monday

We just got back from the mall.
Daughter found a prom dress. It's orange satin. It's pretty, but not princess E.....................I love it on her, she loves it......we found the perfect earrings to wear with it........all is well in the world!

After taking daughter to school this morning I came back home and spent the day in bed with boyfriend. We watched TV, chatted, and napped. It was relaxing, quiet, and nice.............................................................................and then I picked daughter up from school........it was one of those days where we talked, laughed, and connected.............. I felt grateful.

Yesterday evening while at work I met a man who was visiting. He was a middle aged man probably several years older than me...........................I don't even remember how it came to be that we ended up talking........but we did.......mostly he talked though, and I listened........he talked about the last couple years of his life that ended up with him losing a parent because of the irresponsible actions of a young "punk."
Mostly he talked about how grateful he was that circumstances brought him home to Cincinnati from Virginia giving him the opportunity to spend time with his parent while she was still alive and well that he wouldn't have otherwise had................he briefly touched on the rage he felt towards the guy who caused his moms death.
Now none of the experiences that I've had over the past many months can compare to what he has gone through..........but the rage I've felt, and to a lesser degree still feel IS the same as his.
Listening to him talk helped me.
He is ok now.......and has moved beyond the rage..........I told him about the rage I feel......he didn't judge me.......he even validated my feelings ..............he was a good person...I could just feel it.......&
He unknowingly helped me to make the decision to try and let go of the anger I feel towards Dude, Cheerleading Sponsor, Big Ears, and Heroine dealer. Life is short. I don't want to spend it feeling angry.
So I'm working on it.