tuesday

 I took daughter to school this morning. On the way down our hill a 4 point buck was on his way up the hill. I thought back to when my father-n-law passed away.
 About a week or so after my father-n-law died, I was in my mother-n-laws kitchen helping her with the dishes.
She smiled and told me to look out the window to her back yard. I looked out the window and was surprised to see 2 deer. She was positive it was a sign from my father-n-law and her mother letting her know that they were ok.
Eight years later my mother-n-law died. I was at my kitchen sink a day or two after the funeral looking out over my backyard. Three deer were standing at my gate. I'd lived here around nine years at the time of her death and had never seen a deer in my yard or neighborhood before or after that day. I felt it was my father/mother-n-law and, my mother-n-laws mother, letting me know they were ok.
So today while driving down my street and seeing that buck walk up the street I thought of Joel. ......... I felt like he was letting me know he would be ok.
I felt comforted.

I washed my living room windows and window seals today. I also washed my living room curtains. I cleaned the living room storm door..................and the hallway mirror.........and with boyfriends help I managed to rake all of my front lawn, bag the leaves, and mow 3/4 of the front lawn before the lawnmower died. I also raked the deck, but have yet to bag those leaves.
I feel good for having accomplished a little bit of something.