thursday

I finally sanded and painted the kitchen wall. It looks good! Feels good to have the job done!
I gave away my 1950's kitchen table and chairs. It was my sister's mother-in-laws table. I've used it for several years.
 I've rearranged my kitchen so I no longer have room for it. I offered it to my neighbors friend. She had been homeless for the most part for the past 6 months but recently got herself an apartment. She was thrilled to have it!
Today the plumber is coming to add a new water shut off valve and something else that I really am not sure about..........it's boyfriends doing.....................................but after the plumber leaves and after I finish my continuing education to re new my nursing license we are going to take a ride. I want to see the trees at Saint Ann's convent. They're beautiful in the fall!

tuesday

I scheduled to have my carpets and air ducts cleaned, called Lowes to tell them the plumber has never called to schedule installation of my dish washer and stove, and went to the doctor today for a routine visit.
I got a flu shot today,and a tetanus, diphtheria, pertussis vaccine. I feel really tired, and I have a headache from the 2nd vaccine. I just want to crawl under my warm blankets and sleep. Maybe I'll get the kitchen wall sanded and painted tomorrow!

monday

I think boyfriend broke the ice maker  on the new refrigerator while trying to fix it. :O) The repairman is coming to fix it today.
I just made some french toast.
I can't get good french toast in a restaurant.  It's  always under cooked, the batter is all wrong,  and it usually has too much cinnamon.
Refrigerator man just called. He had to reschedule because his guy called off work. I wish I was a handy person!

I might sand and then paint the kitchen wall today. I just don't know!

So Abraham was killed last night on the season premiere of The Walking Dead. "Suck my nuts" were his last words just after and before Negan crushed his skull with a barb wired wrapped baseball bat...................it was hard to watch..........daughter screamed when Glenn was killed. It was all a little too violent for my taste!

saturday

We went to see the oncologist  yesterday.
Our insurance did not approve the Opdivo.
They say there is no documentation to support its effectiveness
in non metastatic cancer, and they also said no because we do not yet know if
the radiation was effective. It's 24,000 bucks for one dose of the Opdivo. He would need a dose every 2 or 3 weeks forever I guess. Who can pay that out of pocket?
So now it's kind of a waiting game.........waiting for a pet scan to be done in 7 weeks to see if the radiation did its job, if not then waiting for the cancer to metastasize. Chemo is an option if the cancer is still there but boyfriend told the doctor absolutely not.\\

I may or may not sand and paint the kitchen wall
today.

Friday

 I like this little tree

that's in the old part of the cemetery. It reminds me of an old hump back witch, I'm using it on my header for the month of October, my nod to Halloween. :O)

thursday

We had bad storms here last evening.  The lightening looked like a fireworks show. It was great. We had hail the size of soft balls and strong winds.
 Mr. Bojangles is afraid of storms with thunder.So he hid under the bed for most of the evening.I felt sorry for him!
We've had cold rain and a breeze most of today too, and some thunder. Boyfriend and I stayed in the bed and watched TV most of the day.
 We see the oncologist tomorrow. They have him scheduled for 45 minutes with the doctor and then a 2 hour appointment in the chemotherapy room. I suspect they will educate us about Opdivo and give boyfriend his first dose. But I'm not sure.

monday

We have a dental appointment today.
Maybe after the appointment I will sand and paint the kitchen wall. :O) Maybe!

Called Lowe's this morning re the install of my new range and dishwasher. The coordinator of my project is incompetent. She has never returned a call, ever. I talked to another person today and have everything scheduled now..........................................................I made my purchase late August, early September and it's just now been scheduled for delivery/installation no thanks to "Ladonna."

My neighbor who lives up the street from me always has the best garbage. I got a really cute dresser from her garbage once, cleaned, painted it and sister bear used it for most of her childhood. I also got the really adorable wood bench with cast iron animal cut outs. They cleaned out their garage/basement yesterday. They have a pretty nice stair climber on the curb and several nice sheets of  dry wall. They also have a childs bike  and a chair. I don't need any of it, and don't want to store any of it because I have enough stuff in my basement and garage. I do wish someone would come and get that bike. There's nothing wrong with it!

sunday

We had a wonderful night last night, boyfriend and I.
We built a fire in the backyard fire pit.
 The weather was perfectly cool and the sky was clear.
 Mostly we just sat together
under the stars, holding hands and talking.
The kitties were at our side ( our Weeping and daughters Co-Co) except for Mr. Bojangles
who was in my bed on my pillow sleeping. (He's so spoiled.)
It was nice.
I love him, boyfriend.
He talks about dying and  about my life
after his death.
Mostly he talks about how grateful
he is for the life he has and has had.
I don't like to think about life without him.
It makes me feel incredibly sad, and afraid.
I try my best to push those feelings aside and think I
will deal with them when I have to.
For now I just try to be grateful, and enjoy the company
of my love, my best friend.

It's beautiful again outside today. Clear and sunny skies with a slight breeze.
I need to weed the garden I made for my mom in my backyard, and I have a few other chores in the yard. I also have a bunch of tulip bulbs to bury. It might still be too early. I'll have to read the instructions on the bag.

 Dad just called about a open house close by but in another city. Dad says it has a very pretty view from the back of the house that over looks Cincinnati skylight. I might run over to see it.

saturday

I gave boyfriend a hair cut and trimmed his eyebrows. It's easy to cut his hair. Mostly I just shave his head. It looks good!
Boyfriend ripped a toenail off the other night. We aren't sure how. We noticed a large amount of blood on the floor next to his bed and a bloody footprint from his bed to the front porch. Investigated and found his nail was gone. So I've been nursing that for him. It looks wicked but better today than yesterday! Our house looked like a crime scene!
Also, boyfriend began coughing up blood yesterday. He has never had this happen before along this road of lung cancer. Our hope is that it's due to the irritation from the radiation treatments. He will see the oncologist this coming week.
I changed the bed sheets today, and have a load of laundry in the dryer and in the washer. My goal is to get the kitchen wall sanded and painted. We shall see.

Donald Trump grosses me out. I think he's an idiot incapable of seeing the value of women other than for his own sexual desires. He's disgusting. He's a pig.I believe he thinks all men think the same way he does. Many do I'm sure, especially men from his generation, and pimps.
 He should not be president.

Got up early this morning and had some pumpkin spice coffee on the front porch while I talked on the phone with my BFF work friend. It was nice catching up with her!
I miss the routine of going to work each work day.

I'm supposed to report to jury duty in Dec. I think and serve Jan. through March. I was excused for a year last year due to boyfriends illness. It's something I've always wanted to do, but not so much now. I'm hoping they will excuse me again.

wednesday

SO Lowe's delivered my new refrigerator doors today, and they hung them. They were a day early, again. It's annoying but not that a big of a deal.

We went to the grocery today.
We bought corn beef brisket. I'm going to cook it then make Rubens tomorrow.

I also bought a cute autumn table cloth and 2 books. "The Girl On The Train" by Paula Hawkins is one of the books. I've been seeing previews to the movie and it looks good but I know I will like the book better. So I will read it before I watch the movie. I also bought "All Dressed In White" by Mary Higgins Clark. I like her books. They're easy reads and entertaining.

I'm procrastinating when it comes to painting the part of the kitchen that needs painted. I figure I'll get to it when my back is against the wall.

Sunday

We had a super nice time last night at oldest son's house. He has the sweetest dog I've ever met. The dog loves boyfriend. Sat in front of him, at his feet almost the whole time we were there. It was cute!

We didn't do much today. Boyfriend worked on the refrig. ice maker. He's been tinkering with it for a few days. It was working fine until he began working on it.........now not so much!

Sister bear (daughter) had supper out with friends. Boyfriend isn't feeling so good and didn't want supper so I grilled myself and Mr. Bojangles a burger. We ate  together on the deck.

My sister called me today to ask if I wanted to take a walk with her. So we took a walk down by the lake by my mom and dad's house. That was it.......we walked, took a little ride, then I came home.

I am looking forward to tonight's debate for entertainment purposes only................it's a sad, pathetic, frustrating election year......

saturday

We celebrated boyfriends last radiation treatment day before yesterday by going to the casino in Indiana and then out to dinner. Even though the both of us are a little scared that radiation is over we still wanted to celebrate! We're scared because we don't know what will happen next. We wonder did the radiation kill the cancer. If not then we know the Opdivo is our last hope, the end of the line. We tried to put our concerns and fears aside to celebrate and have fun......................AND
 even though we didn't win any big money, it was fun!
 After a   day of gambling we went to our favorite steakhouse and had the best garden salad you'll ever have and juicy, delicious, baby back ribs.

Today I puttied some holes in my kitchen wall left by screws from cabinets that son removed yesterday. I also cleaned those same walls. They were filthy!

Tonight we are headed to oldest sons home to have a beer and build a bon fire.......daughter and her friends are going to be there as well...................it's a beautiful day here, perfect fall like weather for a fire!

wed.

I walk while boyfriend gets his radiation treatment.
While I walk I toss a few pennies in the parking lot.
I see a lot of people going in the building to get their chemo therapy or their radiation treatment for cancer. I figure some of them are superstitious. So when they find a penny it might give
them a little hope.................and even if it's just for that  moment they feel hopeful or
lucky, then it's a good moment..................I just wish there was something I could do for all these people.

I'm almost finished with my kitchen. Yesterday evening I scrubbed the cabinet frames........today I'm going to remove a cabinet broom closet so that the frig fits in the kitchen the way it's supposed to ( I should have measured!).........and then I need to patch some screw holes, do a little painting, and scrub the floor and woodwork...................maybe I'm not almost finished! Son will be here Friday to hang my cabinet doors..........................hopefully the new counter top and other new appliances will be installed in a week or so..........................

tuesday

Headed out in a few minutes to radiation treatment. After today only 2 treatments left!

Lowes delivered our refrigerator yesterday. They weren't supposed to deliver it until the 13th. But there they were! They scratched the frig doors while bringing it into the house so they will be bring new doors. It's a side by side and I really like it......so much easier to reach things and to take stock......

sunday

nothing better to write about so found this on a blog but can't remember which one.......thought i'd give it a go......

1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?

closed

2: Do you take the shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotel?

I do! I figure I can use them on camping trips or for an emergency!

3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?

I don't tuck my top sheet!

4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before? No!

5: Do you like to use Post-It notes?

I use them if i have them....i seldom any...

6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?

I don't use coupons!

7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?

I'd rather be attacked by a swarm of bees. It seems like it would be less painful. Plus, I'm scared to death of bears.

8: Do you have freckles?

I have a few.

9: Do you always smile for pictures?

Yes I do!

10: What is your biggest pet peeve?

poor manners

11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk?

I count telephones poles, or sidewalk squares in multiples when I walk. I count street lights by multiples while I drive.

12: Have you ever peed in the woods?

Yes!

13: What about pooped in the woods?

Yes!

14: Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing?

I do! 

15: Do you chew your pens and pencils?

No

16: How many people have you slept with this week?

Just boyfriend!

17: What size is your bed?

 

Twin

18: What is your song of the week?Janis Joplin - Me & Bobby McGee - YouTube

19: Is it OK for guys to wear pink?Yes. i like a guy in a nice, crisp, pink, shirt or tie!

20: Do you still watch cartoons?

No. I've never liked cartoons. Even as a child I didn't like them except for the charlie brown and christmas classics.

21: What’s your least favorite movie?

Foot Loose

22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?

Probably in my back yard

23: If you’re a girl, bra size? If you’re a guy, pants size?

Um, did a guy write this questionnaire?

24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in?

Honey mustard.

25: What is your favorite food?

I like a good scrambled egg, or egg omlet, or fried egg with rye toast to dip in the yolk..................so eggs would be a favorite

26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love?

• Somethings Gotta Give
• Fried Green Tomatoes
• Shawshank Redemption
• My Cousin Vinny
• Home Alone  1&2
• you've got mail
• sleepless in seattle

27: Last person you kissed/kissed you?

Boyfriend

28: Were you ever a Boy/Girl Scout?

Nope

29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?

no

30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?

When my mom died I wrote her a letter.

31: Can you change the oil on a car?

I could if someone taught me.

32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket?

no

33: Ever ran out of gas?

once

34: Favorite kind of sandwich?

reuben.......Keeneland horse track in lexington ky has the best reuben sandwich I've ever had!

35: Best thing to eat for breakfast?

eggs

36: What is your usual bedtime?

midnight

37: Are you lazy?

yes......it's a constant fight in my head to not be

38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?

a hobo

39: What is your Chinese astrological sign?

aries

40: Are you horny?

not right now

41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions?

no

42: Which are better, Legos or Lincoln Logs?

lincoln logs

43: Are you stubborn?

yes

44: Who is better…Leno or Letterman?

I dont like Leno......love Letterman

45: Ever watch soap operas?

I used to while I was on a maternity leave.

46: Are you afraid of heights?

I am

47: Do you sing in the car?

all the time

48: Do you sing in the shower?

not usually

49: Do you dance in the car?

YES!

50: Ever used a gun?

yes....I've gone target shooting with my dad when I was a child and young adult.......

51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

sons wedding this past May

52: Do you think musicals are cheesy?

I think some musicals are cheesy........I love some of them.

53: Is Christmas stressful?

I don't think it's stressful.

54: Ever eat a pierogi?

Yes and i did not like them!

55: Favorite type of fruit pie?

Pumpkin

56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

Professional baseball player, teacher

57: Do you believe in ghosts?

I do

58: Ever have a deja-vu feeling?

Yes

59: Take a vitamin daily?

they nauseate me......  so no

60: Wear slippers?

very rarely

61: Wear a bath robe?

never

62: What do you wear to bed?

pajama gown or night shirt

63: First concert?

Rolling Stones

64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

Target

65: Nike or Adidas? 

Skechers

66: Cheetos Or Fritos?

fritos

67: Peanuts or sunflower seeds?

Sunflower seeds.

68: Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?

No

69: Ever take dance lessons?

ballet and tap when i was a little girl.

clogging as an adult

70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

he's retired

71: Can you curl your tongue?

no

72: Ever won a spelling bee?

maybe once or twice in grade school

73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

Yes. 

74: Own any record albums?

YES! i have albums that are from mom and dads collection from when they were young and from my oldest sisters collection..... too numerous to name

75: Own a record player?

I have my mom and dads old console stereo

76: Regularly burn incense?

No I don't like them

77: Ever been in love?

yes i have

78: Who would you like to see in concert?  I don't know...

79: What was the last concert you saw?

Dixie Chicks

80: Hot tea or cold tea?

Both.

81: Tea or coffee?

coffee

82: Sugar or snickerdoodles?

sugar

83: Can you swim well?

I can swim well

84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

Yes 

85: Are you patient?

on the outside i am..........i'm screaming on the inside

86: DJ or band, at a wedding?

band

87: Ever won a contest?

My dad and i won the egg toss at his company picnic when I was 12.

88: Ever have plastic surgery?

no but considering it...

89: Which are better, black or green olives?

green olives. i eat some every week

90: Can you knit or crochet?

No

91: Best room for a fireplace?

kitchen or bedroom

92: Do you want to get married?

some of the time i want to

93: If married, how long have you been married?

not married

94: Who was your HS crush?

my art teacher. he was so funny......

95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?

Never

96: Do you have kids?

I have 3. boyfriend has 2

97: Do you want kids?

already have them

98: What’s your favorite color?

too many good colors to pick just one

99: Do you miss anyone right now? my mom

saturday

We went to the casino yesterday.
Had a great time. Spent way too much money, boyfriends treat.
Was there for 8 hours. It was a nice distraction. I wish we could do it again today!

Daughter vacuumed, straightened the house, and took out
the garbage while we were gone.
It was a pleasant surprise to come home to.


I have to give the kitties a flea treatment today.
My cats hate flea medication. I have to wait until they are in a deep sleep
to get it on them.