tuesday

I woke to thunder and heavy rain.
It's such a pleasant, relaxing sound to me...
I joined boyfriend who was already on the porch having his coffee.
We chit chatted for a bit/just sat quietly and enjoyed the weather before I had to take the garbage to the curb as today is garbage collection day.
I debated while at the curb whether or not to take a little wood table/stool from my neighbors garbage. I didn't but I am still thinking about it. I can't help myself. I look at it and I see so many possibilities. :O)~
Yesterday evening I went out back to gather tomatoes. My drug selling neighbors now have 2 pit bulls and a friend staying with them. The dogs were in their backyard. They barked and growled at me. Now mind you boyfriends favorite medical assistant was just attacked by her 4 year old pit bull. She raised it from a pup. He tore off the bottom part of her leg and did significant damage to her arm as well. Her husband was also attacked while trying to save her. He cant move his arms (I don't know why), and will need skin grafts to his face.
I'm afraid of pit bulls as it is, even more so now, so I just went back inside the house without my tomatoes.
Guy next door took his dogs in this morning. (they barked all night while left outside in the rain.)
 So I went out back in the rain and pulled the tomatoes that were ready to be picked. I also cut a bunch of sunflowers and brought them in to put in a vase.
There's something great about eating the stuff you've grown yourself. It tastes so much better I think......and when I look at my pretty sunflowers in the vase (a wine bottle I painted with daughter) I can't help but smile.
                                                               

This is oldest son. For whatever reason I'm not afraid of his dog. He's just a big over grown sweetheart of a baby.

 I think they are starting to look alike! lol

I have a very cheap cell phone. I think it was 24 bucks maybe. I pay 25/month for my plan. I'm a tight wad! The alarm on my phone is not dependable. So I bought this little alarm clock. It also has an hour timer on it.

I use this bad boy on work nights. Love it!

Daughters cat. I think it's so pretty!

He's so rotten!

Thinking about my mom......

saturday

Lets see.........had a great day with boyfriend yesterday. We left the house in the morning and didn't arrive back home until 9 or 9:30. We had breakfast out, shopped, watched horse races at the track, did some gambling, hit for 600 bucks then 400 bucks (boyfriend did), had a nice dinner, listened to nice music by a live band.....good stuff from the 60's and 70's.............................the whole day cost us nothing which made it even more fun......met and talked to some really nice people while out. it was fun! ............................................it was good keeping boyfriend busy..........................................................he cries everyday...........he's still trying to wrap his head and heart around his son passing away........................................................today was a bad day for him..............i feel helpless for the most part................yesterday though was so good we forgot that boyfriend was scheduled for a CT scan at 5 PM.....we've never missed an appointment...............I'm so happy we forgot that fucking (not apologizing for cursing. some of the time cursing is the best medicine.)test...............we are so sick of doctor appointments. if we had gone to that test we would have missed out on a great evening. so fuck that test!


long story short i have a cataract in both eyes and will have them removed next month. i'll also have a astigmatism corrected. its a quick, safe procedure. my biggest concern is whether or not to correct my nearsightedness. if i have it corrected it i will then need readers. so i'm back and forth about what to do....looking forward though to not feeling like i'm looking through smoke all of the time!

tuesday

Mr.Bojangles from when he was young. He looks kind of scruffy in the first picture. He was a Mothers Day gift from middle son. I had my choice of him or 1 of his 2 siblings . Two of them were black, one was orange. I took the orange one then changed my mind when I looked in Mr. Bojangles eyes and could see him pleading for me to take him. He's my best friend.

This is Tiki guy. He's from my mom and dads yard in the Florida Keys. My neighbors bought it at dads yard sale. I bought it from my neighbors. (I didn't know dad was selling it.)

 I always felt like he was good luck!

This is Weeping from when she was a  kitten. She was from a Feral cat outside my work. A patient found her in a window well like area in the heat of a hot July day. She snuck her in the building and hid her in her room for a couple of days. Eventually I took her home and bottle fed her for many weeks. We also treated her for fleas. She was infested. She was one and a half pounds her first visit to the vet.

 Boyfriend adored her with all of his heart. So did I.

Our neighbors liked her. Many of them would stop to talk to and pet her. Her sweetness attracted people to her.

Daughter used to drive me crazy with the messes she would leave on the stairway to her room. I miss her messes some of the time! 

A couple of my favorite pictures of Mr Bojangles

wed

We had a wonderful last week surprising boyfriend with a visit from his brother and sister-in-law from Colorado..
I took him out for a day of fun at the horse track/casino/dining.
His family surprised him by showing up there.
Boyfriend cried he was so happy to see them.
We had a week of activity and fun with them including a wonderful fireworks show in our backyard. It was awesome.
I'm grateful for the great time.
On the morning our company left we received the news that boyfriends oldest son took his own life.
We talked to him on the phone the evening of.........everything seemed to be OK......
Boyfriend left for Colorado today. I'm staying back because daughter is having surgery that can't be postponed...and  because I'm too afraid to fly. No need to beat me up for staying behind. I'm doing that myself.
My heart aches for boyfriend.
I'm back and forth between being so angry at his son for doing this, regret for not seeing any signs that he would do this, and sadness for what he must have been going through.