Off Day

Today is my off day. I woke to the sound of rain. It was pouring down, so I stayed in bed and just listened.

WePing has a sore leg or hip. She growls/meows when I try to have a look. I'll give it a couple days and then decide if she needs the vet.

I have to take daughter to the orthodontist today to pick up her retainer. I also need to ask him about her bottom 2 front teeth. They have a slight overlap. Hopefully the retainer will correct it.

Daughter got roses for Sweetest Day from her boyfriend. She was happy. The guys I dated in high school were too poor to afford flowers.............and my husband thought they were a waste of money. He started buying them for me towards the end of our marriage......which was sweet in a sad sort of way...............I went to his house on Sweetest Day to drop off a photo album I made for my daughter as a Sweetest Day gift. It included all the pictures we'd taken of the homecoming day parade, football game and homecoming dance. Exhusband said "Happy Sweetest Day." I knew that his wasn't, as his girlfriend is a drunk, and is still in jail for whatever reason.................and when he asked me if my boyfriend got me diamonds/flowers/chocolates, I wondered if he would take pleasure in knowing that boyfriend hadn't acknowledged Sweetest Day. I wondered if it would please him to know that I prepare myself not to be hurt/not to have any expectations when it comes to days like valentines/sweetest day.............and I try to tell myself that they really dont mean a thing and I shouldn't fall for the hype.BUt I do anyway. I don't know how to not, try as I may...................I want good things for my ex. He's my kids dad and if I wish him bad, it's like wishing bad things for my kids....................................I hope he feels the same.