Thursday, September 07, 2006

Old Loves

An old boyfriend emailed me today. I was surprised, kinda. I mean I always knew we'd talk again. I just didn't expect it would be today.
He's a guy I met from on the computer. We IM'ed for several months, then talked on the phone, and finally traveled back and forth to see each other. It was a long distance thing...him being from Pa, and me from Ky.
He was very involved in directing community theatre, and was a wonderfully talented man. (I love community theatre)
I went to PA for his opening night of Hamlet. The show was exceptional, to say the least. I picked the music (Enya) for the show and the newspaper complimented my choice :O)
I thought I loved him. He loved me, even proposed marriage. But I wasn't ready for all of that stuff having just gone through a divorce, among other things.
Eventually the relationship ended. There was lots of anger and hurt feelings,,,,blah blah blah.......and then he contacted me, maybe a year or so later, and we agreed to try being friends. That was short lived when I told him I was seeing someone.He left in a huff.
So it's been maybe 17 months since I've heard from him, until today.
I was happy to hear from him, and to talk to him.
We decided we'd give the friendship thing another try.I don't think it will work, based on our history....but we will see.

6 comments:

Glenn said...

Perfect. Use the dude when you can. Make him your little boy toy and if it gets too heavy, dump him. In my experience, there is no such thing as "just friends" between two people who have been involved in the past. Many times the friendship can work but one of the two always has the thought in the back of their head that they could make it go further again.

Jane said...

Listen, Smarty Pants....I don't use people. You think I use people?.....and I think I agree with you on the friendship thing...we'll see.

Glenn said...

I never did say you use people and didn't mean to suggest you had. I do remember this statement.

"Life is short. I work, I pay bills, I cook and I clean. I take care of my children...I give and I give and I give....and while I do get some sense of satisfaction from all of those things, it isn't enough for me. I need excitement. I need to feel desired. I need to feel alive."

Weather the relationship was fictitious or not I believe that this is a true statement. I've never met one guy who would object to being used on occasion. Not one.

Jane said...

thanks Jerry!

Jane said...

Glenn,
I don't want a boy toy. :O)

Jane said...

But if I did want a boy toy, I wouldn't choose him.