sunday

We had a wonderful night last night, boyfriend and I.
We built a fire in the backyard fire pit.
 The weather was perfectly cool and the sky was clear.
 Mostly we just sat together
under the stars, holding hands and talking.
The kitties were at our side ( our Weeping and daughters Co-Co) except for Mr. Bojangles
who was in my bed on my pillow sleeping. (He's so spoiled.)
It was nice.
I love him, boyfriend.
He talks about dying and  about my life
after his death.
Mostly he talks about how grateful
he is for the life he has and has had.
I don't like to think about life without him.
It makes me feel incredibly sad, and afraid.
I try my best to push those feelings aside and think I
will deal with them when I have to.
For now I just try to be grateful, and enjoy the company
of my love, my best friend.

It's beautiful again outside today. Clear and sunny skies with a slight breeze.
I need to weed the garden I made for my mom in my backyard, and I have a few other chores in the yard. I also have a bunch of tulip bulbs to bury. It might still be too early. I'll have to read the instructions on the bag.

 Dad just called about a open house close by but in another city. Dad says it has a very pretty view from the back of the house that over looks Cincinnati skylight. I might run over to see it.