tuesday

I've worked 30 hours the past 2 days.
I'm tired and my feet hurt.
 I'm off of work though for the next 3 days. So     Yay!

Daughter is sleeping on the living room floor.
She went to see "Paranormal"  this past  weekend........and now she's afraid to sleep upstairs in her bedroom!

I don't have many plans for my 3 days off of work.
I do want to do a little work around my moms house if she needs me to........

It just started raining............like a terrential rain.............so for now I'm going to go to the couch........open the window behind the couch............turn off the light............ lay there & listen to the rain.......maybe drift off to sleep. :O)

mom

It's a beautiful, crisp, sunny day. The sky is blue and the trees are colored with red, gold, and orange leaves.
When I was a young girl my sisters and I would call a day like this "one of those days."
A day like this is a good thing.  :O)

My mom is back home today.
They transfused her a 2nd time and that time her counts stayed up.
So home she went..I spent yesterday with her at the hospital.
She seemed in good spirits..........it would be easy to be depressed and full of self pity while
dealing with chronic illness......................she's not.                             
She is funny.
She is loving.
She is giving.

friday

Just got in from work.
I've worked 30 hours the past 2days.....But
I have the weekend off. So     Yay!

Tomorrow morning I'm going to the hospital with my sister to see my mom.
She had some more bleeding, was transfused, and then admitted because her counts are still dropping.
I've "visited" with her via the telephone the past couple days from work.
But I really want to see her and give her a hug.

My front yard STILL looks like shit.
But boyfriend did some concrete work in the side yard.........so atleast the side yard looks better.

I just hugged and kissed We-Ping my cat. I'm allergic to cats and dogs......and so  I'm sneezing and all snotty nosed. Sometimes though I just can't resist!
Her new bed is my middle sons old video chair, in middle sons old bedroom. Now
 we refer to it as We-Pings room.

I'm going to bed now.
Good night.

this n that

I was off of work today.
I drove by a thousand houses to check out
landscaping ideas.
I'm going to have to bust a move soon and do
something with my front yard.
It looks like shit.

I drove by "Dudes" house today.
He's the guy who while driving uninsured, and on a suspended
drivers license, wrecked into my son..........and then instead of calling 911 for help for my son,
he called his girlfriend/wife to tell her to come get him.
He's in no legal trouble for running over my son...........
I guess the police aren't going to go after him..........they'll pick him up for something else, and then
see the warrent from this case.............he'll just walk again..........

sunday

I'm off work the next 3 days. Yay!

saturday

So yesterday with boyfriends help daughters bathroom got a new toilet, and is so close to having a sink and vanity ready to use...........................we tried to put in a new ceiling light fixture but, ......the electrical shit in the old fixture is fucked up and we don't know how to unfuck it.
Boyfriends son is an electrician who lives 900 miles away..........hopefully he can guide us through the unfucking process via the telephone.
I had some pretty white curtains packed away in my closet.
I dyed them to match the blue decorative design on the BR  floor.
They turned out cute!

The front yard is still a mess.
I'll get to it           eventually.

My new medicine is helping, I think.
Or it could be that I'm feeling better because I stopped taking the anti anxiety med.
Or maybe I'm just having a good day. We'll see.

friday

So it takes me awhile lately to complete projects around the house.
I work on them when I feel like it, or I sleep.
Yesterday I slept.
The day before yesterday I shopped for the toilet and vanity for
daughters bathroom.
The toilet was $118.00 on sale for $28.00 at Lowes.
I was thrilled. I had budgeted 100.00 bucks for a toilet. So Yay!
The vanity is a double door white thingy............and I got a pretty beveled mirror for
above the sink.
 I might spend the day working on the BR.
And then there's the front yard area where the wall was tore down that
still needs work.
I might work in the yard instead of the BR..............................................................and then there's always the possibility that I'll spend the day in bed watching tv and sleeping.

Daughter took her drivers test yesterday.
She passed with flying colors.
It's a really big day when you get your drivers license.
So yay for daughter!

fuck em

Today is one of my off days.
I could do a million things but
I'm thinking I'll just go back to bed.

I've been unusually vocal about anything I might be feeling at any given moment. Always the peace keeper in the past, and now if I feel it, I speak it.
I'm not making too many people happy.


I went to my doctor yesterday. I told him that the anti-depressant
he prescribed for me several weeks ago wouldn't allow me to sleep plus it gave me the chills and restless legs.
He prescribed a different anti-depressant.
 I know there are many people out there with Tom Cruise like opinions
about taking antidepressants.           Fuck em.
It's my life.
I'm not a massicast.I've met people who have been depressed all their lives. They're either massicasts, or they're ignorant.
If it will help (and I know it will because i've been a nurse for atleast 20 years and i've seen it help) I will take it!

this n that

It's beautiful outside today though chilly.
My plan is to hang my new shutters, and work on
the area where I tore
down the brick wall.

I need to have a yard sale......and was going to do it today, but boyfriend told
me to plan it first. I get carried away some of the time................so I guess I'll plan the damn thing.

After my sons move some crap for me out of the dining room and living room
I can start tearing out carpeting, and staining woodwork.
I need to get going though because
I want it finished before Thanksgiving.

My sister had a breast reduction.
She went from a 34dd to a 34 c.
Keep in mind she's only 5'2 and weighs about 109.
She came over last evening to ask me to
look at her breasts.
She's concerned because the right breast has more swelling
than the left .......the swelling is causing dimpling in the right breast and of course makes the right breast look bigger.
When all's said and done, I think they look great,  young, and perky..........it was time for those
ugly 34dd's to hit the road!
My new nick name for her is TittyGirl.

PS...................there was an investigation at my work by the State concerning the death of a patient. The patients family member asked them to investigate.
I was notified that the investigation was taking place as I was barn looking with boyfriend..........I had to pull to the side of a country road to talk to my bosses, bosses, boss................and to then speak with the state investigator.
  
The investigation was stressful. I was scared................and then I was just plain old angry. Wish I could say more about what went on, but I can't.
The complaints were unsubstantiated.........................and Friday my administrator told me I did an excellent job in dealing with said residents acute illness and subsequent death............state thought so too.


And this has nothing to do with the investigation. It happened the day before the investigation started....... I was offered the asst director of nursing position. But only until December/our state inspection. I did it last year.............and we had a pretty great inspection.
This year though.....
I turned it down.
I don't want the responsibility.
I want to do my job and go home.

I want a simple, calm, uncomplicated life. That's not always what I get, but it's what I want......taking an adon position would not allow for what i want and need....

and then last but not least..............Bubba is in a rehab hosp. ...........he is awake and off the respirator........for now that's all i'm going to say.........except for that I love him.......

bad teachers

I woke up this morning thinking about Mr. B.
He was a substitute teacher at the high school I attended. I liked him. He seemed nice, and funny.
One day I stayed after school for some activity........after the activity
I headed to the bus stop a block away from my school. While walking up the sidewalk, Mr. B
pulled up and offered me a ride home.
I politely told him no, but thanks. He parked his car, got out of the car, and jogged a little to catch up to me.
He again asked if he could drive me home. I told him no.
He was persistant....he even argued all the reasons I should allow him to drive me home........at some point he demanded I get in his car.
I was afraid. But I knew I could out run him, and I had the benefit of being on a busy city street.
Eventually he gave up trying to get me in his car.............and he went away.
 He'd still show up at our school on occasion to teach, but he wouldn't look at me, and never spoke to me again. Fuck him.
So for whatever reason, I woke this mnorning thinking of him...............................and from there I thought of my third grade teacher.
She was young and hip. She had all the great clothes................and drove a convertible, yellow VW bug..............I was her pet...........so was my friend Lisa.
Luckily we were her pets.
We could have been like a boy named Tom.
He too was in our 3rd grade class.
He was an unkept kid who wore torn, old, hand me down clothes.
He looked dirty.......may not have been, but he loooked it............... I don't remember ever seeing him playing with another child. I just remember him being alone, and abused.
Even today I think of Tom and feel sad for him.
He was Ms Third Grade's beating post.
Atleast weekly she'd call him to the front of the class,
have him bend & hold his ankles.................and then she'd paddle him with the block of woood...............
if she didn't beat his ass, literally, she'd grab hold of his fingers, turn his hand palm side up, and beat it with a ruler.
She enjoyed humiliating, and physically hurting him. She liked watching him cry.
Week after week the rest of us would watch her unleash her anger on him.
I still wish I could apologize to him for not being his friend...............and for not telling someone what was happening .............................................I think about him on occasion and hope he's having a good life.

bubba

Grand Jury To Consider Boone County Beating Case




Joseph Pierce Police described a brutal beating in court today that has left a Boone County man unconscious for more than a week.



Joseph Pierce faces first degree assault charges for what police say was his routine... drinking and picking fights.



(My nephew) is in intensive care with multiple skull fractures. His friend, , is awaiting surgery for a broken cheekbone.



Local 12's Joe Webb was in the courtroom today.



Bubbas  family says they aren't sure what the future holds for George. They say doctors tell them he has some brain damage from the beating he took outside a Hebron bar ten days ago. The man, police say, beat him and a friend is still locked up and his case is now headed to a Boone County Grand Jury.



In cuffs and shackles, Joseph Pierce listened as Detective Tracy Watson described a brutal beating outside the Briarwood reception hall. She says Bubba and friend were leaving at closing time when Pierce made a crack about Bubba's long, blonde hair. Watson says Bubba threw no punches and tried to walk away, but Pierce hit him and knocked him to the ground.



Det. Tracy Watson, Boone County Sheriff's Office: "Witnesses say, then Mr. Bubba fell to the ground, Mr. Pierce jumped on him, stomping and kicking him repeatedly about the head and face and chest area."



The detective says, by the time two people pulled Pierce off of him, Bubba had suffered 3 skull fractures, a collapsed lung and four fractures to his eye socket. She says doctors removed a piece of his skull to relieve pressure on his brain.



Tonight on Local 12 Live at 6 pm, we'll talk to Bubba's parents who just can't believe how their lives changed so quickly.



Boone County District Judge Michael Collins bound the case over to the grand jury. Joseph Pierce is being held in the Boone County Jail on 50-thousand dollars bond.

Glenn, R U still around???

When I saw this I said to my boyfriend "Ut oh! I wonder what Glenn would say.

stone fencing

Stone fence built before the Civil war by Irish Masons?
The picture doesn't do it justice..............

vaca homes?

Choices for future vacation home.............one comes with it's own swimming spot.

farm animals

I love the picture of the cows..........I love cows, PERIOD!
I think they're big, cute, and they mind their own business.

barn art

More tobacco drying in the barn.
Tha painting over the barn door is called a Barn Quilt..........it seems to be all the rave out in the county.

barns

The barn in the middle is filled with tobacco hanging and drying.

barns

The view behind barn #3
is absolutley beautiful. The flag on barn #2 is a cool touch I think.

our day

Boyfriend woke me early this morning to see if I still wanted to go barn looking.............I did want to go........I wanted a day away from my recent reality.........I was giving myself permission to get away, to have some fun, and some time to decompress.
So we showered, had coffee, took daughter to school, and then away we went to barn land.
I was excited...........

In the following blogs I'll post pictures from our day................I don't know how to get them all in this post......

old barns and pollyanna

I love barns....always have......like the way they look.....the way they smell.................when I was a young girl I remember taking long rides in the country with my dad. We'd stop to explore old barns, and abandoned houses.
They held mysteries..........I loved trying to figure it out...to put together the picture/story of the family who used to live there.........and exploring the barns for treasures....there was always one to be found.......even if it was just a page from an old book.
I'm going to ask boyfriend if he'll spend the day with me tomorrow looking at barns.

They attempted to wake Bubba from a drug induced sleep but turned back because Bubs heart rate went crazy.
My boys, and my exhusband believe Clinton will wake and be the same as before. And the Pollyanna part of me tells me "Well! It's possible!"
For now I'm trying really hard to ignore the logical, practical part of my thinking.......I hear it, but I'm just going to go ahead with what Pollyanna is saying until/if that bubble bursts.

Big Eared Pierce not worth a dime?

I was driving home from taking daughter to school this morning feeling optimistic about the day ahead of me. I was actually in the mood to clean & was planning in my head what room to start with first............I was also thinking about the big H.S.. football game tonight. The winner of the game gets to take to their school "The Bell" and have the year and their teams name engraved on it. It's been 11 years since our team has taken the bell.........the buzz this year though is that we're gonna take it..................................so while thinking about cleaning and the big game, Bubba came to mind......and I thought about how he's in that hospital bed with his skull cap off. I choked back tears....(it's stupid to choke back tears when you're alone in a car. I mean what's the point?)................but it made my heart and stomach ache even more........I opted to just let go  and cry.............................. then I remembered how big eared, ugly, mother fucker is sitting in jail because apparently, and this is just my opinion, but apparently Big Eared Uglies family doesn't think he's worth the $5000.00 it would take to get him out of jail.  The thought of him  sitting in jail gave me pleasure.

When I got home from taking daughter to school I made a couple loafs of banana bread.......one with walnuts, one with walnuts and cranberries. The cheerleaders are having a bake sale today.
It looks and smells pretty good.

Son got home from work lastnight around 1am. He was running the vacuum at 2.............:O)

thursday

I went shopping today. I bought some serving bowls for Thanksgiving dinner, and cloth napkins.
I also bought a new table cloth for the dining room table, and candles.

I bought a book to read if I can't sleep tonight. It's "The Book Of Bright Ideas." Looks like it might be pretty good.

I callled my oldest son this evening while he 's at work.I left a message on his phone telling him that he is to come home from work tonight and clean his room............that would include bringing his dirty dishes upstairs to the kitchen sink.......putting his dirty towels in the laundry, picking up all his dirty clothes, changing his bed linens ect.
His room looks disgusting.
I had to go in his room to get to a storage room to get my Halloween decorations. I wasn't nosing around.
I also left a message telling him to get up earlier than usual tomorrow because I expect him to mow the lawn before he goes to work.
When he moved back home he agreed he'd cut the grass for me every weekend. It's all I asked from him............well that and for him to start saving some money.  He has missed cutting the grass the past 2 weekends.              Pisses me off. He should live up to his responsibilities...............and he's more than old enough to clean up after hisself. What the fuck?!
 I want it done, and I want it done tomorrow........ that's what I told him.

I went to Lowes today and picked out carpeting for my living rm, dining rm., and hallway.
I couldn't decide on a color. It's between Cheyenne Rock and Light Chocolate. We'll see.

Nothing new to report about Bubba.
I was looking at the picture of the guy who attacked him. He's one ugly, big eared, dumb looking mother fucker!