sunday

We had a nice Christmas Eve and Christmas.
I enjoyed the time with my family.
My grown children and my dad
joined me and boyfriend on Christmas Eve for dinner and then we
played board games. It was a good night.
 My sisters and their families
met at mom and dad's on Christmas.
It was bittersweet...... Not quite the same without mom.....
I'm relieved it's over.
I plan on putting all the x-mas decorations away today. I'll keep the tree up though
through New Years Day.

I've had the last 4 days off of work.
Boyfriend and I went out for breakfast and then
to the gambling boat yesterday.
It was fun. I won 30 or 40 bucks a few times but gave it back.......waste of money but fun just the same.

I was supposed to meet a realtor early yesterday to look at a house. He stood me up...........the house is a great buy for only 36 grand. It's a cute little brick home, 2 bedrooms and 1 bath. It has a great front porch and a very large backyard. The roof and furnace are 2 years old. The rest of the house needs work but could be a doll house. It's in a small, safe, river town close to where oldest son lives. I really want to check it out.

Monday

I spent last week sick and in bed with a stomach virus and cold. I'm feeling better though and spent the weekend back at work.
Today I played catch up with my holiday preparations. The house is clean and it looks nice.........and    I have all the gifts wrapped and under the tree.
Tomorrow (actually this morning) I get to do the stuff I enjoy most......like baking and food prep. for Christmas Eve and Christmas dinner while I listen to holiday music. I'm looking forward to it......and
I'm looking forward to spending time with my family.......

saturday

So one of the other nurses agreed to work part of my 12 hour shift on Christmas Eve. A 12 hour shift is too much for her. She's 70 something years old. I've known her for years. She looks like she's in her 50"s.......a very beautiful lady who thinks everyone is Bi-polar....lol....she once took a baseball bat to her son-in-laws legs when she found out he had been beating on her daughter. She told him to leave and to never come back......and so he did...........she's going to come in for me at noon. So I only have to work 5 hours that day!

Daughter took and passed her state  test yesterday.
She was physically sick from nerves before the test. It got so bad that she could not understand
what her classmates were saying as they studied together just before testing began.
She pulled it together enough though to pass the test...............yay!!!!

Today I'm going to wrap gifts...........double check my shopping list..............and decide what to cook for Christmas Eve dinner....................I look forward to playing poker with my sons Christmas Eve.

The grave cover turned out pretty I think. I have a pretty

glass hummingbird on it that you can't see in the pic. Mom loved the birds that came to her yard.

Mr. Bojangles.

Responses from her brothers.......the different responses cracked me up.

thursday

Daughter had her last clinical day for school yesterday.
So unless she decides to go back, she's finished except for her state test
on December 12.
I'm proud of her!

I put a vacation request in for the week of Christmas. So far it has not been approved.
I have to use or lose my vacation time.
So if no vacation in December, I guess I'll take one
in Jan. or Feb. Looking forward to a long stretch of time off!

We have a lot going on today.
I'm preparing a special dinner for daughter this evening
to celebrate her finishing school.
We (boyfriend and i) will finish the grave cover.
Daughter and I are putting the Christmas up tonight......boyfriend too if
he wants to.
I need to go to the store and the bank...........I know there's other stuff to be done........can't think of them right now!

wed

I've been under the weather with a cold.
My ribs hurt from coughing and my nose is sore!
But I'm finally feeling better.

I just heard on the news that today is the
anniversary of the Who concert in Cincinnati where
11 people were crushed to death when fans ran through the stadium
to get to the best seats.
I was baby sitting my nephew that night for my sister and brother-in-law
so they could go to the concert.
They were not injured...........but it was a long night of worrying
for their friends and family, especially mom and dad.

I was going to order a grave blanket for moms grave.........looked at a couple
in the nursery but thought they looked tacky....and I wanted something more personal.....decided to make it myself.
Boyfriend said he worked for a nursery when he was 17 and knew how
to make them.........so we've been working on one for a couple days. Lowe's and Home Depot
have been giving us the branches from the Christmas trees they trim to use for our blanket.
It's looking pretty good so far...........

My Honda is great on gas.
I'm getting 35-40 miles per gallon.
I got about 18 miles/gallon from my Fusion.
So that makes me happy.
I miss my sun roof  and all wheel drive though.......

I had my mammogram. I put it off for 9 months because my left breast
was feeling weird. I was sure I had cancer. Lived with anxiety and worry
about it for months.......convinced myself the cancer had spread to my spine......crazy I know.....
it's how my mind works!
So I finally had the mammogram done...........told boyfriend if they send my results on a pink post card like letter then all is well........but if they send a letter, then it's bad news.
So I got the pink post card a few days ago...........was leaving to go shopping with boyfriend... He checked the mailbox on the way to the car and yelled out to me "You have a pink postcard!" Huge relief. :O)

Drug addicted sister checked herself into a rehab center, stayed for a week, left and used for about a week, checked herself into another place.......has been there for a month............that center sent her to the hospital for shortness of breath..........they did a full cardiac, pulmonary, and liver work up..........my understanding is that all checked out OK.............shes still at the rehab place............from there she will go to a year long drug rehab center.
She's not a nice addict.
She's angry, and hateful..............and she leaves a trail of destruction..............
I love her. I feel sad for her and for what she is going through. I feel compassion..............and yet
I hate the person she is when she is using......
daughter says "hate the disease not the person!" and I do for the most part.

friday

I finally fisished the ornaments that mom started working on last year. There's one for each of the 11 grandchildren, and 1 for each of the 4 great grandchildren. One of my favorites is the one with my great nephews picture. He's smiling in his sleep. I think it's adorable!

wed.

worked double shifts monday and tuesday. we were slammed with snow and ice sunday and monday. bff work friend who lives out in the county had to spend the night here monday because she wouldnt have made it home from work or back to work the next morning.
I could hear her snoring all the way from the living room to the bedroom..........it was layered by boyfriends snoring. i didn't get much sleep, woke up feeling irritable........boyfriend and bff woke up rested and in good moods...............irritated me even more.
eventually i got over myself and had a good day at work.
now i'm off for the next three days.
i want to go hiking but it's too cold and slippery.
i printed a copy of a book online that lists the top 50 trails in northern ky to give to my son.
i'm hoping the two of us can do all 50 by this time next year.

sunday

So I went hiking yesterday with oldest son.
We went to a place called Saint Ann's Convent.
It's a beautiful piece of property.

This, the second picture, is the driveway. To the end and at the left

is a huge red brick building.

It's a really pretty site to see in real life.

The trails are beautiful.Pictures don't do justice though so I quit taking them........plus I wanted to concentrate on the hike! Son likes to be my guide. He tells me the names of the trees and plants, shows me animal foot prints and their markings on tree trunks..........points out deer when he sees them.....even pointed out some fox poop.....and gives me a little history on the property. It's fun..............the hike wasn't very challenging..........I like to break a sweat and have to work at the hike...........didn't have to on this trail.........but still it was nice. The leaves falling in the woods sound like rain...was a pleasant sound....I want to go back and camp.........I don't think we'd get caught.........son agreed to camp there with me this spring.

After we finished the first hike we went to another of their (catholic church) properties.........

It was a little scary because I could hear the deer hunters on near by properties shooting their guns.

This property had some great Beech trees....farmers grew them and used them for fuel and fire. Apparently they are easy to split and they burn long......the farmers pigs ate the nuts that fall from the beech trees........we looked for nuts but the squirrels had gotten to them already............

 Found this on one of the trees..........humans have to leave their mark, good and bad, on everything it seems..............anyways...we hiked several miles.........and as always it felt good to be out there in the woods............a fat red bird followed us at the second place. :O) Mom loved the red birds that came to her backyard.

saturday

It's my weekend off.
Work has been crazy busy......it's non stop for 12 straight hours.....no down time........i love it and hate it all at once.
We had an in- service yesterday.
One of the best 'I've ever attended.......included a
seizing dummy who eventually cardiac arrests.............it was hands on fun.

My house is clean so I don't have to do that this weekend.
I might finish my Christmas shopping...........oldest son found a hiking trail behind a convent for nuns.........says it's beautiful and wants me to hike it with him...........so if he isn't busy I'd like to do that today too.

grandma

 

 

One of moms dying bed wishes was that her mom be told that mom loves her very much.This is my grandma and one of my sisters.  She wasn't told that mom passed away.  She was told that mom loves her very much. Even though she has dementia she knew my sisters name, and she knew they were talking about mom.

My grandma was something else. She spoke her mind that's for sure.............and  She was an outdoors woman. ...loved to camp, loved to garden, loved to fish. On the weekends you could find her at the lake. She had the same camp site for years. She'd skin, clean and cooked squirrel and rabbit and raised pigs then slaughtered them herself. She could also make some of the best clothes, coats, and doll furniture. She was very artistic like her famous son the painter.......and her home was always spic n span clean. She bleached everything.

 When she was in her 60's she owned a bar. She had a pet pig that lived in the bar. I can't remember his name. But I remember him running around.......

 She raised 6 children. All of them but 2 were pains in the asses.

She was not a sissy girl.

For some reason I will always remember watching The Swamp Man with her, or maybe it was called The Swamp Thing..............it was a scary movie to a young girl, she seemed not to be afraid of anything. She tackled things head on....... She always had the greatest egg hunts when I was a child. It was anything but your typical egg hunt. She'd load the attic floor with hard boiled eggs, we'd be blind folded and bare foot......then walk around smashing eggs. Why she did it like that I don't know........but it was fun,it was exciting! And she had a flare for decorating at Christmas........very creative...........

She marched to the beat of her own drum..;........you could join her whenever you wanted.......she would have liked that...............

 

11/05/14

I have the next 3 days off! Any day off is a good day.

Mom started making ornaments for the grand/great grandchildren last December.
She finished a little less than half of them. She wanted to give them to each child
for Christmas.
Makes me a little sad to see them undone and I feel a little regret
that I didn't work on them with her to help her finish them.
That's one of my plans for these 3 days.....to finish the ornaments.

I was sitting on the couch one night, a couple of months after my mom passed away.
I was  hurting, and missing my mom.
This feeling of warmth, love, and contentment enveloped all of me......it was real. It was palpable..............now corny as it may sound I knew it was my mom wrapping me in her arms and in her love.........I have no doubt  she was there with me.

I finished painting the dresser.
It looks OK as a buffet in my dining room.................and since the drawers are huge and deep
it gives me some much needed storage for dishes and cooking ware that we don't use everyday.

november 2, 2014

I butt dialed an old friend the other night.
He text me letting me know what I had done.
Then text something sexual.
Just talking to him feels like being pawed .......not a nice feeling.........how can a grown man
not know better? Gross.

Oldest son and his girlfriend had dinner with me and boyfriend
last night.
Boyfriend cooked dinner the night before but neither me, him, or daughter
was hungry. I packed the dinner away in the refrigerator
and served it last night. SO dinner was easy. We had fried chicken, collard greens, corn, mac n cheese.......and then I made some cornbread. Boyfriend is a great cook. Everything was delicious.........and we had a
good time.
Sons girlfriend has been in a rehab center for a year. She has weekend passes. I like her
a lot. She's smart, and has a dry, wicked sense of humor.  We crack up together. But I have to say
I worry about son being involved with her.  If she relapses like so many addicts do, it would be devastating for him....not to mention all the bullshit that an addict puts the people they love through.........and if they ever had children.........imagine how relapses would affect the child. It's a horrible disease. I just wish for something/someone different for my son. (son does not use, ever. never has.)

So I went to the doctor about a month ago.Routine check up........had routine blood work done..........didn't hear from them........can't check my results on-line cause I've never signed up.....figured no news is good news even though I know better.....so I called them to make sure everything was OK, missed their call back....got a letter yesterday saying they've been trying to get a hold of me.........they need to go over some lab work
results ......................a little worried I guess...............

moms flowers

It's cold here. It's windy, rainy, and cold.
I was looking out my window last night
and noticed I had new flowers that had bloomed.
Last year mom spent almost 3 weeks in the hosp. after her car wreck.
Then another several weeks in the house getting physical therapy, too weak
to go out.
She was so excited when she was finally able to go out for awhile.
Our first trip out was to Walgreen's.
I took her there because it's small........wouldn't require her
to walk long distances. It was a trial run......to see how she would do......before we could move on to bigger, better shopping.Mom loved to shop.
She did good.......walked that store pushing a shopping cart in front of her..........she was all over that place...........one of the things she bought was a box of wild flower seeds.
She gave them to me to plant in my back yard.
Mom didn't garden.........wasn't interested in it.............I honestly didn't know she knew
I dabbled in it.....................maybe she did. I honestly don't know................but it was sweet that she
got the wild flower seeds for me.....................I didn't have the time to plants those seeds that summer..........mom was sick and much of my time was spent with her or at work.............................I planted them this summer..........................only one flower bloomed until last night..................................so I looked out the window and saw these flowers flowing in the wind..........waving at me...

...............makes me happy and sad all at once!

 

So  I have to finish cleaning my dining room today. It's become a catch all as I get the house together for the holidays.

I have no place to go with this stuff! My house

is a tiny old house.............the closets are little............and some things just can't go to the basement!

wed. 22, 2014

I had a good time at my nieces baby shower. Her due
date is November 27. Looking forward to meeting
my great nephew.

After the shower 3 of my sisters and I went to
the casino.
I gavethe place 40 bucks. But still I had fun!

 I traded my crappy Ford Fusion in.......bought a
new Honda Civic. Originally I planned on keeping the Fusion until the Sonata died since the Fusion is 7 years younger and has half the miles on it that the Sonata has, giving the Fusion to daughter, and trading in the Sonata...........but the Sonata drives great, and doesn't break down like the Fusion does. The Sonata has been a great car...........even the paint job still looks good.

I got sons employee discount on the price of the Honda, plus
another 500 bucks.......and I saved a few more hundred since it's a new 2014 rather than a 2015.
The car is metallic grey with black interior. I think
it's nice. And not that it matters to me, but the car reads my text messages out loud if I'm driving......
cracks me up!
 If you ever have to finance a car........always make sure to make them knock
the interest rate they offer you down at least 2 points........they will always ask for 2 points higher than what you can actually get. I got 0.9%.
I would have bought a Jaguar if I could have afforded one.........but I can't! :O) I'm happy with what I got.

Daughter wants to continue on in school.
I'm happy for her.......but I really thought I was finished paying tuition.........!

oct. 18, 2014

I'm going to my nieces baby shower today.
I bought her a baby bath tub seat, baby towels and wash cloths, and then some baby shampoo, powder, and lotion..............and  I got baby a book. I can't believe how expensive all that baby stuff is......I don't remember it being so expensive.
I'm looking forward to seeing my niece.

I think I'm going to buy a new car this weekend.
My car is sick again.........it cost me a couple grand to fix a few weeks ago......this fix will be over a grand.........son told me to trade it in, not to fix it........I know it would be cheaper to fix then to buy a different car but the car's not worth it.........and I need something dependable...........so I'm on the look for a new/different car..............

sept. 14, 2014

Sitting in my bed with the window open so I can hear the rain.........grateful to have the day off work.......drinking hot tea......blogging and petting Mr. Bojangles.......mornings don't get much better than this!

I'll probably do a little house cleaning today........and if we get a reprieve from the rain I'll finish painting the dresser....

fridayoct. 10 2014

Daughter passed her very final exam yesterday. Yay!

I made a pot roast, potatoes, and carrots in the crock pot yesterday. The meat is so tender when cooked in the crock...............I cooked it because it's one of dads favorite meals............
 We bought him a George Foreman grill for Father's day. SO since mom passed away he cooks most of his meals on his deck on the grill or he goes out to eat.
If I make a roast or a pot of chili, or a pot of beans I usually pack some up and put it in his frig. for him........and of course he is welcomed here for dinner any time. Makes me feel a little sad thinking about him having dinner alone......or just being alone in that house. He's not an idle person though.........he's out there keeping busy..........and that makes me feel a little better.......

I have the drawers to the old dresser painted. They look pretty good except for one of the areas I patched didn't turn out so good............I could do it over but I think I'll just live with it. The rest of the dresser is on the deck under a tarp. It's raining. Hopefully the tarp will keep it dry.

thursday october 9, 2014

I took the mirror off the old dresser, cleaned, sanded, and filled in some holes and such  yesterday.
Originally I planed on re staining it but have decided to paint it instead.
Hopefully I'll get the painting finished today.

Daughters last final is today. All that"s left to do is 120 hours of clinicals and state testing.
I studied with her for a few hours last night.
I think she'll do OK if she takes her time and pays attention to what she is reading.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed!

october 8, 2014

Work was crazy busy again yesterday.......and to boot, state inspectors were there on a complaint making it even more stressful.................on my desk at work sits a packet of papers that need to be filled out........they've been sitting there for almost 4 weeks.......that's 3 weeks longer than I've been there...........I will fill them out but I don't understand how people just leave things un done...............so anyway, i'm off work the next 3 days...........knowing that state is there today and that i'm off makes me very happy.

Sister daughter and I are going clogging tonight.................haven't done it in 10 years........looking forward to it!

got up and went outside at 5:15 this morning to see the Bloody Moon............couldn't see a thing! too much fog I think........

saturday october 4, 2014

I worked a 14 hour shift yesterday and the day before. It was crazy busy. I worked a unit I haven't worked in 4 or 5years. So I felt a little lost, out of touch, unorganized, and overwhelmed. I wish they'd quit moving us around. Continuity of care suffers.............no good that I can see comes out of it..........the powers that be know we don't like it..........and I think that's exactly why they do it..............they're mean spirited some of the time.

It's cold outside.
Hopefully it warms up as the day goes on.....I picked the last 3 green peppers this morning, and a handful of spicy chili peppers.
I'll use the green peppers in a pot of chili and give the chili peppers to son.

I have one back board on, one more to put together, and then some furniture to re arrange today........and I have an antique dresser that needs to be worked on today.......just not sure what I'm going to do with it.

I'd like to have a family dinner tomorrow but that means I'll have to clean the house today........not sure I'll have the time.

sept. 30, 2014

My niece is going to have a baby in December. Her baby shower
is in October.
We've been asked to bring a book for the baby rather than
a card for mom to be.
So I've been on a search
for just the right book.

This is Gus. It's the kitty daughter and I

got for oldest son. He has a cute, playful, and friendly personality.  He's much smaller than he looks in the picture.

 

 

 

 

 

monday sept. 29, 2014

So I bought two framed canvas paintings at the flea market. I plan on painting over them. Canvas can be expensive, and you can't buy it framed I don't think.
I left the paintings  outside on the deck to cook in the sun. I  worry some of the time about bringing bedbugs
in my house on things that have been in other peoples homes. Heat will kill them. So the paintings have been on the deck, in the sun for several days. I forgot about them, and it rained last night. Hopefully they're not ruined.

I have my bed positioned so that  I can see out the window. I like the view. I wasn't able to do that with the king/queen size bed. Plus the headboard from the bigger beds always had to be positioned so that it blocked one of the windows. Not now. There's so much more light in here.

I'm off work today and tomorrow.
Work is 6 months behind with my performance evaluation and with my raise.
But I try not to complain because Idoget plenty of free chap stick and ink pens from insurance companies and hospices...............and a free meal once in awhile from drug reps.

Friday, Sept. 26, 2014

I've been drinking a little coffee lately. Boyfriend bought me a coffee mug the other day. I dropped and broke it taking it out of the bag right after he gave it to me.
I felt bad about it. So yesterday I bought him a mug, and me one too.

I also bought this cute platter.

I thought it would be perfect for the Thanksgiving turkey.

We shopped yesterday for bed spreads and head boards for the new beds.

It's difficult finding an adult bedspread for a twin bed...........as far as head boards go, I just want to find something inexpensive.

 

sept. 21, 2014

We went to look at some land today. Drove through old Maysville. I thought the little movie theatre was cool looking.

And I love this building. I think it's so pretty......all the little details....

I like the porch on this house.....

The land out here is so beautiful........it's probably where we will buy......

Took a picture of the cars for you Billy..

Wee-Ping onthe deck today enjoying the sunshine and warm breeze................can you see her pretty blue eyes?...............................it was a beautiful day.................................

Sunday September 21 2014

It's dark outside now when I leave for work in the morning, and it's dark outside when I get home. Bummer! I miss the long days of sunlight already.

I have a few more bell peppers and a couple of chili peppers growing. I think that's about it for the year. The bell peppers have been delicious. Next year I will plant more than 1 bell pepper plant.

It's my weekend off.
Not sure what I'm going to do today.
I was thinking about hitting a couple of thrift stores to look for some
old framed canvas paintings to paint over.
Boyfriend has one stored in the basement that has a pretty cool frame. I pleaded with him to let me have it. He says no way!

september 16, 2014

Daughter called me from work yesterday and asked if I wanted to hang out with her for awhile
after she was finished with her work day. So
We went shopping, out to lunch, and to oldest sons house.
I bought him a garbage can for his kitchen, and a fire pit for his backyard. He loves to be outside. He has this wonderful big  backyard. I figured him and his friends would be out there this fall having a few beers. A firepit I thought would be nice. He'll probably make his own eventually. But he liked the one I got him.
He said he wants a cat. He said he wants an ugly cat. I asked him if he wanted me and Sis to find him one. He said that would be fine as long as we find a really ugly one. So Sis and I are on the look for the ugliest cat we can find!
It's raining here and has been since last night. The air is cool. Feels like fall. I'm kind of dreading winter..........there was so much ice and snow this past winter. It started snowing the day mom passed away and didn't stop it seemed until several months later....... the ground had layer upon layer of ice. It was awful.

Sept. 15, 2014

Sis aced 2 tests and passed her CPR certification.
She said she's not sure if the ADD medication is helping "but mom, I think I felt more
focused." One of the tests she took was timed. They had 15 minutes to complete it.
That's the worst case scenario for her. But she aced it...........so we will see!

I just completed two 12 hour shifts.
My back didn't hurt. It just felt tired. And that's after, on top of everything else,  lifting
a 300 lb. man, twice.
I love my new bed. So does Mr. Bojangles.

sept.14, 2014

I'd like to take a vacation by myself.

september 12, 2014

We had lunch yesterday at the Cobblestone Cafe. It's a cute little place that's open 4 and a half hours a day.
It was one of mom's favorite places to eat. A week before she passed
away her and dad had lunch there with friends. She spent 3 weeks in
the hospital after her car wreck. Dad would go there everyday to
get her a sandwich and soup then bring it to her at the hosp. The food is really good.... especially the BLT's, Tuna salad, and potato soup. We had the Reuben sandwich.....

Daughter showed off

her arms yesterday after school. She drew blood for the first time from a real person........and had blood drawn from her arms by another student. She was pretty proud.

She went to the doctor yesterday to see if she could get help for the difficulties/anxiety she has and has had her whole life

re school...........her inability to absorb what she has read,and her inability

to follow/focus in class. It made me feel sad when she told me the doctor asked her if what she

is going to school for is what she always wanted to do and daughter replied no.........that she always dreamed of teaching grade school but had to alter her dream because of her difficulties learning...........so anyway, the doctor is going to treat daughter for Attention Deficit Disorder...........she visited a therapist for a couple months who made the recommendation..............if the medication doesn't help then they plan to treat her for anxiety.

I've failed her for not getting this treated much sooner.........................I just didn't know where to go or what to do for her......................I  kept pressing the school to test her for learning disabilities....a handful of teachers over the years would ask if she was dyslexic or had been "tested".........I just don't know....she went to a school where most of the students families live in poverty.......and with that came lots of behavior problems............Sis never had any behavior problems, and she was sweet and dressed nice, and always had the necessary tools for school......it was easy I think for the school to think they had bigger problems than one little girl ........she learned early how to over compensate with niceness, with extra credit, helping out in the class room......many of the teachers passed her on probably because she was a good kid and they liked her, and in talking to her you quickly realise how freaking intelligent she is...... I never thought of it as a medical issue........never occurred to me to talk to her pediatrician(back when she had one)........thought it was an issue for the school to test for...............I dropped the ball until now...........hopefully now, even though it's long past due, she will get the help she needs.

September 11, 2014

So I like my new bed. It's comfortable. My sciatic nerve pain is gone and I didn't have any shoulder pain yesterday. Amazing since it's been hurting for almost 2 years. I guess the true test will be my next work day. Hopefully it won't hurt!

Mr. Bojangles woke me at 4:30 this morning. He stood over my face while I lie in bed and meowed. Then he'd jump over to boyfriends bed and meow at boyfriend then back again to my bed.. He didn't want to go outside and he had food and water in his bowls. I think he just wanted us to get out of bed

They're talking on the news about when to allow your child to quit a sport.
Middle son played baseball for 6 or 7 years. One day at practice the coach threw a temper tantrum.
It wasn't directed at any one player. He was yelling, cursing, and threw his clip board with papers that went flying around the field. Son walked off the field and over to where I was sitting and told he was finished playing ball.......forever.........said he'd been thinking about quitting for awhile. And he did quit for 3 years.............played again though his last 2 years of high school...................and continues to play with an adult league. There's pressure to start our children very early in organized sports.........they practice several times a week and then have the games to play............it's all taken so seriously...........we burn children out I think........suck the fun out of  the sport......

Sunday September 7, 2014

So  we went to sons house today.
I thought he was moving in today but he's finishing up the
painting first. It looks nice. He did a good job!
I pulled weeds for him from a front flower bed while his girlfriend pulled weeds from the
driveway.
In time it's going to be a little doll house. I'm happy for him.

After we left sons we did a little shopping. My plan was to buy something for sons house.
I ended up buying bed skirts for the new beds and then went to the grocery store......

My house is a mess. I have a queen size bed spring in my living room, and some bedroom furniture in the dining room...............not to mention a sink full of dirty dishes. Two more 12 hour shifts
then I will get things in order again!

Friday September 5, 2014

It was a busy day at work. I liked it.

Yesterday we washed the bedroom walls and painted the ceiling.
The clean walls looked good until we painted the ceiling. Now the walls look like they too need to be painted. I hate to paint.

The new beds arrived today.
I'm looking forward to sleeping in mine!

Tuesday Sept. 2, 2014

So I bought a new bed almost 2 years ago. I liked it for about a week.................have been sleeping on the couch for about a year and 52 weeks.....for the most part..........................because I hate the bed........when I'm in it I feel like my head is lower than my feet and like I'm being pulled to his side of the bed..........so I've been sleeping on the couch.............................................my shoulder has been hurting for a couple of years........and recently my neck hurts  as does my lower back and sciatic nerve....pain shoots down my right leg the whole time I'm standing....it's excruciating..........................can't stand it any more........today I went bed shopping and bought a new bed. Actually I bought twin beds. I want my own space and a plush mattress.. Boyfriend wanted a firm mattress. We each got what we wanted. I know it's weird for a couple to sleep in separate beds by some peoples standards...................but we're going to try it!

After bed shopping we went to the boat to do a little gambling. I usually only go there once every couple to a few years. 
We've gone a few times this year.........I took 60 bucks. Boyfriend took 100..........................we gave it all to them!

monday sept. 1, 2014

I only had to work 8 hours yesterday. I had another nurse cover for me from 3 to 7:30 pm. The WEBN firework show was last night and I had to leave work early to cross the Ohio river before they closed the bridges. They shoot the fireworks off a barge on the river, and off the bridges........................anyway, it was nice to not have to work a 12 hour day!

I can't wait for fall to get here............I love the colors and the cool crisp air.
Dad used to build these rockets. They were like 2 or 3 feet tall.......not sure if they came from a kit..............  seemed like it was always fall when he'd build them......because it was always chilly outside when we'd shoot them off........we'd  walk up to the park ..................was always a big deal.............never knew if the rocket would work....or if it would blow up before it would shoot high into the sky....or how high it would fly............and if we'd recover the rocket could it go another round.................................................mom would stay home...............probably to get a break from all of us, to have some alone time...................... she always had a pot of home made veggie soup waiting for us to warm our bones when we'd get home.

friday

So I got my car back yesterday.
They replaced
6 spark plugs
7 gaskets
6 coil asy ign
1 module engin
total parts1247.46             (that's how the bill read)
total labor 510.00

I drove it for several hours yesterday. Seems to be ok.

Dad left a couple of books on my porch yesterday. They look like they might be good. I need a good book!

I think my neighbor is selling drugs.
I see a lot of traffic at her house......people pull up to her house, run inside for 30 seconds then leave..........plus her son asked my daughter "does your mom know that my mom sells drugs? my mom thinks your mom knows. my mom is worried, and paranoid she's going to get busted." she's on disability. supposedly sells her pain pills. her son is a pathologial liar. so who knows.

today will be all about cleaning the house and cooking a pot of chili. dad likes my chili, so when i'm finished with chores around here i'll take some chili to him.

tuesday

It was another really busy day at work. Most days are.....
The cook was singing a Bee Gee song this morning. She's Jamaican.So she sang it with a
Jamaican accent. I enjoyed it.....even sang along......
Ihave a patient who was started on a new medication for his kidneys. The pharmacy sent a dose 5 times higher than what was ordered.......and then they labeled it to give 2 of the pills at one time which would have been ten times higher dose...... The patient was not given the med. Because I was paying attention. I called the pharmacy and told the pharmacy tech. what they had done.......few minutes later the pharmacist called and thanked me for catching the error. I'm grateful I didn't give the med..................makes me sick to think of it......

sunday

Daughter is putting lots of effort into school.........makes me happy for her.........will be well worth it in the end..............
I took her car to the shop yesterday........the exhaust was so loud................the first place quoted a price of 1200 bucks.........the second place said 175...........went with the second place...........and now it's fixed. My car is going to be about 2 grand...........it's still in the shop..............should be ready by Tuesday..............
Don't know if I already reported that I got a letter from the IRS thanking me for my response and telling me it helped them to clarify info they had re my return that led them to believe I owed them 40 plus thousand dollars and that I owed them nothing, case closed. HUGE relief to have that cleared up!

Billy, I bet you could use ground flax seed in your coffee..that's if you drink coffee...........instant oats are a good source of fiber, inexpensive, and easy to make in the microwave.........

I finished some paper work yesterday that's been grating on my nerves for a few weeks. feels good to have it done....................................and Ifinished a project that I should have completed 3 years ago but didn't have the time or energy for back then.................so grateful it's done!

thursday

While driving home from work last night my car started to vibrate, squeak, and decelerate. I managed to drive it all the way home, not that I should have, but I didn't want to sit on the side of the interstate and wait to be robbed or raped.
I took the car to son's work. They thought it was a coil...........until they took it out........said it had burned and that I was lucky the car didn't catch fire. They had my car towed to a Ford dealer, said they think it's an electrical problem.........the only thing I know about cars is they need gas to run, I need to keep the oil changed, air in the tires, and windshield wiper fluid in the little thing that holds the fluid.......and I know it shouldn't smoke out of the tail pipe...........oh, and I know what anti freeze smells like! So when something is wrong with my car I have to trust that I'm not being screwed by the people fixing it...............it bites! I know it's going to cost a fortune. I hate Fords. I wish I hadn't bought one!

I fired Time Warner Cable this morning. The service  has been terrible and the price for their bad product  IMHO kept going up. It felt so good to take all their boxes and crap to them today and to tell them to cancel my account. I switched to Cincinnati Bell. I'll save about 70 bucks a month for the first year..........I'll fire them after the first year if they get too greedy.

What's legally justifiable can also be avoidable some of the time.  I've had many
   patients charge, punch, spit, and threaten me over the past 30 years. Shooting them, or harming them in any way was never an option or even a consideration................................................................so while some cops may have been legally justified in killing some punk ass trouble making thug, I can't help but think they have to get off their power trip and find other ways of dealing with confrontations/threats................especially when it's a teenager they're dealing with.

tuesday

I had family over last evening to celebrate daughters birthday.
I wasn't really in to it as my neck and shoulder were killing me.......plus I picked boyfriend up from the airport at 2 am so felt kind of  tired and sluggish...........
I made frozen lasagna (I just didn't want to cook), garlic bread, and a veggie salad......looked for a cake at Kroger's
but decided to bake my own. Store cakes are so expensive and really aren't very good.
So I faked my way through the gathering and eventually found that I was enjoying myself a little bit...............after everyone had gone dad and I sat at the dining room table and talked a bit.....it's almost always fun talking to him.....
after dad left boyfriend massaged my back and neck with bengay.  it helped a lot. :O)

oldest son is buying his first house. right now he and middle son live in middle sons condo.
 I've seen the house he is buying, but boyfriend hasn't........so we are going today to look at it. it can be a little doll house with some work!

because that's the way i roll

thursday

I had a nice day yesterday with daughter. I went with her to the book store to buy her books for school. It's a scam the prices they charge for those books. But what can you do? While at the book store we were asked to step outside the  store while the employees dealt with a black girl that was yelling and cursing, causing a distraction while her partner in crime was stealing.....so said the employees.

After we left the book store we went to student services and got Sis a new school ID. She lost her other one..........so we got her ID. When she showed me the picture and said "It looks like a mug shot, mom!" I couldn't help but laugh. Then laughed even harder when she started laughing. It looks like they had the camera an inch away from her face.

We shopped for nurses scrubs that she is required to wear for labs and clinicals. Scrubs can be expensive. Lucky for me though Walmart had some for 6.95 each piece......so 14.00 bucks for a scrub shirt and pants. The quality was just as good as the scrubs at a uniform store and less than half the price. I got her 4 sets and found a pair of duty shoes at Meijers for 36 bucks........

Daughter was talkative yesterday. Mostly she talked about school, her fear of failure, and other anxieties related to school.
I can't wait until she graduates so that I have peace of mind knowing that when I'm dead and gone she will be able to take care of herself.

moms birthday

It was a nice day.
It's my moms birthday. I wore her lipstick today. I could picture my mom rolling her eyes at me for wearing it.....but at the same time she'd get a kick out of it.

I took a dozen white roses to her grave.
My older sister was at the cemetery when I got there........we sat and
talked for a bit.
My other sister text me this morning " I won't make it to the cemetery until right when it's closing....if you go there today tell mom i miss her and wish she was here to make us laugh." So when my older sister went to the woods that backs up to the cemetery so that she could pee, I told mom what my other sister text me this morning.........it was cute because just then the wind got hold of the mouth of my bottled water and it played a pretty little whistle or tune. I couldn't help but smile.
After I left the cemetery I shopped for a birthday gift for daughter. She asked for an inexpensive casual digital watch.
I found four that I liked .I saw a cute girl around daughters age shopping. I asked her which watch she liked best. She picked the one that I liked the best too.......so it's the one I bought.

When I got home from shopping I called my dad. We had a nice little talk......his mood was good......he laughed when we shared a funny story about mom.......and he was happy about spending time with one of his great grand sons today.:O).

A man was knocking on my front door today and there was a car parked out front that I didn't recognize. I didn't open my front door......went to the dining room window, opened it and asked the guy what he wanted. He had a flower delivery for me. I could see he was holding flowers so I opened the door. In retrospect I shouldn't have because any psycho killer can bring flowers to your door as a ruse to get you to open it. Didn't Bundy wear a fake cast?  But as it turned he really was a flower delivery guy.
Boyfriend sent some pretty daisies to me. He's in Colorado.   It was sweet of him.

I made french toast and bacon for me and daughter for supper. It's the best meal I've had in months. Seriously, it was delicious.................and I baked a cake to celebrate moms birthday. Daughters friend up the street has a little brother and sister. They've been invited to come over tomorrow to eat the cake.
The weather here today was beautiful.......sunny, warm, very low humidity, and a light breeze.......beautiful..................and just what the doctor ordered.

sunday

Oldest son, daughter, and I went out for lunch today. We had burgers. It was OK.
The best part was just spending time with the two of them.

Mom frequently wore scarves.......they were very pretty. When we packed up her personal belongings after she passed away I made sure to keep a scarf for me, each of my sisters, and each of moms grand daughters.
Today I packed one of moms scarves and one of her pretty Christmas angels to give to her best friend of 65 years.
I put them in a pretty gift bag...............on the drive to moms best friends house I kind of prayed that she wouldn't be home. I haven't seen her since before mom died. Her and her husband were out of town when mom passed away. I knew seeing her would be an emotional meeting..... While I know it's OK to cry, I have this fear of crying in front of  most people............I knew I'd cry if I saw her. ........so I prayed.
 Luckily she was not home.
  I tucked the gift bag and note between her front doors.
 It felt good to give her something. Mom would have wanted me to.....
and one day when I am stronger, I will visit with her.

i started my barn painting today. It looks pretty good so far and has been fun to paint!

sunday

Six more days off work and I'm loving it.

Had a book from dad on the porch when I arrived home from work Friday. He also left me a DVD on Watercolors.
The book is Devils Knot. A book about The West Memphis Three. We have differing opinions on their innocence and guilt. Dad outlined his case on a piece of paper that he had tucked in the book. I'll prepare my rebuttal and send it back to him when I finish reading the book. Dads case is pretty weak. :O)

I noticed a drainage pipe under the deck was disconnected. It was draining right against the house. I could have fixed it on my own but was kind of afraid of big brown spiders I knew would be under the deck......plus there's poison ivy under there.Oldest son helped me remove the lattice and he reconnect the drainage pipe. I still ended up with a little poison ivy on my lower leg. Son came out unscathed.

I want to do something fun today.......and I'd like to get a haircut.........I don't have an appointment though..........so probably wont get in for one.............................daughter is off work today.......she asked me last night if we could hang out today...............she starts back to school on the 12th.......and should finish with school in December I think. Yay! She's anxious to be done with it.........................and of course she's anxious about school in general.......always has been..........she struggles.....then feels dumb even though she isn't..................then feels anxious.....................this has been going on since she was in the 3rd grade...............

thurs.

Boyfriend headed back to Colorado today. His brother passed away Wed. We were supposed to leave the house this morning at 4 am but slept through the alarm. I woke up at 4:12am. It was a rush to get out of the house and to the airport on time, but we made it .His plane should be landing in Colorado right about now.

After Friday I'm off work for a week..............looking forward to it.

We're having a pot luck at work tomorrow. My boss finished chemo, and then completed radiation for breast cancer. So it's a celebration for her having completed her treatment.
I stopped at the grocery on my way home from the airport. I'm going to make strawberry cheesecake cupcakes for the potluck.

tues.

So about a week ago I received a letter from the IRS thanking me for the correspondence I sent to them in response to a letter they sent to me saying I owed them money......lots of money...(at least to me)..................they said they'd notify me in 30-60 days of the action they planned to take.
Yesterday I received a letter from them thanking me for the paper work I sent to them, that it helped to resolve the issue they had with info. they received re: my 2012 tax return, that I owed them nothing. .....case closed!
I'm so relieved.........I was sure this was going to be a long drawn out ordeal....huge weight lifted off my brain.....so so sooooo relieved.   :O)

I planned on cutting the grass and pulling some weeds today.
I pulled weeds for about 5 minutes and thought to myself...I don't want to do this today. So I stopped.......I didn't cut the grass either.
I cleaned the litter boxes, and went to the grocery store...............................that's it, except for 1 load of laundry.

I'm restless.

friday

I called dad first thing this morning to invite him to join us for dinner this
afternoon.
He was getting ready to go swimming. He swims and lifts weights 3 times a week. I'm grateful he takes care of his self.
 He talked about mom, about the day they got married.......how he was scared.....until he saw mom  waiting for him. He said she was wearing a new dress, and looked happy. Seeing her made him feel happy and eased his fears.... :O)..............................................so anyway he's going to have dinner with us.
I have a little house cleaning to do today, and a cake to bake.
I want to work on a painting today. I've been looking online at pictures of barns. It's what I want to paint. Then I remembered I have a picture of one of the barns from our farm from when I was a child.

Maybe I'll do a painting of our barn, or the old vacant farm house.....it kind of reminds me of Norman Bates motel.....

thursday

So I'm sticking with my commitment to walk daily. Most days I have an argument in my head with myself about whether or not to walk. So far I win.  :O)

Middle son's 26th birthday is in a few days.
I'm having him over tomorrow for dinner.
I'm making a veggie salad, ordering pizza, and
making him a carrot cake!
As always I look forward to having him, his brother and sister here at the same time.

tuesday

Work was crazy busy. I felt a little overwhelmed, and to boot, when another nurse called me to come help her with her patient who was probably dying, I had an anxiety attack while with her in her patients room.  For a minute I thought I was going to die.........

When I pulled in my driveway tonight after work my sister was turning around in the cul-de-sac up the street from my house. I sat in the car with her for a few minutes and chit chatted............. until we came in the house and talked some more. It was nice to have her stop by.......unexpected and nice........

I'm just so relieved to be away from that place (work).......and that I have the next 3 days off.



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sunday

Kitty woke me up a couple of hours ago. He wanted food and to be let outside. I wasn't able to go back to sleep after I fed and let him outside, though I tried. So I watched the weather report for today, read some blogs, and paid bills.
We're supposed to get some pretty bad weather later today. I'm looking forward to it. In the mean time I'm going to go to the grocery store, and wash the inside of my car.

? Susan Boyle - Daydream Believer (I Dreamed a Dream) 2009 - YouTube

monday

So I went to the bank, the cemetery, and then to the gas station for gas and a Icee. The guy working the register told me he liked my purse. lol. I've never had a guy comment on my purses before. Sweet.....

One of the nurses I work with is crazy in love with a guy she's been dating for a couple of weeks. I love hearing about new love. So a few of us were talking to her about it........and about our idea's of love. The girl newly in love said she wants a breakfast sandwich type love. We asked her to explain and she referred to the egg sandwich I bring to work. One day she asked me how I have time on work mornings to cook. I told her my boyfriend makes breakfast for me. So yea....that's what she wants.......a guy who will take time to do little things for her......like make a egg sandwich........breakfast sandwich type love.....lol........cute.

friday

Son called and invited me to walk with him yesterday. He walks each day after he gets off work. So I walked with him yesterday at the community center, down by the lake. It was a pretty day. We got to see deer and chipmunks, and the time flew by.

When I left the community center I stopped by to see dad.
We looked through some old pictures I've never seen before from his childhood.......and he told me stories about his family I'd never heard before. It was nice.

The pot of chili I made with veggies from my garden turned out delicious.
I'm going to pack some for my lunch at work today.

thursday

I like when I wake in the morning, everyone in the house but me is still sleeping, and the world is still quiet. It's one of my favorite times of the day.

So when I arrived home last night after working a 12 hour shift I went straight to the treadmill and did a 20 minute mile at a 50% incline. It doesn't sound like much, and I could have done more. I think the biggest problem I have is that I get bored. Finding the right music to listen to while I walk will help. So I'm on a search for some music.

I picked a bunch of spicy chili peppers, bell peppers, and tomatoes from my garden. I'm going to make a pot of chili for dinner. It will be delicious!

I woke up this morning at 4:30. We-Ping was knocking at the kitchen door to get inside. I thought she was upstairs with sis when I went to bed. Felt a little guilty she'd been left out all night even though she probably had a blast.
HAPPY 8th BIRTHDAY We-Ping! I promise to get your nails trimmed soon! I love you my soft furry friend.

tuesday

I've had 3 dreams about mom since she died.
In the second to last dream I got to hug her tight as she hugged me back and tell her again how much I love and miss her.
She reassured me that everything and everyone would be OK.........................and in the first dream she just smiled at me, when I'd look at her she'd be smiling at me and she had this look that she had a new understanding and wisdom
about everything..................................and even though I woke from all 3 dreams crying, I felt like I had visited with my mom, and had been comforted by her.

I took daughter today to get a new student ID. Daughter, a friend of hers, and I did a little shopping. Middle sons birthday is coming up. I bought him some luggage, because it's what he wants. After shopping I took the girls out to lunch. I had garlic shrimp stacked on tomatoes, cucumbers, and guacamole. The girls had chicken. It was pretty good!


I walk on the treadmill but not everyday. A couple of other blogs that I read have inspired me to walk everyday. There's really no reason not too. My goal is to walk daily for a year. After I accomplish that goal I'll set a new one.

monday

I woke at 3:30 this morning full of anxiety& unable to
go back to sleep.
I worry about my job, my
health, my dad,my relationship with boyfriend,
and the IRS.
  I try to turn the worry off but can't. I know it's useless to try
to sleep.....so  here I sit.......deep breathing, trying to relax.....trying to let it go....

I look forward to an up coming trip  to Tenn. with my best work friend.
Looking forward to seeing the mountains, hiking, fishing, and relaxing.....

Nothing much
happened today.
I pulled weeds, went to the grocery, and the cemetery.
I made tacos for dinner.
Son came over this evening and had dinner
with us. Daughter went out with friends.
Oldest son

I went to mom and dads house today to see dad. Daughter and one of her girlfriends went with me. Dad was in the family room hanging blinds. As soon as we got there he went into his stand up comedy routine.......one joke after another. Some of them cracked me up! He's silly.
We didn't stay very long though cause dad and my oldest son were headed out to my sisters house to do some target shooting.
I took the girls out for pizza, then browsed the craft store to checkout the prices on canvas........the girls took a nap when we got home...............I chatted on the phone with my sister.......mostly we talked about mom..................we miss her.............
I took tomorrow off without pay.

tuesday

Daughter and I had a little picnic dinner on the deck today.

She picked the menu. I cooked.
It's always nice spending time with her. She's usually talkative.
Today not so much.
We both stayed up late last night. I think she was tired.

Son stopped over on his way home from work. I sent some
some fried chicken home with him.

Boyfriend is still in Colorado. He went home for a funeral and while there
his brother was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. He's terminal.
Boyfriend is spending time with him and with the rest of his family.

Daughter had her physical the other day.
She told the doctor her dad canceled her insurance
so she'd rather he not do any blood work. The doctor said to her
"you get one free visit."  Daughter was like"huh?" The doctor said it was a free visit, and to go ahead and get the labs that they'd be included in the free visit.......so she had the check up, tetanus shot,a TB test, blood work and urinalysis......FREE. I was expecting to pay around 200-225 bucks for the appointment not counting lab work.. Needless to say I was thrilled, and grateful. It was very nice of them to not charge her. I have never heard of such a thing.

My old director of nursing stopped by my house the other day. I haven't seen or talked to her in
maybe 6 years. She was a good D.O.N. I think......a little short tempered, but still good at the job........it was fun talking to/catching up with her. :O)

wed

I'm off work the next 3 days.
They changed my assignment at work.
I've been working the new one for about2 weeks.
The staff is lazy and not very approachable.
The unit is hot and muggy. Supplies aren't stocked, and meds
aren't ordered in a timely manner.........and the computer that
I use doesn't work very well.
I don't need this crap anymore.

I'm going along with daughter to the doctor today.
She needs to have a physical for school. She'll start clinicals this year. She called her dad to ask if he had a copy of her health insurance card. He told her he took her off the policy.
I think he paid 16 bucks a month for her to be on his policy. Yet he canceled it. I can't believe he would do that.........
I'm so pissed. Mostly I feel badly for daughter.......I guess I could go on and on
about him...and I want to......and I've thought about calling him
to tell him exactly how I feel...............I want to so badly.................but it would change nothing, would fix nothing................I hate him right now.

So I didn't get the yard work done yesterday becauseof the rain. However I did get most of the other stuff done!
I have my laundry going now.........and chicken thawing in the frig. for tomorrow's dinner. All I'm going to do today is vacuume the 1st floor and dust my bedroom.

Right now I'm watching "Love it, Or List It"...........................home owners have thier homes remodeled, repaired, and made to be more functional according to their needs and at the same time a realtor has them look at other homes that meet their needs................then they choose between loving their present home, or moving to a different home...........I love it............addicted to it!

Boyfriend  will be home next Saturday

saturday

I didn't do much of anything yesterday. I should have but didn't.
Today I plan on paying my bills and doing a little yard work........and I need to caulk some areas of the front porch...................hopefully there will be time to do some painting.......and I'll probably do some laundry.
Both the kitties spent the night outside. I worry about the raccoons getting them when they spend the night out..........made me smile when they filed through the front door this morning...........both of them ate and are now napping.
This is day 3 of 4 days off from work. I just don't want to work anymore.......have been taking as many days off without pay as I can afford.........and using vacation time here and there..............
I went to mom and dads house one day last week to help dad with a new CD player he bought. He had  Johnny Mathis playing...........I remember when I was a child waking to Johnny Mathis singing while dad hummed along as he shaved. I loved the smell of his aftershave mixed with the steam from the hot water......and it always made me smile when I'd hear him sing.
    His and moms 60 year anniversary would have been next month. I was talking to him on the phone the other night. He talked about the day they got married...........how my moms aunt took them to Indiana to marry..(mom was 17. my aunt signed for her)...........he told me he remembers everything about the day. "I can remember what your mom was wearing, what I was wearing....the car we drove.......we had $8.00 between the two of us.(he laughed) I remember it all." They spent their honeymoon at the drive-in.................................the one thing he could not remember is what movie was playing. I googled it without any luck............
Dads been going to a citizens 12 week  police academy..................he got to "work" the 911 center, talk to people from the DEA, see all the different drugs, visit the jails and courthouse, look at car wreck photos and autopsy reports(coincidentally the first autopsy report he read happened to be that of a friend of his who was killed in a car wreck), and will work a shift of his choosing with a cop from the city of dads choosing. He's planning on working the 12mn to 4 am shift in one of the tougher (but not horrible)neighborhoods. "I hope I see a fight!" lol

thursday

all of my posts from April and may have disappeared...................and my email isn't working some of the time.......not sure what the problem is................

got up at 3:30 am to take boyfriend to the airport. he's going home to Colorado for his brother-in-laws funeral. i went to the grocery store after i left the airport, came home and looked over the papers from the IRS, and then at my tax papers..............called dad and asked for help...............made copies of papers, went to dads, prepared papers for the IRS and faxed everything to them. i felt relieved to get it done......for now anyway!
went to the bank then the cemetery after  i left dads. put some cheerful, pretty, yellow roses on moms grave.........came home and took a nap......got up from my nap and made some bacon and eggs for supper, did the dishes then sat on the porch with kitties, and talked on the phone with a co-worker..................
Current Issue        interesting......

tuesday

Oldest son comes over once a week to wash his car. If I'm home I sit on the porch and chat with him while he works!

Mr. Bojangles new favorite place to sit. One of my patients husband gave me the afghan. Kitty likes the texture of the afghan I think.

Some of the deer that come to the back hill in my backyard. The picture is fuzzy cause I took it from inside the kitchen.

A co-worker brought these to me last year.I'm pleasantly surprised they survived!

I love the purple stuff...

My tomatoes are growing like crazy this year. This plant has about 30 tomatoes on it.............my spicy peppers are doing quite well too!

The  little tree boyfriends sister sent to me when mom passed away. It's cute. It needs to be transplanted.

a work in progress... :O)    you don't have to be good at it to enjoy it!

I got a letter from the IRS saying I owe them 44,000. I don't. I'm filled with anxiety......just sick.......hopefully I can get the whole thing resolved sooner than later!