Today was my off day.
I got up at 5am. I fell asleep lastnight at 8 and slept on the couch, through the night like a baby. So I got up at 5am.......boyfriend was here, and awake.........we chit chatted awhile, he cooked breakfast, and then I filled out deposit slips, balanced my checkbook, and paid off my one and only credit card that had a balance.
When it was time for daughter to be up to get ready for school she called to say hello. For about a year and a half, she for the most part stopped going to her dads. She'd spend a night with him here and there........or they'd go out to dinner.......but she tired of having to move from my house to his every other week....plus he had spent so much time in China that she kind of got out of the habit of going....so she stopped. A few weeks ago she started going back.........usually for 3 nights. It's weird having her gone.......it's not something I've ever gotten used to.......I worry about her, and I miss her while she's gone.
Boyfriend and I went to Lowes today. I love that freakin store.
I'm going to put a new floor in in daughters bathroom.........and a new toilet and vanity. ........ the main bathroom needs a new floor too. I wanna save money and do it myself with help from boyfriend.......so I thought I'd practice on hers first. We'll see how it goes...
My boss asked me if I'd move to the skilled nursing unit. She said business isn't being taken care of over there, and that it's a mess...............would I mind moving to that unit and getting things in order.............this is the type of crap that I like. I like going to a mess and getting things in order..............but what I think would be even better is if boss would let me show the nurses that work over there what it is they aren't doing, how to do it, and a plan for managing their time & getting it caught up....................or pay me more money if I have to keep doing the work that others should be doing but aren't.....................just saying....
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
wed
The Kentucky Derby is Saturday!
My picks are...................
1.Hold Me Back
2.Chocolate Candy
3.West Side Bernie
& because I like the name, I'm going to place a bet on Summer Bird!
My picks are...................
1.Hold Me Back
2.Chocolate Candy
3.West Side Bernie
& because I like the name, I'm going to place a bet on Summer Bird!
Saturday, April 25, 2009
saturday
It's been so freaking beautiful in Ky. I mean you couldn't ask for better weather. We hit 86 degrees today........I spent the whole day and evening outside.
We celebrated oldest sons birthday today. A few of the guys son grew up with joined us for a grill out. It was good seeing them.....................it was funny because when they got here they called us to come to the front yard..............in sons jeep they had placed a blow up doll (Mary), their birthday gift to him..... all of them had signed the doll and they had a 6 pack of beer between her legs..............it was funny........
Daughter made the varsity squad.........so yay! for her.
We-Pings paw/leg looks much better...........there's only slight swelling.......and she's able to bear weight. A couple days ago she was in the front yard chasing/playing bumble bees. I suspect she may have been stung.........but would that cause pain? I don't know.....I'm just glad she's feeling and looking better. I opted not to take her to the vet.
I have a huge maple tree in my back yard. I used to love that tree. It's part of the reason I bought this house. I thought the kids would have fun climbing the darn thing......and they did............and they spent hours on the tire swing that their dad hung from the tree..................but now........well now I'm constantly having to sweep leaves, helicopters, & dead branches from the yard, gutters, roof, deck and grass........plus I think the poor old thing is half dead.............................I'm tired of it.............and so I have a tree guy coming to the house Tuesday to talk to him about cutting it down.
We celebrated oldest sons birthday today. A few of the guys son grew up with joined us for a grill out. It was good seeing them.....................it was funny because when they got here they called us to come to the front yard..............in sons jeep they had placed a blow up doll (Mary), their birthday gift to him..... all of them had signed the doll and they had a 6 pack of beer between her legs..............it was funny........
Daughter made the varsity squad.........so yay! for her.
We-Pings paw/leg looks much better...........there's only slight swelling.......and she's able to bear weight. A couple days ago she was in the front yard chasing/playing bumble bees. I suspect she may have been stung.........but would that cause pain? I don't know.....I'm just glad she's feeling and looking better. I opted not to take her to the vet.
I have a huge maple tree in my back yard. I used to love that tree. It's part of the reason I bought this house. I thought the kids would have fun climbing the darn thing......and they did............and they spent hours on the tire swing that their dad hung from the tree..................but now........well now I'm constantly having to sweep leaves, helicopters, & dead branches from the yard, gutters, roof, deck and grass........plus I think the poor old thing is half dead.............................I'm tired of it.............and so I have a tree guy coming to the house Tuesday to talk to him about cutting it down.
Friday, April 24, 2009
friday
I left work a half hour early to attend the child support mediation thingy. We came to an agreement that I can live with...........so now it's on with more pleasant things.............not rehashing in my mind things that were said, things that I could have said....things I should have said....or any of that crap.......not going there.......just going to go forward........anything else is a waste of time.
Daughter had cheerleading tryouts this afternoon.
She was #4 of 41 to try out(not sure if that's good or not)........but she did get out of there pretty early........she'll find out tomorrow whether or not she made varsity.
We-Ping's left paw/leg is about 3 times it's normal size....and she can't/won't bear weight on it.
The Vet was already gone for the day when boyfriend called him.......so she has an appointment for 9a tomorrow. I feel badly for her.
Daughter had cheerleading tryouts this afternoon.
She was #4 of 41 to try out(not sure if that's good or not)........but she did get out of there pretty early........she'll find out tomorrow whether or not she made varsity.
We-Ping's left paw/leg is about 3 times it's normal size....and she can't/won't bear weight on it.
The Vet was already gone for the day when boyfriend called him.......so she has an appointment for 9a tomorrow. I feel badly for her.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
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Today is my oldest sons birthday. He's 24. When he was born I remember thinking he was the prettiest baby I'd ever seen..................
he was a great child......and is a wonderful, hard working, young man. He always remembers his little sister on Valentines Day, and is his younger brothers best friend.
he was a great child......and is a wonderful, hard working, young man. He always remembers his little sister on Valentines Day, and is his younger brothers best friend.I love him with all of my heart......and I'm very proud of him.
Monday, April 20, 2009
Monday
I spent 3 hours doing yard work this morning.
It's chilly, and drizzling, but I still enjoyed myself. There's something about digging in the dirt that I find cathartic.
I could probably do 100 hours worth of work in my yard and still
have more to do.
Exhusband and I went to mediation the other day. He requested a reduction in the child support that he pays. Rather than tie up the courts, we did the mediation thing.
According to the child support charts, according to the mediator, he's paying exactly what he should be. So I'm finding it difficult to negotiate. Needless to say we didn't come to an agreement....... we go back this week and try again.
I celebrated my birthday last week with my sons and my boyfriend.
They made the day special for me and it reinforced what I already knew.........and that's that I have a great family.........I feel very fortunate.
My mom and dad sent me a check and note in the mail saying they want to send daughter to driving school. I don't accept money from my parents, ever...............until now.............they really want her to go to driving school, and I think it's a good idea too.........I could have paid for it myself, and I feel a little guilty for accepting the money...........but I did.......and today I called the school to set things up.......I think I'll worry a little less if she does the whole driving school thing....and I guess I'll live with the guilt I feel for accepting the money.
It's chilly, and drizzling, but I still enjoyed myself. There's something about digging in the dirt that I find cathartic.
I could probably do 100 hours worth of work in my yard and still
have more to do.
Exhusband and I went to mediation the other day. He requested a reduction in the child support that he pays. Rather than tie up the courts, we did the mediation thing.
According to the child support charts, according to the mediator, he's paying exactly what he should be. So I'm finding it difficult to negotiate. Needless to say we didn't come to an agreement....... we go back this week and try again.
I celebrated my birthday last week with my sons and my boyfriend.
They made the day special for me and it reinforced what I already knew.........and that's that I have a great family.........I feel very fortunate.
My mom and dad sent me a check and note in the mail saying they want to send daughter to driving school. I don't accept money from my parents, ever...............until now.............they really want her to go to driving school, and I think it's a good idea too.........I could have paid for it myself, and I feel a little guilty for accepting the money...........but I did.......and today I called the school to set things up.......I think I'll worry a little less if she does the whole driving school thing....and I guess I'll live with the guilt I feel for accepting the money.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
wed
After work today I had a routine appointment with the gyn. I HATE going to the gyn. The only pleasant thing about the appointment is that it ends. I'm glad to have it out of the way for another year.
After my appointment I took daughter to have her sports physical and then dropped her off at her dads girlfriends house where daughter will have dinner with her dad and his girlfriend.
That's about it. I'm tired and am going to bed.
After my appointment I took daughter to have her sports physical and then dropped her off at her dads girlfriends house where daughter will have dinner with her dad and his girlfriend.
That's about it. I'm tired and am going to bed.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
tuesday
Lowes came today and hung my new front doors.
I'm 100% satisfied.
I forgot though to tell them to put in a peep hole.......................they had to re-do the inside frame..(I had to kick the door in one time and was never really able to put the frame back the way it was supposed to be.)..so I need to stain the frame. All in all I'm pleased! YAY! I have my new front door!
I'm 100% satisfied.
I forgot though to tell them to put in a peep hole.......................they had to re-do the inside frame..(I had to kick the door in one time and was never really able to put the frame back the way it was supposed to be.)..so I need to stain the frame. All in all I'm pleased! YAY! I have my new front door!
Monday, April 13, 2009
monday
I had a wonderful Easter Day with my family.
It was great having my parents spend most of the day at my house..............loved listening to my mom and my daughter chit chat....................and had fun watching, on and off, the Masters with my dad, sons, and boyfriend. (A kentuckian placed 2nd!)
It truely was a fantabulous day. I didn't want it to end!
It was great having my parents spend most of the day at my house..............loved listening to my mom and my daughter chit chat....................and had fun watching, on and off, the Masters with my dad, sons, and boyfriend. (A kentuckian placed 2nd!)
It truely was a fantabulous day. I didn't want it to end!
Saturday, April 11, 2009
saturday
SO I've scoured the bathroom and kitchen sinks, scrubbed both floors, windexed all mirrors, tv screens, computer screen, scrubbbed the toilets, dusted all furniture and vacuumed.
I've made the potatoe salad and 2 pies...............and daughter and I colored Easter eggs.......and I've put together 5 Easter baskets.
Scrawny neighbor boy cut the grass in my front and back yard and he raked and bagged some leaves for me. SO most of the work is finished. All I have left to do is cook the turkey breast, ham , and baked beans.
I have a list as long as my leg of things I need to get done around the yard. Most of it I don't want to do. Scrawy boy promises to come back next weekend to earn more money.
He lives down the street and around the corner. He's a foster child. I don't know much more about him. Son and daughter tell me he's trouble in that he smokes pot, cigarettes, and he steals. Maybe he does, maybe he doesn't.
I feel sorry for him.
If he wants to earn some honest money doing chores around my yard..............then so be it.
I'll keep an eye on him.
I slept on the couch lastnight. I didn't wake until morning. :O)
I've made the potatoe salad and 2 pies...............and daughter and I colored Easter eggs.......and I've put together 5 Easter baskets.
Scrawny neighbor boy cut the grass in my front and back yard and he raked and bagged some leaves for me. SO most of the work is finished. All I have left to do is cook the turkey breast, ham , and baked beans.
I have a list as long as my leg of things I need to get done around the yard. Most of it I don't want to do. Scrawy boy promises to come back next weekend to earn more money.
He lives down the street and around the corner. He's a foster child. I don't know much more about him. Son and daughter tell me he's trouble in that he smokes pot, cigarettes, and he steals. Maybe he does, maybe he doesn't.
I feel sorry for him.
If he wants to earn some honest money doing chores around my yard..............then so be it.
I'll keep an eye on him.
I slept on the couch lastnight. I didn't wake until morning. :O)
Friday, April 10, 2009
friday
It's my weekend off! So, yay!
Tomorrow I'm going to clean up the house and start some cooking for my Easter dinner...........and I'll put together Easter baskets......and then daughter and I will color eggs to put in the baskets.
My parents are going to come over on Sunday to have dinner with me, boyfriend, and my kids...it's my first Easter off in 8 or 9 years ....I'm looking forward to it.
I went to the couch at bed time lastnight. It's much smaller than my bed.
I read somewhere that small spaces help reduce the anxiety in people with Autism. I thought maybe it would help reduce the anxiety that wakes me and keeps me awake at night if I slept on the couch. I'm not Autistic........but I'm obviously bothered by anxiety.
So off to the couch with my big comforter and pillow I went..................I woke once through the night. But I didn't lay there and worry. Instead I went back to sleep. SO maybe it worked........or maybe I'm through worrying.
Tomorrow I'm going to clean up the house and start some cooking for my Easter dinner...........and I'll put together Easter baskets......and then daughter and I will color eggs to put in the baskets.
My parents are going to come over on Sunday to have dinner with me, boyfriend, and my kids...it's my first Easter off in 8 or 9 years ....I'm looking forward to it.
I went to the couch at bed time lastnight. It's much smaller than my bed.
I read somewhere that small spaces help reduce the anxiety in people with Autism. I thought maybe it would help reduce the anxiety that wakes me and keeps me awake at night if I slept on the couch. I'm not Autistic........but I'm obviously bothered by anxiety.
So off to the couch with my big comforter and pillow I went..................I woke once through the night. But I didn't lay there and worry. Instead I went back to sleep. SO maybe it worked........or maybe I'm through worrying.
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Thursday
I took daughter driving today after work.
We went up to the church parking lot. It's a huge lot. There's plenty of room for her to make really wide turns. And she did!
Work is going well.
We're filling beds like crazy, and our staff has almost doubled. I like the people they're hiring........hopefully we continue to do good.
I'm going through a weird phase where I wake up more than several times through the night worrying that I've forgotten to do some really important task...........or just worrying about life in general.
I wake and worry "OMG did I pay my mortgage this month?" ANd I know darn well I paid it.....but I have to get out of bed and check my checkbook to prove to myself that I did pay it, otherwise I can't let it go.............and I wake up and think "Oh no! Did I miss the child support hearing?" And I know darn well I didn't miss it.............but I get up and check the calendar to make sure I didn't miss it.........or I wake up to worry about finances, health, my children, my sister, my car, doctors appointments, relationship with boyfriend, stocks, ....................... I'm tired of worrying but I can't seem to turn it off. Especially at night while I'm in bed. What is wrong with me? Why is this happening? FUCK! I can't stand it!
We went up to the church parking lot. It's a huge lot. There's plenty of room for her to make really wide turns. And she did!
Work is going well.
We're filling beds like crazy, and our staff has almost doubled. I like the people they're hiring........hopefully we continue to do good.
I'm going through a weird phase where I wake up more than several times through the night worrying that I've forgotten to do some really important task...........or just worrying about life in general.
I wake and worry "OMG did I pay my mortgage this month?" ANd I know darn well I paid it.....but I have to get out of bed and check my checkbook to prove to myself that I did pay it, otherwise I can't let it go.............and I wake up and think "Oh no! Did I miss the child support hearing?" And I know darn well I didn't miss it.............but I get up and check the calendar to make sure I didn't miss it.........or I wake up to worry about finances, health, my children, my sister, my car, doctors appointments, relationship with boyfriend, stocks, ....................... I'm tired of worrying but I can't seem to turn it off. Especially at night while I'm in bed. What is wrong with me? Why is this happening? FUCK! I can't stand it!
Monday, April 06, 2009
monday
Today was my off day.
I renewed my drivers license, paid my car taxes, and renewed my tags.
She missed 3 questions, but passed the test. She's thrilled.
She's required by law to have her temps for 6 months before she can take her drivers test. I'll probably make her wait a year. Probably. I'm not sure.
I just finished reading a novel that stirred up a bunch of feelings that I probably usually bury, swallow, or ignore...............and I do those things to keep peace, or out of my own personal fears............and damn I'm so sick of it because in the end it just makes me angry, or frustrated, or just unhappy.....................................and I think to myself why are you such a coward...............
I renewed my drivers license, paid my car taxes, and renewed my tags.
She missed 3 questions, but passed the test. She's thrilled.
She's required by law to have her temps for 6 months before she can take her drivers test. I'll probably make her wait a year. Probably. I'm not sure.
I just finished reading a novel that stirred up a bunch of feelings that I probably usually bury, swallow, or ignore...............and I do those things to keep peace, or out of my own personal fears............and damn I'm so sick of it because in the end it just makes me angry, or frustrated, or just unhappy.....................................and I think to myself why are you such a coward...............
Thursday, April 02, 2009
thurs.
I didn't do my taxes today. But since the child support hearing scheduled for tomorrow has once again been canceled, I'll probably do them tomorrow.
Daughters sports banquet was this evening.
We had a nice time.
Boyfriend and I sat across from a couple we sat with 3 years ago.
They're the couple who believes it's wrong to use your sick days at work..............and she's a very competitive mother. If your daughter scores a 98 on her chemistry exam......then you can bet her daughter scored a 99........or atleast that's what she'll tell you.................and if your daughter has done 40 hours of community service, she'll tell you her daughter did 80.
So tonight she made the mistake of telling me how her daughter made $250.00 worth of sales on the latest cheerleading fund raiser.......................the fund raiser was canceled so who really knows how much each girl sold....and who really cares........my daughter sold $45.00 worth of stuff....to me. :O) ......................but because boyfriend was listening and he knew daughter only sold a few things , and just to make him laugh, I told competitive mom that my daughter sold $349.00 worth of stuff. She was pissed...................boyfriend cracked up when we got to the car and talked about it. Daughter thought it was hysterical.
Ex-husband is in the hospital, thus the hearing was canceled.
He has some sort of infection in his foot that he's been taking antibiotics for for a few days. The doctor sent him from the doctors office to the hospital for direct admit this afternoon.................and he was in surgery by 5 this evening.
We talked to him on the phone after the sports banquet nad he says he's already feeling better.........so hopefully everything will go okay for him.
In 5 days I go for my 2nd hiv test. I'm optimistic.
Daughters sports banquet was this evening.
We had a nice time.
Boyfriend and I sat across from a couple we sat with 3 years ago.
They're the couple who believes it's wrong to use your sick days at work..............and she's a very competitive mother. If your daughter scores a 98 on her chemistry exam......then you can bet her daughter scored a 99........or atleast that's what she'll tell you.................and if your daughter has done 40 hours of community service, she'll tell you her daughter did 80.
So tonight she made the mistake of telling me how her daughter made $250.00 worth of sales on the latest cheerleading fund raiser.......................the fund raiser was canceled so who really knows how much each girl sold....and who really cares........my daughter sold $45.00 worth of stuff....to me. :O) ......................but because boyfriend was listening and he knew daughter only sold a few things , and just to make him laugh, I told competitive mom that my daughter sold $349.00 worth of stuff. She was pissed...................boyfriend cracked up when we got to the car and talked about it. Daughter thought it was hysterical.
Ex-husband is in the hospital, thus the hearing was canceled.
He has some sort of infection in his foot that he's been taking antibiotics for for a few days. The doctor sent him from the doctors office to the hospital for direct admit this afternoon.................and he was in surgery by 5 this evening.
We talked to him on the phone after the sports banquet nad he says he's already feeling better.........so hopefully everything will go okay for him.
In 5 days I go for my 2nd hiv test. I'm optimistic.
Wednesday, April 01, 2009
wed
I'm watching American Idol.
The only 3 that I really look forward to seeing perform is
tatoooed girl, rocky horror meets prince, guy, and red haired girl................oh! and I like the guy with the thick frames around his glasses.
I'm off work tomorrow and the next day...................and daughter is at her dads.........so I get to sleep in tomorrow. That makes me happy!
I'll probably do my taxes tomorrow.........and then boyfriend and I are going to daughters sports banquet tomorrow evening.
The only 3 that I really look forward to seeing perform is
tatoooed girl, rocky horror meets prince, guy, and red haired girl................oh! and I like the guy with the thick frames around his glasses.
I'm off work tomorrow and the next day...................and daughter is at her dads.........so I get to sleep in tomorrow. That makes me happy!
I'll probably do my taxes tomorrow.........and then boyfriend and I are going to daughters sports banquet tomorrow evening.
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