I usually like my time alone. Tonight I wish I had company.
I argued with boyfriend this week. I argued with daughter too.
I don't handle conflict well. It's my nature to be peace keeper.
I don't think the conflict with boyfriend and daughter is the reason behind my not wanting to be alone though.
I've had fleeting thoughts this week, and last week of wanting to run away.
It's not something I'd ever really do.......( if I disappear from a mall parking lot, or while walking to my car in the morning, it means I've been abducted.)
So why my discontent?
I'm worrying I haven't lived my life to the fullest............and maybe I've let my fears and insecurities dictate the way I've lived my life.
I've wasted time.
I don't know where to go from here.......and I don't know what any of this has to do with me not wanting to be alone right now............
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I have had the same problems feeling overwhelmed and inadequate and actually did run away (2) times. Came back the next day both times and finally got some meds to help. The meds take the edge off and things don't get to me as bad. Something to think about girl.
Hope you get a handle on it soon.
I'm worrying I haven't lived my life to the fullest...
Oh, you can bet your ass that I've always done that. Went boating today and the wind came up and the waves kicked the shit out of me getting back.
I don't mind water coming over the bow but I need to get a windshield on the boat, by the time I fought my way back I was wet and cold as hell.
Sounds fun, Billy.....
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