Thursday, February 06, 2014

wed.

another busy day at work..........having our state inspection........not going to be a perfect survey this year! bummer!

my bff work friend spent the night last night and again tonight.......we were slammed with an ice storm and snow...............it's a mess, again...............she can't make it home to out in the county...

went to mom and dads' house yesterday....................dad found a box of moms poetry.....the poems she wrote.........he gave it to me to take home..........i bought 5scrap books to put copies of moms poems in  to give to each of my sisters on mothers day, maybe.........................................while out shopping for the scrap books i found a couple cute compact mirrors..................on the outside they have the word "breathe" engraved on them..........i thought they were pretty.......and they just seemed appropriate to give to 2 of my sisters......so i will.........

i'm ok.......not that anyone is asking............i ahve my moments when i still can't believe mom died.......blows me away.........................some of the time i forget for just a second that mom has died...........i'll think...."man i can't wait to tell mom about this"........and in that instant i remember she is gone.....and i feel the pain in my heart and in my stomach..................I tell her everyday i love her.......because i do.......&.........some of the time i tell her i'm sorry......because some of the time i couldn't juggle it all while taking care of her, and my other responsibilities.......so there were times i let her down.....(.not that she ever complained, because she didn't........she was grateful for all the times i got it right)...but still, it's the time i let her down that i am so deeply, & painfully sorry..................................

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