Depressed

I'm depressed. I know all the reasons for my depression too......but when you're depressed, finding the energy to make changes is difficult.

I absolutely dread going to work tomorrow. I worked this weekend,and it was awful. It probably wouldnt be so bad if I wasn't such a control freak. But I am, and so I'm always trying to clean up messes, and fix things that have been broken. I need to just let those things go and just do my job. Let the powers that be worry about the other crap. It's what they get paid to do.

I've been on call since Friday. So sleeping through the night is out of the question. I'm thinking about telling my boss I no longer want to do the on call thing.......I like having the free cell phone and the financial bonus isn't so bad either....but I'm sick of the people calling me in the middle of the night. So we will see............and that's about it......that's my life.