monday

I spent my weekend at work.
It was quiet.
My patients missed me while I
was gone. They told me so.
Made me smile.

I called daughter in law to be the other
morning. She was crying, stressed over wedding planning.
She said originally her and son had planned on eloping
or having a very small ceremony in the mountains of Tenn.
It was becoming something way different than what she had
imagined.
Now it makes since why she was all over the map
when it came to making plans.
Son said the only reason they haven't eloped
is because he didn't want to disappoint me.
I felt a little disappointed. But I didn't say that to him.
I mean originally I had hoped for a small, intimate wedding, and
I was looking forward to a mother son dance.
But when we checked out the first wedding venue, and after talking to the bride to be's mom
I knew it would be anything but that.........and then I got caught up
in her vision.
But quite honestly, more than anything I just want
them to have the ceremony that they have hoped for.......and that's what I told him.............
but I also told him I want to be there, no matter where or how they did it.
So they have decided, for now,
to have a ceremony in Gatlinburg Tenn with their parents and siblings present.
Her parents are supportive of their new plans.

friday

i've been off work for  9 days. i took two sick days tucked between 4 days off then 3 days off. i feel a little guilty as i always do when i call off.....but it couldn't be helped.
so i go back to work tomorrow.
i don't want to.

wedding planning is all over the map.
the bride and her mom change their minds daily.

thursday

celebrated my birthday this week. dad, my sisters, and my children stopped over to see me. it was a nice day. i planted a little garden as a gift for my mom on my birthday.  i put a little bird bath in the center of the garden, and i planted daisies since they were my moms favorite flowers. it's very little, but pretty just the same!

yesterday was oldest son's 30th birthday.
am i really old enough to have a 30 year old son?
he's a great son. a sweet and thoughtful son.
my family spent the evening at his house celebrating.
we had a great time.

tuesday

i've slept with my window open since mom died.........it helps me to fall asleep  looking out the window. i see the stars at night, the deer some of the time at dawn, and i wake to the birds chirping in the morning.
 all of those things remind me of and make me feel closer to her.

i'm headed to the grocery store.
i meant to go yesterday but never got around to it.
i need to get some shoe inserts while at the store. the 12 hour shifts are killing my feet!
when i get back home boyfriend and i are doing some work in the yard.
it's supposed to be warm and sunny today. just like yesterday.
i'm looking forward to it!

monday

daughters boyfriends' mom passed away when he was 17 years old. he supported her financially the last couple  years of her life.
his father was not part of the picture.
so he's been on his own financially since he was 16.
never had any help.
i don't know.......my heart kind of aches for him.
such a young age to be on your own.......and with nothing........
recently he moved into a new apartment.
daughter and i went there the other day while he was at work.
we got him some new curtains. he had none. blankets were over the bedroom windows to block the light so that he could sleep. the kitchen and living room windows were bare. i think he's so busy between work and the army reserves that he just hasn't gotten around to it. and i would guess that money is an issue too.
 i pack stuff away when i buy new stuff. things like curtains, table cloths, place mats, lamps, pictures, vases and such. boyfriend is always on me to throw away stuff that i have packed away...........and i always tell him that someday someone will need it.
so daughter and i got a few paintings and pretty vases from my boxes and we got an old table i had in the basement that would make a prefect kitchen table, and an old beautiful table i got out of the garbage a few years back....that i had cleaned and painted....and packed away knowing that someday it would be useful............and took all the stuff to his apartment..................we cleaned, rearranged furniture, hung paintings, including one his mother had painted,and put pretty vases on window seals.
 daughter reassured me  he would not be offended........that he would love the help..............when all was said and done, the place looked really cute,warm, and inviting...........and as we left we placed a new welcome mat outside his door.
he loved it all......said he walked around the place for half  an hour smiling and taking it all in.............it was fun!

i got a new bird bath for christmas from middle son...........................i think i'll set it up today........

wednesday

i had a routine ish doctor appointment today.......

after the doctor appointment i picked boyfriend up and we went shopping and then out to lunch.
i bought a really cute beach bag to give to oldest son and his wife to be, for them to use on their honeymoon.
i also bought gifts for the girls that will be in the wedding. they're really pretty crystal perfume bottles that i picked up at tj max.......the price was so good i couldn't pass them up.......stopped off to see daughter-in-law to be to show her what i got and to make sure they were ok with her........she loved them.....................so that's one thing we can check off the list! 13 months until the wedding so we have plenty of time.
tomorrow we're going out in the country again to look at some land.
i'm so looking forward to it! but before that i have to buy a new cell phone. mine will not charge for some reason. i've tried 3 different chargers................so i need to do that, and i need to go to the bank........................................then we can go look at some beautiful land...........

monday

i had a wonderful easter.

saturday

i went to renew my car tags and pay property taxes on them the other day, the last day of march, because i wanted to get it done early. well i got there and the line was literally out the door......probably people whose taxes were due in march and who waited until the last minute.. i decided to leave and come back in a week or two.
i also went to the woman who does my taxes.......it was keeping me up at night thinking about getting all the crap together and getting them done....................so i got it all together and dropped it off to her. she was supposed to call yesterday with the verdict but didn't.!

i'm having the kids over tomorrow for lunch. i'm looking forward to it.

my bff work friend got suspended for 3 days for screwing up some doctors orders. she too is struggling with the new work load.

was taking a drive with boyfriend the other day when aretha franklin came on the radio singing RESPECT.? Aretha Franklin - Respect [1967] (Original Version) - YouTube
i began singing and dancing in my seat......... and moving my neck the way you might see a black girl do on TV when she's mad or trying to emphasize the point she is trying to make.......and every time arethra said the word YOU, I'd point at boyfriend...............................he was trying his best not to react to my silliness..........lol...........

thursday

work was better yesterday.
the nursing students were there.
i had them do all my vital signs and blood sugars.
the wound care specialist was there.
she did all my treatments.
it bought me extra time to do the other stuff.

i'm sitting in my bed next to the window with the window open.
it's thundering and raining. i like the sound. Mr. Bojangles is hiding under the bed.
he doesn't like the thunder.

i'll probably clean today.
i've invited the kids over for lunch on sunday.
i also plan on inviting dad.
i'm cooking a ham, cornbread, brussel sprouts, corn, and applesauce.....
i have the ham......will need to go to the store for the rest................and
i'm making easter baskets for everyone. i like making easter baskets. they can be so pretty.

my sister has 100 acres of land out in the county......it's a nice weekend get-a-way.
she's converted a little shack into a camp with bunk beds for everyone and
a working kitchen. her husband built an outhouse.
anyway, there was a motorcycle helmet in the shack. a redbird built a nest in the helmet
and had 5 little redbirds in it. cute!
they have some web cameras on some of the trees and just got their first picture of a bobcat.
the cameras take some pretty amazing pictures of the wildlife.

my neighbor is a peeping tom i think.
he's always lurking in the dark.
when he knows i have seen him he retreats to an even
darker place.
i feel uneasy when i see him.