friday

boyfriend and I went out to lunch yesterday.
it was beautiful weather so we ate outside.
4 guys were  at the table next to us. one of them
struck up a conversation.
i was attracted to him.......felt a very strong attraction that i haven't felt in
a long time......caught me off guard........felt uncomfortable since boyfriend
was with me...........even today i thought of
that man and the attraction i felt.........wondered why i was so attracted to him............

had a quiet day here. painted  a few clay pots. they turned out really pretty i think.......
will probablt put them on top my buffet....with my owls.
i hung some new curtains, and tried to clean off my dining room table..........didn't get the job done though.........and i washed my scrubs.

I
m looking forward to seeing my family sunday.

thursday

I was sound asleep  this morning when  boyfriend woke me by rubbing my foot and   telling me to get up. I didn't want to be awake yet. It's my day off. Mr. Bojangles wasn't even awake yet. I really wanted to sleep! Let sleeping people sleep darn it!
So I got up....and
We went to look at swimming pools.
I've been thinking about getting one for a couple of years........keep putting it off thinking I'm going to move. I'm not moving............least not today...............

I mowed the backyard this afternoon,  planted some flowers........mulched...........................and I planted tomatoes, chili peppers, and sweet peppers................and last summer mom bought me some wild flowers seeds.......didn't have the time last summer to plant them...........I did today............anxious to see them grow..........

monday

I thought about listening to music on my way home from work tonight........not something I've been able to do since mom passed away.....hurts too bad................tonight I wanted to though.........I figured I could handle some good old rock n roll, but only rock n roll...........I accidentally turned to a live broadcast from Carnegie Hall...................a Japanese woman who lives in London was playing the piano........I can usually only tolerate classical music in small doses.............but this was so stunningly beautiful...I mean it was one of the prettiest things I've ever heard........then......she came back for a encore.......that too was beautiful............

My sister is having a picnic/grill out this Sunday.I was scheduled for a 12 hour shift, and bummed that I wouldn't be able to go.......then today.........I found a replacement for my shift! Yay!

One more 12 hour shift and then I have 3 days off.  DOUBLE YAY!

friday

We had a pot luck at work today. It was part of our cancer awareness day......and part of our National Nursing Home week celebration.
I wore sky blue scrubs, the color for colon cancer and a navy blue ribbon  for prostate cancer. I attached the ribbon to my top with moms dragon fly pin. The pin has sky blue and dark blue stones in it. My elderly female patients loved it..........I liked wearing it........cause it was moms....and it's pretty.

On my way home from work I stopped at a TJ Max that just opened.
I bought a cheerful table cloth for my dining room table, and I bought 2 bars of soap. One is fresh sea salt the other is rose. They smell delicious! I can't wait to try them!

It's Friday and I have the weekend off!

tuesday

So I met the realtor today to put in a contract on a house........chickened out..........then called her to come to my house to do the contract and to list my house..........then called dad............because I wanted his opinion...........he gave me about 10 reasons why I should not buy the house...............and then I thought screw it.......I'm not buying or selling...................yet.

I worked in my back yard all morning. It looks good!

Me, daughter, and boyfriend grilled out and had supper outside. It was nice,and the burgers were great!

monday

Mother's Day was a nice day.........a bitter sweet day..........................met sisters and dad at the cemetery.............lots of flowers, and a little squirrel was placed on moms grave......and a love note from dad.............we sat and talked for a couple of hours.........dad brought each of us a gift...........framed pictures of mom on her and dads 50th year reunion, and a picture of mom sitting on the lot that they had their house built...........nice pictures, and thoughtful of dad to frame and make copies for us..............
Dad, my grown children, my boyfriend and I grilled steaks last night.........had a nice dinner at the dining room table...........dad had lots of new jokes..............good conversation.........relaxed and pleasant..........I love being withmyfamily...
Both my sons each made a list of 10 things they love about me. Some of what they wrote cracked me up , some of what they wrote pulled at my heart strings and brought tears to my eyes in a good way.............I have good kids........I'm very fortunate.

friday

So I found a pretty cool house .. It's considered rural so there won't be city tax to pay, and it feels rural.......it feels right..........and it's still close enough to the city so that I won't be spending all my time commuting to work.......................it could do for now.

Mr. Bojangles woke me at 4 this morning. His food bowl was empty. I told him he had to quit waking me or I was sending him to a foster home. He responded by rubbing my leg with the side of his face. He's so damn cute.

Hawaiian day is Wed. at work. Why Hawaiian day I haven't a clue. But we've been wearing the same colored ugly mandatory scrubs everyday for 5 years.  I'm looking forward to wearing something different even if it's a flowered Hawaiian shirt!

sunday

The Ky Derby was fun to watch. The horse I picked to win did not win...........but still it was fun!
After the derby  we grilled some burgers and chicken.......................................before the derby we looked at several properties...........................it was a nice day. I wore moms lipstick........it looked better on her...............and I wore her necklace, a gold pine cone on a chain........made me feel closer to her.
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I worked on my painting today. I just need to add a birds nest........probably do it tonight.........and then it will be finished!

thursday

I'm off work today but it's tucked between two 16 hour shifts. It's nice, but it's not enough time.

I have to clean a fan today. It has dust balls growing on it. Some of them blow off when I turn the fan on.........it's gross.........................and I have a pretty table in my garage that dad found in the garbage, cleaned up and gave to me. I want to put it out on the deck today. It's pretty I think........and it reminds me of mom............cause she rolled her eyes when I asked her if she saw the table dad got out of the garbage......lol..................I miss her.

I never did finish the painting I've been working on........so there's that to do.............and I bought a new book NYPD RED......James Patterson................looking forward to reading it. His last book I read was great put it pissed me off because he  didn't end it.........you had to decide for yourself how it all worked out................it was a cop out on his part I think.

Mr. Bojangles let me sleep in today. He's looking out the window. My curtains have cat fur on them. I guess I could clean them.

sunday

we spent the last week at the ocean.
i love the ocean. i love the beach.

the day we left for the ocean i was tearful/emotional.....
it would be my first birthday without my mom.
part of me worried that mom would look
for me on my birthday........but wouldn't know where to find me
if i was in another state........so that worried me and made my heart ache.....

on our drive home boyfriend fell asleep while driving. i slapped his arm to wake him.............well that pissed him off...................he denied sleeping even though he was snoring and his eyes were closed.....not to mention we were headed across lanes............he refused to let me take over the driving...................................luckily we were close to an airport. i had him drop me and daughter off and i rented a car....................i couldn't continue on in the car with him...........he fell asleep a couple years ago while driving us home from that vacation...we ended up going off the road......i just couldn't risk daughter or me getting hurt/killed in that car.............i wanted him to be safe too.................but he wouldn't let me take over.................................so he's not speaking to me.........i don't get it................seriously i don't..........................

i cooked lunch for my family today.,,,,including dad. we ate outside on the deck................daughters boyfriend was here................its the first time dad has met him......................so in true form dad told about a hundred jokes..................funny jokes.........................daughters boyfriend was cracking up..........it was cute.

i bought a really pretty corsage this morning for mom...................took it to place on her grave......................they finally engraved her date of death on her headstone...............it was a little shocking for me to see it...............it was sad really...........

friday evening

Little Man had a busy day in the yard. He's wore out!

I got the Easter baskets ready!

My new owls. The biggest one is really pretty in person.

I finished my housework and laundry & I'm almost finished packing.
 I baked a chocolate cake for my student nurse. It's not very pretty but I bet it tastes delicious........and I made her a little card.

I baked chicken rubbed with olive oil and ground garlic for supper, and I made some homemade apple sauce. Looks and smells great.

I'm relieved to have all the work around here finished. I'll enjoy a quiet night tonight at home........

friday

I was off work yesterday and the day before yesterday. I read, I slept, I cleaned a little.
I went to dads house last evening. Sat on the deck with him and sisters and chit chatted for a couple hours. I went in moms bedroom while at dads. I guess I was hoping to feel closer to her. Mostly I just felt her absence.
While on the computer last night a picture of her popped up. It was a picture of her in her bed. She was wearing big red sunglasses and giving me our sign for "word up." She was laughing. It's a cute picture. It made me smile and ache all at the same time.

I'm in a time crunch to get everything done that I have to do before our trip to the ocean. I've been procrastinating.
I have to finish cleaning, finish the laundry, and pack.
I also have to bake a cake for my student nurse. Her last day with me is tomorrow. It's been a good experience. She text me Wed. to let me know she passed her last exam. I knew she would! So she has 1 more day with me and then she can schedule her state boards..........or whatever it is they call them these days.

friday

I had fun shopping yesterday with daughter.
I got a great deal on her bathing suit pants. They didn't have a price tag on them.
The cashier asked me if I knew how much they were. I told her I thought 12 bucks.... cause that's what I thought they were worth. I told her I'd go check the other pants for a tag. The same pants had a price tag of 30 dollars. I told her I couldnt find another pair,cause no way was I paying 30 bucks.. She called the manager. He said it's their policy to take the customers word for it if the item doesnt have a price tag. So I got a 30 dollar bathing suit pant for 12 bucks. I was happy.

I got some new cute sun glasses, shoes, and a summer purse. The purse is really cute.......&...........oldest sons birthday is in April. I got him a pair of really nice swimming trunks, an over sized beach towel, and some sandals. I also got him a cool insulated cup to take to the pool. :O)

Iwas driving past sisters house yesterday. I could see her 2 dogs in the backyard. Her basset hound was on his side, still as could be. I thought he was dead. So I pulled in her driveway to get a better look. He jumped up. lol.  He wasn't dead! I was relieved.

Little man (Mr. Bojangles) is sitting on my lap. He's so damn precious.

thursday

I have the next 4 days off. Yay!
I'm going shopping with daughter today........looking forward to the time with her.
Her and her best friend are going to the ocean with me and boyfriend. We need to buy some stuff for the trip!

Work has been OK I guess. Two nurses were fired last week. I hate seeing anyone lose their job........and I can't help but wonder if I'll be next. I always try my best to a good job........but it gets really busy......it's easy to miss something...........

I woke to the sound of thunder this morning........the house was vibrating.........loved it!

tuesday

I went to the cemetery yesterday. Dad and sister were there. We ended up sitting at moms grave and chit chatting for a couple of hours.
Dad has lost 25 pounds since mom died, and he's not sleeping well. To boot he has a stomach virus. I went to the store yesterday with sister and bought him some soup, jello, and Gatorade..........We've encouraged him to go to the hospice grief support group. I doubt he'll ever go. I worry about him.
Sister and her husband have 100 acres of beautiful lush land out in the county......a home away from home.......... last Thanksgiving mom said how nice it would be to have Thanksgiving dinner there, outside under a tree. We decided that this year we would have Thanksgiving dinner there in moms honor and that we would dedicate one of the ponds, a beautiful lively pond stocked with gold fish to mom. Many people in our family called mom "Me Me"......so we will name the pond "Me Me's Pond."
I didn't get to the yard yesterday. I hoping that today I will get some yard work done!