Monday

I lost 2 more pounds for a total of 6 lbs. in about 11 weeks? At this rate I'll be dead before I reach my 20 pound goal.

News

Story - Gruesome Details in Connecticut Murders - AOL News


I will never understand such violence and cruelty. This story breaks my heart.

Happy Birthday

Happy 1st Birthday We-Ping!

joys of parenting

Middle son called me the other evening. He told me that he has been giving his future a lot of thought. He said that he has decided he DOES want to go back to college after all and that he is sorry for not doing as well last semester as he could have done. He also informed me that he has anger issues that he's working through and one of the ways he's dealing with his anger is by jogging each night, usually to his brothers apartment, so that they can hang out and talk.....and then he jogs back home. Then he said he loves me and he thanked me for always being there for him.
He has always been an intense, walking the edge type of guy....and he's the type of kid always testing the boundaries.....and I love him for it......raising him has required a little more creative parenting on my part ...what worked for my other 2 children in terms of parenting them, doesn't necessarily work for him........some of the time I feel helpless though......I wish I knew what to do to make things feel easier to him............I wish I knew how to help him to let go of some of the anger that he feels.........it was easier when they were little......you'd kiss their boo boo and all in the world was okay again. I'm proud of him for taking the time to think things through......and I'm happy he's going back to school if it's what he really wants to do......

reading and stuff

I have nothing to write about but I want to write. So i'll just see where this takes me, if anywhere.
Lets see.......work was slow and boring today so I did lots of reading. I read a book about the history of Niagra Falls....and it was very interesting.....I'll have to visit them......I don't know the name of the book, and the book is in my car, so.........

I read the books(but not today) I bought with the gift card my son gave to me........To Kill A Mockingbird......I loved it...even better than when I was a kid. The Memory Keeper's Daughter......I hated it. It went on forever....and all I could think was "why dont they get divorce already?" .......and then there was eat pray love.....I liked the whole idea of the book but it dragged on forever......it made me want to learn to meditate, learn a different language, and travel more........but I dont think she really learned much along her journey of self discovery....if she had, she wouldnt have given in to the need or desire to cling to the father figure who offered to take care of her forever. Atleast that's what I think. I was disappointed in her.


I dated a father figure once. But our relationship ended. My friends and I went to a friends cabin on the lake for a weekend of fun, and it was right after the break up.On the drive to the lake we got in to a discussion about my relationship with this older guy..........and because my emotions were still raw, I started to cry.........and they were like "don't cry. We'll be your daddy!" So now we all call each other "DADDY".....it's like "hi Daddy!" and "Daddy, what are you doing Friday?" I guess we're retarded. :O)~

Charlie

I emailed some baby pictures of Charlie to her new owner. He emailed me some pictures of Charlie at her new home. He changed Charlies name to Daisy. The name doesn't suit her. I think it's queer & I think she looks a little depressed. I hope she's ok.

Excuses for calling off sick

It was a bummer going back to work today. I used a backache as an excuse for calling off yesterday. I need some new and improved excuses.
I've been tardy the last 3 days that I've worked. I guess I'm kinda going for a 3 day suspension. That way I don't have to use all my sick days.

I remember one time when I was in my very early 20's out partying with my older sister. We had been drinking and before we knew it it was like 3am and my sister had to be at work by 7am. We decided that I'd call in for her. So I called and talked to the guy who took call offs and I explained to him that she had a sick stomach and wouldn't be in to work......and to convince him that she really was sick, and to explain why she wasn't making the call, I explained how I took her to the emergency room and that it was probably her appendix..... and they'd be taking her into surgery in just a few minutes to take a little peek around. Luckily the guy on call was a friend to my sister.....and he was able to gather from my somewhat slurred speech, and my failed attemtps to block mine and my sisters laughter by holding my hand over the phone receiver, that I was full of shit, and probably a little drunk. He marked my sister down as having a stomach flu. :O)

We-Ping

I just let her outside. She scratches at the kitchen door in the morning to let us know she's ready to go outside. Cats are so much easier than dogs. I hope Charlie isn't homesick.

Charlie has a new home

I called off work today. Daughter and I are going to lay out in the sun.

I adopted out Charlie. She's a great , loving, big hearted dog but I was't able/willing to give her what she needs and deserves............which is lots of attention. The man who adopted her already has a Lab. Charlie and the Lab took to each other right away. They acted like old friends............and Charlie, being the sweet, affectionate dog that she is, acted like she'd known and loved her new owner forever. I hope he is good to her, and provides her with a good home. She deserves it. I'm going to check up on her in about a week. Part of me wants to go get her, hug her and bring her back home.

SUnday

Boyfriend is on his way over with breakfast from McDonalds. Then we're going to take Charlie to the park for a walk.
My plans for today are to finish the yard work. I don't have much left to do since I mowed yesterday.................I'm also going to go see what oldest son has done with his apartment so far...........and since I didn't get to touch up the kitchen yesterday, I'll try to get to it today.

Weekend

I got to see sons apartment yesterday. It's in an older apt. complex. But the place seems well maintained, clean, and has lots of closet space. It made me want to sell my house and go apartment hunting.
He chickened out buying the house. I think he made the right decision. He should test the waters first.
Did I mention his girlfriend is moving in with him? She's a nice girl. She's one of the neighborhood kids who grew up with my sons. I've known her since she was in grade school. Her and son have been dating for a little over a year.
It would be nice if we could pick who our children date, marry, or live with. But we can't..............and so all we can do is trust our childs judgement and keep our fingers crossed........and try to keep our mouth shut.
Son won't be taking charlie with him. The place allows cats but not dogs. I think Charlie is mine for the long haul. I should have known better!

My weekend plans are to get some sun, do some touch up work in the kitchen, and help son move.

Showing off uniform for mom

because they are beautiful

I didn't really quit my job after my boss said I was a "3". I wanted to but I didn't! I lied and I feel guilty for lying. I can't tell my boss off, and I can't live with a lie. Fuck me running! AND, I'm sorry. It felt good for a minute to pretend I was able to do something that I thought about doing but couldn't bring myself to do. So there you have it! I'm a pussy AND a liar!



One of my patients died today. She did a good job raising her family. Her children seem to be wonderful people. I told her so this morning. She smiled and nodded "yes"



I'm thinking about going to Colorado with boyfriend in Sept. He wants me to meet his family, and I'd like to meet them............so we shall see...

Mostly my pets

As I was driving up my street today I saw two familiar little animals on my neighbors front steps. My cat, We-Ping, was on the top step, and on the step below her was my dog, Charlie. It made me laugh because I had just been at Lowes buying a fence to put on the deck so that Charlie couldn't escape the back yard..................she had never done it before but I could see it coming..............on the drive home I told boyfriend that I bet We-Ping was probably at that very moment enticing Charlie to make his escape. I guess I was right.

The racoons knocked over most of my potted plants. Atleast I think it was the coons. It could have been kitty?

My outdoor, tom cat, Clarabell was gone for several weeks. I wasn't to concerned because he has taken off before. Never for quite so long, but still. He finally came home a couple days ago. He looked like someone bathed and groomed him............and he had on a new black collar. To be honest, he's never looked so good. Go figure.

Saying Good-Bye (kinda)

My oldest son is moving into his own place next Sunday.
I was shopping and thought I'd pick him up some dishes, as he has never lived on his own and doesn't have any of the things you need to live. So I bought him some dishes and thought "what the heck" go ahead and get him some pots and pans.....and then I thought that maybe I should get him some silverware, pizza cutter,spatula, pot holders and some dish towels, and a cute little rug for his kitchen.............and then I worried that he'd be drying his body with an old tee-shirt after his bath so I picked up some bath towels and wash cloths and thought I might as well get him a nice shower curtain, tooth brush and soap holder that matched, and some cute little shower curtain holders........while I was at it I got him a toaster, coffee maker, can opener, toilet plunger and toilet brush..........and I went ahead and got him some pretty wine glasses, broom, mop and a salt and pepper shaker. I just love him and wanted to make his transition a little easier. Plus (wiping tears from my eyes) I kinda felt like I needed to do this one last thing for him while he's still my at home son, ya know?