Thursday

I took daughter driving today after work.
We went up to the church parking lot. It's a huge lot. There's plenty of room for her to make really wide turns. And she did!

Work is going well.
We're filling beds like crazy, and our staff has almost doubled. I like the people they're hiring........hopefully we continue to do good.

I'm going through a weird phase where I wake up more than several times through the night worrying that I've forgotten to do some really important task...........or just worrying about life in general.
I wake and worry "OMG did I pay my mortgage this month?" ANd I know darn well I paid it.....but I have to get out of bed and check my checkbook to prove to myself that I did pay it, otherwise I can't let it go.............and I wake up and think "Oh no! Did I miss the child support hearing?" And I know darn well I didn't miss it.............but I get up and check the calendar to make sure I didn't miss it.........or I wake up to worry about finances, health, my children, my sister, my car, doctors appointments, relationship with boyfriend, stocks, ....................... I'm tired of worrying but I can't seem to turn it off. Especially at night while I'm in bed. What is wrong with me? Why is this happening? FUCK! I can't stand it!