Happy New Years

I spent a quiet New Years eve with We-Ping. We watched a Hallmark movie, which wasn't half bad, but only seemed to depress me more because I hadn't planned on spending that one night a year when you're supposed to be with people you love/atleast like, dressed up, laughing, drinking, listening to great music, and then kissing someone special when the clock hits midnight. I was worried I was setting the stage for the year to come, and I didn't like that I was feeling alone, a little depressed, and sorry for myself.
So we watched the Hallmark movie, had a late supper which consisted of Oatmeal Crisp. We-Ping lapped up the left over milk from my cereal bowl. We played with a shoestring, soaked in a hot bath (We-Ping sat on the edge of the bath while I soaked) and then we cuddled under the warm, hand made afghan that my boyfriends sister gave to me for Christmas and we read a little Stephen King.

I haven't given New Years resolutions much thought but there are some things I'd like to change.........I'd like to stop the negative thoughts that I allow to run through my head each morning upon waking. I didn't realize until recently that my first thoughts each morning are negative thoughts about myself. Most of which, after consideration, I know aren't true. So then why do I do it? I guess it's habit, and I'm going to stop.
I swear I'm going to stop trying to control every aspect of my childrens lives. They will make mistakes, and hopefully learn from them. It's part of what life is all about. I need to step back and let them be the young adults I've raised them to be. They will do just fine.
I want to walk/clog everyday. It feels good, so why not do it everyday? With my mom and dad both being diagnosed with cancer in 2006, I find myself worrying way to often about my own health and inevitable demise. Exercise will give me some feeling of control.
I will have a bigger, better garden this year.......and I will get to the Cantaloups before the moles get to them.

My list isn't complete, but I'll add to it as the year goes on.