I went shopping last evening and bought a treadmill. ....... tired of walking in the cold. I think it keeps track of the miles I walk which will be cool cause right now I don't keep track. I just walk until I don't want to walk anymore.
My boyfriend is going to Colorado next week to visit his family. He'll be gone for 5 days. ("even lovers need a holiday, far away, from each other.") I'm looking forward to it. Is that a bad thing?
My ex-husband is going to China next month for a couple of months. I won't say more about
that other than it's one of those times that I have to bite my tongue. ( i get tired of biting my tongue)
We won 14 dollars in Wed.'s Powerball. We used the money for Saturdays lotto. I havent checked yet to see if we won.
I just finished reading the five people you meet in heaven......the guy who wrote it also wrote tuesdays with morrie.........i enjoyed both.
I don't want to die. It's not so much that death/dying scares me. It's more a matter of not wanting to leave my children.
I had that airplane dream again the other night. I dreamed I was at an old childhood friends house looking out the window, taking in all the changes to the surroundings. Some guy outside set off an alarm, I looked at my friends father and I asked him why the guy was sounding the alarm. My friends father started to run. I looked out the window to see 2 airplanes coming towards the house, both of them were on fire. I ran and wondered where in the house my daughter might be. The planes hit and I could feel myself dying. I said a quick prayer asking God to let us live. Then I woke up.....and I was angry because I'm sick of this dream. Sick of the fear I feel when I have the dream. I'm going to try to remember the next time I'm stuck in the dream that it's just a dream..............and maybe if I don't run and if I tell the airplane to fuck off then it will go away for good. We'll see.
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