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Happy Valentines Day.

I was thinking back over some of my most memorable Valentines Days (excluding any vd i've spent with present boyfriend).............2 of them stick out
1. driving to miami beach to be with my mom who had just had a heart attack and was in the hospital........i wasn't even thinking about Valentines Day........was just thinking about getting to my mom.........we were on the interstate when husband asked me to check the glove box......he had a card and an ankle bracelet in the glove box for me. It kinda pulls at my heart when I think about it. It wasn't the greatest time in my life. I had already told him I was leaving the marriage. He was doing (and had been for weeks) everything a guy could do who was trying to hang on to a relationship. It makes me sad to think about him hurtng the way he was.......i was hurting too........for a long time i tried to comfort him .........cant imagine how i must have been confusing him............ i was stupid to think that of all people, i could be the one to comfort him............it was a mixed up, messed up, fucked up time..........i hated the anklet. it was something he would like. not something i would like. i figured that after 20 years of spending time with a person, he should have known what i would like. but i also love that anklet. he went out of his way to get it for me and he probably figured that if he liked it, so would i.
a year and a month later we were officially divorced. i can't remember any of the other valentines days with him.

2.i was having the long distance relationship with the guy from PA.
i was at work and the ups guy brings to me a delivery from godiva chocolates. I LOVE CHOCOLATE. plus the gift wrap is so pretty. I thought it was cool, and really wasn't expecting anything else................but then another delivery......a beautiful bouquet of flowers, from pa...........and then later another delivery of a stuffed animal bear with balloons. he surprised AND indulged me that day.........i liked it.