thursday

One of the visitors at work today brought in her baby. He's about 4 months old.....and cute as can be. It made me miss my Mr. Bojangles.

wednesday

Today I'm packing up some of my clothes to give to one of my patients.
Hers are worn, stained, and torn. It's affecting her mood and self esteem.
I can't afford to buy her new clothes.
 But I can give her some of mine.
I think it will cheer her up a bit.

And I'll probably take some pictures today with my new camera. For the fun of it. :O)

US Pharmacy

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Christmas

My 3 Boo's.

Daughter texting, no less!

My great niece. She looks just like I did when I was a lil girl.

My other great niece. She looks  like my 4 sisters did when they were little girls.

Christmas Eve and Christmas day was filled with family get togethers. It was a really nice time. :O)                   

My WePing and Mr. Bojangles ornaments. They make me smile.

friday

This morning I put the final touches on the wrapped gifts. For whatever reason I always wait until Christmas Eve day or night to put the bows and ribbons on the gifts. I think it's fun to do.

I went to my moms last evening to help with the preparation of our families Christmas dinner. Mom already had all the prep. work finished..........so daughter and I visited with mom and dad for awhile. It was fun..........I can't wait till Christmas Day to see all of my family. I'm especially looking forward to seeing my oldest nephew, and my two great- nieces.

This evening, boyfriend, sons, daughter, kitties and I are having Christmas Eve dinner together. I'm sooooo looking forward to being with all of them......and to cooking for them!
And then daughter and I are going to go to midnight mass with boyfriend.

This afternoon I'm going to our local soup kitchen to give books to the people who come for dinner. It may not be a very practical gift, but books are a great escape.......and a gift doesn't always have to be  practical. I love books ( and have hundreds to give).......and so hopefully they will love them too.

candy snowmen

Thanks, Odie, for the link that led me to the recipe for these. They turned out cute!

wed

I went downstairs last night to do a load of laundry. At the bottom of the steps I peeked into sons bedroom. He left a lamp on, so I went in to turn it off.
It was unusually quiet and empty in there...........
I felt this huge loss, a hole in my heart.
It's over....finished.......or atleast that's how I felt at that moment.
I want it back......my life with 3 little ones to chase after.
I walked around his room looking at some of the stuff he'd left behind. A picture of a map on his wall, an old, dusty stuffed anima from an ex girlfriendl....... stuff he didn't want to take with him, and maybe some things that he might come back for..........................I collected 2 dirty towels he had thrown over an exercise bike, turned off the light, and closed the door as I left the room.
I sent him a text message telling him I loved him. My phone rang a minute later. It was him. "I love you too. Everything ok?"
It took me a second to answer for fear of crying. I wanted to hold on to him.... and to the past....... I knew this time was coming and still it caught me off guard.
"I'm fine! Just wanted you to know I'm happy about your new place,  I love you......and to be honest, I miss you and your brother. But I swear I'm okay!" So we talked a minute about Christmas Eve dinner, and Christmas day.....and then said our good nights...........and a couple minutes later I received a text message from other son saying "we love you too, mom!"
I'm lucky. (knock on wood)
and I am okay..........

Today I baked cookies and made chocolate covered marshmallow snowmen..............and I wrapped a few more gifts.
I packed a few dozen cookies for sons to take home with them................and packaged the snowmen to give to my younger nephew and great nephew and nieces.

It was a quiet day.
It was a nice day.
It was a peaceful day.
I was filled with gratitude for all the wonderful people in my life.......and wonderful cats.

saturday

Son just left.
He's been moving his stuff to the condo since he got off of work at 2 a.m.
I told him I love him, would miss him, and was thankful I got him as a son.

Raising your children is over in a flash it seems........luckily I didn't take that time with them for granted.

Middle son has the flu. It hit him like a ton of bricks. He took his self to an urgent care a couple evenings ago after work. They did a nasal swab to confirm it was the flu and got him started right away on the appropriate medication............
Son is feeling better with the medicine, though he looks pale and tired.
I know he'll be okay. But I'm still worried about him.

Half of my patients, and many of my co-workers have upper respiratory infections. I'm glad I'm off work for the next couple of days.

Daughter is going to help me around the house today. We might even do a little holiday baking.
She's riding high on life because she received two paychecks yesterday. She works at her schools pre school as part of a co op program.
The little ones love her, and she them.
But anyway,  she's loaded for the moment, and off school and work for the next two weeks. For a teen, does it get any better ?

I apologized to my work friend.
After stepping back from, and looking at the situation again, I could see where I was wrong.
I'm glad we made up.

Mr. Bojangles is removing his daily ornament from the Christmas tree. He thinks I don't see him.

wed.

When me and my sisters, one a year younger, one a year older than me were younger......probably in junior  high and high school, we'd want to help mom get things ready for Christmas. Mom would be out for the day shopping, running errands, and doing all those things away from home that moms do in preparation for the holidays.. Sisters and I would put on Elvis's Christmas album and then spend our day cleaning and putting up the Christmas tree. We'd play that album over and over again. It was part of our motivation, that and wanting to surprise mom. We couldn't wait for her to get home so that we could see the look on her face.
She was always grateful, and probably relieved to have a few less things to do.
I'm having a tough time getting things pulled together this year for the holidays.
Not sure why..............
So I've pulled out the old Elvis Christmas album.
Hopefully it will help me along........

monday

Saturday was mine and my sisters Christmas dinner.
We get together without spouses or children and to have a nice dinner and to exchange Christmas gifts.
I was reluctant to go because of 2 sisters probably using drugs again.
But I decided to go for a couple of reasons.
#1. I love my sisters.
#2. If they die I know I would regret not having gone.
We had a nice night, and I'm glad I went.

I'm off work the next 3 days.
There's lots of work/cleaning to do around the house.
So that's probably what I'll do. But I'm going to watch the season finale of Dexter first.

negative feelings. negative post.

it pisses me off that when ever there's a conflict/or problem at work, one of my work friends has a way of putting a spin on the event so that it looks as though he has no culpability, when usually he does.......and while doing so, he "innocently" places another person, guilty or not, in the line of fire.
and since he's the golden child, it fills me with worry and fear that I'll end up taking the blame or be held responsible simply because he said so.....................and as far as my other work friend goes......a girlfriend that I've trusted more than any other girlfriend I've ever had..........well she destroyed that trust this past Tuesday.
I'm through with her and golden boy.
I'll work with them, get along with them,........maybe even laugh with them.................but I've finally learned my lesson about trusting anyone in the work place.
i really, truly, honestly believed she was trust worthy.

Yes Julie, there is a Santa!

It's 68 degrees in Miami Beach.  The best time to go to Miami Beach, if you're ever planning on going, is in March. At least I think so.
I miss the ocean.

Sons are finished painting their condo. I love the colors they picked. Most of it was done in a pumpkin like color. Sounds gross. But it actually looks quite good. They did both bedrooms in a cocoa, which I love. The trim is white.....and then they updated the bathroom fixtures.
They should be moving in soon.
In their garage they found many "treasures" including an unopened 8 foot, artificial Christmas tree, around 125 unopened rolls of wrapping paper, 10 glass chess sets still in the box, luggage unopened,.......and bunches of other stuff.
I asked my oldest son to promise me that when I'm dead him and his brother and sister would always be there for each other......non of them would ever be without a home. I know it should go without saying, but I have to say it. Then I can let it go and not worry about it.
So he promised me they'd look after each other.

Went out ot breakfast yesterday with boyfriend.
He told how he felt when he found out there wasn't a Santa.
I found out there was no Santa when i was in the third grade. Our class was leaving the cafeteria, and I remember Julie B asking me "you know there's no Santa don't you?" No. I didn't know. I was stunned, and yet I knew she was telling the truth. I struggled to maintain my composure though I felt like I'd been stabbed in the heart. But I had to pretend that I knew. It had to be that or be ridiculed for the rest of grade school.

One year at Christmas time, & while mom and dad were going out to dinner, but before they left, mom gave strict instructions  to  stay out of the dining room. The Christmas presents were in there. They were in boxes that has been taped shut. But still      "Stay out of the Dining room!"
"OK mom! OK!"
So as soon as her and dad left the house, my sister a year older and my sister a year younger, and I went straight to the dining room.W e just wanted to feel the boxes....shake them a little, listen to what might be inside of them. So we're in the dining room doing what we weren't supposed to be doing when we hear a tap on the dining room window. We froze like deer in headlights. lol.........busted by mom!
We still laugh about it.

wed

If our census at work drops anymore they're going to start laying people off. That's what they said.
Change is a good thing, and things usually work out for the best, so I'm not going to let
myself worry about the what ifs......

I'm off for the next 3 days.
I'll probably finish wrapping the Christmas gifts.

I put my tree up. Mr. Bojangles knocks off about 3 ornaments a day.
We-Ping leaves it alone.
I hung the Christmas paintings I've painted. It makes me happy when I look at them even though they
look like a fifth graders project. :O)

Daughter takes her second ACT Saturday.
I'm praying she does better this time around.
She's been studying .......so hopefully..........

I think I'm going to take boyfriend to our little hole in the wall breakfast diner for breakfast today............if he hasn't already had breakfast.
even though  lately i struggle with myself in my own head to get out of bed in the morning, especially on my off days....because i just want to retreat to the world of the sleeping..........even though i do that, i really am happy, and grateful. 

thankful thursday

thankful today for this candy cane i'm sucking on......it's good.

daughter was afraid to go alone to her doctors appointment today.
she left school for a bit to go to her appointment. i met her there...........when she saw me she smiled a huge beautiful smile and thanked me for coming. i'm thankful i went.

wednesday

I'm taking off work tomorrow.(Thursday)

Today I finished my Christmas shopping.

Tomorrow I have to measure daughters head for her graduation cap, and then order her cap and gown.

Tonight i'm on the couch with my big, soft blanket, and a new Dean Koontz book, I'll probably stya up late
 reading.
I got my dad Mark Twain's autobiography for Christmas. I think he'll like it.

I think Halle Berry is beautiful. I wish I looked like her. I also think old, wrinkled women are beautiful. Take a good look at them.......they're beautiful.....and they make me smile.

Dad taught me to play chess when I was a little girl.
I've forgotten how to play and have been trying to re learn it on this thing. It's fun.

today is my sunday

Mr. Bojangles is in the kitchen knocking around and then chasing after a piece of cat food. We-Ping is in my bed sleeping.
I just walked daughter out to the car. She's headed off to school. She struggles academically. She's asked her teachers if she can have some extra credit work. All but one of them said no. One of them is thinking about it. I pray she graduates with her class.
Last night boyfriend and I went to sons new place. Each son was cleaning the bathroom attached to each of their bedrooms.......and dreaming aloud about their plans for the place. It's a cute place, warm and homey. The deck over looks a lake. We could hear coyotes or wolves howling last night while on the deck. It gave me the weebie jeebies. The woman who owned it disappeared. She literally can't be found, so says one of her neighbors. Her stuff was packed up, and the place was put on the market by the bank. It was a steal. All it really needs is lots of scrubbing, and a little painting.
Boyfriend and I are headed out for breakfast and then to the mall. I need to finish my Christmas shopping. After shopping I might work on a painting. I've fallen in love with painting........I wanna do a painting of my children standing on Tiki Island in the Florida Keys. They were still little bitty things, holding hands each of them, looking out at the water. I can still remember thinking how sweet they looked. So it's what I want to paint.

my kids

When daughter was a little girl I used to sing to her"Dulcinea" at bedtime, a song from the musical Man Of La Mancha ...... Yesterday I pulled it up on You Tube to see if I still remembered the words. While it was playing daughter said "I know that song! You used to sing it to me!" :O) My eyes teared up......it made me happy that she remembered.

I've finished wrapping the Christmas presents that I have..........I still need to get a handful of gifts, and a few gift cards.

Middle son closes on HIS first home today. It seems like the process took forever. But finally it will be done. I'm proud of him.
He started work at a car dealership a couple/3 years ago. His job was to keep snow off the cars,do oil changes, and to detail the cars after they'd been sold. He was a teen. After a couple months he decided he wanted to sell cars. He asked repeatedly month after month if they'd let him be a salesman. Finally they relented, I think just to pacify him, and not really thinking he'd do well. They told him they'd let him try it for a month or two, and then decide if he could stay in the position. He has consistently out sold the other guys....................and then last month he was promoted. He's now the boss to the guys who he had looked up to, and wanted so badly to work with..............and he's still going to school......chopping away at his degree a few classes at a time. So yeah, I'm pleased and proud.
Oldest son who has been gainfully employed since he was 16, and is one of the hardest working guys I know, and who was also recently promoted at his job, will be living with middle son and sharing living expenses. He is also helping with the down payment. They're best friends, and "share" many of the same friends. They work different shifts, which will leave them both with time alone and privacy. And since they're splitting living expenses they'll still be able to save money.
They both make me proud.
I've been lucky in hte kid department. (knock on wood)

today

Thanksgiving Day was a nice day.
Daughter and I wore our new cooking aprons and prepared most of the meal together.Boyfriend and sons teased us about the aprons which made it even more fun wearing them. Daughter was in a playful mood,as was I. It was a good spending the time with her.
 I think the traditional Thanksgiving day meal is gross. But I like preparing it for my family, especially with daughter at my side.....and I love being with my family. So yeah.....it was a really nice day.
Daughter now knows how to make mashed potatoes AND turkey.

Late Thanksgiving night I DID enjoy a cold turkey sandwich and pumpkin pie. Mr. Bojangles loved the turkey. We-Ping doesn't eat people food.

Daughter tried out for and made the coed, competition, cheer leading squad. it will mean practicing her regular 3 hour/ day practices, plus an additional 3 hours/day of practice for the coed squad.......not to mention 2 games/week that she will have to cheer................she knows she needs to focus on academics. All this cheering won't leave much time. Last night she told me she has decided to quit the competition squad. I think she made a good decision.......maybe a little late, but at least it's done.

Work is going okay I guess.
Chas inspires me to do better......to be the nurse I used to be. He always goes that extra mile for his patients and patients families. Always. I used to...........and then I burned out..............hopefully he never will...............so I've been trying to do better.......trying to go that extra mile.....to give a little more. At first it felt like you feel when you pretend to like someone that you really don't like. But then you really do start liking them. It kinda felt like that.......I really didn't want to do what I was doing. I was faking it..........but at some point it started to feel good some of the time.......and so I just keep doing it.....
I told Chas last night how he has inspired me. I didn't tell so that I'd get something in return. I just wanted him to know, you know? Life's short. I try to say what I think/feel. I don't want it all in a knot inside of me.......and if it's something nice........then why not say it?
So last night I told him how he has inspired me to do better.
He got really serious and told me how when he started work at our facility he thought he knew it all. After all, he came from the hospital setting, and had worked there most of his career. He said he figured he knew more than me............he went on to say how he was surprised when he found he was learning from me things he didn't know.......he more or less said he had to take his self off his high horse. Because he wants to learn. His sincerity was touching............I thought it was sweet of him to share with me. He didn't have to........I'm happy though that he did.

Today I payed bills. I also wrote the banker handling the loan on my condo. I think all the contracts(the condo offer and the locked in interest rate) end December 6th or maybe the 11th. I'm obviously not going to sell this place before then........
My house isn't so bad.
It's old, and needs TLC.......I can hang in there until the economy recovers.........and in the mean time I'll continue to do repairs/updates to this place...........and then maybe someday I'll sell it and live on a houseboat or in a barn.............we'll see.

I haven't wrapped any gifts, or put up my tree yet.
Hopefully I'll achieve those things these next three off days. I'm behind schedule and that makes me feel stressed.

mashed potatoes

It's cold outside.
I had banking to do but didn't want to leave the house.
Boyfriend volunteered to do it for me. :O)
So he's at the bank as I type.
Daughter's in my bed listening to music, looking online at prom dresses.

One of the nurses I work with is from Jamaica, I think.
The other day before she left work, and while she was telling us good-bye and to have a nice Thanksgiving......she asked me if I knew how to make mashed potatoes. It kinda made me laugh until I remembered she came from another country. Maybe they don't eat mashed potatoes there? So I told her how to make them.................and then on my way home from work, I stopped at a friends of daughter to pick up daughter. On the drive home I asked daughter "Do you know how to make mashed potatoes?"
Daughter: No.
Me: Seriously?
Daughter: yes.
Me:Wanna help me prepare Thanksgiving dinner? I'll teach you.
Daughter: (painful like grunt)
Me: It will be fun.
Daughter:
Me: Okay?
Daughter:okay.
Me: :O)
So I'm looking forward to it.
She'll end up having fun with me. She just doesn't know it yet.

tuesday

Texas Town, Courts Fail Cheerleader --FanHouse
I read this article and felt outrage, sad, and discouraged. It made me sick to my stomach.
Billy, THIS IS WHATS WRONG WITH AMERICA!

thankful thursday

i'm thankful.....

thAT my work day is over

even though i forgot to buy toilet paper.....i have paper towels for plan B

my work friend, chas, walks me to my car every night after work so that i don't have to walk alone in the dark

mr bojangles lays by me/ on me each night until i fall asleep.

for music.

tuesday

There's a telemarketer for US Pharmacy that's been calling my house for almost a year. They call daily. Some of the time, and more often than not, they call 3 times a day. They call as late as 10 p.m. I've repeatedly asked them to stop calling. I've even screamed at them....... But they continue to call. Their number on my caller ID changes from call to call ...........I've tried calling them back. None of the numbers they leave on my caller ID are workable numbers............and when I look them up online, those numbers don't work either.
Then I remembered the National Do Not Call List.
I added my number to the list a few days ago. It says it might take up to a month for the calls to stop. But I think they've already stopped. I haven't had one call from US Pharmacy since I added my number. So, Yay! (Middle finger to you US Pharmacy!)

l"ll spare all the details except to say that daughter and I were at the supper table this evening. I'd already had supper, but sat with her when she got home from cheerleading practice so that she didn't have to eat dinner alone.She brought up her weekend with the cheerleading squad that was spent at an indoor water park at a hotel.....................it gave her some time away from home, and time to hear stories from coaches and other girls about their mothers.
So this evening at the supper table she apologized to me, and took responsibility for her attitude this past couple of weeks.( It's been bad.) She tried to explain it best as she could & without making excuses. It was good to talk.
I felt so relieved, and proud of her.
She's a neat person, for real.
I love her so much.

Sunday.......but it's really my Friday.

Hat for a queen.......red birds for the tree, and Mr. Bojangles showing his maternal side..........cause I made him.

Mr. Bojangles

class pictures and stuff

The realtor just called. Someones coming to look at the house tomorrow. I've kinda decided I didn't really want to sell..........kinda.............but anyway they're coming to have a look.

I made chicken and dumplings for supper. It's my oldest sons favorite. Mostly I made them for him.........also made some macadamion nut cookies. They were delicious.

I got back some of the pictures taken for daughters Senior class picture. There's only a couple that I really like.

Thursday

Mr. Bojangles didn't come home last night.
He always comes home by 9:30PM. Not last night. I worried the neighborhood serial cat killer had harmed him. Not SO though..........
He came home this morning.
He's sleeping on a pillow on the floor next to me.
I told him he's grounded.
I let him outside because I think being in the house all of the time
makes him feel caged. Cats are hunters. I want him to be able to do what comes naturally for him.
If I didn't love him I wouldn't let him out, but I do.

Daughter is mad at me because she has to be home by 7 P.M. on weekdays. Allowing her to be out till 7 p.m. on school nights goes against what I feel is the right thing to do. I really feel like she shouldn't even be out during the week, especially on school nights, unless there's a specific event she needs to attend. I'm trying to compromise though because I know I can be over protective, and because I still see a little girl some of the time when I look at her. It confuses me on what I should and should not allow her to do.

My father-in-law was a Paratrooper in the Korean war. He was also a nice man. Early on in my marriage, on Friday nights, when my mother-in-law would be out playing Bingo, and my husband would be out with his friends.......my father-in-law, me, and my oldest son who was just a baby, would spend Friday evenings together. We'd cook dinner and just kind of hang out at my in laws house. At first it was kinda weird because I was so painfully shy....especially around people I didn't know. But we settled into a routine of meeting on Fridays ....................we had many many conversations......got to know each other.....& for that I am grateful.........
 He was diagnosed with cancer just before my second son was born..............and then spent seven years fighting the big fight.It was brutal for him what he had to go through............ Second son lifted his spirit. Just looking at second son made him chuckle.
 Before he died he scribbled me a note telling me he was proud of my family and asked me to continue to take good care of them. It was dated the day before he died.
He was buried in his military outfit..... his casket was lined with his parachute........Taps was played ....there was a gun salute.......&......a flag was folded and given to my son................Pops would have been proud.
So today I'll do something to honor him. Not sure yet what that will be.......

this N that

We had an open house this past Sunday.
Zero lookers came to look.

While the realtor sat in my house for 2 hours, I took daughter to have her Senior class photos taken. I thought it would take 20 minutes tops.Right?
The photographer took us to 3 parks, the school yard, and to a city street. It took 4 hours. (good God!)
After pictures, daughter and I went out for a late lunch/early supper...................and then came home, snuggled together on the couch and watched a funny movie. It was a rare moment that I got to spend one on one time with her......I didn't want it to end.

I had Chinese for supper tonight.
My fortune in the fortune cookie said " Good news will come to you by mail." We'll see!

One of my very first patients didn't have a nose. She lost it to cancer.
I wasn't warned by any of the staff.
Nurses are a mean bunch.
I walked inot her room, and there she was, without a nose. My first instinct was to run. Her appearance frightened me at first look.
I've had a sore in my nose for a few months. It's right on the side of the tip of the septum.
I'm worried that I'll end up nose less like my patient.  :(

We had fun today at work.
We made up our own version of the Christmas carol "The Twelve Days of Christmas" using diseases and different drugs in the song..................guess you had to be there........it was a funny song. We crack ourselves up.....

I have errands to run tomorrow........I plan on getting them out of the way early in the day....................and then I'm coming home to start my Christmas wrapping........

vindicated

  a person who pointed the finger at me a few weeks back  for something I did not do was busted   today for the very thing she accused me of doing.
I felt vindicated.
It was a great feeling...............but.......................
I wonder if  it would have felt better if I could have, at the very least. told her to go fuck her self. It's what I wanted to do.

Thankful Thursday

So tomorrow I only have to work an eight hour day since our work hours have been cut. Then I'm off work Saturday and Sunday. It will be nice to get out of there early on a Friday even though it screws with my budget.

After work tomorrow I'm going to lower my living room curtain rods. They're about 5 inches too high. It's been bothering me for around 16  years. :O) It's time to take action.........better late than never?

The realtor's having an open house here Sunday. SO I'll probably spend Saturday cleaning. I signed the amendment to my contract this week lowering my asking price. (I might be repeating myself.)

TODAY I'm grateful for my children, boyfriend, Mr. Bojangles, We-Ping, and my work friend Peggy. I love all of them.

tuesday

I voted today.
I kind of didn't want to because it all feels so hopeless.
But then I thought about the members of the board
of education for daughters school................and how badly I want them out of office.
So that was my motivation for voting.

After we voted, boyfriend and I went to the local hole in the wall, breakfast diner for breakfast. It was packed with voters. I had fun listening to the talk/buzz about the election.

After breakfast we did a little more Christmas shopping, grocery shopping, and I bought our Thanksgiving turkey. I also got 2 cute Christmas aprons for daughter and I to wear when we bake Christmas cookies. I know that when I showed them to her she was thinking "OMG".........but when I'm dead and gone she'll remember us wearing those silly things & hopefully having fun as we make cookies. And maybe she'll be greatful for the memory. I got her a Santa hat that has a built in crown. I thought it was fitting for a Homecoming queen. :O)

We drove past our condo today.
I just wanted to see it again.
It's still there, hasn't changed.
I love it but I'm having second thoughts about it. I'm back and forth in my head
about selling my house. I'll figure it out.

off day

This past Friday was Senior night.
The Senior band members, cheerleaders, and football players were introduced at the football game and their plans for the future were read allowed as they were escorted across the football field by their parents. Boyfriend, ex husband and I escorted daughter. My sons were there to watch and to catch up with old teachers, coaches, and friends.
Daughters poster board was a big hit. There was so many pictures I wanted to share. I'm proud of her.
It was a nice night all in all.........even though we lost the game. But the win wasn't an easy one. We fought hard, and played well.

I'm off for the next three days.
Today I need to get with the realtor to sign a new contract. We're going to knock five thousand off our asking price. Maybe it will help.
I missed trick or treat last night. I was working. I like handing out the candy and taking the opportunity to say hello to all the neighbors.

Last night at work the husband to one of my patients asked me out to dinner. I was taken back......my first thought was "your wife is struggling in a hospital bed, and your asking another woman out for dinner?"  Then I worried that since we were right outside her room she might be hearing the conversation.....and I even felt a little bad for him because I know he's going through a difficult time.
I'm not the best when it comes to this sort of thing.
I get nervous and tongue tied. (I'm such a dork)
So as I'm declining married mans invitation in my tongue tied, round the bout way,trying to be polite, trying not to hurt anyones feelings,.......my work friend Chas overheard what was going on.....he came out and made light of the situation "saving me" from the whole mess.
I kinda wish he would have stayed out of it.
I wanted to deal with it in my own dorky way. I didn't need for him to save me.

beautiful roses

Came home from work this evening and was surprised when I saw 2 dozen roses in a beautiful vase on my dresser........a gift from boyfriend..........and a very sweet card...........just because. :O)

finished......finally!

It's hard to see on here, but I finally finished the board for Senior Night. Daughter was pleased.

I also managed to mop all my floors, clean all the mirrors, scour the sinks, dust the furniture and vacuum. I'm taking tomorrow morning and afternoon off. :O)

thursday

I just cleaned up the kitchen and put a pot roast with onions, green peppers, and red potatoes in the crock pot. It will make the house smell so good.
Yesterday I left the house around 9 a.m. to run to the bank, and to buy some stamps. I met boyfriend at the high school and we went to the WalMart and then to the mall. Daughter asked for some Ed Hardy perfume for Christmas and a Ed Hardy back pack style purse. I searched online for the back pack but couldn't fine one anywhere. So I went ahead and bought the perfume set and with my purchase I got a free gift. Guess what it was? That's right. I got the backpack purse free. Yay!
I also bought most of what I wanted to get for sons for Christmas. So I put a good dent in my Christmas shopping.
I think son closes on his condo tomorrow. I'm not for sure cause neither is he. But yesterday I bought for each of their bathrooms all the personal hygiene products they'll need for a month. And I also got for them all the house cleaning products they'll need for awhile. So that's what I'll give them for a house warming gift along with the Halloween/Scary basket that I won from the work raffle.
Oldest son lived on his own for a couple of years before moving back home for a minute. So they have all the furniture, and appliances etc. that they need.
I still haven't finished the Senior Night collage. I'll get that done today.

I've been missing my mom a lot lately. Flashes of myself  as a little girl kept coming to me. Me standing in the kitchen, the counter top at about eye level....I was all snotty and congested..feeling sick......I woke mom....she took me by the hand in her bedroom and walked me to the kitchen        ...my mom was in the medicine cabinet in the kitchen getting out the Vick's Vapor rub then rubbed it on my chest, and spoke soothing words to me....................and I was thinking about her tucking me in, again for the night on the living room couch, making me feel cared for and loved.. It is a very vivid memory, and it made me miss her.............so boyfriend and I went to mom and dads house last evening. We just chit chatted awhile. But it was nice.......and I got to hug my mom and tell her I love her......and 1 more thing. I just remembered. Me and 2 of my sisters, because we were younger than our 2 older sisters.....so it was kind of like 2 different sets of children.................but I remember us 3 pretending to be asleep in the living room some of the time around bedtime so that dad would carry us up the stairs to our bedroom............he'd go along with our game and say to mom "well mom, I guess the girls are sleeping and I'll have to carry them upstairs." He'd pick up each of us. Two of us over one shoulder, one over the other, and up the stairs we'd go.......giggling. He'd act shocked that we were really awake, and like he'd been tricked...............made us giggle even more.            Thanks mom and dad. :O)

goodnight

I'm going to bed.
It was a long work day and I'm beat.

sunday

We're going to rake leaves today.
I think they look pretty on the ground while they're still colorful, but boyfriend thinks they need to be cleaned up.
It's beautiful outside so it should feel great being out there..............I had 2 very large trees removed last year, and right now I'm glad............usually this time of year my deck would literally be buried. Not so this year.

I started Christmas shopping last night online.......I like looking at everything before I buy......so I really didn't shop....I just looked at lots of stuff, and compared prices. It will make shopping easier.

I need to do a little cleaning, today but more important  I need to work on daughters Senior Night collage. Senior night is this Friday. It's a very important night for daughter. (By the way, go to you tube and see the video "Boys of Fall" It will make you cry. It did me anyway.) I want the collage to be really special. I was thinking of incorporating the words from Carole Kings "Child of Mine" into the collage. Not sure. I already have the display board painted a metallic silver. It looks pretty good. All that's left to do is to sift through about a million pictures and choose the ones I'll use. It's times like this that I wish I was more organized.

slacker

I'm not leaving the couch today.
I have cramps.
Daughter went to the store for me for Tylenol.
She brought me back some munchies.
So I have munchies, Tylenol, the t.v, my computer, and a book.
It's going to be a good day on the couch doing much of nothing.

One of my sisters called me. She filled me in on the drama that's happening
as a result of 2 of my other sisters using drugs. I listened and then told her I don't want to be involved in even hearing about any of it. My daughter and boyfriend know what's going on and they also know that if either of drug using sisters call me, I'm " in the shower."
I can't be and don't want to be a part of their life as long as they are using. So that's that.

Friday

Todays work day felt like a week instead of a day.
But my work friend, Chas and I managed to squeeze in lots of laughs.
One of the other nurses who is usually a little withdrawn came out of her shell and laughed along with us. It was fun to see her that way.

Daughters  at a football game and then  going to the movies........so boyfriend and I went out for a late supper.........it was a nice time.............................I'm wiped out though, so I'm going to the couch to read or watch t.v.

thursday

Our census at work is down......so today our hours were cut. We'll lose 4 hours a pay period. The alternative was to let a nurse or two go/lay them off. When the census goes back up so will our hours of work.
I'm not thrilled about it. I'll live with it though and just tighten the purse strings.

It was one of those days at work where all I wanted to do was go home to kiss Mr. Bojangles, and listen to my daughter talk about her day as I watch her facial expressions and body language. She makes me smile.
So when I finally got home that's exactly what I did.
Daughter sat on my dresser and talked about one of her friendships, her math teacher, her school credits and grades. She moved her lower legs back and forth, and ran her fingers through her hair as she talked. Every once in awhile she'd crack a knuckle.
 Mr. Bojangles rolled on his back in the driveway waiting for me to pet him after I got out of the car when I arrived hoome from work.. My hands were full so I told him to follow me.......when we got in the door I dropped my stuff on the table, then picked him up and kissed him. He purred.
I'm lucky      &

I'm content.

abusing drugs

so 2 of my sisters are using again.
they've had 18-24 years of clean living.
i noticed a couple years ago a slow spiral downward for one of them, and more recently a downward spiral for the other.
it's quite sad really.
i honestly believe they will die. drug addicts lie, cheat, steal, get better, or die.
when i was younger, still a teen and young woman.. much of my free time was spent with my oldest nephew. he was the love of my life. his parents were both active addicts, so i wanted to be there for him............i wanted to keep him safe. he spent nights with me some of the time while i still lived at my parents house. i took him swimming, to the movies.......anywhere and everywhere. i spent as much time with him as i could. i didn't want him around the lifestyle his parents were living. i wanted him to have someone he could count on.....
luckily his parents got the help they needed and for most of nephews life, they lived  clean productive lives  and provided a good home for him. a great home actually...
I feel sorrow. i feel sad for him. he's grown now so i dont feel like i have to protect him. i just wish it could be different for him.
i also worry about my parents.
i'm sure they thought all those bad times were over with.............they could sleep without worrying about getting "that phone call."
i don't even know if they know what's going on..........though i'm sure they have their suspicions. all you have to do is look at either of my sisters and you can see the affects...........they both look like old women.......old, underweight, tired women. a year ago they were attractive, middle aged women. unbelievable.
i can't protect my parents or my nephew from our new reality.
i can't make it go away.
i love my sisters. they're good people with a serious problem.
i don't know if i believe in God.
i believe in praying though.
it's all i have. it's all i know to do.

my furry friends

We-Ping and Mr. Bojangles napping. :O)

off day

things that irritate me....

grown women who call their dad "daddy".......i think it's weird.

when people call a sink, the "zinc." i don't understand it.

just saying....

today is my off day.
i napped.
it was great.
i also made garlic chicken and steamed vegetables for supper.
i didn't have lunch or breakfast.....so it was an early supper.
it was delicious.

boyfriend patched a crack in my kitchen ceiling. tomorrow we need to paint the ceiling.
it's looking more and more like my house isn't going to sell. if it doesn't sell, i'm gutting my kitchen......and either getting new carpeting, or restoring the beautiful woods floors under the carpeting.

daughter works at the pre-school in one of our schools grade schools. she gets school credit for it.
when she got to work today the pre school teachers had the door decorated in honor of her being voted Homecoming Queen. Sweet. :O)

Homecoming Dance

So the kids, many of them came to our house for pre Homecoming picture taking. First picture is daughter and her date.

Many of those that showed for pictures.....

Daughter and "other best friend" cracking up.

Pinky promise to be friends forever.

I'm giving the speech that included statistics on teenage deaths from drinking and driving.

Teenage romance. :O

The girls hanging out at the Homecoming.

Showing off their nail jobs.

Daughter and her escort being introduced. When they were introduced the football team chanted "Water bug, Water bug, Water bug. Yeah!" (Water bug is her nickname) It was awesome. ( Parents of court members were invited to come at 10p.m. for the crowning. Of course I came.)

They announced 2nd runner up, representing band, .........then first runner up representing NAACP, Mariah (daughters very best friend)........"and your 2010 Homecoming Queen     IS,         representing The Cheerleading squad......(daughters name!)

Daughter being hugged. I was jumping up and down a little :O) and clapping......... daughter looked at me with tears in her eyes and mouthed the words "don't cry...I mouthed the word "okay".... I cried  anyway.....then she did too.....:O)

It has been a very memorable weekend. Especially for daughter.                               So                                 YAY!

P.S. The truck delivering the decorations and the crowns for the Homecoming hasn't shown up yet, and the DJ was late..............................but the school still managed to pull it off. When I came in at 10 p.m. the kids seemed to be having a blast!

Homecoming Day Parade and football game.

Daughter and " other best friend." Daughters "other best friend" wasn't nominated for queen initially........but she ended up taking" Principals Choice" spot after it became available.

Daughter and best friend. Best friend is representing the NAACP

The squad following us in the parade.

Wildcat Homecoming sign.

I just like this picture. Pulls at my heartstrings for whatever reason.  #2 is daughters Homecoming date.

(My 3 Boo's)daughter and brothers........

So last night was the Homecoming game. It was also where the parents walked the Homecoming Queen attendants out on the football field to be introduced. First we participated in The Homecoming Game Parade.
We took the roof and windows out of my oldest sons Jeep, decorated it with posters.......and a half dozen balloons. It looked pretty cool.
The Cheerleaders walked behind our vehicle because thats who daughter was nominated by, though she was also principals choice. She dislikes the principal so she went with the Cheerleaders nomination. :O)
The whole night was a total blast though I can't adequately express it on here.............I've never hugged so many kids, or have been told "I love you, Ms. G. by so many people in a day.
The girl who dresses as the Mascot.......and I'm not sure if she's learning disabled or neglected in some way.....or if anything.......but to me she's precious.......last week I told daughter to please tell "precious" that I think she's the ebst Mascot we've ever had...........so lastnight at the Homecoming game I was stalked by our Mascot. Mascot stood in my direct vision the whole game..........until....she undressed the last quarter and came to sit by me. She hugged me and told me she loved me.........and she meant it..........it was soooo sweet, and made her even more endearing to me...........................
So we won the game 45-0......or close to that.............AND THEN.......our squad was taped by The Ellen Degeneress Show doing "The Ellen Dance." Each of them holding a Ellen picture mask in front of their faces.......the girls had a blast.............the school will be notified by mail when it will air.......( I won't tell you how when some guy walked by me at the game who was wearing a dinosaur necklace about the size of a medium handbag filled with diamond like stones......and he was dressed "cool" for lack of a better word.....and I knew I liked his personality just by the way he looked and carried his self......so when he walked by me I said to him "I really like your necklace" and he said to me "thank you, and will you come join us after the game to do the Ellen dance........he even came to get me whe they were getting ready to start taping........so I went on the track with the squad, then felt silly and backed out. He pulled me back in.......so I snuck out again, successfully. lol. He was a nice guy. I just know these things)
The whole night was fun..................the school did a great job at preparing for the night.........exhubby was nice.......and when we are brought together by these types of events.....I'm almost always reminded that he's a good person despite his flaws..........(as we all have)............but he always seems a little sad too me.....unless I'm just projecting....I probably am.........he was gracious though.....and I'm greatful for that...... he brought our daughter a bouquet of flowers.......made her smile.She loves him, but she wanted my boyfriend to accompany me and her father in walking her across the field. He's been more a part of her life over the past 5 years. Boyfriend was in the stands cheering for her but thought it best for me and ex to walk with her.
It stung her feelings a bit........but she was fine.........
Anyway, at the risk of sound repetative........it was a wonderful night. Wouldn't have changed a thing!

thankful thursday

today i'm thankful for my very clean, ready to show at a moments notice, house, full pantry, bills paid, and a little money put away.
i'm thankful that Mr. Bojangles lies next to me as i sit in my bed typing this post, and every once in awhile he'll rub his head against my arm.
i'm thankful for my kids.
and i'm thankful for this beautiful fall weather.

and last but not least I'm thankful for people like Odie who make me smile and make me want to be a better, kinder person.

Homecoming Candidate gift for daughter.

I bought this necklace for daughter. I had her name engraved on the front.........and( xox Mom) on the back. I placed it in the box below......and engraved on the lid of the box  "Homecoming Court 2010"............daughter cried when she opened it. So then I cried too. :O) Can't help it...........

It really did turn out quite pretty.

I finished the posters that will hang on the car for the Homecoming Parade. They turned out pretty good.......and I called off the open house for Saturday.

Things have calmed down a little. So YAY!

my off day

I woke this morning to Mr. Bojangles and We-Ping fighting with each other. I'm glad I did though cause daughter was just walking out the front door for school. I still like giving her a kiss good-bye when I can. So I jumped up to tell her good-bye and to watch her to the car.

I was told yesterday I had to work Christmas, or find my own replacement.
So I found my replacement. I left the paper work for her (my replacement) at the nurses station. She'll sign off on it today................and I will work for her on New Years Eve. So Yay! I made a decision a long time ago after many years of working on Christmas that I wouldn't do it anymore. I want that day with my family....... hopefully replacement girl doesn't change her mind.

I buried a picture of Saint Christopher in my back yard.( you're really supposed to bury a statue but I didn't want to spend the money so I drew a picture of him.) I heard if I did that I'd sell my house. Then I read that it's supposed to be Saint Joseph that will help you sell your house. So I'll dig up Saint Christopher and bury Saint Joseph.It can't hurt.
But what i truly believe is that things happen for a reason. And those reasons may not be any of our business right now.  If it's meant to be, it will be.

I"m sneaking a smoke now and then. Have been doing it for about 2 weeks. Daughter "caught" me. "you've got to be freakin kidding me!" was her response. Then she stormed off and I think I heard her cursing under her breath.
I felt ashamed and very sorry for having let her down........and pissed off at myself for allowing myself that first slip.

tuesday

Nothing new I care to write about.
The next 3 days are my off days.
I'm going to work on the signs for the Homecoming parade, and clean the house.
I didnt say ok to an open house, but they showed up today and put a open house sign up......I think I told them yes, called them back and told them I had to rethink it..........I didn't call them back.......is that a yes?..........either way I guess I need to call them and tell them it just can't be done........I might have a half dozen girls here that day getting ready for the dance..............................
I'm tired......I'm going cacoon on the couch with Mr. Bojangles and watch The Big C and Weeds.

homecoming queen or drama queen

So the latest drama in daughters life is what dress to wear in the Homecoming parade to the football field where the attendants will be introduced. She has a perfectly new dress that i bought her to wear for her class pictures. "When I ptl it on and pull up the skirt of the dress I look like a tramp.....when I pull it down I look like a grandma!"
Between cheer leading practices, her job, school, my 12 hour shifts, house showings, nail appointments for the dance etc...there's no time for us to shop for a dress..........so after work tonight on my way home I stopped on a whim at a Fashion Bug that I drive right by on my ride home. I was hoping against hope that I'd find something she'd like...............not to mention it would have to fit just right and she wouldn't be there to try it on.......the store closed at 8........I entered at 8 minutes till........ran to the dresses......found 2 right away that I thought would be perfect......took them to the register......a cute young blond well dressed was working........I held both dresses up and said "Homecoming attendant.......which dress!?" She agreed with what was my first choice. I bought it......took it home.....told daughter to undress and put on your black heels then close your eyes.....Don't look at the dress or you will prejudge it." So she did as I said....I slipped the dress over her head........and it was perfect. Problem solved! I felt great.......daughter was relieved.
I'll make signs for the car this Wednesday........................and pick up a birthday present for her best friend for Friday morning. Two other stressers taken care off of her plate..........now maybe she'll relax and enjoy what should be a very exciting time.

living honest

Boyfriend, daughter, me and my parents went out for a late lunch/early supper.
It was a place on the river with an outside deck and ceiling fans...............we ate outside on the deck over looking the river........................and listened to some guy sing, play guitar, and the harmonica. I love the harmonica...........................he was good. Dad as usual had a list of jokes to tell. Boyfriend was cracking up laughing at dads jokes........so was I really......cause he is funny and some of the time I think he missed his calling as a stand up comedian. Mom laughs at him and rolls her eyes all at the same time...........mom looks beautiful and healthy. I hope she does okay for awhile...........................Dad doesn't like that daughter is going to the homecoming with an African American. The same guy she went with to the prom. I'm proud of daughter for having a mind of he r own and doing what SHE WANTS. You can't live your life trying to do the things that please everyone else. Well I guess you can.........but at some point you have to do those things that make you happy or you're just living a lie............who wants to live a great big old lie?
I don't want my children feeling like they have to live one.

my before i die list

I was watching this show on MTV about a group of young men who do the things on their "bucket" list. It's a fun show........they're creative in how they accomplish their dreams......       and lucky for them they have a television station paying their way to their dreams....................anyway,  it got me to thinking.....what is it that I dream of doing..........life presents me with more time now that my children are raised, at least for the most part...........tomorrow isn't promised to us........I don't want to waste time................what do I want to do? The answer doesn't come easily............other people can spew a list with hardly any thought.........I wish I could too..............I know those dreams are in my head........I just haven't given them much thought........so it's what I'll start doing.......and when I think of something I want to do before I die (hopefully) I'll add it to an ongoing list.

this n that again

I won a raffle at work yesterday.
It was a big to do to raise money for the activities department.
They raffled off a bunch of donated gift baskets.
I had my eye on "The Scary Basket"..........it was filled with half a dozen horror flicks,
theatre popcorn, and candy........and it's the one I won.
My work friend Chas won the Starbucks Coffee basket. It was his second choice.....he had his eye on the autographed picture of the Bengals coach..........but was happy with the Starbucks.
I'm going to give "The Scary" basket to my sons when they move into their new place. I think they'll like it.
It was a fun day at work yesterday. Chas and I were both slap happy silly........we goofed and laughed a lot.
He reminds me of my friend that passed away awhile back......... it makes my heart ache a little for my old friend......"oh stop it!" is what he would say.......

Random stuff:
I think children from kindergarten on should have their own alarm clock....and should use it......I don't remember ever having to wake my children for school.....they'd get up to their alarm.....never had to "push" them out of the bed in the morning. But I always gave them a morning hug/kiss, and breakfast.........but never any wars about getting out of bed.
I think that by the time a child is in the sixth grade he/she should be reading the newspaper daily.
Children need routine...&.....consistency............... meals at the table with mom and dad........hugs, patience..   play time outside.......parental involvement and love.............and a pet if possible................

My oldest son watched Pinocchio over and over again when he was a child.......he was facinated by that show.....daughter did the same with Jurrasic Park........I can't remember what show middle son watched over and over when he was a child if any.........but I remember when he was a little older he loved Slingblade.....every once in awhile, still, he'll playfully and in a funny muffled/accented like speech  say something like "will you make me some biscuits and mustard?"

Once when the boys were in middle school I took daughter with me to the grocery. I left the boys at home. I forgot to tell them a roofer was stopping by to have a look at the roof. The boys were in their bedroom when they saw a man climb up a ladder past their second floor bedroom window. They called 911. The police held the guy in my yard until I got home to verify his story. Oops!
Another time I called 911 because while going down the basement steps I thought I saw the figure of a man in a dark corner in my basement. It was the Christmas tree with a baseball hat on the top of it.
When I first divorced and the kids would spend the night, or several nights at their dads house I was afraid some of the time to be here alone at night. So I had this reAlly  big stuffed bear. I'd sit him in a kitchen chair at the kitchen table..throw a flannel shirt over his back...even put a baseball hat on the top of his head........and I had a little 4 inch t.v. that I'd sit on the table in front of the bear, turned on....and then I'd crack the kitchen curtain just enough so that if  anyone looked in it would hopefully look like a really big guy was awake in the kitchen watching t.v.  Silly I know but I slept a little easier............When we rented a place early on, a man came in our house, through a window as my husband and the 2 boys slept. I saw him looking in the window at me as I pretended to sleep on the couch. I'd jnust given middle son who was a newborn a bottle. After he looked in the window, while I lay frozen in fear and hadn't yet taken action, he went around to a back window and came in our home. I finally made the decision to fight, woke husband, loaded a gun that we had at the time, and called 911. When husband pointed the gun at the guy, guy ran and jumped head first out the kitchen window......so we had a good ending in that no one was physically hurt....... But I was a little paranoid when at first I was on my own................and that's all. I'll stop rambling now.....

Thankful Thursday

I'm thankful daughter is happy.
I'm thankful for my work friend Peggy and her friendship.
I'm thankful to be employed and able to pay my bills.........especially while so many other families are struggling. I've been there.......it's tough to go through.
I'm thankful for my parents.
I'm thankful that We-Ping meets me at my car door when I get home from work.......and today she was OK with me petting her.
I'm thankful that even though I can be a bitch some of the time, and impatient (I'm working on it), brutally honest some of the time & opinionated, I'm still a caring person who just wants to be a good mom, friend, and spouse.
I'm thankful I'm not PMS'ing today.
And I'm thankful that Mr. Bojangles is sitting on the back of the couch next to me even though he's licking his butt.

Recording memories..........and house showing.

So you can do this with your blog............Blog2Print - Print Your Blog, Sell Your Blog Book! What I thought I'd do is a separate blog for my daughter, about my daughters senior year of high school....... then order it in print in hard copy form and give it to her as a gift.
I've started work on it, but will make some changes.......adding more detail.....and thoughts........it's a work in progress. I think she'll like it.


The people came to our house. I sat in my car at the fork in the road to get a peek cause I'm curious that way......... It was a younger couple in a white SUV. I guess I thought seeing them would tell me if they'd actually buy my house.........but all it really told me was it's a younger couple with a white car. :O)~
I haven't heard anything from my realtor.........he'll probably call later to give me some feedback.
We're scheduled for an open house October 16th.
I was reluctant because I work that day, am scheduled to leave early to help daughter get ready for the homecoming and to take pictures, etc.... etc..........so maybe I Shouldn't participate in national open house day...........matter a fact I just called the Realtors office and told them I need to think about it.....

It's a beautiful day here today. The leaves are changing colors, it's sunny, and the skies are blue..........I love this time of year. When we were children, my sisters and I would refer to a day like today as "One of those days"...........

cleaning and possible homecoming queen.

Someone scheduled an appointment for tomorrow morning to see my house. I've been cleaning all day.......and shopping for new bedroom curtains and sheets/comforter set........and I put a couple pumpkins with baby pumpkins in my yard. I still have an easy list of things to do in the morning before leaving my house.
I'm scared about selling my house. Change can be scary.........if guarantees came with change it might be a little easier for me. But there are none........we can only make decisions based on the information we have and on our good sensibilities. But still, a few guarantees would be nice.

Daughter made homecoming court.  She'll be in a parade for our homecoming football game along with the other 6 girls on the court. One of those girls will be chosen as homecoming queen.
I'm happy for her. It's an exciting deal for her.......and the other girls too. :O)

PS.......I'm curious about who will be going through my house. I'm going to park at the fork in the road and get a peek at them......hopefully.

monday

It was a busy day doing those things that make me feel anxious usually. they didn't today. so yay!
I met with the banker and did my loan applications.......and turned in all the papers they needed from me................so if my house sells in the next couple months.......then i'll sign off on the condo............i'm just trying not to get my hopes up.........it's unlikely the house will sell that quickly.............and if it doesn't..............well from there i'm not sure what i'll do.........depends on the rates, what it will cost to buy down the rate if they're higher than what i've locked in........if  someone else buys the condo.........so many things to consider.........................i'll just have to wait and see how things go...............................my dad went today to have a look at the condo i have a contract on............he said he thinks it's beautiful, and much bigger than he thought it would be. my dad can be super critical. i was surprised by his comments......and pleased that he said positive things about the place.

when daughter came home from school, boyfriend and i took her and her friend to the mall to buy shoes and jewelry to wear with her homecoming dress. when we got to the mall we found a beautiful dress in a store front window. daughter tried it on and it looked great on her. i loved it, and it would have been my choice..it was more princess E than the one she already has........she decided to stay with the dress she bought a couple weeks back. it's also a pretty dress.

tomorrow is my off day...........i think i'll just hang out at home. senior night at the football game is right around the corner. i have to make a poster board featuring daughter for the big night. all the senior football players, cheerleaders, and band members will have a poster displayed at the football game.....and they will be introduced with their parents on the football field.......it will be the last football game they participate in as a student...........it's a big to do.....a going away salute of sorts...........i want to make her poster really special. so i might do some planning and work on her display tomorrow.

that's it. nothing terribly exciting.  i like it this way. :O)