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My work friend that was diag. in the end of Jan. with liver cancer passed away Saturday morning.
I picture him in heaven wearing bright yellow slacks and shirt,...& flashy colorful shoes......picking flowers. He loved picking flowers from the garden we used to have at work and putting them in vases on the dining room tables for our residents............and he always wore clothing that wasn't very conventional....especially for a man......................so anyway, he passed away......and it leaves me feeling a little down. He was a good guy.

I was exposed to hiv positive blood yesterday at work. The exposure happened thanks to a careless, sloppy, non procedure following nurse who works where I work. (I want to knock her freaking head off)
I spent yesterday evening in the ER/protocol being tested for hiv, being drug tested, filling out bunches of paper work, asking a million questions, getting a million answers, crying, and being prescribed anti viral drugs ..............drugs that will "make you feel pretty sick....make you feel like you have the flu, you're going to feel pretty rough." ...So yeah, I take those for a month..................and in 6 months I will again be tested for hiv.
I started the anti virals lastnight. Today my nose is running, and my throat hurts. I don't know if it's the medicine, or if I'm getting a cold............... this whole situation is unfucking believable. I'm scared.