sunday

we spent the last week at the ocean.
i love the ocean. i love the beach.

the day we left for the ocean i was tearful/emotional.....
it would be my first birthday without my mom.
part of me worried that mom would look
for me on my birthday........but wouldn't know where to find me
if i was in another state........so that worried me and made my heart ache.....

on our drive home boyfriend fell asleep while driving. i slapped his arm to wake him.............well that pissed him off...................he denied sleeping even though he was snoring and his eyes were closed.....not to mention we were headed across lanes............he refused to let me take over the driving...................................luckily we were close to an airport. i had him drop me and daughter off and i rented a car....................i couldn't continue on in the car with him...........he fell asleep a couple years ago while driving us home from that vacation...we ended up going off the road......i just couldn't risk daughter or me getting hurt/killed in that car.............i wanted him to be safe too.................but he wouldn't let me take over.................................so he's not speaking to me.........i don't get it................seriously i don't..........................

i cooked lunch for my family today.,,,,including dad. we ate outside on the deck................daughters boyfriend was here................its the first time dad has met him......................so in true form dad told about a hundred jokes..................funny jokes.........................daughters boyfriend was cracking up..........it was cute.

i bought a really pretty corsage this morning for mom...................took it to place on her grave......................they finally engraved her date of death on her headstone...............it was a little shocking for me to see it...............it was sad really...........

friday evening

Little Man had a busy day in the yard. He's wore out!

I got the Easter baskets ready!

My new owls. The biggest one is really pretty in person.

I finished my housework and laundry & I'm almost finished packing.
 I baked a chocolate cake for my student nurse. It's not very pretty but I bet it tastes delicious........and I made her a little card.

I baked chicken rubbed with olive oil and ground garlic for supper, and I made some homemade apple sauce. Looks and smells great.

I'm relieved to have all the work around here finished. I'll enjoy a quiet night tonight at home........

friday

I was off work yesterday and the day before yesterday. I read, I slept, I cleaned a little.
I went to dads house last evening. Sat on the deck with him and sisters and chit chatted for a couple hours. I went in moms bedroom while at dads. I guess I was hoping to feel closer to her. Mostly I just felt her absence.
While on the computer last night a picture of her popped up. It was a picture of her in her bed. She was wearing big red sunglasses and giving me our sign for "word up." She was laughing. It's a cute picture. It made me smile and ache all at the same time.

I'm in a time crunch to get everything done that I have to do before our trip to the ocean. I've been procrastinating.
I have to finish cleaning, finish the laundry, and pack.
I also have to bake a cake for my student nurse. Her last day with me is tomorrow. It's been a good experience. She text me Wed. to let me know she passed her last exam. I knew she would! So she has 1 more day with me and then she can schedule her state boards..........or whatever it is they call them these days.

friday

I had fun shopping yesterday with daughter.
I got a great deal on her bathing suit pants. They didn't have a price tag on them.
The cashier asked me if I knew how much they were. I told her I thought 12 bucks.... cause that's what I thought they were worth. I told her I'd go check the other pants for a tag. The same pants had a price tag of 30 dollars. I told her I couldnt find another pair,cause no way was I paying 30 bucks.. She called the manager. He said it's their policy to take the customers word for it if the item doesnt have a price tag. So I got a 30 dollar bathing suit pant for 12 bucks. I was happy.

I got some new cute sun glasses, shoes, and a summer purse. The purse is really cute.......&...........oldest sons birthday is in April. I got him a pair of really nice swimming trunks, an over sized beach towel, and some sandals. I also got him a cool insulated cup to take to the pool. :O)

Iwas driving past sisters house yesterday. I could see her 2 dogs in the backyard. Her basset hound was on his side, still as could be. I thought he was dead. So I pulled in her driveway to get a better look. He jumped up. lol.  He wasn't dead! I was relieved.

Little man (Mr. Bojangles) is sitting on my lap. He's so damn precious.

thursday

I have the next 4 days off. Yay!
I'm going shopping with daughter today........looking forward to the time with her.
Her and her best friend are going to the ocean with me and boyfriend. We need to buy some stuff for the trip!

Work has been OK I guess. Two nurses were fired last week. I hate seeing anyone lose their job........and I can't help but wonder if I'll be next. I always try my best to a good job........but it gets really busy......it's easy to miss something...........

I woke to the sound of thunder this morning........the house was vibrating.........loved it!

tuesday

I went to the cemetery yesterday. Dad and sister were there. We ended up sitting at moms grave and chit chatting for a couple of hours.
Dad has lost 25 pounds since mom died, and he's not sleeping well. To boot he has a stomach virus. I went to the store yesterday with sister and bought him some soup, jello, and Gatorade..........We've encouraged him to go to the hospice grief support group. I doubt he'll ever go. I worry about him.
Sister and her husband have 100 acres of beautiful lush land out in the county......a home away from home.......... last Thanksgiving mom said how nice it would be to have Thanksgiving dinner there, outside under a tree. We decided that this year we would have Thanksgiving dinner there in moms honor and that we would dedicate one of the ponds, a beautiful lively pond stocked with gold fish to mom. Many people in our family called mom "Me Me"......so we will name the pond "Me Me's Pond."
I didn't get to the yard yesterday. I hoping that today I will get some yard work done!