what was going on in my head. It helped me relax so that I could have some semblance of sleep. I didn't want to talk to these people. I didn't want to form on-line relationshps. I simply wanted to get some sleep.

Then I found myself looking forward to seeing certain screen names in the room. I knew they'd have something funny to say, or I knew they were at odds with someone else in the room and all hell would break loose. And I'd find myself interested in the on going story of some of their lives......like watching an afternoon soap.

SOme of them would try to engage me in conversation. I'd ignore their attempts, or just pretend I had to go.

For 5 years I've been following their on-line rooom chats, and for several years I've been reading their blogs. They're intelligent,articulate, witty, and well read.......all of the things that I'm not.

And it is for that very reason I still don't contribute, or allow them to get to know me.