monday

It's raining in Ky. It hasn't rained here since I water proofed/stained the deck. I went outside to check it out. The water was in beads......... so the water proofing is working. :O)



I'm off work for the next 3 days. A benefit for the 12 hour shifts..........which usually end up turning into 14 hour shifts.............but anyway, 3 days off.........so I'm happy.



Boyfriend is in Denver and has been for several days. He's visiting his family. I know he was missing his grown sons. He should visit them more often.

We-Ping was aggressive with me this morning. She bit my leg. I actually bled. The only reason for her aggression that I can think of is that she misses boyfriend. He spoils her........feeds her like a pig.......and they nap together. Little fuckers.



Oldest son promised me he'd put up my new side screen door today.

If he doesn't get to it, I'm going to start charging him money to live here..............



Boyfriend had mentioned several times me going to the grave to visit my dead best friend. I like going to graveyards to see the old graves........I don't like going to see graves of people I love..............but boyfriend kept bringing it up.....................It hit me that boyfriend thought my depression may have had something to do with Chuck dying...........it doesn't...........but I'm sure it's what he was thinking.........and maybe he thought that visiting Chucks grave would some how help me.................... I'm sure he's feeling a little helpless & grasping at straws............so we went to the graveyard last week............I was a little saddened to find that my friend doesn't have a headstone..................and I'm about 99% sure his family has no intentions of getting him one. He deserves one. He was a part of this earth..............

He'd get me one. I'll get him one.



I'm tired and am going to take a nap now. Goodnight.