friday

So the new buyer of my old house backed out last 1 AM a mere 8 hours after signing the contract. When he signed the contract about 10 appointments made by other people to see my house were canceled.
It's so disappointing and frustrating.
The good news though is that we got another offer today. I'm waiting for him to respond to my counter offer.
I try not to get my hopes up but I would love to have what feels like a huge weight lifted  off my shoulders! 

thursday

I accepted an offer on my house today.

I'm learning to not get my hopes too high re 

selling my house.

 This is the 4th time we've had a contract on it.

Maybe 4 is a charm?

Harvey Weinsteins inability to walk came on as quickly as Bill Cosbys' blindness. Imagine that....hmm....

saturday

Yesterday I put a bunch of top soil around the side and back of my house in a attempt to regrade. Those bags of top soil were 40 pounds each. I had 27 bags. Thank goodness for my son. He lined all the bags up around the side of the house and cut them open. I poured them out and did a little stomping.
Today I'll lay straw and grass seed.

I didn't sleep much last night so I did a little house cleaning. Usually I clean on Friday so really I just got a early start. I vacuumed the bedrooms, threw throw rugs down the basement to be washed, swept the kitchen floors and changed the table cloth. I also emptied all the waste baskets. While cleaning, at 1:30 AM work called me. I didn't answer because I knew I wasn't going to do a 12 hour shift in the morning if I was still up at 1:30 in the morning. If I had been sleeping I would have been willing to go in this morning.

I went back down to probate court Wed.
I told them of the problem I was having at the county office with the tyrant woman.
They told me what to do to get the problem resolved . So I did what they said to do. Now I just have to wait and see how things go.
I also went to the driver license bureau and had a new license with my new address printed. I also re took the vision test to see if I could drive without corrective lenses. I failed the test. :O(
Last but not least I went to the post office and did a change of address.
 I'm so glad to have those things taken care of!

I got a new cell phone with a new phone number. I notified everyone of my new number. There's a couple people I regret notifying. Maybe I'll go and see about changing my number again......

thursday

I was up for the day at 3 AM.
I've learned to just get going when I wake this early because I know there's no falling back to sleep.

I've been trying to settle boyfriends estate.
There's one woman in particular at one of the county offices who I've been dealing with together with boyfriends son.. Every time I have to deal with her it all becomes a big confusing mess. She's an angry, bitter, tyrant. And I think she enjoys the drama. She's also the supervisor of that department. This makes the situation even more frustrating.
When I was there this past Tuesday I told her she was a bitter, miserable, tyrant. I was nice about it though....lol
Then I went to my car and cried.


I had some work done at the old house.
There's a stress crack in a garage wall. Its been an issue during inspection. The garage and basement both were water proofed in 1985 and have always been dry. That crack hasn't changed in the 29 years I lived there..............................................but still it has been an issue. So I went ahead and had the wall braced per an engineers rec......................another engineer said it didn't need to be braced and that it's stable................................................................I felt torn. I mean in my heart of hearts I don't believe it needed to be done. It was a big waste of money. On the other hand it was an issue twice. Now it's fixed and hopefully the house will sell soon.

I need to get back to work full time soon....................................I don't want to wait too long..........................................I'm just trying to get many things settled first......................................it all weighs heavily on my mind...........................................................................dumpster diving has been a great distraction..........................................who would have thought something so silly would be one of the things helping me to cope...............that and daughter, sister, and boyfriends brother and sister-in-law..... and boyfriends son...all of them have been amazing. How lucky am I?

This is my little plant that doesn't require dirt. I sit him in water once a week for 20 minutes. I give him some light from  lamp everyday since there's not much sunlight.

I like this little fella. I think he's cute.

I'm working on this puzzle (but not very much)....................it's kind of my dream home. :O)

I miss boyfriend terribly. Some of the tme I still can't believe he's gone. I talk to him often. I'm sure he's tired of me asking him to give me a sign that he is ok.

I keep his phone on so that I can still send him text messages.

I hope he know's how much I love him.

monday

Daughter spent the night with me this past weekend.
I told her I was OK, that she didn't have to stay but she insisted.
We cleaned and organized my garage at the new house.
It became a catch all when I moved in and I never had the opportunity until now
to  go through everything and then organize or throw it away.
It looks and feels so much better to have it the way it should be! I made one little section for many of the things I have collected while dumpster diving.
I'll have a yard sale this spring.

I dumpster dived Saturday.
It's fun.
It's like going on a treasure hunt and I feel like I struck gold. lol
They had 2 brand new heat pads, one with built in massage in their garbage in the original packaging. I also got three 18 packs of toilet paper. They were thrown away because the packaging was torn..........such a waste! I also got a 96 inch folding table in its original packaging, a three tier chrome shelving set and a 3 in 1 gaming system type thing all nicely packaged.
At another place I got hundreds of packs of hair rubber bands and head bands. Multiple hairbrushes and combs all in their original packaging, shampoos, conditioners, hairspray, 20 pair of sandals, undies, multiple packages of Ben Gay and Tylenol Arthritis tabs, birthday cards, a fan and maybe 50 baby dolls and close to a dozen Styrofoam coolers.
I'm sure there was more stuff but right now I can't think of everything...................................I only know it was really fun finding so many treasures. lol

The guy buying my house backed out.
It's a long convoluted story..............................it sucks.........back to the drawing board.....again!

I miss my sweetheart.

sunday

so there's this quiet, isolated, cubbyhole of a spot in my new back yard. it sits between the back of my garage and the side of my neighbors garage. in the concrete is the hand print of a little girl along with her initials. the day i first looked at the house that little girl, now an adult, was there with her mother having a look at the place they used to live many years ago.      but anyway i was attracted to the cubbyhole. i was thinking what a cute little place to have some sort of flower pot garden, or a little spot to escape to read. Or both and a little swimming pool to relax and wash away the stress from the day. i shared my plans with daughter. i told her i was going to get an oval shaped stock tank from the tractor supply store to use as my pool. it will be perfect...................well the kids surprised me with one on Christmas. lol
 i love it and i look forward to creating my own little get a way right in my own backyard.

friday

I spent New Years day at the old house doing some much needed yard work.
It was sunny and chilly........felt good outside.......the yard looks so much better..........................and I even managed to get a lot of stuff out of the garage and put my adult children on notice that they need to take anything of theirs out of the garage before Monday.
Monday anything left will be left outside for the garbage man. (There's not that much stuff)

After I finished the work at the old house I came home and packed away Christmas from outside and inside the house.
It felt good to be productive.

I worked a 12 hour shift yesterday.
The computers there are old and slow....................I mean they drag along like an injured turtle..........and the computers in the nurses station are even worse.............................I decided yesterday I could not work there full time. It would drive me absolutely nuts having to work on those computers day after day.

So when all the yard work was finished daughter helped me do my resume.

Today I have to respond to the buyer of my old house re the work I will and will not do.................he wants a perfect house.........................he's not going to get one..........................crossing my fingers he doesn't back out!.

wed

I thought I'd start my New Year doing something physical and productive.
I'm headed to the old house to do  much needed work in the yard. The air is clean and crisp so the physical activity mixed with that clean air will do me good.