Monday, June 29, 2009

vacation day 5

I made myself get out of bed this morning even though I really didn't want to. I went out to the deck and read for awhile and then went back to bed. I slept until 3:30 in the afternoon. When I woke I stayed on the couch and read some more....I wanted to go back to sleep but I felt guilty to do so. I forced myself up....
I showered and then turned on the grill. I made ribs, and corn on the cob........and I also made a cake. Boyfriend, daughter, and daughters boyfriend had dinner with me on the deck.....it was nice.
Daughter and daughters boyfriend volunteered to paint the stairway walls for me.....I was so greatful, and of course I encouraged them to go ahead and paint....so while they painted I scrubbed the bathroom and kitchen.
As I type they continue to paint. I'm trying to stay away and let them do their thing. I'm sure they'll do an okay job. I feel guilty because it was supposed to be daughter and I working together.........I was going to buy a new rail, or whatever you call it, for the hall stairway, but boyfriend said I should just restain/paint the old one. Daughters boyfriend unscrewed it from the wall for me.....tomorrow I'll do something with it..............we also have to paint the bathroom, put in the new toilet, vanity, and floor......the carpet people will be here Wed. morning and I want all the work done before they get here.......I "picked" a bad time to come down with whatever the heck it is that's making me so tired and unmotivated.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

monday

I didn't do a darn thing today except for watch tv.
I wanted to get up and paint. I wanted to get up and pull weeds. I wanted to get up and measure the banister, and repair a piece of woodwork. But no matter how hard I tried to get up off the couch, I just couldn't.....until around 8pm. So I got off the couch at 8p, took a shower, and did some grocery shopping. I asked boyfriend to go with me............and since I had to pick up daughter from a friends house, she also went with me.............and that's all I've managed to do today....oh, I also dropped a book off at the library drop box.
Boyfriend told me he thinks I'm depressed and he thinks I should go to the doctor. I don't feel sad...........but I agree with him that something is wrong.............and just because I don't feel sad, doesn't mean I'm not depressed............I also know I don't like feeling this tired all of the time. I have shit to do, and it's not getting done!

day 4 of vacation

DAy 4 of my vacation and I've yet to do anything around the house. I have had tons of sleep, watched 2 movies (he's just not that in to you, and nights in rodanthe), and read 2 books....dean koontz, a door away from heaven...atleast i think that's the name........and then i read "for lacey"...about the girl who was killed by her husband scott peterson..written by her mother.....i really didnt want to read another true crime book.....but this one didnt focus so much on the crime. i think the mother wanted to tell the world how much she loved her daughter, the enormity of her loss, and the type of person her daughter was............it made me cry. I hugged my daughter a little longer and tighter when she came home last night.
So yeah, that's what I've spent my time doing over the last 3 days..........I did manage to get back out to Lowes to pay for, and order the carpet for the upstairs bedrooms and landing, and stairs................hopefully they'll install it in the next several days....

i'm not sure what i'll do today. i'd like to paint the stairway walls that lead to the upstairs bedrooms...and replace the banister. i'm having a very difficult time though motivating myself. i hate to paint.

oldest son moved back in yesterday.
he moved into the messy room.
so it's not messy anymore, for now.
he needs to regroup, get his finances together.
his hours at work have been cut. like most americans, he wasn't prepared.

daughter is pouting. she wants me to take her to buy a new bathing suit. "i wear the same one everyday." Now I know that wearing the same bathing suit everyday is reason for national concern, but i told her no anyway. so then she offered to buy the suit herself if i'd just take her. the whole money issue aside, i dont want to shop today. so again i told her no. she rolled her eyes, and made a production of leaving the room. :O) cracks me up!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

vaca day #1

day 1 of my vacation.......

woke early, stayed in bed and read awhile

went back to sleep

daughter woke me
showered
took daughter to work

came home and read a little more
took a 2 hour nap

picked daughter up from work

started supper (lasagna, veggie salad, garlic bread)

chit chatted with boyfriend and oldest son

had supper with boyfriend and oldest son

sat around and chit chatted with both my sons, and watched tv coverage of michael jacksons death

read for a couple more hours (dean koontz.....one door away from heaven)
finished the book

enjoyed it


that's it for my first vaca day

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

tuesday

One more day to work and then I'll be off for 11 days. So......YAY! I have so much to do around the house and yard. I've been putting it off though. So I'm determined to get it all done while I'm on vacation. Daughter said she'd help out. I'll try to make it fun..........mom and daughter working together, hanging out talking while we work....bonding and stuff. She'll probably ditch me after half a day! :O)

Friday, June 19, 2009

friday

I went to Lowes after work today to pick out carpeting for the two upstairs bedrooms, landing, and stairway. Daughter went with me. I wanted her to help me pick out the carpeting.
She picked out a shaggy like beige carpet. It's soft, and thick. I think it will look nice.

We also did a little Father's Day shopping, and went out to dinner. It was a pleasant evening.

When I got home from shopping my neighbor that works at the library sent down a bag of true crime books. I rarely read true crime anymore. It's too depressing. But it was nice of her to think of me.

Boyfriend screamed at me this evening.
It hurt my feelings. But now I feel hurt and pissed.
So screw him.

It's my weekend off of work.
I need to get started on finishing the work on daughters bathroom.........so that's what I might do with my time this weekend.

Monday, June 15, 2009

monday

Today is my off day.
I got up early to see my daughter off for her 2nd day of work.
She looks so cute in her little work clothes.
After her first day of work I asked her to describe
what it was like. She said "long & dreadful." :O)
Yesterday was her first day on the cash register. Her older cousin Mike came through her line. He was buying stuff for his baby. He said to her "how's it going".......daughter said she was concentrating on working the register and didn't realize right away that it was her cousin she was waiting on..............and then a boy she had a crush on last year came through her line..........he figured it was her first day.........so he says to her "I want to pay for half of it with cash, and the other half on credit card." lol........he was just trying to fluster her. I thought it was sweet.
I've been thinking about getting daughter a little used car.
I feel like I'm constantly driving her here and there........so it's kinda for selfish reasons...................on the other hand I think about the cost of insuring her, and paying car repairs ect....... just something I'm throwing around in my head....
I need to do some work around the house and yard today.
My car is in need of a good washing inside and out. So there's that to do............and then there's a flower bed under the deck stairs that needs to be cleaned out...........and some freakin honeysuckle trees/bushes that need to be pulled, again!.............and then of course I haven't cleaned my house in weeks.......so I have a choice of things I could do. I guess the best way to get it done is to start. So that's what I'll do.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

thursday

I was off of work today.
Any day off is a good day in my book.
I haven't done much....still feeling a little run down, but much better.

Daughter had her interview, and it went well.
She starts orientation tomorrow. So Yay!


I have a pot of butter beans flavored with garlic and onions cooking.....bbq'ed ribs, corn bread, and a cucumber/ onion salad marinated in a sweetened vinegar sauce.
I feel like it's been forever since I made a nice home cooked meal. Smells and looks yummy.

I have a new neighbor. The house was a forclosure bought by a 30 something guy. He's a really nice person, and has been working non stop to fix up the place. The guy that used to live there hasn't touched the house or yard in years. It already looks 100% better.

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

tuesday

Daughter called me today at work to tell me K-mart called her to come in tomorrow for an interview.
It's her first ever interview.
She's excited. Awww!

Ex-husband called me today at work to ask me a couple medical questions and to ask for some medical advise.
He was quite nice.

Boyfriend called me at work today to say hello.

Ex-boyfriend called me Sunday to make amends , and to tell me he was checking out of life. He's not the depressed type...............not that depression can't affect everyone........but he always seemed like the type to solve problems & get on with things....he wasn't the type to get lonely, or to be down.....or to stay stuck. For the most part he was optimistic...............I don't know.....I'm confused and a little more than worried. He's 600 miles away. I feel helpless.

Monday, June 08, 2009

monday

I've spent the last week sick in bed/on the couch. The most I've managed to do is read blogs, watch tv,go to the doctor, and some of the time shower.
The good thing though about being sick is that I haven't had to work for the past 7 days, and I feel zero guilt.
Today I feel some what better. So my time off came to an end and I did go to work today. Bummer.