opening day

Tomorrow is opening day for the Cincinnati Reds.
I love baseball.
I love the Reds.
Joe Morgan is my all time favorite player. He was a member of The Big Red Machine. They were awesome.
I was in junior high for the two seasons The Big Red Machine won the world series. School was on a 2 hour delay those mornings after the Reds played in the world series. They wanted us to be rested after being up late watching the games.
I still have my Joe Morgan baseball card. I still have my Ken Griffey card. (He was my second favorite player.)
When I played on the school softball team I imitated Joe's batting style......clicking my arm twice before swinging the bat. It helped me to time the ball. I batted clean up.
I taught my daughter to swing the bat using Joe's method. She had a good swing too.
When I was in grade school and dad would take me to the stadium to see the Reds play, I'd bring my baseball glove in hopes of catching a ball. I never did.
My cousin played for the Reds.
He signed a ball for me, and his baseball card. :O) We used to play Wiffle Ball together. I'd like to think I played some part in his success...............even though I  didn't!

thursday

Boyfriend had surgery on his foot yesterday. He had to have a bone resected and some dead tissue cut out.
He's home and doing well. It was an exhausting day. I'm glad it's over!

I didn't do anything that was on my to do list from the other day. I got up extra early today and completed all the things on the list  &  I went to the grocery store, the pharmacy,and cleaned the kitchen.
I'm not doing anything else the rest of the day except rest my back................it hurts.......

saturday

I worked yesterday. It was super busy and another nurse was fired. I hate seeing people lose their job. But I have to say that this girl, nice as she was, was a liability. I'm glad she's gone but feel sorry for her.
 One of the hospices provided lunch for us at work yesterday. An old friend works for them. She was at our facility for the lunch. It was good catching up......
 Went to the grocery store after work. I couldn't believe how crowded it was at 9 PM on a Friday night.We're supposed to have a bad snow storm Sunday. Maybe everyone was getting a jump on their Saturday morning trip to the store. Or maybe it's always busy on Friday nights. I usually go in the morning.

I called mom and dad this morning. My ornamental grasses had been trimmed. Boyfriend didn't trim them. Neither did I. So I figured dad did. But I wanted to be sure, and I wanted to thank him. Him and mom were getting ready to leave to meet middle son for breakfast.
Dad says mom is feeling better. Mom says besides her legs aching and her shortness of breath, she's feeling better.
She sounds better.

My to do list for the weekend is to go to the bank.
Pay my bills.
Get my tax papers together.
Balance  my check book.

While on the phone this morning with dad he asked me if
I wanted to go to his log cabin for breakfast on my next Sunday off. "That's all I'm going to tell you." is what he said when I inquired about his log cabin.
So maybe tomorrow I'll go to dads log cabin.

wed.

So I got a write up at work today for calling off 3 times in the past 3months. :O) It's my first write up in the 13 years I've been employed there.
I should feel something, but I  don't.
On the other hand I got my yearly work evaluation today
It was very good..................even the part that evaluates ones attendance was marked above average.............whatever.
My raise was a joke...........two years in a row it's been a joke.

The unit next to mine got an admission tonight. The day shift nurse and the night shift nurse didn't know how to do the admission on the new computer program. They both looked at me............man I felt bad telling them good night.

tuesday

I made french toast for supper.
It was good!

I was thinking about getting an audio book to listen to on my way to and from work.
I've never used one before.
I'm afraid I'll get one where the reader sounds like he has a mouth full of
spit. That would get on my nerves. But I still think I'll give one a try.

It was so sunny outside today.
It reminded me how much I miss warm, sunny weather.

monday

I spent the weekend at work.
I received a computerized text from them at
4:15 this AM. asking if I would work today.
I slept right through the text. So I did not respond.
I would have said no.

Mom is bleeding again.
She's scared and frustrated.
I feel sad for her.
It hurts. It sucks.

I'm going to take a nap with Mr. Bojangles and then watch the Jodi Arias trial.

thursday

I took the FMLA papers to moms doctor today. I'm not sure they will complete them before the dead line.
But that's okay. At least I will have them for the next crisis.

I stopped at mom and dads house today.
They weren't home.
I left chocolate covered marshmallow eggs on their pillows.

My new printer works good, Billy! I had to return the one I bought for my dad. It quit working after the first ten prints. I exchanged it today. The new one is great! (for now)

wed

Saturday we went for a drive in Indiana.
It was relaxing.
Stopped at a mom and pops place for
a late lunch/early supper.
Boyfriend had chicken breast with mac n cheese. I had
chicken liver and gizards. It was okay.
I took boyfriend to the ski slopes in Indiana. He's from Colorado. I thought he'd like to see our version of ski slopes.
My son loves to ski. When he was high school
the city gave him an award for his work on the slopes
helping handicapped children ski.

I thought the old cop car was kind of neat looking...........and  the old feed store.
We found a local Winery.
Neither of of us like wine so we didn't bother to go in....... but we might go back
to buy gifts.

On our way home I got a text message from daughter telling me "call grandma. she says it's important."
My first thought was my sister is dead from drug use. (it's almost funny if it weren't so pathetic)
I was afraid to call my mom. But I did.........................................mom was having GI bleeding and wasn't sure if she should take her "blood thinner."
The rest of the story is told on a post from Monday i think.......

I worked yesterday.
I had a new patient come in towards the end of my shift so I ended up
working until 10:30 pm. My feet were burning by the end of the day.
The whole work day sucked except when the new physician assistant, who I really like as a person and as a professional, told me Dr. P told her that I was a good nurse, that she can trust me to follow through with and follow up on things.
She didn't have to tell me. But she did. It made me feel good................and.............
It made me feel a little guilty for snapping at her earlier in the day. She's new to our facility so she has lots of questions and needs a little hand holding.
I'm so busy it's difficult to be patient. I'm sorry for snapping at her. I wish I could take it back.

monday evening

Mom is home and in bed resting.
Hopefully she isn't still bleeding.

If I can just make it through tomorrows work day
I will be happy.

monday

Mom was in the ER Saturday night for GI bleeding. Her count wasn't low enough for a transfusion. They wanted to admit her to keep an eye on her count but she chose to go home.
I spent Sunday taking her to her doctors office after hours clinic to have her counts rechecked
but was told they do not do labs at the clinic. (WTF) Mom did not want to go back to the ER even though she was still bleeding.
I got a hold of her doctor who called the hospital and asked them to recheck her counts on an out patient basis even though they only do labs for in patients during the weekend. They agreed to check her counts............and they did...........................but we ended up back in the ER  because she was light headed and short of breath.They admitted her and started giving her blood last night.
When all was said and done I felt physically and emotionally exhausted and yet
 I didn't sleep well last night.  It was a restless, one hundred things running through my head type of night. By 4:30 this morning I knew I wasn't up to a 13 hour shift. Typically I'd struggle through the work day anyway, but I just can't do that anymore.
I called off work for today to  spend time with mom ,and to get some rest.
I got Family Medical Leave Act papers from HR Friday so hopefully I won't get in trouble/fired for calling off today.
I think I have until the 28th to get the papers signed by moms doctor.
I really didn't want to do the whole FMLA thing but
it gets exhausting trying to juggle and balance it all....................maybe FMLA will take some of the pressure off. I just don't know.

thursday

I'm munching ice, watching a bit of the Jodi Arias trial, talking with boyfriend, and blogging.
I never did make it to the grocery store the other day. So I went today. I also cleaned the inside of my car. It looks good!
I gave dad the printer for his birthday.
He decided he did not want a printer and offered to return it to the store. I told him I'd return it, but then
 decided to keep it for myself. I bought him a gift
card to the grocery store.
He can use it to buy a book, groceries, light bulbs, a tool, gas for the car, whatever. :O)
I'm looking forward to using my printer!



Janis Joplin - Me And Bobby McGee - YouTube
This song reminds me of my deceased best friend. I'm not sure if he  knew any of her music, and if he did I doubt that he liked her. But still, this song reminds me of him........
I listen to it most days on my way to work.

While walking down the deck steps today I slipped. They are covered with snow and ice. I knew better than to go out of the house that route, but I did it anyway. I was able to stop myself from falling but the pain I've been having in my back just below my right scapula is so much worse. It's almost time to go to the doctor to have it checked out.

I told HR at my work that I want FMLA papers. I want to be able to be there for my mom when she has a medical crisis without fear of being terminated if I miss work.

tuesday

I slept in today.
Now I'm sitting in my quiet bedroom munching on ice
and mentally planning my day.
While I was at the refrigerator getting a cup of ice We-Ping rubbed against my ankle then licked the top of my foot.
She followed me into the bathroom a little earlier, jumped in the sink, then licked my wrist when   I   turned the water on for her. She makes me smile.

We're supposed to get 4-6 inches of snow tonight.
So when I shop for dads printer I'll probably get a few groceries.
I wish I didn't have to work tomorrow. Getting there will be a pain in the butt.

monday

Him:

Been thinking about you
Me:

thank you.

is everything ok?

Him:

Yep. Just reminiscing a boy.                                    (I think he meant...... Just  reminiscing a bit.)

Me:

that's a poetic sentence. :O)

are you sure you're ok?

 

Him:

Absolutely fine. Sometimes I just miss you.

Short emails exchanged a couple of days ago between me and an x love.
He was a long distance love. We visited each other here in Ky and there in PA.
I did love him.
He loved me first and stopped loving me first. :O)
I loved his talent for directing community theatre.
I loved his intelligence.
I loved that his mood was usually upbeat.
I loved that he was assertive,  witty, and confident.
I loved his love for books and music. I liked feeling loved and protected, (at a time when I had a need to feel protected), by him.
And I loved that unlike me he put his self out there..............he wasn't guarded when it came to expressing how he felt about me........even when I didn't reciprocate.

I think about him too some of the time.
Don't we all think about x loves now and then?
 

monday

I spent the weekend at work.
Weekends are almost always easier and less chaotic.

I'm off work today and tomorrow. I'll probably shop today.
Dads birthday is this week.
I'm going to get him a printer for his computer.
He's been talking for months about getting one.

saturday

Little Boxes (weeds theme song) - YouTube

I like this song......and I like her voice.


the ocean is calling my name.

friday

I made a pot of home made bean soup and cornbread for dinner today.
It was good.

Yesterday was boyfriends birthday.
He wanted a quiet day at home.
I baked him a cake and had pizza delivered.
We watched TV and ate supper in bed.
He loved the camera I gave to him.
It was a nice day.

Son slammed heads with another guy a few days ago while playing basketball.
Three days later he still had a headache, started with ringing in his ears, and he began bruising around his eyes.
He went to the doctor, failed a neurological exam, was sent to the hospital from the doctors office

because the doctor was worried son might have a subdural hematoma.......if not, then a concussion. The CT scan was normal........so a concussion it is.........poor boo feels like shit. I was worried sick about him.......... now relieved to know he will be okay.

I went shopping today.
I bought new undies and socks.
I also bought a new night stand, and some throw
rugs for the kitchen. I've been using books for a night stand. It was driving me nuts! I bought new wash cloths, and a throw rug to
put inside at the front door........oh, and I bought a cute Owl to put on
top of my newly painted 1945,"whore house"  console stereo. :O)

Boyfriend told me I should buy a camera carry/case for my camera. See the big old sock above?
That's what I carry my camera in...........and I like it! So I didn't spend money on a "real" camera case.

I have to put on the same color scrubs every freaking day that I work.
Ugly, grey, depressing scrubs.......day after day. SoI bought bright, sunny, socks to wear to work.
It wont be so depressing getting dressed each morning for work.

I need something else to put on the stereo with the Owl. I just just don't know what, yet. I think my owl is cute.